This world is strange because even if you don't have the intention of harming others, there are often people who want to harm you.

And the scary thing is that you often don't know who is harming you.

After such a long time, I don't remember what time it was, but I remember that it was very cold, more than ten degrees below zero, and the residual snow formed a thin edge of ice, and my feet crunched when I stepped on it.

I have always thought that I am a person with a lot of strength in my heart, no matter how much I have been wronged, I can slowly digest it in the end, after all, no matter when, I am not desperate, because although the world is not so beautiful, but around me, there are always a few people I can trust.

But that night, I really broke down, and the people I believed in in my heart betrayed one after another, and this taste even made me have the urge to be world-weary.

Speaking of which, the biggest blow is not the blow on the **, and the most lethal thing is human words. Ma Tianshun's words pierced my eardrums like an awl, and for a moment, I felt like I was almost in an ice cave, cold all over, and an inexplicable dizziness in my brain, so that I unconsciously took a step back, as if the whole world was spinning together.

What does he mean by that? I widened my eyes and looked at Ma Tianshun with a smug face in front of me, thinking to myself, is the reason why I can't exert my strength now is because I ate the canned food I brought?

How can it be! Those things were given to me by Han Wanchun's old guy before I left, how could there be a problem? Don't...... I didn't dare to think about it anymore, cold sweat continued to ooze from my head, and at the same time I couldn't stop trembling, this trembling was not fear, but a kind of panic.

Yes, I couldn't believe it, but once this thought grew, it spread rapidly, and I kept thinking to myself, no, how could that old guy betray me? How could he be like Chen Crooked Neck and Dao An............ Suddenly, I felt a blur in front of my eyes, it seemed to be tears, I wiped my eyes, the pain in my heart could no longer be suppressed, yes, if he was really like Dao'an, then how would I know?

Just when my expression froze and my body was cold, I saw that Ma Tianshun smiled at me: "I have to admit that you kid does have two hits, and the growth speed is also amazing, now I really can't fight you, but fighting doesn't mean that there is no way, so you are still too stupid, haha, do you still think that you won't be hit by eating canned food?" Don't dream, let me tell you, in fact, your canned food has long been manipulated, so that you can no longer use the 'power of fairy bones', without the power of fairy bones, what are you? ”

"No!" I shuddered and exclaimed, "This is not true, how could that old guy betray me?" He's always with me, unless, unless.................."

Speaking of which, I found that even I didn't dare to say any more, yes, he has been with me all the time, if he wants to harm me, then this is not a betrayal, but a premeditated plan, could it be that Han Wanchun was originally with them?!

Seeing that I was speechless, Ma Tianshun shook his head, and then said to me, "You are so pitiful. ”

I found that the lethality of this sentence is more hurtful than the most vicious swearing, I stayed there for a while, my head was full of those times that had passed, I always thought that although those days were very hard, but they were very fulfilling, usually there was a lewd uncle who had no frame to work with, and there was also the hope of saving Su Yidan after finding Qingdan.

How many days have I woken up from crying in the middle of the night, but I never gave up, but now, everything I have seems to be disillusioned in an instant, Su Yidan's serious illness, the fake news of Qingli Danshen, Dao'an's betrayal, and Han Wanchun's identity, really made me feel broken.

I looked at Ma Tianshun, his face was full of ridicule, and the people around him, laughing at such insidious, that kind of smile, made me feel helpless for no reason, and my instinct transformed this helplessness into a roar, at that moment, as if in addition to pain, there was no other sound between heaven and earth, my consciousness and ** seemed to be no longer synchronized, and what I saw in front of me began to blur, I saw Qian Zhashi talking to me, but I couldn't hear what he said, Just like I could only see Huang Shan's mouth constantly closing, and I couldn't hear their words.

All along, I can't figure out the specific meaning of the word loneliness, but at that moment, I seem to really appreciate what loneliness is, at that time I feel as if my brain is about to explode, my heartbeat is constantly jumping with a tendon near my temple, and everything I see in front of me seems to have slowed down, I saw that Ma Tianshun waved his hand, as if to say something, and when I came back to my senses, the three middle-aged men had rushed to me, and the black and thin man kicked me like a kickI could see clearly, but I couldn't dodge it, and strangely, although I fell to the ground, I didn't feel any pain in my body.

My body moved involuntarily, and they scuffled together, but at that time I had an inexplicable fear in my heart, that Ma Tianshun was right, although I don't want to admit it, but Hu Baihe lent me the ability I really can't use now, and with my strength, I can't beat these strong men.

What should I do, what should I do? Is that the end of it? Is that the end of it?!

No, don't, the fear in my heart suddenly turned into helplessness, although the punch they hit me didn't make me feel pain, but this state was far more painful than pain, at this moment, a person grabbed my shoulder, and I subconsciously turned around with a kick.

At that time, my mind was full of helplessness, I just felt that the sky was falling, I really didn't want to struggle anymore, all I could think of was to escape, yes, I really wanted to run away at that time, I didn't care about anything.

So when this thought came to me, I immediately turned around and fled towards the woods, there was no wind in the woods, but I heard the sound of the wind, and the snow under my feet was very slippery, and I kept running, running, not daring to stop, and not wanting to stop.

I was in such a mess.

Running, running non-stop, walking through the woods, how many times I slipped to it, obviously I didn't want to move, but my body didn't obey the call to fight, gradually, my ears regained hearing, the footsteps of those who were chasing me behind me gradually disappeared, I don't know how long I ran, but when I came back to my senses, I felt that the lungs in my body were going to burst, and the whole body seemed to be hollowed out, and I no longer had any strength.

