Chapter 62 Taoism, Nature

Speechless, the atmosphere in the room was a little heavy, the round boy, was pulled out by Huijue, said that he had gone to chant the scriptures, and when he left, he gently closed the door, I knew that he wanted to leave me and Master a space to talk alone. (You can find this site)

Master lit a dry tobacco, and in recent days, I have noticed that the frequency of Master smoking dry tobacco has obviously become extremely high, and I am very worried.

The smoke rose in the room, and we were still silent, and when the smoke was almost finished, the master suddenly handed me the cigarette stick and said, "Take a sip?" ”

I took it, took a puff, and a hot breath swirled in my lungs, but at the end, there was a little medicinal aftertaste in my mouth, this is Master's unique dry tobacco leaves, which are not available in ordinary places.

However, the dry smoke was too strong after all, and I was not used to it, so I felt in my pocket and took out a cigarette to light it. Aren't I also preoccupied?

"Still thinking about Yang Sheng?" Master finally spoke.

"Yes, I want to know it all." I really want to know everything, the back of Brother Sheng's last turn, it still stings my heart.

"Take this and see it." Master pulled something out of his bosom.

I took it, and it was a roll of paper, unfolded, with a lot of messages on it, but written in a special cipher, and a translation below.

"We don't know why we can't receive a telegram here, but we can send a message, I don't think too much about it." Master explained beside him.

Actually, I know, he didn't dare to think too carefully, it was too scary! We can't receive news, but we can call people, as if a pair of eyes are watching us, and we do it deliberately.

Looking at the contents of the paper carefully, my face became more and more ugly, and when I finally handed it back to Master, my hands began to tremble again.

"Got it?" Master asked.

"Understood." I nodded.

The above is a conversation between a person and an organization, they have already colluded and agreed, and the last one is a satellite phone contact. Heh, satellite phone

That person is Brother Sheng, that organization, I remembered that devil's face, it turned out to be an organization.

"Master, did you already know, or did you?" My hands were pinched until the green tendons were swollen, and my heart hurt and I couldn't breathe, it was really a conspiracy, a deception. Brother Sheng, how could he do this to me?

"I don't want to suspect Yang Sheng, this kid, this news was brought by Ling Qing, and there is this evidence" Master looked at me and said.

I lowered my head in pain and grabbed my hair, and it took me a long time to say: "Brother Sheng, Brother Sheng, how could he be like this?" ”

"Because he has an obsession in his heart, and he has gone crazy for this obsession. This obsession makes his world have no right and wrong, no feelings, and from another point of view, his state of mind is higher than a realm that we are pursuing. It's a pity that it was born because of obsession, and when it is broken, it will never recover. This is a crooked way. However, it is also his own way. "Master's words are very deep, corresponding to my pain, Master is very calm and reasonable.

"Master, is that organization very strong? Can I get Brother Sheng back? I looked at Master with a glimmer of hope in my eyes.

"Sanwa'er, you are 23 years old, and what I have always hoped is that you are no longer naïve. Powerful? Strong is no longer enough to describe, it can be said that even the country is taboo to do it, do you know why? Intertwined relationships! It can only be cleaned up slowly. You can think about the details yourself, you can fly in here without any scruples, and your country's airspace defense is so weak? Where can the helicopter go? There's one more thing I forgot to tell you," said Master, throwing out another thing.

It was a document with an order to let Brother Sheng and Jingyi's sister-in-law come to this mission and be responsible for investigating something.

"What is this?" There are no problems with the documents, no problems with signatures, stamps.

"Don't you understand? This is true, but it can also be said to be fake, because there is nothing wrong with the document itself, and the person who can issue it has an affair with this organization. The news we got is still secret, and this time the state sent people to guard against Yang Sheng, secretly control him, and then quietly and slowly clean up, close the net, and want to catch the people behind this organization. However, Yang Sheng, "Master sighed when he said this.

"Master, can you tell me about this organization?" I asked, because I also had an obsession planted in my heart, I wanted to find Brother Sheng, ask clearly, I wanted to understand this organization.

"I can't." Master rejected it very directly.

"Why, why are you always like this, don't tell me anything, don't tell me anything! Master, how long are you trying to protect me? "I'm angry, I hate it, all the time, all the time.

A trace of sadness flashed in Master's eyes, and he was silent for a long time before he said, "I want to protect you all the time and let you grow up slowly." ”

"Master," I choked up.

But the master turned around and said, "But I still let you go, today after you left for a while, I received the news, I can arrive in time at my speed, but I don't, there are some things for you to experience for yourself." ”

What do you realize? Betrayal? There was a pang of anger in my heart, I didn't know why Master didn't look at me, I stared at his back, and rebelled against his decision with silence.

"Have you put it down?" Suddenly, Master asked.

"Put down what?" I don't understand.

Master turned around and stared at me deeply: "Let go of too heavy feelings, and be more rational on the road ahead." ”

I was silent, and that betrayal, like a knife with a barb, was inserted into my heart, and when I took it out, there was still flesh and blood, and I was in pain.

But, let it go? Many people's faces appeared in front of my eyes, Dad, Mom, Sister, Crispy Meat Finally, Master!

"You just want to use a betrayal to let me experience a let go?" My voice was sarcastic, it was the first time I had spoken to Master like this.

Master didn't care, looked at me and said, "I don't want you to have any obsessions, too heavy feelings, too deep bonds, tie your feet, you will inevitably stumble, I think you will go more smoothly in the future." Cultivators, cultivating the mind, cultivating a just and transparent heart. But a fair, transparent heart is calm and calm, and it can't carry too many feelings. ”

Oh, on the way?

I lit a cigarette again, lay down heavily, lit it, took a puff, and said, "The Tao is natural, and feelings are also natural, I don't want to go against it, I can't pursue such a high realm." ”

"The Tao is naturally not so understood by you, the correct solution is that a heart is integrated into nature after all, what is nature? The sun rises and sets, the clouds roll up, the years are endless, and the years are withered. This is a heart that operates with absolute rules, not interfering, only feeling. This is the natural way of life. Master said in a deep voice.

"Huh" I looked at the ceiling and exhaled a puff of smoke, and said, "Really? The law is as ruthless as the law! Master, have you let me go? ”

Silent.

Then, Master's somewhat tired voice sounded in the room: "I can't put a lot of things, but I will." ”

My heart is sad again, is this a cold road? Will Master put it? In search of the ethereal nature?

That's all I had on my mind at the time.

However, it was only after many years that I realized what kind of person Master was, what kind of nature, what kind of realm, he could be wild and not let go of his eyes, and what he wanted, I didn't understand until many years later.

Unfortunately, I couldn't turn back time, and in this somewhat gloomy hut, I looked at Master and said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry, Master! I won't let it go! ”

Master stared at me for almost a minute, and then suddenly laughed, and his laughter was full of bitterness: "Hehe, my apprentice. Well, there are three thousand avenues, countless small paths, everyone has their own way, and this deep feeling may be your way. I hope that in the future, your journey will be safe, and I only ask for peace. ”

Is it safe? Is Master so disappointed in me that he only wants my peace from now on?

It seems that my apprentice is not worthy of his pride, and he did not ask me to be his pride.

It's just that once, many years later, I realized that pride really doesn't matter, peace is the best blessing a parent can give to their children, and Master really treats me as his son.