Verse 17 To live or to die
"Sister-in-law! Sister-in-law spares her life! Sister-in-law! I don't dare...... I don't dare anymore......"
The bald head wailed with tears streaming down his eyes. But no matter what he said, Susan's mother didn't look at him, just tried not to let herself fall, and at the same time looked at Chen Yin's eyes with a weak but firm gaze.
"Sister-in-law! Sister-in-law!! Please, don't ...... I'm sorry for you! I'm sorry big brother! Be kind, and don't do that for my eldest brother's sake...... Please don't ...... like that."
"That's right! I'll pay back the money! I'll pay you back! ”
"And the big brother's bow hasn't been lost! It's true! I picked it up! Right under my bed......"
"I was wrong...... I was really wrong......"
"Sister-in-law......"
In the wailing of the bald head, under the forced gaze of Susan's mother, Chen Yin retreated shamefully.
“…… All...... It's all over to you. ”
After saying this, Chen Yin fled into the hall.
I knew what she was going to do.
But Chen Yin didn't stop it, and even got out of the way, and at the same time kept comforting himself in his heart: "This is the best, so that your hands will not be covered with blood, and you will not have any worries." The grievances between them are still settled by themselves, and it doesn't hurt them to cut the grass or eradicate anything, right? ’
Chen Yin kept deceiving himself in his heart, his trembling hands clenched into fists, and he hid behind a weak woman who was powerless, and he didn't even have the courage to turn around and take a look......
Suddenly, Chen Yin felt that he was cowardly and even more shameless.
"Ah!!! Yes!!!! ”
A terrible scream sounded behind Chen Yin, like an invisible whip, whipping Chen Yin's body and torturing Chen Yin's heart.
"Ahh Other! Don't...... Ahem......"
The sound of skin being cut.
The sound of the throat being cut.
Chen Yin could even imagine that her weak hands were tightly gripping the not-sharp knife, and with all her strength, she was cutting the bald throat little by little, again and again......
Eventually, the screams mixed with coughing faded down and were replaced by a gurgling tinkling.
It's like a breeze in your ears, like a meandering stream.
But Chen Yin knew very well that all the psychological hints were nothing more than self-deception—it was not a breeze, let alone a stream, but the sound of human blood spurting from his throat.
Suddenly, Chen Yin shivered.
Can I, who is so cowardly, really survive in this world that believes in the law of the jungle?
Without enlightenment, there is no qualification to live.
I don't dare to face the cruelty, I just know that if I escape, I can't change anything, and I can't save anything. Do you wait until you are dying to expect the mercy of your enemies? Or do you expect someone to stand up for yourself?
There won't be.
Chen Yin's reason told himself.
In this land where civilization has not yet been civilized, the only thing that can save you is a shotgun in your hand and a strong heart that is determined to kill.
Chen Yin breathed hard, trying to fill his lungs with air, and let the feeling of blood oxygen fill to drive away the weakness in his heart.
It's all for myself.
Chen Yin said secretly in his heart.
Then he spun around......
…… As far as the eye can see, it is bright red.
Blood.
stained the earth red.
The mustache screamed in panic like a pig waiting to be slaughtered.
The weak woman held a sharp knife with an expressionless face, and stood silently in front of the bald corpse that was gradually losing its temperature.
For some reason, Chen Yin suddenly remembered the she-wolf.
In the Discovery Channel documentary, the she-wolf does not flinch in the face of a powerful predator, desperately protecting her child's eyes, just like little Susan's mother.
Suddenly, Chen Yin's heart knot was untied.
As long as it's to maintain something, as long as it's to protect something.
It seems that ending a person's life is not so difficult to accept.
Chen Yin used his hand that was no longer trembling to pull out the beautifully crafted sharp knife from his belt, walked to the woman's side, and whispered:
"You are an admirable mother."
"You did everything you could."
"Next ......"
“…… Leave it to me. ”
……
Amid the begging for mercy and cursing, Chen Yin turned off the subtitle effect.
Unable to understand the wail that passed away with the wind, Chen Yin held Schrader's sharp edge tightly, stepped on the back of the beard, and grabbed his head, the blade pressed against his carotid artery, his fingers applied pressure, and his wrist turned slightly......
…… The sharp tip of the knife gently slashed through the skin, causing a wound like a baby's pink mouth.
When the carotid artery was cut, red liquid gushed out along the neat wound, like red satin. When the liquid of life spews a rainbow in the air, a soul disappears. And the beautiful and bewitching rainbow was deeply engraved into Chen Yin's heart.
Chen Yin stiffened his face and repeated the same thing twice.
The feeling of killing someone and killing a chicken is not really different subjectively, both are just processes that give death.
However, for the executor of death, the experience is not something to remember, especially the first time.
It's no wonder that the characters who kill people for the first time in film and television works will vomit dimly. The taste, color, and instinctive disgust of all this made Chen Yin very uncomfortable both mentally and physically.
It's scary for people to get used to this kind of thing.
Chen Yin thought to himself.
It is no wonder that butchers in ancient times had a unique social status. The status of the dead is naturally different from that of ordinary human beings. It's not just a psychological abnormality, it's even a physical change. Is the so-called murderous spirit an outward manifestation of this psychological and physiological change?
Chen Yin had heard a long time ago that dogs would be afraid of people who kill a lot.
In the past, Chen Yin always felt that this was some kind of superstitious fallacy. But now, in the whole three flames of life with high wisdom were extinguished in Chen Yin's hands, he suddenly realized something.
It seems that there is a string in my heart that is broken.
It's like the first time I helped Professor Joshua deal with his prey, no longer treating them as life, but as prey, meat, and deliciousness.
Although it may be a bit idealistic to say this, when dealing with prey, the process of Chen Yin's psychological evolution is really not enough for outsiders. Now, Chen Yin has experienced such psychological changes again, but this time it is even more earth-shaking, and his outlook on life and values have been subverted.
When a person treats other people as creatures lower than himself on the food chain, his demeanor and expression will be different from ordinary people, and when others see him, the biological instinct will naturally give them a strong warning - this person is dangerous and a predator!
The so-called murderous spirit is probably like this.
Thinking of some marginal things, Chen Yin dragged the corpses indifferently, threw them into the stinky ditch one by one, washed his face in a daze, and got into his hammock.
The afterglow cleared and night fell.
The nightmare also came as scheduled, and the blood-drenched scene was so real that I didn't know if I was dreaming or waking up.
This night was another sleepless night of tossing and turning.
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