Under the encouragement of Jiang Xu and Hong Xiang, the atmosphere of the small party was quite warm, except for the fact that Hong Xiang would bring disaster to everyone when he opened his mouth and Jiang Xu always had to show his love to Hong Wushuang by the way when he sang, which was a little unbearable, and other people, including Jiang Xu, sang well. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info everyone sang and drank, time flew by, and after a while, two hours had passed. I raised my wrist and looked at my watch, thinking about how to speak so that I could get out more decently, Hong Wushuang suddenly handed me the microphone and said with a smile: "General, I see that you are either not serious all day long, or you have a poker face, it turns out that you are still such an interesting person." Everyone sang a lot, so you should sing it solo. It's clear that he sings well, so why hide? ”

I casually said, "Huh...... The status of this cabinet is honorable, time is precious, and the appearance fee is very expensive. Besides, I can't sing. ”

Hongxiang was surrounded by Hong Wushuang, Jing Wei and Jiang Xu, and at this time, he drank too much wine and was rampant, so he smashed my signboard on the spot to verify his famous sentence "Brother is used to betray at the most critical moment", and said loudly: "Sister Wushuang, don't listen to his nonsense." This guy messed with us when he was in Leilondo, what wouldn't happen, but these old people are a little older, and they probably can't sing new songs. You ask him to sing a '**** and yd version of 'taste', and he will sing first-class! ”

A few of them burst out laughing, but I couldn't hold back my face. It's no wonder I'm hypocritical - after all, Jiang Xu has been following me for a short time, and I am basically serious in front of him; Hong Wushuang is a young girl again, and it is somewhat more unbearable to ruin her image in front of her; As for Jing Wei, the relationship is complicated, and she doesn't want to pull out those old bad things. I couldn't bear it anymore, so I grabbed the remote control and threw it over: "Old songs before 70 years, you find me one!" Lao Tzu is not powerful tonight, as if he can't suppress you, a music leftist! ”

A wicked smile appeared on Hongxiang's face, which shows that drunkenness is drunk, and the radical kung fu of sowing discord has not been relaxed. I know that I have to go head-on, which is somewhat incommensurate with my current age! sighed in his heart, and immediately stretched out his hand to the triumphant Hongxiang: "You are not allowed to speak, others will choose!" If you want an old Chinese song, I will sing it before 70 years! ”

This requirement is actually not difficult, because when I was in Yangquan and Lei Longdo, I went to entertainment venues more frequently, and I really didn't know a few songs before 70, although for Hong Wushuang, who was still a child at that time, he couldn't understand what kind of mood and scene it was at that time, but it didn't matter. The important thing is that since Hongxiang is excluded, Jing Wei and Hong Wushuang are in the heavenly realm, how familiar can they be with the old Chinese songs of 70 years ago? Jiang Xu was only twenty years old at the time, I'm afraid ......

I was desperately slandering Jiang Xu's happy experience in my heart, hoping that he would just be a pure little lamb before he was twenty years old, or for the sake of the need to continue to pat my ass to get promoted, I would choose the first ghost animal harmlessly, sing it and leave! But I forgot that Jiang Xu's famous nickname in the universe is "national (international)level slut" (this nickname is still being upgraded, and it is unknown whether he may become an interstellar prodigal son or a cosmic-level slut in some time), where would he let go of this opportunity to fall into the well without taboos. He made a very serious appearance and chose for a while, straightened his face (at this time I knew it was a little bad) and said: "General, there happened to be a song that confirmed my mood when I fell in love when I was young, so I have been reminiscing about it to this day, can you sing that one for us?" "The One", the song of '63, the general should know. ”

All four of them had eight eyes aimed at me. What can I do, Raippi said no? It's not the first day to come out and mix around, why bother making such a ruffian! I shook my head, picked up the microphone, and looked at the lyrics that kept flashing on the screen, and my eyes couldn't help but moisten. After singing, I picked up my clothes without waiting for their symbolic applause and said, "It's too late to go back, you guys play slowly." Hongxiang didn't let me walk cleanly, raised his hand and said, "Wait a moment." Then he said to Jing Wei: "I see that the general has drunk a little too much, do you want to give him a gift?" He winked at her.

