"Wake up, Yao Yuan, it's time to get up."

Hmm, how long have I been asleep?

It feels like the soul has left **, wandering in the ethereal space, drifting, and fragments of various memories appear in a disorderly manner, and those fragments are speeding past the eyes, and they have disappeared before they can see the appearance clearly.

And just then, I heard someone calling me, the voice was so familiar, and I opened my eyes, and everything in front of me was beyond my expectations.

I found out that I was sleeping on a big bed, ** with a soft quilt on top of it, and my head hurt, and it felt like I had a hangover all night.

I blinked my dry eyes, all around me gray, with a smell unique to a hotel, and I froze, thinking to myself what was wrong? How could I be here, shouldn't I be in the hinterland of the Great Khing'an Mountains? I wasn't given by that Ma Tianshun............ As soon as I thought of this, my head began to hurt again, and at this moment, the voice next to me sounded again: "What's wrong with you, why are you still in a daze when you wake up?" ”

Who's talking? I hurriedly turned my head to look, and saw a girl lying next to me, with long hair, a small nose, a little goose-egg-like face, and two eyes looking at me tenderly.

Su Yidan?!

I froze, wondering what the hell was going on? Why am I here, why is Su Yidan here, and where is this?

Seeing that I was speechless in shock, Su Yidan frowned and smiled at me, then stretched out his finger and pointed at my forehead, and said to me at the same time: "What, do you have flowers on my face, so you can watch it so enjoyable?" ”

My head still hurt, so I looked at her in surprise and said, "Where is this?" Am I dreaming? ”

Indeed, this is the question I want to know the most, after all, all this is too inconsistent with common sense, you must know that my previous memory is still at the foot of the Shuangshan Mountain in the Great Xing'an Mountains, we fell into the trap of Shao Yu, Dao An was knocked unconscious, Qian Zha paper was also crazy, and I was chiseled by Ma Tianshun with a finger tiger and fainted, why do I wake up now, but I will appear in this kind of place?

Seeing the horror on my face, Su Yidan smiled at me, and then said, "Yes, you are dreaming fools." ”

What, I'm really dreaming? After hearing this, I was even more scared, this fear came from the bottom of my heart, and there was a trace of unwillingness and sadness in addition to the fear, why is only dreams so beautiful?

And after seeing the expression on my face froze, Su Yidan smiled again, only to see her sigh at me: "I really can't guess you, what is usually thinking in my head, tell you that you have arrived in Zhejiang, don't pretend to have amnesia and admit it with me here." ”

What, this is Zhejiang? What's going on?

I suddenly found that my brain was getting more and more messy, and when I tried to recall all this, my brain hurt again, and this pain made me tremble, seeing that Su Yidan's tone was obviously laughing at me, so I was not dreaming now, and when I thought about this, I also found a serious problem, that is, I seemed to have lost some important memories.

If this is a dream, then why is it so real?

So I said to Su Yidan, "What time is it?" ”

Su Yidan pursed his lips, and then said to me: "I don't know, okay, okay, if you wake up, don't lie on the bed, hurry up, and then you have to hurry?" ”

"Hurry? Where to? I asked subconsciously.

Su Yidan smiled, and then slowly got up, in that dark environment, her slender waist was faintly visible, I saw her sit up and put my T-shirt on her body, and then put her slippers around the other side of the bed, and stretched out her hands to open the curtains.

Suddenly, the room brightened, the light was a little dazzling to me, and there was a gust of breeze along with the light, mixed with the fresh breeze of spring grass and flowers, I saw Su Yidan standing by the window with her eyes closed, with a happy smile on her face, she stretched her waist, and then said to me: "Of course it's to see the peach blossoms, fool." ”

Peach blossom?

The morning light froze on her face, she stretched out her arms, the shadow was as beautiful as a cross on the floor-to-ceiling window of the church, and even with a hint of holiness, I could clearly see her smiling face, her ears, the faint shadow under her collarbone, everything was so real. And at that moment, I felt that these two words, like her smile, were enough to make me dizzy and overwhelmed.

At that same moment, my heart was affected by her smile, and slowly became calmer, and I suddenly had a feeling that although I didn't understand what was happening, and I couldn't remember the memory that had disappeared, wouldn't it be good?

