The hospital was overcrowded, and the outer hallway where we were standing was slightly less crowded because of the sunlight. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

It was almost noon, and the sun was scorching, more stinging than my question, and I held up my notebook to block out the hot sun on my face. If Zhang Zhiwen suddenly gets angry and gets out of control because of my problem, I can still use my notebook to resist the damage.

Unexpectedly, Zhang Zhiwen was not angry, he just squinted his eyes and looked outside, and after a while he said, "No..."

He thought for a moment and said, "I don't know, why are you asking this?" ”

"I think I might find your daughter out there... The cause of death. ”

"She has always been very obedient and serious about studying, and she has never thought about anything other than studying. And she didn't tell us about these things, and blamed me for not caring much about her because I was usually busy with work. ”

Zhang Zhiwen smiled bitterly: "Yes, she is 20 years old, and I still treat her as a child." He wiped his tears as he spoke.

I took out a tissue and handed it to him and said, "In the eyes of my parents, children are always children, and my parents still treat me as a child." "But in fact, they hate to marry very much now, and they want me to get married as soon as possible.

Zhang Zhiwen stabilized his emotions, wiped away his tears and said: "I really don't want to believe that Xue Lin will commit suicide, but things have come to such a point, I don't believe it and there is no way." But she left so suddenly, we didn't know what was going on. ”

Zhang Zhiwen looked at me and said, "I really want to know why she did this, if Tianxin is unwilling, or there is a wish to be fulfilled, I have to help her." You say she's in love and ......"

"It's just my guess, and there could be something else. Mr. Zhang, how are your family members getting along? Have you ever had a fight with your wife in front of your children? ”

"No... It's not that there hasn't been a quarrel, it's just a mix, every time Xue Lin comes to play a round in the middle, and then everyone reconciles with each other. Zhang Zhiwen said this, with a bitter smile on his face.

"That's... Has she ever complained that she is under a lot of pressure and tired? ”

Zhang Zhiwen thought for a while and said: "She has always studied very well, and I haven't heard her say this. ”

If she hasn't said anything, then she must have her own little secret in her heart.

I turned my back to the sun and began to think, if I put my studies and family apart, there would only be love.

Zhang Zhiwen asked, "Have you thought of anything?" ”

"Do you always educate her not to fall in love in college, but to study hard?"

"She's still young, and we're worried about her getting hurt......"

"So that's what you said?"

Zhang Zhiwen walked up to me and said: "Did you say that since she was a child, we told her not to fall in love when she was studying, she is young, she doesn't understand anything, what kind of love is she talking about?" ”

"You have such an attitude, and she has always been very obedient, so she doesn't dare to tell you these things in her heart. Of course, these are just my guesses. I went to E University a few days and oh, I forgot to tell you that I was also a student who graduated from there. We are in the upper building on the hill... I saw someone burning paper money..."

Zhang Zhiwen interrupted me and asked, "Someone is burning paper money there?" ”

"Maybe it was Xue Lin's good friend who burned it for her, so do you know Xue Lin's best friend? Maybe you can ask her? Maybe she still knows a lot of things in Xue Lin's heart. ”

Children who dare not tell their parents will tell their friends, and if they don't even say it, they will write it in their diary or bury it in their hearts.

"Her best friend?"

"It's... Don't you know? ”

"What the child's mother should know, I'll go back and ask her."

"Well, you can also go back and look at your daughter's relics, and look through the books she often reads and the books she often writes."

Zhang Zhiwen was silent for a while and said with a wry smile: "I'm so useless, as a father, I don't even know my daughter's best friend, and I don't know her preferences, I just know to ask her to study!" But he never really cared about her. ”

"When a father wants to take on the burden of a family, it is inevitable that he will not be thoughtful..."

Zhang Zhiwen said: "I'll go back and do what you say, look for what you said, and hope to really understand my daughter, although it's too late." ”

I couldn't think of anything to comfort him, so I replied, "Okay." ”

After separating from Zhang Zhiwen, I returned to the newspaper office to write a manuscript. On the way back, I kept wondering if it would be very wrong for me to do this now, if I was too nosy? Things finally calmed down, and I went and threw another stone.

But Zhang Zhiwen himself also wanted to know the reason for her daughter's suicide, so I could only hand over the stone. Hopefully, he can find some clues about his daughter's inner thoughts. Regret can't be made up, only to alleviate a little bit of guilt.

No matter what kind of emotion it is, you can't make up for it if you miss it. Time doesn't go back in time, and every missed moment is unique.

Back at the newspaper office, I was munching on bread while rushing to the manuscript. Xiao Zhang came back from outside, walked up to me and whispered, "Lin Min! Why are you so serious about your work today? ”

"Because now work is my only thing."

"Not really! You haven't been in love yet, why are you living out a feeling of falling out of love? Is there something you're hiding from me? ”

I turned to him and said, "Today I remembered what my teacher told us in the first class of university, he said that we are building bridges between people, and if we want to speak up for the people, ask questions, find answers, and bring hope!" I feel like I'm about to lose my heart, so I'm now setting things right and recovering my heart full of hope and passion! With that, I took another bite of bread and continued to work.

Xiao Zhang returned to his desk and said, "You are not married yet, so you can say these words." ”

"Does this have anything to do with whether or not you are married?"

Xiao Zhang sat down and said: "Of course, you are now single and the whole family is not hungry, so you have the time and energy to talk about these original intentions!" Dreams! What are you pursuing...... Now, my only pursuit is to raise my salary! I don't want to do anything else, and I don't have the energy to pursue it. ”

"Hearing you say that, I don't even dare to get married! How? Isn't marriage not just the grave of love, but also the grave of life? Can the pursuit of a materialistic life still be considered a life? People must have some spiritual pursuit in this world! Otherwise, it will be ......."

Xiao Zhang interrupted me and said, "When your salary hasn't been paid yet, and your credit card bill comes in, you're going to chase these differences." ”

I asked curiously, "Do you know what I'm trying to say?" ”

"Of course, don't you just want to scold me?"