I could see it clearly, but I really didn't know what consensus they could get from this look, who had not conspired beforehand. Jing Wei's lips moved, as if she wanted to say "Why don't you want me to send it", but she still didn't say it, got up and went out with me.

We were still walking along the road to the military and political hall, and Jing Wei suddenly asked, "Why did you suddenly feel bad in the end?" ”

"You see that?"

Jing Wei shrugged and said, "Everyone can see it." I didn't want to send you, Hong Xiang made that look at me, which probably means that tonight is too high, you are not very happy, let me comfort you. ”

I snorted and said, "It's not that vulnerable. If you are so vulnerable, how can you move towards a future full of hardships and live up to the sacrifices of the deceased? ”

"Don't tell me all those air-to-air high-pitches. I'm not the captain of your guard anymore, so I'm just coming out to see you off, but it's just out of ......"

I didn't want to hear anything like great friendship from her, so I interrupted her and asked, "Do you really want to know?" ”

"Say it."

"It's nothing, just remembering some dead people. Especially when I think of my first deceased wife, Ferrari, who has been dead for many years, when I was like glue with her, the song "The One" was often sung to her. ”

Jing Wei opened her mouth and couldn't say anything. I smiled bitterly and said, "It's actually too hypocritical, isn't it?" I killed her with my own hands, and she wasn't my only one until she died. ”

"As long as you sing to her, it doesn't matter if it's real or not." Jing Wei said: "Women, as long as you hear something good, even if you know in your heart that it is fake, you will be happy." You don't have to worry about it. ”

I squinted at her and asked, "Where did you come to this conclusion, and what it looks like in women's magazines?" ”

"Sort of, but it's not that I don't have a sense of it." Jing Wei looked up at the sky, as if to say to herself, "It's ridiculous, when you sang that song at the right time, I always wished it was for me!" It's so silly to think about it now, I know that I am neither the first nor the only one of you, and now I am not even one of you, but I still have to be so amorous and self-deceiving! But it doesn't matter, at least I've been happy for three or four minutes. It's better to have those three or four minutes of happiness than nothing. ”

I couldn't help but stop and whispered, "Why are you saying this?" ”

"I'm not reconciled, really unwilling." Jing Wei turned around and tried her best to suppress the excitement in her voice: "I am really unwilling to hear you praise Wushuang and say, 'It's good to be young'!" I never thought about it before I met you, but by the time I thought about it, I was no longer young anyway! The calendar here does not correspond to the time of the main star, although it can only be roughly calculated, but it can be calculated that the day I turned thirty was spent in the depths of the prison of Selmo, and I was completely exhausted and dying! ”

She sobbed as she spoke, and I couldn't find anything to say. In a way, even regardless of her strange identity and background, she is one of the women who have been delayed by me. I put my arms around her from behind and waited until her sobs faded before I said, "It's not convenient to talk here, let's go up and talk." ”

Jing Wei didn't answer. I took her by the hand and went to the back of the Military Hall building, but without much difficulty I jumped onto the second-floor platform and went back to her office without anyone noticing. Her mood had stabilized at this time, but she kept her head hanging and did not speak. I didn't know what to say, so I paced around. After a long time, Jing Wei suddenly gritted her teeth and said a sentence: "Just like the song we started singing together, I understand your difficulties, but I still have to say that it doesn't matter if you are completely hated." I really keep thinking about you! ”

and her past came to mind in an instant. I suddenly felt that it didn't matter whether the woman in front of me was May or not, even if she was a stranger who had nothing to do with May, she and I already had deeper and more complicated experiences and feelings of affection than May. For so many years, haven't I been thinking about her, and can the feelings that really exist be escaped and ignored? What the hell am I running away from! I have always believed in the idea that we have to lose something in order to grasp the happiness we already have. But would I like to see the loss of those things hurt my loved ones?

Bursts of passion are always sudden and not deliberate. I remember someone saying that these things are better to be natural, and it is always not beautiful to do them deliberately. For years I either lived alone in an empty house or went through a routine, and I don't know how long it took me not to try this sudden passion. In a trance, I grabbed her wrist, and we quickly felt each other's scorching body temperature, which quickly burned our minds as if there was a violent chemical reaction. My hand trembled and stroked up her arm into her long skirt, and Jingwei's body quickly became weak, and her feet probably stepped on the hem of her skirt again, and she stumbled unsteadily on her feet and fell onto the wide desk, moaning intoxicatingly. Even though it was only a slight sound, it had completely shattered my mind, and I didn't know where to fly to the clouds for a while.

