Life is always full of coincidences.

There is comedy,

There are also tragedies.

Most of the partners were promoted to the Sailing School, which should be regarded as a surprise.

However, the father left this world a few minutes before his son walked into the hospital room.

This is undoubtedly a tragedy.

When he rushed to his father's body, the doctor had just given up on resuscitation and announced the sad news of the patient's death. Wei Hengyi saw his father's emaciated, pale face, which read serenity.

Sitting beside his father in a daze, he didn't know what his next action and next expression would be in order to appear appropriate.

He was indeed confused, and he could be completely sure that it wasn't a dream because his chest really hurt. However, this child, who thought he was smart, couldn't understand it at all, and such a fact seemed too unreasonable in front of him.

"Dad has been an alcoholic for three years. It can't be cancer. Isn't it a conspiracy? Wei Hengyi's brain was spinning rapidly, but it didn't seem to be spinning at all.

Seeing Wei Hengyi in a daze, Aunt Li was worried about him at the door of the ward. At this moment, if Wei Hengyi can cry, it is a normal person's way of catharsis. If it accumulates in the body, it will hurt the body very much.

"Good boy," Aunt Li walked up to Wei Hengyi and gently stroked his shoulder, "If you want to cry, cry out, there are no outsiders here." ”

"......" Wei Hengyi began to shake his head slowly, he didn't cry or roar, he said in a calm voice, "I don't understand, I can't understand, I really can't understand." ”

Aunt Li was already in tears, took out a letter from her arms, and handed it to Wei Hengyi. "This is something your dad wrote when he was sober, look at it."

After that, Aunt Li put down the letter, walked out of the ward, and left some space for Wei Hengyi alone.

"Dad, is this a suicide note you wrote?" Wei Hengyi looked at his father's serene face, held the envelope tightly with his hand, and then tore it open.

Big Boys:

I know. I know you've broken records in rock climbing, and I'm not sad or happy; The girl was injured in the fighting exam and cried bitterly; At the end of the three exams, you are ranked thirteenth. Every time you take an exam, I am not far from you, watching.

Forgive me for telling you part of the truth!

The truth ruined your childhood, but it increased the hope of getting you out of the exam and increased the possibility of your survival.

You hate me, it's okay.

But at least I see that you are more mature than children of the same age.

The truth is always cruel. I let you know that cancer is the excessive growth of cancer cells from quantitative to qualitative changes, and let you know that the drugs taken by people of all ages and children in Luqi City three times a day can only inhibit the acceleration of cancer cell proliferation, but they can't be avoided.

I've told you part of the truth.

There is another part, I don't know whether to say or not.

I said that I am afraid that you will be sad, but if you don't say it, you will also be sad, and you will think that Dad doesn't love you anymore.

So when you get this letter, Dad believes that you have entered the Sailing School, and Dad's spirit in heaven can also be comforted!

That's right.

Dad also had cancer. Lymphoma.

Daddy's cancer has been going on for three years. Your mother died young, and you will soon inevitably become an orphan. So Dad told you part of the truth three years ago, and deliberately snubbed you on weekdays in order to make you independent as soon as possible. When you are mature, Dad can go with peace of mind!

There is no me in the medical record, my father is a professor of pharmacy, and he is very familiar with the doctors in medical school, and I control my course of treatment and my dosage.

Refuse chemotherapy or radiotherapy so that you can't notice it.

But the last year was really hard.

During the day when you go to school, your dad goes to the hospital ward and lies down, he can scream, he can have spasms.

But what about at night? With analgesics!

Dad is slightly allergic to analgesics, and his whole body is red every time he is beaten, so he simply smears some liquor on his body to create the illusion of alcoholism. And then every day like a drunk, before the analgesics wear off, float in front of your eyes.

The night I finally saw you, Dad used a certain dose of Demerol, this analgesic Dad is not allergic, but it is strong, but it doesn't matter, anyway, this is the last time.

Daddy is gone.

Men, all good face, I don't want you to see my most painful side. If you are sad in this way, I will be sad too.

Don't cry, there's no need to blame yourself at all.

It was all carefully planned by Dad. You hate me because you love me.

I'm sure you'll forgive your dad after reading this.

And I, from the beginning to the end, felt that my son was the proudest of me.

Dad, I've always loved you.

So, in order to be worthy of Dad's careful layout. Be strong and live beautifully!