At least Su Yidan is fine, at least she is by my side, at least we have been far away from fear and parting, at least we are already in Zhejiang, and we are about to see the peach blossoms of ten miles.

And if that's the case, then why should I bother? I feel a headache when I think about those memories, and if memories are pain, then why should I pursue them?

Thinking of this, a smile gradually appeared on my face, although this smile seemed a little sour, but my heart was extremely moved, yes, whatever? It doesn't matter if he remembers or not, what Shao Yu does he does, what Ma Tianshun does, what conspiracy he has, I don't want to care about these things anymore, I'm finally free.

And seeing me looking at her and smiling, Su Yidan frowned and said to me, "What's wrong with you, what are you smiling at?" Is it evil? ”

"No, no!!" I hurriedly shook my head like a rattle, just kidding, don't mention anything evil or gods and ghosts to me now, those things are like braised beef like instant noodles in a row in my heart at this time, just as disgusting.

"It's good if you don't have one." I saw Su Yidan walking to the edge of the bed and sitting down with two long legs, touching my forehead and saying, "Be good, I'll go wash my face and brush my teeth later, and my sister will take you to play." ”

As she spoke, she had already gotten up and gone to the bathroom with a smile, leaving me in a trance and a little overwhelmed.

However, I really resigned myself to my fate, although I really wanted to lose an extremely important memory, but I think it was really worth it, life is rare and confused, and I am not a person who cares too much about details, the result is really good, this is true.

So after buffering myself for a while, I finally showed a smile that I hadn't seen for a long time, I thought this smile was warm and innocent, but Su Yidan said that this smile was slightly obscene.

Whether it's obscene or not, it's not what I care about, so I got up to wash, and after a while, we got dressed, and after carrying our backpacks, we took the card and went out, in the elevator downstairs, I could clearly smell the shampoo smell on Su Yidan's body, so I couldn't help but take her into my arms from behind her, and the elevator slowly descended, only to see Su Yidan stunned for a moment, didn't struggle, just said softly: "This child, what's wrong today." ”

"I missed a nightmare." I buried my nose in Su Yidan's hair, and at this moment I could really feel her body temperature, and I murmured, "So, let me hug you at this moment." ”

Su Yidan smiled and didn't say anything, after a while, the first floor arrived, and after checking out, I walked out of the hotel, and there was a strange and familiar street in front of me, saying that it was strange because I had never been here, and saying that it was familiar because every city was basically like this to me.

The weather was sunny, the traffic was busy, the fashionable girl holding a parasol and wearing sunglasses passed by us while talking on the phone, the LED screen in the opposite building was showing an advertisement for a certain company, the red light stopped, the green light was on, and the vehicles on the side were all stopped, and I was holding Su Yidan's hand and running across the crosswalk with a smile.

The sun is very dazzling, the temperature is also very high, and Su Yidan and I are walking on the street, this feeling of happiness is sudden, simple and beautiful, simple like the sun rises every day, beautiful like a fantasy life.

And where is the peach blossom, I don't know, I don't even know which city I'm in now, but I can be so at ease, just like that, under the guidance of Su Yidan, we got on a bus, it is said that the bus happened to pass by the endless peach forest, in the car we whispered conversations, talking about some inconsequential things, it seems that this is what normal couples should talk about, in my opinion, the topic of pork price increase is much more warm than the curse killing.

Happy time flies in general, it seems that before I come back to my senses, we have arrived, get off the car with a backpack, the hot air above the head seems to have sunburned the air, in front of me is a green field, and I didn't see the peach forest, fortunately there is a passing fellow next to us, we asked him for directions, the fellow stretched out his hand and pointed in the direction of our left hand, and said, go there and turn a corner soon to arrive.

I don't know how fast it is in the mouth of that fellow, but Su Yidan and I have walked for a long, long time, this road is surprisingly difficult, but we have no complaints, that state is like a parade in a sweet dream, but after a long time, I am also tired, just like this, the sun slowly rises, tilts, and finally sets.

This day passed so fast, before the fall, Su Yidan and I finally saw the peach forest that appeared in the distance, it looked so peaceful in the afterglow of the fall.

