She was in favor of rote learning, but he also knew it was the best way to deal with this kind of test-taking education that had no practical effect. She uses the minimum time to do her homework and the time she saves to do other things that interest her. She spends her free time after school and the occasional free time in what can only be called a "micro-shop", a small dim, cramped and poorly equipped processing plant. And this school, known as "Weidian", dedicated more of its experience to the so-called "vocational education", which was very advanced at the time. "What is vocational education? It's about teaching you to do more with your hands. There are lathes, drilling machines and other machine tools in this "micro shop", but these are forbidden for her to operate, because even though she may be very capable, she is still "a girl". The shopkeeper was helpless about her persistence, so he could only agree to let her find her own project in the electronic field of "Weidian". She started her studies by making radios and then moved on to some of the more interesting projects.

She made an encryption machine. It's a very basic little electronic device, but it at least works properly. It can take any information in English and turn that seemingly nonsense information into a simple password. Slightly more complicated is to make a machine that does the opposite – to restore encrypted information that you don't know to the original one. You can make possible substitutions with this machine (not as follows: A instead of B, A instead of C, A instead of D). You can also memorize some of the English alphabets that are used more often than others. You can find out by how often you use the letter buttons on the printer at the print shop next door. The guy at the print shop next door said, "Etaoinshrdlu is the most frequently used twelve-letter. "Over time, one of the most commonly used letters is the "E". Xiaowen found that certain copies tend to appear in a concentrated manner, while the vowel letters tend to be randomly distributed. The most commonly used three-letter word in the English language is "the", and if there is a letter missing between the letters "T" and "E", it is almost certain that the letter is "H", although you can also guess that it is the letter "R" or some other phonetic letter. She deduced a few other rules and spent a long time calculating the frequency of letters in the various textbooks that had been compiled and published up to that point. She made the decryption machine just for her own pleasure. She didn't use it to deliver secret messages to her friends. She wasn't sure if she would be safe if she did, and the electronic passwords could be of great interest. The boys became fanatical about her achievements, and the girls looked at her strangely.

She lay on her bed. It was a hot summer evening. Elvis was singing, "One night with you, that's how it began." "High school boys seemed very immature, especially the young students she met with her almost pedantic stepfather's speeches and assemblies. Her stepfather kept her under strict control and didn't let her have more relationships with the students. Sun Zhiyuan was right, she reluctantly admitted. At least these young people, with few exceptions, have a tendency to develop an interest in her. At the same time, their emotions seem more fragile than she expected. Maybe her true destiny is someone else.

She didn't want to go to college, and she decided to leave home. If she went somewhere else, Sun Zhiyuan would not give her living expenses, and her mother's gentle prayer for a long time did not work. But she also did quite well in the college entrance examination and achieved unacceptable results. To her surprise, her teacher told her that she might get a scholarship to a prestigious university. She guessed the answer to a multiple-choice question by touching a dead mouse. If you know very little, it's just enough to rule out completely incorrect answers, but there are two most likely answers, and if you want all ten questions right, there's only a 1 in 1,000 chance. She told herself, you're going to do the right thing. Twenty questions, the probability of being exactly right is 1 in 1 million. But it's like a million kids take an exam and only one can pass. She herself felt that this was the special favor of Lady Luck.

Nankai University, Tianjin, still can't escape the sphere of influence of his stepfather, but it is very convenient to visit his mother during the holidays. Her mother was torn between herself and her stepfather. Xiaowen was surprised that he chose Tongji University in Shanghai.

When she arrived at the school, she was already a young woman of medium stature, with long black hair, slim, heroic, and smiling, full of longing and anticipation for what she was about to face. She wants to broaden her knowledge and learn as many courses as possible. In addition to her work in mathematics, she also chose a lot of courses that interested her, such as physics and engineering. However, the wishes are beautiful, but the reality is cruel. She found it difficult to discuss a subject like physics with others, and in those few debates, it was dominated by male-dominated students. At first they were coping with selective ignoring her words. There would be a slight pause, and then they would act as if she hadn't said it. They will occasionally acknowledge her words and even praise it before moving on to change the subject. She was sure that her words were not entirely stupid, and she didn't want to be ignored, but she wanted to be part of them. Part of it—but only part of it—she knew it was because of the softness and sweetness of her voice that they didn't refuse to participate. So she developed a voice that suited her better, a professional one: clear, rich, and loud. It is important to have such a voice. She also spent a lot of time practicing in this area. It was difficult to consistently speak in such a voice, as she was in danger of bursting out laughing at times. So she found herself inclined to express quickly, sometimes abruptly on the brakes, which was usually enough to capture their attention; Then she can continue with a more general voice for a while. Whenever she found herself in a new group, she had to secretly warn herself to be careful so that she could join the discussion smoothly. Boys hardly care about that anymore.