The first time was not very long. I sat on the chair with the limp Jingwei in my arms, caressed her body and gossiped for a while, unconsciously breathing heavily again, and hugged her tightly with three or two strokes. At this time, I suddenly found that I seemed to be young, and I seemed to have accumulated passion and strength in my body for many years! It was probably only tonight that I broke through the blockade of reason and found an outlet. I don't know how long it took to make a fuss, but finally we both collapsed on the couch and fell asleep exhausted.

The moment I fell asleep, I suddenly realized the seriousness of the problem, but I was too sleepy, and it must be said that I had made up my mind to face the new situation with all my heart, and there was no need to bother with any remedies now. It's better to sleep next to the person you've missed for many years! But nine times out of ten, things don't go as planned, especially for a person like me, who is the most supreme person, not only is it impossible to do everything well, but I have to be ready to bear a blow that is much worse than others. It didn't take long for the phone to ring—I didn't have a phone with me, it was Jingwei's cell phone ringing.

I opened my eyes and found that Jing Wei had also opened her eyes, and no one wanted to answer the call. I gave her a look of encouragement to ignore the unwitting phone call and put my hand on her smooth shoulder and stroked it. She was eating and laughing, and suddenly the mobile phone rang again, which was really a bad scene! After ringing four times, Shizuki finally struggled out of my hug entanglement, reached out and took the phone from the coffee table, and when she looked at it, her face changed, and she whispered to me, "Naito." ”

I also had a premonition that things were not going well and said, "Take it." ”

Jing Wei calmed down, answered the phone and said, "Hey......"

Han Han's voice was full of anger, and it resounded throughout the office from the small mobile phone receiver: "The general is not there for you!" ”

Jing Wei hesitated for a moment, then turned to me. Han Han didn't wait for her to speak, and yelled viciously: "Don't lie to me, I've searched everywhere, except for him, only you are missing, don't force me to bring someone to smash the door of your office!" ”

"Let me come." I reached out and took the phone from Jing Wei's hand: "Hanhan, what's so angry, did Overmars rob our vault?" Even if it's that kind of thing, you can talk about it calmly, I'm discussing it with Commander Jingwei......"

"The account between you and me will be settled later!" Han Han was even more furious when he heard my voice: "I don't even know what I owe you in my previous life, so I have to keep cleaning up the mess for you!" Come here, there's a fire in the backyard, and it's burning to the ground! ”

My heart sank quickly and I asked, "Where?" ”

"Eternal Night Harbor Army Hospital, someone is waiting for you!" Han Han hung up the phone after speaking.

What happened in the early hours of October 21 will not be recorded in any official documents. In fact, because it is purely my family matter, there is no need to be recorded. But since I have a guilty conscience, I will always remember it in my heart. When I rushed to the door of the hospital, I scolded Han Han, and the Basque Bing next to me was more or less a sober person who stayed out of the matter, and finally explained the general course of the matter after counting me down two sentences: Chen Qi had been waiting for me to go back at home last night, and he had cooked supper. Because I was too sleepy to wait, I fell down the stairs. Although she had always been prone to falling when she went downstairs, this fall was very inopportune - she didn't even realize that she was pregnant. After the doctor's examination, he said regretfully: This time the pregnancy is very good, and it is a miracle in terms of Chen Qi's body. The implication is that it will be difficult to say in the future. "According to Madame's medical records, you shouldn't have any more children at all," the doctor said.

Chen Qi refused to let the doctor inject any hypnotic analgesics, and kept lying on the hospital bed waiting for me to arrive. After listening to Hanhan, Basque Bing and the doctor's briefing, my heart felt like I had been doused with ice water for a while, but I had nothing to say, so I had to struggle into the ward to see her. Her face was as white as paper, and she smiled slightly when she saw me coming. I put my ear to her lips to hear her say, "You're finally here, Naito thought I'm going to die, I'm worried about it." ”

"I ......" I really can't find anything to say.

