"What about me? What am I? Suddenly, Cha Wenbin heard a woman's voice again, and a blurred figure gradually floated not far away, this figure was so familiar, this voice made him feel so close.

"Xiaobai?" Cha Wenbin trembled and asked, "Is Xiaobai you?" ”

The group said vaguely and chokedly: "Why can you die for her, is it that my place in your heart has long been replaced by her?" Then why do you still have me in your heart, since you have chosen to forget, then please take me away from your heart, so that I can completely give up my love for you. The blur slowly began to become clear, and out of it came a woman who haunted his dreams, and that woman was Yuan Xiaobai!

"Is it really you?" When Yuan Xiaobai appeared, she was still wearing that white plain clothes, which was bought by Cha Wenbin when he went to the countryside in the Northeast Savage Tun. Yuan Xiaobai is the daughter of a capitalist, who has had no worries about food and clothing since she was a child, and after her father was beaten as a rightist, this girl who once lived a princess-like life fell into an endless abyss overnight. There, she was still wearing a single dress in the south, and the winter in the northeast was so cold that her originally white and tender skin was like a frozen radish, and the cracked wounds and repeated frostbite after scabbing made this once beautiful girl so helpless.

The three young people used their lives to get a tiger and went to the supply and marketing cooperatives to change cotton clothes, and at that time, Cha Wenbin chose the cheapest one for himself, and a white jacket for Yuan Xiaobai. In that era, it was either gray or green, and white fabrics were quite rare and high-end, Cha Wenbin said that her name was Xiaobai, and she looked white and quiet, and she looked good in white. So Yuan Xiaobai's white jacket, which was enough to change him for five, was brought back like this, and this dress accompanied her for several winters. In the best of years, he met her, and he fell in love with her at first sight, and she fell in love with him. It's just that he has some inferiority complex, he feels that he is a poor peasant child, and he is not worthy of everyone's beautiful family, and he can't guarantee that he can give her the kind of life she originally had and should have in the future.

And she can't and doesn't dare, in that era, they were all black five categories, people with no identity and status in society. If she chooses love at that time, it is ironclad evidence of the corruption and depravity of life, the father who doesn't know where he is imprisoned can no longer withstand more "crimes", she only hopes that one day when she is innocent, she will tell that person loudly that she loves him!

We are not people of the same world, you are the daffodils in the greenhouse, and I am the weeds in the field. I don't dare to have you, just because I want you to be so beautiful forever, as long as I can have the opportunity to look at you from afar, that's enough.

He is not a man with high emotional intelligence, so, again and again, missed and missed. Finally, one day, they escaped from those hardships, but one went to the other side of the ocean by accident, and the other met another woman by chance. There are no ifs in this world, missing is missing, and when she is on the verge of withering, it is still him who redeems her from the hands of death.

He knew that she was her but not her, the one she used to be called Yuan Xiaobai, and the one she was called Leng Yiran now. When the soul was no longer what it was at the beginning, he locked his original heart and let it stay forever in the most beautiful season at the age of seventeen or eighteen.

Countless times, in his dreams, he saw her wearing that white jacket washing clothes in the bamboo basket by the river, combing her long hair under the big tree in the yard, in the fields and in the fields, in those past that she had encountered countless times. Time is forever stuck at that time, and only in dreams can he still talk to her, and only in dreams can he dare to gently call the name in his heart.

Is this another dream? Cha Wenbin gently pinched his cheek, it hurt a little!

"It's me, Wen Bin." Yuan Xiaobai's figure has become clearer and clearer, Cha Wenbin can even smell the faint fragrance, Xiaobai said that this is what she was born with, Cha Wenbin feels that it is the best smell in the world, just like the orchid in the valley, it is so refined, it is so elegant. Once upon a time, he was fascinated by this fragrance countless times, and once upon a time, he also blushed and greedily sniffed the fragrance wafting in the air.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, and you're finally here." She stretched out her hand and wanted to touch it, but Cha Wenbin was looking forward to it but scared. What he was afraid of was that it was another dream, and countless times he dreamed of them meeting, only to wake up in the dream countless times.

When her hand touched his cheek, that touch of warmth made Cha Wenbin's tears flow down again, the previous time it was a decisive parting, but this time it was a happy reunion.

