I didn't expect to publish the first single chapter of this book because of this question, but there are many readers who question this, so I will explain my thoughts as a response and explanation. Of course, it's not about getting approval, it's about understanding.

Let's post four book friend comments in the book review first.

1, for the sake of a beautiful woman, the protagonist doesn't even want his life? Just because she's the main character?

2, the protagonist is too virgin, either with a black belly, or refreshed, for the sake of a person who has only known him for a day, it's too fake.

3. Is the protagonist mentally retarded? Let's go...... (It's all scolding)

4, the author SB, this book eats jujube pills.

I will make a statement here, I will keep the first two comments, and I will delete the last two directly. I'm sorry first, but I have to. It's okay to discuss the book, but I'm afraid that it will affect new readers, and I'm not comfortable with it.

Next, let's get to the point, should the protagonist save Qiu Di? Or do you sacrifice yourself to save others desperately?

I started with my story, because my creative ideas are based on my experiences. The first three chapters of the book are almost all my memories.

When I ran away from home in 2002, I was only in junior high school and had 60 yuan with me. I set off from Xi'an, evaded tickets all the way to Beijing, and after sleeping on the street for three days, I didn't find "Pipiru Street" and had no choice but to return.

The bad guys and good guys I met during this period will not be repeated one by one. In short, when I evaded the ticket and arrived in Lanzhou, I met a Balangzi who was the same age as me, that is, a Uyghur boy. He and I were both dirty, perhaps because we were in the same condition, and we immediately got together and chatted.

It's a pity - the language barrier!

I only speak Chinese, and he speaks Uyghur, and he can barely understand Chinese, not speak it at all. I'm amazed at how much we communicated at that time, because the two of us had a great time talking about yours and mine!

Two people who never knew each other chose to evade tickets together very speculatively, I went to Dunhuang, and he went to Xinjiang. It's all the way anyway.

We managed to escape into a bus that said Urumqi-Beijing, and we didn't realize we were going in the opposite direction.

Evading the ticket, the two of us have experienced a hundred battles, each with its own routine. At that time, he was also a teenager and wanted to show his intelligence.

I chose to follow behind an old man carrying a woven bag, helped him support him from behind, and deliberately said when I entered the carriage: "Slow down, I can't keep up." "The flight attendant thought I was a junior of the old man, and the old man had a big bag of tickets in his mouth, so I successfully got on the bus and successfully evaded the ticket.

Balangzi, his actions are more direct. Not long after I got on the bus, I heard the flight attendant shout, and it turned out that he rushed straight up.

As soon as we met, he pulled me and ran!

The two of them took advantage of the small physique of a child to pass through several carriages all the way, and then got straight under the chairs. I still remember the two of us under the dirty chairs where you looked at me and I looked at you, and then smiled.

Now that I think about it, in fact, our failure to evade the fare this time was necessary. Not long after the train left, we were found by the conductor and we were invited to the dining car.

To be honest, I didn't panic at the time, because I had encountered this scene many times, and if I was lucky, the conductor would let me have a good meal and then hand me over to the local police station at a big station. I was like that when I was found in Zhengzhou, but I usually escaped halfway.

Bad luck won't be good, it's just a matter of getting off the train at the next stop.

So I didn't panic much at the time, but Balangzi was trembling with fear. To be honest, I didn't understand why he was scared, I didn't realize that this discovery was fundamentally different from the previous one.

Because of the nation of Balangzi!

It's too sensitive, and I don't want to talk about it, it's too painful. The two of us were only thirteen or fourteen years old at the time, and we didn't understand anything. All I can say is that for the first time in my life, I was treated so humiliatingly because I was with a barangzi! I didn't think it was anything at the time, but it was the biggest shadow of my life!

In short, we were kicked down at Longxi Station. Under the crying of the two of us, I finally saved the dozens of dollars I had left. Balangzi's digital BB machine was also saved. As for the rest, what lighters, keys, Balangzi's bank card, the only photo of me and my mother, etc., were all left in the trash can in the car.

Longxi is a small county town, and it is almost impossible to escape tickets from here, because there are too few people. I went to the station to buy two cakes, found two bottles of mineral water, went to the toilet to get tap water, and ate with Balangzi.

After all, it's a child, and bad moods come and go quickly, and I don't want to dig into it at all. And at that time, I didn't realize that the root cause of such a humiliating experience was my companion, so the two of them were still giggling and harmonious. And after going through the same tribulation, I feel a lot more cordial.

But what I didn't realize doesn't mean that Balangzi didn't realize it. I thought about it later, it was when Balangzi was in Longxi that he suddenly had more physical contact with me, and he had always rejected this before.

Maybe he thinks that he is a problem for me, in short, he will take the initiative to help me fetch water and help me find a good sleeping position at Longxi Station, maybe he thinks that this can compensate me.

When it was getting dark, I did something stupid!

Because there are few people in this small county, it is impossible to evade the ticket, so I decided to buy a ticket to get on the bus. But of course, instead of buying a full ticket, you can buy the nearest station, but you don't get off at the station, so try to sit as far away as possible.

