It was the voice of a woman named Xie Shuang.

At a very young age, she discovered that she was different from others.

The first time I was about two or three years old. It was just in time for the town market that day, and both parents went out. She was left at home to look after the house with her two older brothers.

Her two older brothers, one is nine and the other is seven, which is the age of fun. As soon as the parents left, the two of them wanted to lock the door and go out to play.

But there is a little sister at home who is not very stable to take care of, and the two of them can't go out with a drag.

The two playmates shouted several times outside the window in the morning, and the two little boys were thrilled.

After noon, the two of them finally couldn't hold back the desire to play, and after discussing it, they decided to lock the door and go out with their sister.

But Xie Shuang was really too young at that time, she stumbled behind her brothers while crying and running, fell several times, but could only watch her brothers go farther and farther.

In the end, the eldest brother thought of a way, found a rope to tie to her waist, and dragged her to the river.

By the time she reached the river, she had lost count of the bumps and bruises on her body.

The two boys may be careless, or they simply don't care. They put their sister on the tree by the river, and went down to the river with their friends to play in the water, completely ignoring the little sister's humming and crying and crying out in pain.

It seems that spring has just begun, and the ice in the river has not yet melted, but the water is already in a hurry.

Xie Shuang was chained to the river, and after crying for a while, the wound gradually became less painful, so she sat and played by the river alone for a while.

She didn't know exactly how much time had passed, but when she looked up again, there was no one around.

Although the boy's laughter was heard intermittently not far upstream. But for a young girl, it is a big deal to have no one in sight.

After she shouted "brother" a few times but didn't hear a response, she burst into tears again.

The crying was not without effect, and after she had begun to burp after crying, she still saw her two older brothers as she wished.

They were accompanied by boys from several other families in the village.

The eldest brother coaxed her perfunctorily. After seeing that she stopped crying, she turned around and prepared to continue to play again.

In the heart of the little girl who is not yet sensible, in fact, it is enough to have someone by her side.

When she saw her brother's back again, the fear of abandonment once again came to her heart.

So she burst into tears again.

The eldest brother had to turn around again and continue to coax her impatiently.

A few boys who had already taken a few steps turned around and stopped where they were, waiting for the eldest brother to finish coaxing the children and continue to play with them.

A boy in blue shouted something at the eldest brother, and then the remaining boys began to coax, and some shouted at the eldest brother. Some of them were smiling at the second brother in the group of children, and pushed him to this side.

Many years later, Xie Shuang, who has been an adult, still can't remember what those people shouted at the beginning. She only remembered that after the boys who even had vague facial features in their memories made a fuss for a while, the eldest brother suddenly slapped her angrily and roared: "Don't howl, cry and mourn!" She sat under the tree and cried, turned to her friends and went to play in the river.

Maybe her endless crying is too noisy, or maybe she feels that she has lost face in front of her friends with a drag oil bottle. After she cried for a while and didn't stop. The second brother and the blue-clothed boy who took the lead in laughing walked to her side again, pointed at her and scolded her.

Xie Shuang saw her brother. Humming again, he held back his tears, raised his hands, and whispered: "I want to hug." ”

The second brother sneered in disgust and took two steps back.

The boy in blue looked at her with a smile for a while, and suddenly leaned into the second brother's ear and whispered something.

The second brother kept shaking his head at first......

After a while, the boy in blue seemed to be angry, stretched out his hand and pointed at her and shouted loudly: "She's going to annoy us to death if she continues to work so hard, you can't do it!" Don't play with us if you don't do it! ”

When the second brother heard this, he glanced at the little girl who was sitting under the tree and holding her arms up waiting for her brother to come and hug her. Finally took a deep breath and walked towards her.

She thought she would get a soothing hug, and smiled when her second brother approached.

As a result, what I got was a hard push from the second brother.

She was already sitting on the bank of the river, and when she was pushed like this, she rolled on the spot a few times and fell into the river.

The cold, biting water of the river was like a steel needle, constantly piercing her skin. The heavy cotton garment was quickly soaked by the river, adding weight to her weight and pulling her towards the bottom of the river.

However, there was also a half-length rope hanging from her waist, so that only half of her body fell into the river, and the other half of her body was still exposed on the surface of the river, struggling desperately.

She didn't remember much about what happened next, and it seemed that she only stayed in the water for a short time, and the second brother and the boy in blue pulled her to the shore with a rope.

After that, it seems that she got a warning like "I'll throw you into the river and don't catch it up when I'm crying", and she stayed by the river honestly for the rest of the year.

At that time, the cold and heavy wet clothes that seemed to seep into the cracks of the bones constituted the earliest memories of Xie Shuang's childhood.

Until it was almost dark, the adults were going home, and a group of boys had had enough of playing, and they scattered one by one. The two brothers remembered her under the tree, and took advantage of the fact that their parents had not yet returned home, and carried her back and changed into a set of clean clothes.

Even so, her parents found her falling into the river.

After all, wet clothes don't dry so easily. And the child who fell into the river naturally developed a high fever that night and couldn't afford to get sick.

Although the two mischievous boys insisted that she had accidentally fallen into the river herself, the incident of "taking her sister who was not yet three years old to play in the river" was enough for them to take a beating.

Xie Shuang was ill for many days...... It's hard to say how many days it is, it may be a week, or it may be half a month. Maybe only for two or three days. But in the memory of children, the time when the high fever was so delirious that I had to take injections and medicines every day seemed to be as long as a lifetime.

All she can remember is that during the time she was sick, she could hear her parents sigh and ask the doctor every day, "Is the child better today?" "The sound of ghosts crying and howling wolves when I was beaten with my brothers.

