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The whole city shrank beneath her into rows of toy-like models, and she was riding the lightest of winds through the creamy clouds, and then she soared above the sea of clouds, and when she looked up, she could see the bright light of the warm and warm sun enveloping her whole body......

She spread her wings at the sun, wanting to fly higher, farther away, better to leave the boring world below behind, and even hoping that her wings would allow her to fly all the way to heaven, for there was not much left in this world for her anyway.

"Click, click......" She suddenly heard a crisp sound in her ears.

Strange, what is this sound? Her body froze in mid-air.

"Click, click, click......" But the soft, continuous sound continued to ring in her ears.

She remembered that it seemed to be the sound of some kind of insect flapping its wings, and she remembered that she had caught butterflies at her grandmother's house in the country, before her grandmother lay down in the grave. She crept through the woods, carefully holding the glass jar of candy, and just as she held her breath and turned the glass jar upside down against the white butterfly that was perched on top of the flower, and pressed it down, the butterfly waved its wings prophetically and fled by her ear, and the sound of the butterfly's wings vibrating in her ears was probably this sound.

Am I a butterfly? She happily and happily speculated that after flying for so long, she finally realized that she didn't seem to have human siblings at all, and that she should have many more limbs than human limbs.

She turned her head to see what kind of wings were waving behind her, and just as her head turned a hundred and eighty degrees to see the pair of wings—

Like every normal and ordinary dream, her dream woke up abruptly at this critical time.

"Tick Tick Tick ......Tick" A crisp voice sounded in her ears, she followed the sound to see that it was just the second hand of the bedside alarm clock was turning, and when she turned her head, the alarm clock had just gone to seven o'clock.

"Jingle bell bell bell - click click - !" The pink alarm clock that has accompanied her from elementary school to high school makes such an ugly and stale sound, it is almost like some old woman is grinding her teeth, and there is no crisp sound that a normal alarm clock should have, and she doesn't know why this alarm clock can make such a sound, probably just because the spring in the alarm clock is rusty or something.

But she used this alarm clock for a long time, and she had already developed feelings for it when she was in love with the old, so she was reluctant to change it, and such a strange voice was actually more refreshing.

She raised her hand to press the alarm clock with sleepy eyes, and then turned her head to continue her dreamless sleep, she was still staying up late at half past twelve last night to recite the book, and now she didn't sleep enough at all, so she hugged the pillow and turned over on the bed, and the sun shone from the window on her snow-white shoulders full of scars.

She heard footsteps outside the door, and she quickly pulled up the overturned quilt again, covering the half-healed hideous wound on her shoulder, which seemed to have been grabbed by someone's hand. She turned her back to her door, facing the intoxicating morning sun, and she squinted and smacked her lips, as if that beautiful dream would resurface in this sunshine.

I'm in a dream...... What kind of butterfly has it become? She thought to herself.

She is actually very fond of butterflies, and she has collected a lot of low-cost butterfly specimens in the past. There were many shadows of butterflies waving their crystal wings in her mind, including the dark blue Goddess of Light butterfly with wings that changed like the sky, the heavenly phoenix butterfly with a pure and flawless royal blue body, the startail feather butterfly with countless star-like spots that fluttered its wings and shook off the fluorescence, and the moonlight butterfly that danced in the sea of moon trees and flowers......

She thought to herself, if one day, I became a butterfly, how nice it would be, even if my life was shortened countless times compared to now, but I could at least have the opportunity to enjoy that short and dreamy flight, that experience should be both free and comfortable, in order to enjoy that moment of freedom, even if she had to give up everything now.

But her mother had already pushed open the door and strode towards her, her mother shook her tightly wrapped in the quilt, as if trying to wake her up who was actually pretending to be asleep, and in the quilt she pulled up the collar of her long-sleeved shirt without a trace, she wanted to make sure that the dense wounds on her body would not be seen by her mother at all.

Because she didn't want her to worry, or even more so because she was afraid that her mother didn't worry about herself at all.

"Chen Shi, if you don't get up, you will be late again, the school's homeroom teacher, Mr. Wang, has emphasized to me many times, your grades are the tail of the crane in the class, and then continue to arrive late and leave early......" Mom began to babble to her again These ears can hear the cliché of cocoons, but she can also hear that Mom's voice is actually full of boredom and indifference, after all, "the mother who makes breakfast every morning comes to wake up her daughter" has happened countless times in this room.

"Mom, I know......" Chen Shi replied softly, she knew that she could no longer continue to immerse herself in that unreasonable dream, a dream is a dream after all, and a dream will always wake up one day.

So she got up, and she looked in the mirror at her pale, tired face, thin, short, with slender eyebrows and dark circles, in a word, lifeless. Her face was not ugly, and it could even be said to be delicate from a certain angle, but her godless eyes always made it difficult for her to gain the favor of outsiders, and even she herself sometimes looked at the girl in the mirror, and she would be inexplicably tired and disgusted, let alone others.