I sat on the ground, leaning against a big tree, gasping for breath, my head down, sweat ticking from the tip of my nose, my temples on both sides of my forehead aching, just like that, I gasped for a while, and then I looked up, and the sky above me was like an endless black trap, and a waning moon peeked out from the gap in the branches.

I just watched blankly, and after watching it for a while, the pent-up emotions exploded instantly.

I seemed to laugh at the time, yes, if I'm not mistaken, I really laughed, I didn't cry, I just laughed, I thought to myself what a ridiculous thing this is, I always thought that as long as I treat everyone around me with sincerity, it will definitely be exchanged for the sincerity of others.

I always thought that there was still something beautiful in this world, although I couldn't see it, but it was.

I always thought that as long as I didn't give up, I would be able to change some things, win some friends, and save a love with my own strength.

But why is it that the current encounter has been contrary to the beliefs in the same mind?

Speaking of Dao'an's betrayal and deception, although it hurts my heart, it doesn't make me feel this way, after all, I can't talk about his friendship too deeply, and he also has his own reasons, so I can understand him, but what about Han Wanchun? I've known this old guy for several years, usually eat and live together, go to dance together, go to the show together, and evade the pursuit of the chengguan together, he taught me a lot of things, and also helped me a lot, although I usually can't help but quarrel, but I have always regarded him as an approachable elder in my heart, I really can't understand, why did he do this, is it also because of money? Is the role of money so great? Or is this what he approached me for? So, what is our friendship over the past few years?

At that moment, I felt that the world I had been living in collapsed in an instant, so much so that I seemed to feel that I was living in a fictional world of my own, and the beauty in my heart was beautiful because he did not exist in the first place, and in this world full of self-deceit, there was no beauty at all.

The feeling of betrayal and separation turned out to be so overwhelming, I leaned against the tree, cold, trembling and laughing, this laughter I felt worse than crying.

I found myself really tired, after going through so many things, I wanted to close my eyes and just fall asleep, but I don't know why, the more I tried to escape the pain, but the more painful things followed, after closing my eyes, all the things that I had suffered came to me, and I felt hopeless.

That's it, forget it, I suddenly thought in my heart, there is no hope anyway, anyway, this world is full of deception, it is better to die clean, although I know the sin of suicide, but I felt at the time that even if I become a wandering soul and suffer in the end, it is much better than this heartache.

So, I grabbed a stone next to me, looked at it, and smiled tremblingly. But just as I was about to smash this stone on my head, a voice suddenly came to my ears: "Yaozi, what are you doing!" ”

I raised my head, only to see Qian Zha paper rushing out of the woods, his expression was solemn, and he said to me breathlessly: "Finally, I finally found you, hurry up and put down the stone, we have something to say!" ”

As I spoke, he had already stepped away and walked towards me, and when I saw him walk in, I felt a sense of fear in my heart for no reason, I hurriedly grabbed the stone, and then yelled at him: "You, don't come here!" ”

"What's wrong with you?!" Qian Zhaji said very anxiously, only to see him say as he walked: "It's hard to run out, let's withdraw, we can't beat them............"

"It's all said that you don't come here!!" I grabbed the stone and trembled, and shouted to him with tears in my eyes: "Tell me, tell me if you are here to lie to me?" Are you trying to hurt me too?! ”

When Qian Zhaji saw my expression, it seemed that he was afraid that if he continued to move forward, I would really do something stupid, so he said to me: "What, can we calm down first?" ”

As he spoke, he moved forward a little bit, and my mind was so broken that I shouted at him as if I was crazy, "Don't come here! Answer me! Answer me! Are you just like them, you lied to me?!! ”

Qian Zhashi sighed, only to see him suddenly take two steps forward, and then smiled at me and said, "Yaozi, you have suffered, but the world is big, if you don't even believe in your brother, then who else will you believe?" ”

These words, like a heavy hammer knocked on my heart, although it hurts, but it is very warm, yes, the world is big, if you don't even believe in your brother, then who else will you believe, yes, not everyone betrayed me, yes, I still have his brother.

Thinking of this, my heart suddenly became sore, and then I threw away the stone, buried my face in my hands, and finally cried.

And Qian Zhazhi also understood the cause and effect just now, and also knew that Han Wanchun prepared a lot of cats in the canned food for us, so he also understands my current suffering, speaking of which, although I have been very strong this time, but I am still an ordinary person in my twenties, and I am honest, although I usually force myself to be strong, although I also know how to use pain and anger instead of sadness, but there is still a boundary.

This kind of betrayal one after another, I believe that everyone will collapse, so Qian Zhazhi didn't speak, he knew that although the situation was urgent, but now I need to vent too much, so he just stood by my side, and when I cried enough, he lit a cigarette and handed it to me, he said to me: "It's okay? ”

I nodded, wiped the red and swollen eyes, indeed, sometimes tears are really a way to decompress, no wonder people cry when they are sad, think that if a person does not have tears, he may really live in endless depression for the rest of his life, and this depression often makes a person's thinking extreme, just like I just did, almost gave up, fortunately, fortunately, Qian Zha paper appeared in time, he made me think again, it turns out that not all people want to hurt me and lie to me, It turns out that there is still light in this dark world.

I looked at Qian Zha, this crazy person in the eyes of others, my heart was full of gratitude, but I didn't express it, because I knew that it was superfluous to say anything now, this is brother.

So I nodded, and then said to him, "Well, it's almost over, thanks to you, I was in a mess in my head just now, what the hell just happened?" ”

(To be continued)