After seeing this peach forest, I was extremely excited, and it took so much effort to finally bring her here, so Su Yidan and I cheered loudly, and ran hand in hand in the direction of the peach forest, the wind passed through my ears, and happiness was in front of me.

However, when the two of us ran to the peach forest, I was stunned, only to see that there was not a single peach blossom in the entire peach forest, only the stumps and leaves dotted among them.

What about peach blossoms? My heart was shocked, looking at everything in front of me, I couldn't believe it, and at the same time, an inexplicable sadness appeared, we have come here, but we have not seen the peach blossoms. I have thought countless times about what kind of situation it will be when I get here with Su Yidan, but the reality is beyond my imagination.

In other words, imaginary things are always better than reality, precisely because they are not real.

At that moment, I was extremely depressed, so I had to sit on the ground, silent, and Su Yidan did not speak, she stayed with me quietly for a while, and then sat next to me, she said to me: "What's wrong with you?" ”

"I ............," I lowered my head and said ashamedly, "I promised you to take you to see the peach blossoms, but there are no peach blossoms here." ”

"Is there a peach blossom, is it really so heavy?" I only heard Su Yidan say to me gently: "Don't you really know my mind? ”

After I heard this, I subconsciously looked up at Su Yidan, she was smiling at me, her smile was as warm as a flower.

Why don't I understand her mind? She just wanted to be with me, and seeing the peach blossoms was just a vow to live, but even so, my heart still couldn't go, so I took her hand and sighed to her: "But we worked so hard, and in the end we still couldn't see this flower, so my heart will feel bitter." ”

"Actually, you don't have to be depressed." Su Yidan held my hand, then raised her head to look at the peach forest, only to see her say softly: "Not now, it doesn't mean that there was and will not be." ”

Speaking of this, I saw Su Yidan smile faintly: "This was once a sea of flowers, and it will be the same next year, so why are we still depressed?" ”

yes, why be so depressed?

I sighed, maybe the more beautiful things are, the more ephemeral they are, her words made me think, I seemed to think of something, but I didn't want to admit it in my heart, so I whispered to Su Yidan: "Meow, are you tired?" ”

Su Yidan nodded, and then said to me: "Yes, but fortunately, with you by your side, Yao Yuan, what's wrong with you today?" ”

I sighed, then said to her, "I don't know, I feel like I've lost a memory, a memory that is important but I don't want to think about it again." ”

"Why don't you want to think about it?" Su Yidan whispered to me.

I sighed, and then said to her, "Because every time I try to think about it, my head hurts amazingly, and I really don't want to try that pain anymore." ”

I'm afraid only I can understand what I say, indeed, I think that since I entered the Dao, I have been caught in a huge conspiracy, and over the years, countless demons and monsters have seen all kinds of hot and cold worlds.

Although I don't want to admit it, but I really can't fight that Shao Yu, this terrifying opponent with a thirty-year-old appearance but nearly sixty years old, his head is really smart, and he can even see through all the legal resistance plans I came up with and use them, in my memory, I have reached a desperate situation, and even Qian Zha paper has suffered because of me, such a bad situation, where is there a chance to fight back?

In fact, what makes me feel more chilling is not these, I really found out at this time that it is not Shao Yu who makes me feel uneasy and sad, but people, yes, I don't know when it started, I began to be afraid of contact and dealing with people, because I am afraid of deception and betrayal, that kind of taste, let me live rather than die.

Why deception? Why betrayal? Why do people always have to fight against others? Why?

Therefore, instead of thinking about what will happen in the future, it is really better to stay with Su Yidan like this all the time, at least this will make me feel at ease and there will be no more pain.

After listening to my words, Su Yidan gently leaned her head on my shoulder, only to hear her say gently: "However, if there is no pain, where will there be joy?" ”

"That's what I'm really afraid of." I lowered my head and whispered, "I'm afraid that after the pain, there will be pain waiting for me." ”

"It doesn't really look like this idea came out of your mouth." I saw Su Yidan smile, and then said to me, "Yao Yuan, do you know what I like about you?" ”

I really don't know. I thought to myself, yes, what does Su Yidan like about me? Need a reason to like someone? Of course you need it, there is no love for no reason and no hate for no reason, most of the cases of love at first sight happen when handsome men and beautiful women or aesthetics are different from ordinary people.