She tied up her messy dry hair, which didn't have much hair quality to speak of, and put on the rustic school uniform that Linyang No. 1 Middle School required to wear during school, the school uniform consisted of a red and white old-fashioned jacket and sports trousers, and the original intention of the design was to nip all the hormones of all young people in the bud through this set of strict school uniforms.

Chen Shi hastily put this school uniform on her body, and her dress will always make her even more excited about the upcoming school life.

And on the ponytail behind her head, she easily tied an azure butterfly hairpin, this plastic hairpin was the only bright color on her body.

She walked out of the bedroom flooded with intoxicating sunlight and closed the door, she turned her head and hesitated for a moment, and finally habitually locked the door behind her, and she carried her key in her pocket, because she didn't want her mother to go into her room while she was away to "hunt for treasure".

"Cheer up, little poem!" Five minutes later, at the short breakfast time, the mother with faint wrinkles on the side of her face cheered her up with a smile: "You are already in your third year of high school, and you will meet the college entrance examination in five months, you can't go on like this......"

"Mom, I'm very energetic now......" Chen Shi hastily raised her head and drank the white porridge in one gulp, and barely chewed a few mouthfuls of the remaining half of the steamed bun from last night with sauerkraut, she pretended not to see the plate of fried eggs that showed a pale gold in the sun, she stood up and was about to grab her schoolbag: "I'm full, go first!" Good bye. ”

"Xiao Shi, you must finish eating eggs, otherwise you will lack nutrition," her mother grabbed Chen Shi's wrist and said undoubtedly, her mother's hands were covered with calluses, and she was not as delicate and white as Chen Shi had in her impression, but her eyes were still full of that calm and dignified power: "This is the rule that your father set at the beginning, and it can't be changed." ”

"But, Mom, if Daddy had run away with another stinking bitch, why should we follow those stinking rules he set?" Chen Shi just tilted his head and said this. She never thinks about whether she should say a sentence or not, and sometimes, she blurts out something just by thinking about it.

Only after saying that, she will regret it.

"How can you swear? You're a girl, a few years ago you were so well-behaved, cute, obedient and quiet, why did you suddenly become this sister......" Mom began to babble again, tears began to roll in her mother's eyes again, and her voice choked.

Chen Shi felt that her mother had suddenly become very old, obviously she was just over forty this year, but why did her sideburns have gray hair? Why do she always have tears in the corners of her eyes? Why are her hands always calloused? And why is the ignorant Chen Shidu about to become an adult, and he still says these words to hurt her?

"Mom, I know it's wrong," Chen Shi could only soften, her mother's tears, even if she saw it a thousand more times, would make her feel soft-hearted.

"Xiaoshi, listen to your mother, okay?" Mother hugged Chen Shi gently, her hand patted Chen Shi's shoulder, and her mother said with difficulty and difficulty word by word, and the right hand she held Chen Shi's wrist still did not let go, as if she was afraid that as soon as she let go Chen Shi would disappear like her father: "You are the only one left in the world to accompany your mother, do you want to make your mother sad?" ”

"Mom, I'm sorry," Chen Shi could only sit down reluctantly, swallowing the nausea and swallowing the piece of fried egg, fried eggs are very difficult for her to eat, and it is not that her mother has a problem with her fried egg skills, but Chen Shi has always been afraid of things like eggs.

The reason why Chen Shi is afraid to eat eggs is also simple and absurd, thinking that there is a chick in each egg that can never hatch, Chen Shi will feel a little terrifying, chewing the egg yolk in her mouth as if she is chewing the tender body of those cute tender yellow chicks, and sometimes she will feel that those chicks are chirping on the tip of her tongue.

Chen Shi felt that those chicks were so pitiful, they were swallowed by higher people without even a chance to be born, let alone let them open their wings and embrace the sky.

Although the chickens have been bred by humans for a long time and have degraded to the point where they can't fly, Chen Shi still envies that they can at least have a pair of wings that can flutter a few times better than nothing, but she doesn't even have room to flutter and struggle a few times in the face of this boring real world. The world around her was like two walls closing, trying to squash her alive in the middle.

"Don't let me down again, Xiao Shi," before going out, her mother forcibly stuffed a bag of pure milk with a straw into Chen Shi's hand, and her mother looked at Chen Shi's eyes seriously, still saying seriously and stiffly in her tone that Chen Shi couldn't refuse at all.

Chen Shifu also ran down the six-story residential building that was about to be demolished by the Municipal Construction Office with half the red on her back, and a pale sunny day doll pendant fluttered up and down along the inertia behind the schoolbag.

The old concrete staircase is full of gaps, surrounded by rusty iron railings, and circles and circles, Chen Shi sometimes feels like she is escaping from a labyrinth or prison that has no end but an infinite loop from beginning to end.

