204.Chapter 204: Love and Hate
For a long time, I felt a sense of guilt that had been in the dust.
I don't dare to tell anyone about this guilt.
For this reason, in the middle of the night, I would always be alone in a quiet daze, and even cry, because I couldn't forgive myself.
As for this guilt, it came from my mother.
Although I am used to parting with life and death, her departure has always haunted me.
In the final analysis, it was I who hurt her, and if it weren't for my soft-heartedness, maybe she would be alive and well now.
Admittedly, my contact with her was short, but in any case, blood is thicker than water, and she is my mother after all.
On Xu Wanying's notes, I saw a story called "White Bones Are Ruthless".
This story is about the love and hate between mother and son.
After I saw it, the shock in my heart could not be calmed for a long time, and even the corners of my eyes moistened.
This story, because of its age, a lot of information is no longer verifiable.
It is only known that it probably took place in Hong Kong in the early 50s of the last century, and the location was in a remote mountain village in Kowloon.
The protagonist of the story, named Chen Gangsheng, is an older young man, filial piety, who makes a living by making great efforts, and on weekdays, he lives with his mother in her fifties.
Although the life is a tight place, the mother and son can be regarded as worry-free.
However, the sky is unpredictable. Chen's mother is old after all, and with the problems she fell when she was young, her body collapsed all of a sudden.
It didn't take long for him to die.
Before Chen's mother couldn't breathe, Chen Gangsheng knelt in front of her bed and cried bitterly, and even prayed to God not to let his mother go.
But it was all in vain, and Chen's mother eventually left. It's just that on the eve of breathing, Chen's mother struggled to sit up from the bed, and held Chen Gangsheng's hand, saying that she would definitely come back to accompany him. The deep love between mother and son is undoubtedly evident at this moment.
After saying this, Chen's mother swallowed her breath and didn't close her eyes until she died.
In order to miss his mother, Chen Gangsheng buried her under a tree in his yard, but he didn't expect that this act turned out to be the source of the nightmare.
One night a few days later, it rained heavily in Hong Kong.
Chen Gangsheng was so distraught by the sound of crackling rain that he couldn't sleep at all.
He simply got dressed and sat at the table in front of the window and smoked.
Inadvertently, with the help of lightning in the sky, Chen Gangsheng unexpectedly found that something seemed wrong with his mother's grave.
Sensing this, Chen Gangsheng did not hesitate, and immediately ran out in the heavy rain.
When he came to the courtyard, he was completely stunned. The mother's grave was dug up, and although the coffin was still there, the bones inside were gone.
At that time, Chen Gangsheng was angry and anxious, and he ran around the yard like crazy, trying to find his mother's bones.
But the whole yard was searched, and there was no trace of my mother's bones at all.
Gradually, the rain became heavier and heavier, and the wind became stronger and stronger, although Chen Gangsheng's heart was anxious, but in the face of this violent storm, he had to temporarily return to the house to take shelter.
After returning to the house, Chen Gangsheng suddenly found that there was a lot of sludge in his house, which extended all the way to his mother's room.
Seeing this, Chen Gangsheng was suspicious in his heart and groped over.
The door was hidden and not locked, Chen Gangsheng stood at the door, and he could vaguely hear a "squeak" and "squeak" sound from time to time in his mother's room.
The sound sounded familiar, as if it were the sound of a bamboo chair swaying.
When he heard this voice, Chen Gangsheng only felt that his scalp was numb.
He shuddered and pulled the door open, and saw a scene that he will never forget.
Her mother was sitting on a bamboo chair, her neck tilted to the left, her eyes wide. The direction in which his eyes were looking was on the position where Chen Gangsheng was standing.
"Mom......" Chen Gangsheng's face suddenly turned extremely pale, he knelt straight on the ground, and walked over crying.
Among them, there is fear, and there is also an inseparable feeling for my mother.
"Mom, don't worry, I can take care of myself, you don't want to come back" Chen Gangsheng knelt beside the bamboo chair, raised his head, and sobbed at his mother.
He understood that his mother must not be able to reassure him, so he crawled out of the grave.
But after all, my mother is dead, and the so-called people and ghosts have different paths, and I can never continue to live with her.
Mother Chen didn't speak, she was still in her previous posture, and even her expression didn't change at all, as if she hadn't heard Chen Gangsheng's words.
"Mom, I'll send you back" Chen Gangsheng saw that his mother ignored him, and his heart became more and more frightened.
He mustered his courage and carried his mother's bones, and then buried them again.
In order to prevent his mother from climbing out again, Chen Gangsheng also deliberately used coffin nails to nail all the corners tightly.
Things should have come to an end at this point, but the world is impermanent, and the things that scared Chen Gangsheng were still to come.
By the next night, Chen's mother had crawled out of the grave again.
As before, she quietly returned to her room and continued to sit on the bamboo chair.
When Chen Gangsheng found out about this, his spirit was about to collapse.
This time, just to be on the safe side, Chen Gangsheng not only increased the number of coffin nails, but even piled up stones on the grave.
Chen's mother crawled out of the grave, and naturally did not hide it from the neighbors around her.
Some mature people asked Chen Gangsheng to ask a master to do the practice, but Chen's mother was obviously concerned about Chen Gangsheng, so she was like this.
If she is not allowed to understand the truth that people and ghosts have different paths, Chen Gangsheng will suffer from it sooner or later.
This proposal is tantamount to a lifesaver for Chen Gangsheng.
Almost on the same day, he invited a Mr. Yin and Yang from a neighboring village, this Mr. Yin and Yang is quite famous, in order to invite him, Chen Gangsheng did not spend a lot of money.
However, the ritual was done, and the talisman was posted. At night, Chen's mother crawled out of the grave like a ghost.
In desperation, Chen Gangsheng had no choice but to go to the county police station for help.
The police scoffed at his words, but Chen Gangsheng reported the case after all, and it was reasonable for the police to investigate, even if it was for show.
The police asked Chen Gangsheng to go back first, and claimed that they would go to his house to investigate at night.
Hearing this, Chen Gangsheng's heart finally fell.
On the way back, he happened to meet an elderly man in the village.
The old man told him to be careful of Chen's mother, and told the ruthless allusion of white bones.
More subtly, once a person dies, he has no emotion,
The reason why Chen's mother pestered Chen Gangsheng may be because she wanted to harm him. More likely, he wanted to take Chen Gangsheng away.