But you must know that I am not handsome, what does Su Yidan like about me?

I saw Su Yidan muttering: "You are a cowardly, inferior self-esteem, indecisive, not to mention, and stubborn temper, if you think about it, it seems that there is really nothing good." ”

I smiled bitterly, thinking that she really knew me, and when Su Yidan said this, he paused and said softly: "However, you have kindness in your bones that ordinary people don't have, and I like your stubbornness very much. ”

When Su Yidan said this, she seemed to smile very happily, only to see her say to me: "Your persistence is the most dazzling shining point of your personality, Yao Yuan in my heart, which is a person who gives up casually, although occasionally crying in fear, but after crying, you will always continue your persistence, have you forgotten?" ”

Have you forgotten? This sentence knocked heavily on my heart, yes, did I forget? Isn't that how I got all the way?

"But I ............," I said with some sadness.

Su Yidan stretched out his finger and gently pressed my lips, then smiled at me and said, "Although there are many people and things in this world that you can't fight even if you work hard, you can't give up because of this, you know?" There is no absolute pain, only persistence that cannot be continued. ”

There is no absolute pain because you can't keep going.

This sentence made my heart sour, and at the same time, I immediately realized something, yes, isn't this my creed? Now that the south wall is in sight, why am I not determined to tear it down? Yao Yuan, Yao Yuan, what about your rhetoric? What about your vows? Why did you forget it at this time?

I haven't forgotten, I haven't forgotten!!

Thinking of this, my heart instantly surged with strength, yes, I can't give up yet, I still have to persevere, even if there is still pain ahead, but I also want to break through the end of the pain, the dawn is waiting for me there, the peach blossoms are there, no matter what, I have to take a look!

So, I was no longer confused in my heart, so I took Su Yidan's hand, and then turned to her and said, "Thank you, I'm no longer confused, nothing can make me confused, I decided to face that experience." ”

Su Yidan shook his head with a smile, and then said to me, "Maybe that memory hasn't been produced yet. ”

"Is that really the case?" Once again, there was a faint melancholy in my heart, and this melancholy was not because of the world, but because of her.

I saw Su Yidan nodded, then stood up and said to me: "The feeling of being with you in this peach forest is really good, although it is quite short, but I am really happy." ”

"Are you leaving?" I looked at Su Yidan, her slender body was gilded with a layer of golden pink under the reflection of Luoyue, just like a woman in a painting, I murmured to her, "Can I join you?" ”

"It's not time yet." I saw Su Yidan smiling at me and said, "You go that way, I'll go this way." ”

After finishing speaking, Su Yidan stretched out his hand and pointed behind him, which was the direction of the peach forest, and the end of the peach forest was the sunset. After listening to her say this, I lowered my head, only to feel the sourness in my heart welling up, turned into tears in my eyes, I didn't dare to look up at her smiling face, I could only say to her word by word: "Believe me, I will definitely take you to see the real peach blossoms." ”

"It must be beautiful." I saw that Su Yidan's tone suddenly became very relaxed, and she said to me: "Well, then I'll wait for you to pick me up, don't forget." ”

After finishing speaking, Su Yidan turned around and walked towards the peach forest without peach blossoms, and I sat on the ground, shouting at her back in a hoarse voice: "I can't forget!" I'll never forget!! ”

Su Yidan just left, leaving me where I was, the sunset was about to set, the horizon was fiery red, after she disappeared, I sighed, I now know what is going on, and I understand that what I see now is not reality, and I want to return to reality, to tear down the south wall, to end the pain.

So, I closed my eyes, and recalled the scene before I fainted again, and sure enough, a sharp pain came, but I didn't give up again, but kept insisting on remembering, just like that, my eyes suddenly swirled, and then the darkness fell, the pain on the top of my head became clearer and clearer, and the pain was like my head was bitten open, and at this moment, I opened my eyes, I woke up crying, and the familiar smell of grass brought me back to Daxinganling again, and the tears in my eyes couldn't stop falling.

I'm back, back to the reality that once terrified me.

(To be continued)