Across time and space, he mustered up the courage to grab her hand for the first time, it was so like, it was so real.

"Xiaobai ......" Cha Wenbin choked up several times but couldn't speak, his heart told him that this was not an illusion, it was really Xiaobai.

"Wen Bin, come with me," Yuan Xiaobai said, "follow me to the place where I want to go, there is no conspiracy, no death, no pain in that place." The sun in the sky keeps warm and bright, the water of the four seasons never freezes, the mountains of flowers surround you, and the birds sing for you on your shoulders. Come with me, it's just me and you, no one will bother you again, Wen Bin, come with me......"

She took his hand and stepped back, and behind her there was a looming circle of light, and at the end of that circle was the world she described. Once he thought that it was a place beyond what he knew, an unknown world where time and space could overlap and distort, and once he also said to the unconscious Xiaobai, if you really want to abandon me, you might as well take me with you. Now, she's really back, the one he's remembered in his dreams countless times, she's back!

"No, you can't!" Cha Wenbin took her hand and said, "I still have a lot of things to do, I can't just leave!" ”

"Don't you love me anymore?" Yuan Xiaobai's eyes revealed a sense of disappointment: "Once, you didn't have the courage to hold my hand, this release was originally a lifetime, do you still want to give up this time?" I waited so long for this day that I thought we would never have a chance to see each other again, that it was beautiful, but there was no you, that the world without you was dark and lightless, that the difference between heaven and hell was only because you were not there. ”

"I ...... yes, Cha Wenbin, how can you give up on her?" You used to sacrifice yourself for her, but now she has finally appeared, and you can't give up.

"This is the last chance." Yuan Xiaobai continued: "This door behind me is about to close, maybe you won't see me again, Wen Bin, don't hesitate. There are too many pains in this world that have nothing to do with you, everyone in this world has their own troubles, why do you have to impose these troubles on yourself, isn't it good to live the simplest and most fulfilling life with me? ”

Once, if you could be with her, even if you were crushed, so what? This is the trace of dusty memory left in my heart that has been opened again, only to hear Yuan Xiaobai say softly: "Let's go, stay away from the source of these pains, as long as you have me, you will be happy, do you want me to be alone and continue to wait, waiting for the day when the fireworks are gone?" ”

"I ......" Cha Wenbin's mind came up with countless scenes he had imagined reuniting again, but he never thought it would be like this. Yuan Xiaobai pointed to the aperture behind him and said, "It's about to close, I don't know how many times I've prayed until today, Wen Bin, don't hesitate any longer, follow me!" ”

"With you?" Cha Wenbin suddenly flashed another figure in his mind, he looked at the familiar and unfamiliar face in front of him, once upon a time Yuan Xiaobai was like that for himself, why did he let him make a choice today even though he knew that he had so many difficulties? "No, I can't be so selfish," Cha Wenbin said: "My heart tells me that I still have something called responsibility, I have a family, a wife, a son, Xiaobai, we have only been in the past, but I live in the present." I'm sorry, I can't go with you, I'm going back, and if there is an afterlife, I will definitely go back to you. ”

"There is no afterlife," Yuan Xiaobai suddenly cried: "As long as this door is closed again, I will never be able to come out again, this is the only chance, that world will not die or die, and I will always stay in that place where there is no reincarnation, do you really have to bear to leave me alone, your promise?" You said you would protect me forever! ”

"I ......" Cha Wenbin didn't know how to answer for a while, she used to be his princess, and she was the person he wanted to protect all his life, but now......

He thought of the courtyard just now, the white and tender little hands, and the woman who turned into the house to work for him. Love is an emotion, but home is a responsibility. He held back the rolling tears and said: "Xiaobai, the things I promised you will never change, but now I can't go with you, there is another you in this world, you and I are like this door has been separated." We used to be in the same world, but I thought we weren't in the same world, so I missed it; Now that we are no longer in the same world, but you want me to enter your world, create and make people, God is destined, I Cha Wenbin owes you nothing in this life, and I will return it to you in the next life. With that, he pushed Yuan Xiaobai hard, and the figure that had made him dream back countless times began to fly upside down towards the door behind him like a kite......