Yuan Jun laughed and cried. Even he didn't know whether he was laughing or crying, he walked on the dark and hazy street like a lost soul, his legs didn't listen to his instructions and moved slowly, a beggar in tattered clothes rummaged in the garbage heap, his eyes lit up It was a bottle with a little liquid, and immediately looked up to the sky and poured it, and stretched out his greedy tongue to add a circle to the mouth of the bottle, seeing Yuan Jun coming in the fog, his eyes rolled around, and he immediately used the bottle to greet his head, and then covered his bloody forehead and cried and crawled towards him, howling while crawling: "Sir~ I'm so pitiful! Give me some money~ It's all bleeding~ Woo~ "This trick has been a common method since begging, and it is very effective, even if you are as hard-hearted as obediently paying for it.

He tugged at the corner of Yuan Jun's inferior suit and looked at him with pitiful eyes. Yuan Jun didn't get angry, lowered his head and stared at his eyes, and the moment he looked at each other, he suddenly understood something, laughed, laughed, laughed creepy. The beggar felt that something was wrong, and it turned out that he was mentally ill, so he quickly crawled away with his belt.

He understood how stupid and stubborn it was to spend half his life trying to please someone who didn't love him. The wish that supported his will was shattered in an instant, like the Mt. T earthquake that year! The inner building collapsed, and countless sorrowful blood flowed back to the heart. He knelt down, his chest blocked uncomfortably, and his heart ached, as if a knife was stabbing in and out. With such a strong appearance and such a strong body, he actually cried like a child.

I don't know how long he walked, he returned to the construction site dormitory, where the young, older generation of workers got off work at this time, and watched the TV series "The Legend of the Condor Heroes" (1) screened on the black-and-white TV set in the hall with great relish. Some are drinking beer and picking their feet, some are digging their noses and knocking melon seeds, and some are walking to the simple and dim balcony with their washed overalls.

"Lao Yuan is back to pull? Went out to dinner with your girlfriend, right? The crowd didn't know who had said a word, but he didn't even look back and walked into the room, slamming the door shut.

In the chaotic dormitory, a kerosene lamp was lit (2), and the light of the fire jumped and twitched, marking the room clearly and sadly. He sat on the old-fashioned bamboo chair, and the bamboo chair "squeaked", and then stopped talking and was quiet. He thought back to those events, although there was no record of notes, but it was deeply imprinted in his mind, he remembered that Xu Si's father was tied to a ladder and then put down, and those people poured water on her father, and the water flowed into his nostrils all day, and finally died. Others said that the reincarnation of the dead would have caused the eyebrows to grow under the eyes, and that his mother had died even more tragically, riding a "wooden donkey" (3) through the streets, and dying of excessive blood loss. He went to comfort Xu Si and protect her, so that she could know that there were still people in the world who cared about her.

With a "squeak", he stood up, recalling what she had said and done, and gradually, he found that the other party had no love for her, but regarded him as a relative and a brother. He shook his head and smiled bitterly, and packed his luggage, because he understood: love is not everything, time, just passed in his own love, instead of chasing the unattainable feelings, it is better to go to the distance to find something that belongs to him. He packed his bags, found a contractor to settle his salary, and went to the south of the motherland, although he did not read much, he liked to read books and newspapers, and he knew that in the near future the coastal cities would undergo earth-shaking changes.

Xu Si ran all the way with fear, ran to the downstairs of the student apartment where she lived, leaned against the wall and vomited, the disgusting smell of smoke still spread in her mouth to this day, she didn't understand who that person was and what she was going to do. After vomiting, she felt much better, took out the key from her bag and glanced at the small advertisement posted on the door and the red banner above her head: One pound of milk a day, strong Z people. After that, I started to walk up the stairs.