I bought Gangu, and it seemed to be eleven pieces for two people each, and I spent twenty-two, and there were still a dozen pieces left on my body.

I just took the ticket, grabbed a dozen yuan, and walked out of the ticket hall.

There was a public toilet outside the station, and I wanted to go to the toilet, so I told Balangzi to wait for me in the waiting hall. It was only then that I remembered to put the money and tickets back in my pocket.

However, a group of children surrounded me at the gate of Longxi Station, the leader was about the same age as me, and the others were seven or eight years old.

They rob!

Not only to grab money, but also to grab tickets!

The leader also had a hammer in his hand, the kind that nails it.

First of all, the threat, where was I willing at that time? I traveled from Xi'an to Beijing, and then from Beijing to Lanzhou, almost half of North China, and I didn't spend much of the sixty yuan on my body, which is my life-saving money! How could I give up so easily?

Of course, I tried desperately to escape, but a bunch of bunnies hugged their legs, raised their arms, punched and kicked, and even opened their mouths to bite. I couldn't struggle at all, and the leader slammed a hammer on my head, and I felt half of my face hot, it was blood.

I collapsed and watched as the gang of grandsons snatched all my money and tickets and scattered.

For a moment, I felt like I was going to die because there was so much blood!

It was already dark, and I was lying alone at the door of the public toilet. I don't know how long I lay down, I felt like it was hours, but I realized afterwards that it was only ten minutes.

I shouted for help, regardless of the men and women passing by just looking at me and leaving, not caring about me. Later, the car security guard also came to look at the cigarette, talked and laughed with others, and then left.

I was really scared!

Because I was already getting dizzy, my left arm, my left leg, and my neck were starting to cramp, and I felt like I was really going to die.

Just when I was about to go numb, Balangzi came to me.

He rushed straight over, picked up my head without saying a word, looked at my injury, he said loudly in Uyghur, I don't know what it means, but I think it's asking what's going on. But I was speechless by then.

Balangzi saw that it was serious and ran to the waiting hall with me on his back. But he was stopped by security guards at the door.

I won't let in!

I remember that Balangzi pushed the security guard in a hurry and slapped him.

Later, Balangzi found a large Sprite bottle and a stack of that very thick toilet paper (I guess he stole the door of the paid public toilet in the station) to help me deal with my wounds, and I was already confused by then.

All I remember is that Balangzi kept shouting in my ear, Adasi, Adasi......

Later I learned that Adassi means friend.

I slept and woke up in the middle of the night.

With my head resting on Balangzi's lap and my head wrapped in toilet paper and plastic bags, we sat right in front of the station.

He was very happy, screaming and laughing, but I didn't understand at all, and I wasn't in the mood to laugh. I told him that the money and tickets had been robbed and that we were going nowhere to go.

But he surprised me, and he mysteriously pulled out a bag of bread and a bag of milk from his bosom, and took out a crumpled eighty or ninety dollars.

He asked me to eat bread and drink milk, and then gave me the money, saying to run the chair, I knew it was the meaning of the ticket. He asked me to take the money and buy another ticket.

I was surprised and asked him where he came from, and he made a gesture of pinching his hands - stealing it.

I was very happy at the time, didn't you say earlier that you had this skill? Let's just eat a big meal and make a hard seat, and still suffer from this?

Where was the concept of right and wrong at that time? So I thought of it and told Balangzi directly. Then he shook his head and lifted his clothes to show me the back.

To be honest, I was stunned! There was a bloody patch on his back, black and very worrisome.

He gestured and said that he had just stolen money and had people poke it with a big tree.

What big tree? It's just a stick.

He lifted his trouser legs and sleeves again, and sure enough, they were blue and purple.

How he stole money, how he was discovered, how he was beaten, I still don't know. But I was in tears when I ate bread and drank milk.

At that station, Balangzi took care of me for two whole days!

The next night he was beaten in front of me! The bunnies who robbed me came again, and I showed it to Balangzi, and when they found out, they came to warn me and laugh at me. When a little cub slapped me in the face, Balangzi made a move.

Naturally, he was beaten by a group of people.

I remember rushing to help, but somehow I ended up being crushed under me by Balangzi, and he was the one who was beaten.

Fortunately, they didn't move the hammer this time, and the security guard scolded them twice and scolded them away.

Afterwards, Balangzi was like no one else, and he was still giggling with me, and I didn't have a heart, but I just treated him as my best friend.

On the third day, we bought a ticket to Gangu. When we got on the train, the conductor pulled us to a police officer and said, "Watch over them, and when you get to Gangu, drive them down." ”

I still have a hammer pit on my head, but I just hate that I didn't have the strength to take revenge on those bunnies. And I will never forget this sentence of the conductor in my life. Because it was at that moment that I realized that the malice of this world is so terrible and cruel.

It was at that moment that I realized how rare it was for Balangzi to protect me, take care of me, and save me before. When the two of us meet, he can walk away. But he didn't, and he desperately protected me. He stole money to feed me with milk and bread, and smiled happily when he showed me his wounds......