I'll be in heaven with my mom all the time cheering you on!

Your dad and me

Wei Hengyi cried, and when he was halfway through the letter, he was already in tears. He just couldn't accept that. I thought that I had survived such pain in the past few years, my mother died, I became stronger, my father was drunk, and I didn't fall with it, I still stood under pressure and worked hard towards my goal. He had no friends and no happiness for the last three years. I was finally admitted to the Sailing School, and finally I had hope for life again, only to find out in the end that these are all lies!

The boy, who was strong, mature, and strong, suddenly collapsed.

He has no home, and he is an orphan from now on. Tears flowed uncontrollably. His mind was empty, but tears flowed incessantly.

People will have spiritual sustenance at any time. When you were a student, your parents were your spiritual sustenance; When you become an adult, maybe your lover is your spiritual sustenance; And after you stand, maybe your career is your spiritual sustenance; In the year of no confusion, perhaps wealth is your spiritual sustenance; In your old age, perhaps your children are your spiritual sustenance.

But Wei Hengyi, this sixteen-year-old boy. It was as if all of a sudden, he didn't know why he was alive.

The encouragement and persuasion in black and white on the suicide note seem too pale and powerless, just like the advice and entrustment of long-distance lovers are far less warm than a cup of hot coffee in their hands.

A pair of hands rested on Wei Hengyi's shoulders.

"Your father asked Aunt Li to take care of you before leaving, and Aunt Li will treat you as my own child." Aunt Li comforted gently.

"Thank you, Aunt Li." Wei Hengyi didn't turn his head, nor did he make any movements.

"Good boy, I'm hungry. Let's go home with Aunt Li first, when you're full, you have the strength to cry! ”

"Thank you." Wei Hengyi replied very mechanically and politely, got up and followed Aunt Li home.

…………

Wei Hengyi silently shed tears and sat quietly in his bedroom.

"Crying for what?" A familiar voice came into Wei Hengyi's ears.

Wei Hengyi's whole body trembled, this voice was the voice he was most familiar with, this was his father's voice.

Turn around.

Dad was standing there.

"Dad?!" Wei Hengyi was surprised and delighted. Very surprised, but also very happy.

"What a fuss! It's okay for you! Daddy said with a smile.

"You, didn't you get cancer and died?" The son grabbed his father's arm.

"Stinky boy, it's okay to curse your father to death, dream about you!" Daddy pretended to be angry and said.

"Dad, you're fine. What the hell, I got in! The son couldn't wait to tell his dad the good news.

"Haha! Accepted? My son is awesome! Dad laughed and laughed so happily.

Wei Hengyi also laughed, smiling confidently.

Laughing and laughing, Daddy burst into tears. "Then I have nothing to worry about. I can rest easy. ”

Wei Hengyi stopped laughing, he felt that something was wrong.

"Silly boy! Continue! Go to the Pure Land! Daddy said, his figure blurred.

"Dad, Dad?" Wei Hengyi didn't know why, and shouted in panic.

But Daddy's figure is no longer visible.

"Hey, poor boy, this is the sixth time you've dreamed tonight. Let's mourn and change! An ethereal voice came.

"Who are you?"

"Hey, get out!"

Wei Hengyi opened his eyes and saw an unfamiliar ceiling.

He slept in the guest room of Aunt Li's house, the pillow towel was wet, and he vaguely remembered that he had just dreamed of his father.

It's really hard to accept this fact, it's really like a nightmare. Wei Hengyi hoped that when he woke up, he found that it was a long dream, and after waking up, he was watching TV in his room, and his father was still drunk, talking nonsense, and stumbled back to his bedroom.

But nothing can be changed, the death of my father has become a fact, and it has become a fact that I have become an orphan. I don't care about anyone, someone cares, and there is no one who cares about him anymore.

At the beginning, I was desperately admitted to the Sailing School for my father and myself. And now, when I walked out of the city, it became just for myself. Wei Hengyi's whole body was like a mess of mud, and he felt that he no longer had half of the motivation.

"My mom died of cancer, my dad died of cancer. What is the point of me tossing for many years and trying hard to finally get out of the city? What's the point of living on my own? Even if you go to the Pure Land and don't get cancer, you will still die sooner or later. Such a toss, for a fart? Wei Hengyi closed his eyes tiredly and fell asleep again.