It's a two-story student apartment, and she lives on the second floor, with her best friends and classmates. When I opened the door of the dormitory, I saw her good sister Liu Lian puffing on the foundation in front of the dressing table, on which there were eyeshadow, blush, lipstick, makeup boxes, perfume and other cosmetics. She sat on the edge of the bed, sighed deeply, and finally settled down, Liu Lian put away her makeup, showed off her cheongsam temperament figure in front of the mirror and said, "Why did you come back so late today?" Didn't your boyfriend send you? ”

"I broke up with him." Xu Si lay down on the green lacquered bracket bed and covered his face with a pillow.

"Split~Yo~ Finally split, a man like him who has no interest has already delayed his youth~" Liu Lian was afraid that the world would not be chaotic.

"Sister Pity, a man kissed me today, it's so disgusting." Xu Si said, frowning.

"That's your beauty~ If I were a man, I would kiss you forcibly~" Liu Lian covered her mouth and snickered, joking.

"Don't tease me for being good, I'm in a bad mood." Xu Si rubbed the ground, took off his shoes and lay on the bed.

"Okay~ Senior sister, I'm going out to work and socialize~ Otherwise, how will I pay this month's rent?" Liu Lian turned in place in front of the mirror.

"That's right." Liu Lian smiled at Xu Simei and said: "I won three boxes of Hongqi milk in the lottery yesterday, and someone will deliver it tonight or tomorrow morning, you can help me collect it." Tomorrow's class also helped me take a leave of absence, and said I was sick. ”

"The latter sentence is the point, senior sister, but tomorrow is the weekend and there is no class, and the other thing is that you have taken a month off in a row, and it is the same with you or without you in the classroom."

"Less poor, sister, isn't she busy with work? Haola lost the company of the big beauty~"There was a flying kiss before closing the door.

Xu Si gradually became confused, full of sleepiness, he was too tired today. In the confusion, there was a knock on the door, and she said, "Who?" ”

"Milk-deliverers." A voice came from outside the door.

"What kind of milk do you send so late?"

"Our Hongqi milk sales are good, and now of course there are night shifts. If you don't want these three boxes, I'll go back if you don't want them. ”

"Here we are." Xu Si remembered that Sister Lian said about the scratching prize, and it seemed to be true.

When I opened the door, there was a man standing outside the door, the man was dressed in a Fierce Bull Company uniform, wearing a peaked cap on his head, the brim of the hat was very low, and on it were the letters ML, and he couldn't see his face clearly, only to see him stretch out a writing board and say, "Please sign it." ”

"Oh." Xu Si yawned and signed and gave it back to him.

"Thank you for your patronage." The milkman pushed the three cuboid boxes inside and closed the door.

Xu Si unpacked the package, took out a box from it, the white straw pierced the aluminum tin, drank a few sips and put it on the makeup table and then returned to the cage.

She had a dream in which it was windy and raining in the dormitory, and the joints of the glass window rattled, and she reached for the crescent moon stand by the window (4), when the disgusting face of the man who had kissed her suddenly appeared in the window.

-- Divide -- cut -- line -- sheep -- small -- six -- chop -- annotations, many post-90s readers report that there are some things they can't understand. Liuzi expressed his understanding, after all, there are some differences in growing up in different environments, and here Liuzi analyzes some terms that you have not heard.

Note: The Legend of the Condor Heroes: The 1988 T Bay China Television version of "The Legend of the Condor Heroes" was played by Huang Wenhao as Guo Jing and Chen Yulian as Huang Rong.

Kerosene lamp: Kerosene lamp was the main lighting tool before the popularization of electric light, using kerosene as fuel. It is mostly made of glass, shaped like a gourd with a thin waist and a big belly, and on it is a lamp head shaped like an open-mouthed toad, and there is a knob on one side of the lamp head that can adjust the wick in and out to control the brightness of the lamp.

Wooden donkey: An instrument of torture, a cruel tool used against unchaste women during the feudal period.

Moon-shaped bracket: There may still be rural families now, and the function is to fix the window, which is shaped like a moon bend, and just fits on the fixed mouth of the window.