"You're in a hurry, you're here unprepared, and there's the smell of other women on you."

I opened my mouth and raised my hands to the sky, shaking like a soul that had been beaten like a dead city. However, I was really ashamed in my heart, and the words in my mouth were extra lacking in confidence: "I ...... No. ”

"I wish you could be two hours for two hours, as you always do, and come back on time." Chen Qi laughed miserably, I don't know if it caused any pain, and frowned again: "Is it dawn now, are you having a good time?" ”

All I can say is, "Don't worry, everything will be fine." ”

"The body may be fine, but if the heart dies, the person will also die." Chen Qi said lightly: "Will you let me die?" ”

"How could it be ......?"

"I don't care about the past, from now on, I can only be the only one, can you do it?" Chen Qi was already exhausted when he said this, and closed his eyes tiredly: "I'm afraid you won't be able to answer me immediately." Don't lie to me this time, answer sincerely. You've thought about it and come back to me. ”

I know that this time it is true, and if I can't do it, lying will not do any good, it will only cause more harm. I returned home with a heavy heart, but saw Hongxiang carrying a large bouquet of flowers at the door, and when he saw me, he made a fuss and said, "Yo, it's so serious that I can't go home." No matter how old acquaintances are, it doesn't matter if she likes to see me or not - I'll go to the hospital to see, in vain. ”

I was in a terrible mood, and waved impatiently, "Get out of here." ”

Where will Hongxiang eat my lameness, and said in a weird way as he walked: "Ouch, stepping on two boats, after all, I will be soaked......"

I haven't practiced with Hongxiang for a long time, and I don't know what year it was because of the emotional sparring, but we did practice hard that morning for this sentence. If it weren't for the fear of alarming the surrounding uneasy army mutiny, maybe we would have summoned Bahamut and Asura to fight. The range of punches and kicks is smaller, but the consequences are almost as severe. After the fight, we both ran to the backyard garden with bruised noses and swollen faces to turn on the faucet to rinse. Only then did the rainbow bird man say something authentic: "Huang Er, you are not born with this material, and you are not suitable for such a life at all!" I used to go to Asano Yugali's broken shoes when I was with Yoko.,Anyway, I don't love either.,It's just a part of a rotten life.。 But Chen Qi and the princess, which one do you love and which one you don't love, or which one do you love more, can you make it clear? This is the first time you really step on two boats, and there is no diamond to go to the porcelain work, and you are asking for hardship! ”

I still have fire in my heart, and I said: "You don't talk about me, your peerless sister looks at you differently, be careful!" ”

Hongxiang didn't take it seriously, and said with a grin: "Hey, I'm a good man loyal to the Gu family, and a green-headed young man like you can't look at this cabinet." ”

That evening, Han Han called me to inform the Shogunate Cabinet of the Cabinet of Ministers, a deliberative and adjudicative body composed of the most important figures in the Shogunate that was responsible for helping me share most of the major matters below the emergency level. Ovimars and I both had this kind of structure, but because of the uneven staff, it wasn't until Hanhan, Simba, and Hongxiang arrived from the main planet that my agency really began to operate, and in the past, it was only arbitrary for Hanhan, the chairman of the cabinet. However, Han Han was obviously still angry, and at the same time he notified me, he also specifically instructed: "You can not come." ”

Of course, that's the best, I was in a bad mood and didn't want to move, so I replied casually: "If something goes out, you can just go to the secretariat to get a seal and stamp it, and throw a copy to my office." I don't want to be in charge of things for a while. ”

My mind is full of worries, and I can't sleep well all night. At five o'clock in the morning, I suddenly felt the bedroom door open, and immediately pulled out magnum54 from under the pillow without thinking, only to hear Jingwei's voice: "It's me." ”

I put the gun back in its place. I was very sleepy, and I didn't know why she came here, and what kind of attitude I should have to face her, so I had to continue to close my eyes and ask, "Is there anything wrong so early?" ”

"You just open your eyes and see."