Chen Shi trotted out of the residential building, the morning sun outside the building did not have the slightest warmth, but it was still a little dazzling, Chen Shi pretended to inadvertently turn her head and glance at the window on the sixth floor, she was not surprised to see her mother still standing in the window looking at her, the face was pale and indifferent, almost like a dead person, which made Chen Shi's back inexplicably chill.

Chen Shi knew that her mother was always watching her from every angle of her life with an almost paranoid attitude, although her mother thought that this kind of "surveillance" was just kind love, but Chen Shi herself was very disgusted with this kind of surveillance, and no normal young person would like such excessive "love".

So Chen Shi kicked in the trouser pocket of her school uniform with one hand and grabbed her door key, and with the other hand she held a bag of pure milk from Mengniu that she had never even drunk, she buried her head and quickened her pace to escape from the empty area watched by her mother's anxious gaze, and she turned into a narrow alley that was dimly lit and full of garbage and debris.

The alley is a dark nook and cranny squeezed out of two poorly planned unit buildings, and is mostly used as a garbage dump by rat-like residents of the slum area, and no one wants to pass by it when they go out.

But Chen Shi passes through here almost every morning to get to school, the first reason is that it is a little-known shortcut to school, and the second reason is that here she needs to deal with something every morning.

Chen Shi stopped in front of a garbage room full of foul-smelling garbage, moss and dirt on the walls on both sides, and a dim liquid of unknown composition flowing on the ground.

Chen Shi twisted her brows, pulled out the straw of pure milk and threw it like a garbage heap, she pinched the bag of pure milk, poured out the whole bag of milk in front of the wild cat with straight eyes, and poured it all in front of the wild cat.

She was found to be "lactose intolerant" during the daily physical examination organized by the school, in short, she felt nauseous and vomiting as soon as she drank all dairy products, and she was almost completely unable to absorb the calcium and nutrients in milk. But her mother didn't care so much, and she would only stuff her with a bag of milk and a fried egg every morning, and there was only one reason.

"The rules left by the man".

After pouring the milk, the cat also meowed off the spire of the garbage room and happily licked the milk flowing all over the ground, it will not have lactose intolerance, so Chen Shi will hand it over to it every time, after a long time, this cat is not afraid of her at all, but treats her as a friend or owner.

Chen Shi was about to turn around and walk away, when the corner of her eye suddenly caught a glimpse of the sticky milk on the ground, there seemed to be a small creature struggling, and the wild cat's tongue would soon lick in that direction, curling the little thing into her tongue and swallowing it into her stomach.

Looking at the shape, it seemed to be a butterfly splashed with her milk, the droplets of milk were too heavy for the butterfly's light wings, its wings were stuck together by the congealed milk, and it would probably never have had the chance to spread its wings again without the help of outsiders.

Chen Shi didn't care if it was dirty or not, let alone why there was a butterfly here, she first raised her leg and kicked away the wild cat that suddenly made her annoyed in the bottom of her heart, the wild cat rolled on the ground, and exploded at Chen Shi's whole body, it screamed a few times like a demonstration, and then turned around and fled, probably it would never understand how the old friend who gave it milk every day suddenly gave it such a kick.

Chen Shi squatted down and stretched out her hands that she had carefully cleaned not long ago to the little insect that was struggling in milk, she carefully pulled the wings of the little creature that was tormenting in pain in the milk and garbage from the milk, gently dried its body with the napkin she carried, and then she held the creature in the palm of her hand and looked at it carefully......

She finally saw what it was.

Chen Shi's hairs stood on end, she couldn't help but let out an exclamation, she took a few steps back, her body had been leaning against the cold, hard and damp wall of the alley, and there were a few retching sounds in her throat, and the tiny creature that was still in her palm just now and was about to flip her body had already dropped off her hand and fell to the ground in the next moment, it flapped its wings on its back with satisfaction, making a crisp sound of "pop pop".

It has a flattened, dark black body, a small head, a pair of wriggling compound eyes on its head, and a pair of silky tentacles waving up and down the back of its head.

It was just a big cockroach with a dark black body, and Chen Shi, who was obsessed with ghosts, could even see it as a butterfly.

The cockroaches quickly burrowed into the cracks of the garbage room, fleeting, and Chen Shi, whose stomach was turned upside down, had already leaned against the wall and vomited all the breakfast he had hastily swallowed today in the disgusting smell of the garbage heap.

On that day, Chen Shi, who had been delayed for so much time, was of course late again, and she was severely criticized by Teacher Wang in front of the whole class. She felt that none of the classmates below would cast sympathetic glances at her, most of them looked indifferent and disdainful, and some of them lowered their voices and laughed at themselves one after another, and they all watched their jokes coldly.

Also on that day, Chen Shi ran into the women's toilet between classes, she washed her hands a total of twenty-three times, wiped hand sanitizer and disinfectant countless times, but she felt that her hands could not be cleaned, she always felt that the rotten smell in the palm of her left hand, the disgusting insect lingered, and she even felt that the hateful smell was infecting every part of her body little by little, little by little.

It was as if her body was rotting together. (To be continued.) )