If you have the patience to see the book friends here, now you understand why I think the protagonist is not poisonous at all to save Qiu Di, right?

Because the protagonist is Balangzi, and I am Akiti. I know there's a lot of malice in the world, but I've also met a lot of well-meaning people. The police at the police station at the Zhengzhou railway station paid for me to buy meat to eat and drink, but the female ticket inspector at the exit of Beijing caught me and said to me, "Son, I will hurt you by letting you go." You wait a while, and Auntie will invite you to eat something delicious after she is busy. "But I ran anyway.

And Balangzi.

I still don't know what his name is, he calls me Adasi, and I call him Balangzi.

We were driven down again in Gangu, and that's when we realized that we were going in the wrong direction. We ran out of money, we decided to walk back,

Along the way, we walked along the railroad tracks. He found two instant noodle bowls and made two hats, and we wore instant noodle hats, and we stood on the side of the road and saluted when a train passed by.

We talked along the way, he taught me to sing Uyghur songs, I taught him to sing sailors, and we both learned. Along the way, we sang these two songs, drilled tunnels, and crossed bridges. When I was thirsty, I would find water from the river, and when I was hungry, I would go to a nearby village to steal food, and that was one of the most memorable trips I had.

Eventually, we picked up a truck and headed back to Lanzhou. It was there that we separated.

He was taken away by a Uighur, who were very united, and they all helped each other in another country.

But the Uighurs will definitely not take me, because I am Han. Balangzi quarreled with him and was slapped in the face. In the end, Balangzi said for a long time, and the Nawei people took out fifty yuan.

Balangzi gave me his digital BB machine and fifty yuan, hugged me, and told me what I didn't understand. As a result, the act of hugging me may have angered the Uighur, and he pulled Balangzi left and right with two slaps, and then directly forcibly dragged him away.

I was completely confused, and I followed, but was immediately warned by the Uighurs. And just like that, we parted and never saw each other again.

More than ten years have passed, and that experience has been so precious to me. I can't forget Balangzi, and I can't forget the scene when I was lying in despair at the door of the public toilet and he appeared shouting Adasi. I can't forget the scene when he threw himself on top of me, holding my head and beating me up. I will never forget the scene where we sang sailors, wore instant noodle bucket hats, and saluted passing trains.

In order to meet a stranger for a day, should I save it?

I don't know how to answer this question because I won't fight to save me, but someone has done that to me. I wish I could do the same, but I haven't had anything like it since, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do when the moment comes.

That's the whole idea I had in writing this episode, not because Qiu Tsutsui was the heroine to save her, nor because the protagonist Madonna. It can be seen from the later protagonist killing the villain and destroying the Vietnamese gang that the protagonist is not a virgin at all.

I just think that the act of sacrificing oneself to save others should not be "poisonous", but should be cool, so I wrote so. Because in reality, many of us don't have the courage to do this, but shouldn't we admire this spirit?

Could it be that in the novel, this kind of spirit has become highly poisonous?

Of course, everyone has their own perspective and rules, and I can't change anyone's mind. I just hope that when the protagonist sacrifices himself to save others, he will not subconsciously feel that it is highly poisonous. Akitsumi and the protagonist share hardships along the way, just like me and Balangzi. Me and Balangzi, Akiti and the protagonist, we are not strangers, we have feelings between us, and this relationship is very precious.

In the end, this plot is actually explained in Chapter 56 through Ma Jun's recollections. I've posted the original text as a summary of this single chapter.

He thought that Huang Lao and he once talked about Wu Peng, and once said with emotion: "Society has changed, and the trust between people has become more and more cautious and stingy. Nowadays, people always subconsciously think about protecting themselves first and then thinking about other things when they encounter things. As the old saying goes, the chivalry of the Tao is said to be unrepentant, and people regard it as a fart ......"

"Peng Tsai is a very rare chivalrous person in this world, and he has his way. Although you are a good little policeman, you are still far behind Peng Zai. How? Are you not convinced? Let me ask you, if you don't know how to water, and you meet someone who is about to drown, and there is no one else in front of you, you can't go down and save him? Haha, are you hesitating? If you change to Peng Zai, you must jump into the water to save people without thinking about anything! ”

"You think he's stupid? Hehe, do you think he doesn't know if he can't get it and take his life for nothing? It's because he knows that he still chooses to jump, which is called chivalry! Alas, it's a pity that people are just like you now, and it's a fool to think that people like Peng Tsai. Think about it, nine times out of ten, it is a fool to do it......"

"But fools are fools, when those who laugh at Peng Tsai are really facing life and death, how much they hope that a fool like Peng Tsai will appear at that moment and save them recklessly. Let's see when the time comes, who is the fool? ”

"I understand Peng Zai, a chivalrous person is not necessarily a good person, but as long as he thinks he should do it, he will definitely do it! Little policeman, I know you are dissatisfied with Peng Tsai's murder, but you talk about the law and he seeks chivalry, these are two different things......"

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