Sometimes when she was doing indoor sports or seminars, the teacher would say, "Gentlemen, let's continue," and when she felt Xiaowen frown, she would add, "I'm sorry, Miss Sun Ruowen, I thought you were a boy." "The best compliment for him from those male classmates is that they don't treat her as a girl.

She doesn't want to develop a personality that is too aggressive, and she doesn't want to be a misanthropy. She suddenly found herself with such tendencies. "Cynics" are who everyone doesn't like, not just men. In English, there is an exclusive term for people who hate women: "misogynist". But the lexicographers who are men somehow neglect to create a word to describe people who don't like men. She thought they were almost entirely men themselves, and couldn't imagine that there would be a market for such a word.

Her parents gave her a much more ban than anyone else. But she discovered a lot of new and exciting things on her own—knowledge, society, and even sexuality. At a time when many of her peers tended to wear gender-neutral clothing to reduce the distinction between the sexes, she was eager to excel in clothing and makeup, and her limited budget was even tighter. She believes that this approach is more effective than political statements. She cultivated some close friends, colleagues made casual enemies, and those who did not like her dress, her political and religious views, and even those who took duty to her vitality, she insisted on defending her opinions. Scientifically, her abilities and interests are blamed by many young women. But some who saw her as a mathematician called her a heroine among women, a model for women.

In this age of extreme sexual openness, she tries to fall in love with her increasing enthusiasm, but she finds it difficult for her to get along with her lover. Her relationships tend to last a few months or less. The refusal to make a choice in middle school seems to be an attempt to hide her interests and stifle her opinions. The image of her mother betraying her biological father and remarrying torments Xiaowen. She began to think that men had nothing to do with academic and scientific life.

It seems that some women are completely unthinking about using some means to pursue their feelings. Others seem to be carrying out a military activity, fully armed, always ready, and using all the resources at their disposal, just to "capture" a good man. She thinks that "ideals" are just gifts from heaven. The poor bastard is not ideal, only "ideal" - a plausible object of longing is only for the sake of their wallet, and this regrettable trick is constantly played out in life. She believes that most women fall somewhere in between, seeking a balance between affection and money. Comparisons between love and material things may occasionally disappear from their conscious minds. But the whole thought of this calculation made her tremble. She decided that she was a spontaneous believer in this matter. At that time, she met Xu Wenjie.

They first met in a basement bar on the edge of Century Square. Xu Wenjie sings rhythm and blues and also serves as the lead guitarist. His captivating singing voice and cheerful dancing both kept her engaged. The next night she came again. She sat alone at the nearest table, her eyes locked on him behind the guitar. Two months later they lived together. It's just that when he was ready to leave the city, she wasn't prepared at all.

She spent a few days with her classmates: the boys were the best boys, they had pens in the pocket of their jackets, the dull boys were serious in their jokes, and the serious boys were thinking about how to be a scientist whenever they were awake. They are focused on training themselves to explore the depths of nature, they hardly hear what is going on outside the window, and in their eyes there is only scientific knowledge, they seem to be somewhat boring and superficial. Perhaps it was Tysso, who was so persistent in his pursuit of science, that the competition was so fierce that he didn't have time to become a multi-talented person. Or maybe they have a social barrier of their own and hope they won't notice. Except for the science itself, she did not find merit in them.

The whole night was full of that bastard, jumping and wailing, a force of nature that had taken her life. Over the past year, she doesn't remember one night when he suggested they go to bed. He didn't know anything about physics or mathematics, and he knew nothing about the interior of the universe, and she knew it. She dreams or reconciles her two worlds. She fantasizes about musicians and physicists being in harmony at community concerts. But in the evening the things she organized ended prematurely in embarrassment.