I opened my eyes, and saw Jing Wei standing at the door, dressed in demon armor, looking like he was going out to fight, and I couldn't help but be surprised: "What are you doing here?" ”

Jing Wei smiled faintly: "Last night, the cabinet meeting passed the army reorganization plan overnight. I was given the original swordsman regiment, 10,000 wood elves and the establishment of the Ninth Army, and immediately marched to the eastern continent of Mascu, preparing to cooperate with Overmars to seize the ruins of the Dark Side base and establish a base area. ”

"Don't!" I immediately jumped up from the bed and jumped forward to grab her. The demon armor on her body was cold, but I could barely feel it: "Why do you want to do this!" I still have a lot to say to you, and there are still a lot of questions that have not been resolved......"

Jing Wei pushed me away with a slight smile and said, "I'm a military general, and I have to fight to eat." ”

I cried out viciously, "Whose order is this, I'll go to him!" ”

Jing Wei reminded: "It was you who authorized the cabinet to study and decide independently. ”

"No, I can't agree to such a plan. Since it was decided overnight, the official document should not have been sent out at this time. It doesn't matter if it is sent out, I have the right to veto this bill......"

"You do, but if you let the world know that you do it for a private matter, you will lose the hearts of the people." Jing Wei gently rested her head on my chest and said, "And I don't want you to veto this matter." I took the initiative to bring up the matter of going out to fight, and they all agreed. I'm very sorry, but I was just willful for a while, but I caused you so much harm and trouble. ”

Listening to her words in my ears, I only felt that my hands and feet were gradually cold, and finally I couldn't help but grab her shoulders and yell: "What did you say, being willful for a while? What nonsense are you talking about! ”

Jing Wei shook her head and said, "It's really capricious. Naito and Forgetcake told me a lot about Chen Qi. I have nothing to say after hearing this, she really needs you more than me, and most people, including my apprentice Wangbi, think so. We live in the world, we can't only think about ourselves in everything, we have to think about others, right? You and I are no longer children, and we can't go against everyone's wishes for the sake of feelings. Besides, you're conflicted, aren't you? After all, she has been with you for a longer time, and she has so many feelings accumulation, it is definitely not something that can be said to be let go. If you're that ruthless person, I wouldn't like it either. It's all my fault, and it's causing trouble and distress to everyone. You no longer belong to one person, there are many intricate people and things around you, my willfulness has brought a lot of harm to you and these people, and it is only a rational choice to leave as soon as possible when you are not completely hated. Even if you don't want to, even if you will cry while walking, you have to go. When you get to this position, you should have understood that many things that can be obtained cannot and should not be obtained after all. ”

Jing Wei struggled to say these words, and she couldn't finish them in one breath. But as she spoke, I couldn't say a word, so I could only hold her blankly and listen to her say those heartbreaking words. After she said this, she smiled and kissed me on the cheek. Even though my tears were dripping down her face and chin to the floor, she didn't feel it at all, turned and walked out of my room as if nothing happened. At this time, my whole body seemed to be stiff, and only a trace of softness in my heart struggled and cried in the cold and stiff shell. At this time, there is only one place in my chaotic mind that is very lucid, and that lucid place does not stop reminding me of what it means to "mourn more than die of heart".

I think I got it a little bit at this point.

On the morning of 22 October, the newly formed Ninth Army embarked on the road to march in the midst of the noise of gongs and drums, and only a few people knew the inside story. I didn't go to see her off, I was taking care of Chen Qi in the hospital room at this time. After a day of recuperation and healing, her complexion has improved a lot. She hadn't woken up when I arrived, so I took her hand and took a nap. After a long time, I suddenly heard her ask, "How long have you been here?" ”

"Oh, nothing."

"It's all over? Look at how you're not in a good mood. ”

"No, I'm just a little tired." I shook her hand vigorously: "As I said, everything will be fine. It's not the end, it's a fresh beginning. You just have to recuperate in peace, there is nothing to worry about. ”

After a pause, I said, "You're my only one, always." ”

In the afternoon of the same day, I returned to the office of the Military Administration Agency, took back from the secretariat the Shogun's personal custody, and at the same time issued an official document "On Effectively Strengthening Organization and Leadership." When the secretaries prepared the official document and went to distribute it, Han Han happened to come to me to report to work, and he looked at the title of the document at the door, and sighed leisurely.

From that sigh, I found myself with this best and most special friend, a terrible rift. (To be continued.) )