There are also eggs in sugar water every day.

Although it is sick. But it still looks like a pretty good childhood memory.

Of course, it's just for the look.

In the days when she couldn't afford to have a high fever, her dreams were always filled with the shrill laughter of the blue-clothed boy who encouraged her second brother to push him.

Even for a long time after she had recovered from her illness, the boy's laughter often crept into her dreams. Sometimes he instigated his brother to throw her into the river, sometimes he pushed her into the river with his own hands, and sometimes he led a group of people to stand on the shore and look at her in the river, laughing loudly.

In reality, the boy still came to the house from time to time to play with his two older brothers. And every time I see Xie Shuang, I will laugh at her for being a little crying bag.

The young Xie Shuang would subconsciously avoid him every time he saw him, but the boy continued to laugh at Xie Shuang even more. After a long time, she even changed from verbal ridicule and abuse to bullying her.

Why do such people live in this world?

Why didn't he die?

In the minds of three-year-olds, the concept of "death" is not well understood.

All she knew was that "dead" meant never seeing this person again.

When the adults around me mentioned this word, they all sighed and sighed with emotion. It may seem like a bad thing.

Every time Xie Shuang tried to express his doubts about "death" to the adults in his poor language, he finally got a secretive expression. and a roar of "what do children think about all day long".

But isn't it normal to hate someone and hope you never see him again?

She often had such doubts, but she did not delay her every time she saw the boy standing in front of her, with the most innocent malice.

I don't know if her curse really worked, or if it was something else. In the end, the boy really drowned under her daily wish.

He died in the middle of summer, the season of noisy cicadas, and the flood season when floods are common.

That night, Xie Shuang surprisingly didn't have nightmares and slept well until dawn.

It was probably morning when she woke up. There was not a single one in the family.

Even the whole village is quiet, and you can't hear the sound of children frantically on the side of the road, and the cries of selling things back and forth.

Xie Shuang was at home for almost the evening, and she cried several times hungry before her parents came home with a tired face.

The two brothers followed behind them, their eyes red and swollen and almost narrowed.

At dinner that day, the atmosphere at home was very depressing, and no one took the initiative to speak. But Xie Shuang didn't know why she was surprisingly excited, climbing up and down until midnight, and finally was caught and beaten by her annoying father before she was honest.

But she still couldn't sleep. In her little brain, she seemed to get some terrible information, which made her feel a joy that came from nowhere.

In the dark, it seemed that a voice had been telling her that she would never see that annoying person again.

It wasn't until the second half of the night that the little girl, who had been tossing for half a night, finally felt a little tired and fell asleep on the pillow.

In her dreams, she saw the boy who often laughed at her and bullied her.

But this time, the dream seems to be a little different from the previous one.

In the previous dream, Xie Shuang always fell into the river, crying and begging for help, and the boy stood on the shore, looking at her soaking wet and helpless and laughing loudly.

And this time, the positions of the two people were reversed.

The boy was in the heart of the river, constantly fluttering, looking at Xie Shuang and shouting loudly: "Help." ”

And she, sitting next to the tree where she had fallen into the water, smiled and watched the boy swing his limbs in vain, and finally slowly sank into the water, leaving a small string of bubbles in the turbulent water, and completely disappeared under the water.

Xie Shuang in the dream looked at the boy sinking in the river in a daze, and couldn't help but feel not scared, but a little revenge.

She just sat by the river, looking at the rushing water, smirking until she woke up.

When I woke up again, it was just dawning, and the sun was only showing a little corner in the east, but the rest of the family didn't know where to go, and the whole house was as empty as yesterday's daytime.

Xie Shuang lay on the bed and shouted a few times, but didn't hear a response, so she continued to fall asleep.

After all, she went to bed late last night, and it was a little strange to wake up so early.

After falling asleep again, she dreamed of the boy again.

In this dream, she was still sitting on the riverbank, and the boy was floating on the river.

His body was already swollen, and he looked like he was the size of a small adult. His skin was pale, his lips were blue, and there was a swarm of flies flying around.

If it weren't for the blue clothes on her body that Xie Shuang couldn't forget until she died, she might not have recognized it, the fat man in the river turned out to be her boy who always bullied.

When Xie Shuang woke up again, she saw her depressed parents and a crying eldest brother...... There was also a second brother lying beside him with a painful expression.

The second brother was like a patient with epilepsy, lying on the bed, his expression convulsed and twitching, and from time to time he let out a few vague dreams, always with a frightened expression on his face.

She asked her family what was going on. No one told her all the time, and they would yell at her when she was annoyed by the question.

It wasn't until half a month later that she heard about the situation.

The boy had fallen into the river a few days earlier, where she had been pushed down.

It happened to be raining heavily that day, and the village chief knocked on the door to warn everyone to prevent flooding and let them go out less.

Originally, on the day he fell into the water, the eldest brother and the second brother wanted to play with him, but after a meal of "stick stew" by the adults at home, the two little boys changed their attention and were reluctant to go out.

The little boy had to go out and play on his own.

It rained heavily that night, and by the next morning, the river had overflowed the riverbed.

No one found out that a child was lost, even his parents, who loved mahjong more than their son, went to a friend's house all night to play mahjong, and only found that the child was missing when they came home the next morning.

When the regular flood, which was not too big, the people of the village joined the army to find the missing boy.

They searched for several days, and one day the boy came up from the bottom of the river on his own.

His face was pale, his lips were bruised, and his swollen body was even the size of an adult, and his clothes were tightened.

It is said that the body emits a disgusting stench, and a large number of flies have gathered on the surface of the river.

He is said to be wearing a blue outfit.

(To be continued.) )