I just got up and received a text message from my girlfriend.

The relationship has always been very good, since I wrote the book full-time, I didn't accompany her carefully, and I didn't contact her on the phone, and I was negligent when I was dedicated to coding words.

The sudden blow made my heart feel so heavy, and I love her very much.

I still remember that I just met three years ago, when I was in school, and I saved 100 yuan a week to see her, plus the living expenses I got the next week, and invited her to eat and play.

It's not a lot of money, but it's all I've had.

Then I slowly entered the society, slowly made money, when I did e-commerce, it was to resell mobile phones and assemble computers, get commissions to eat, more than 1,000 guaranteed wages a month, but occasionally a friend asked me to buy a mobile phone, transfer two or three hundred, and immediately give her money.

Or save money!

Later, the full-time code word, the income slowly increased, about 2,000, about 3,000.

I promised that I would give her a 5s, so I gritted my teeth and saved the money, and finally gave it to her at the beginning of the year.

I still remember the best time, it was my first love, although she was willful, ignorant, and fun-loving, I accommodated him.

Because I didn't look very good-looking, people only moved my sincerity at the beginning and thought I was down-to-earth.

I was wholeheartedly for her, I brought her to my parents and proudly said, Dad, Mom, this is my girlfriend.

I proudly brought it to my grandmother, grandfather, and my uncle's family, and look, this is my girlfriend.

This breakup, at first felt impossible, incredible, I can't imagine how uncomfortable I must be to lose her.

There are quarrels, disputes, and unspeakable bonds between us.

I have a clear conscience about her, I remember that I only had fifty yuan on me a few days ago, because I was full-time at home, I didn't need to spend money, so I charged her phone bill, and when I went home on National Day, she didn't have enough money, so I gritted my teeth and took the family money.

I am not accustomed to saving the manuscript fee every month, because I have to give 1,000 to my family, take out 1,000 to entertain my friends, give food and drink to my friends and brothers, and the remaining 1,000 go shopping and eat, and there is not much left left.

I feel like my life is actually a waste.

I felt like the world of faith was falling, but I didn't plead with her, I didn't plead with her.

Because she said that she was afraid of relying on me, and she was afraid that she would suffer pain in the future.

Actually I'd love to say, no, I'll always love you.

I really will always love you.

But I didn't say it.

At this moment, I understood what it means to cut my heart like a knife, as if someone took a knife and stabbed it in my heart, fiercely, ruthlessly!

I can't put into words how I felt, all I know is that I was bent over to type because it hurt so much.

Tears flowed uncontrollably, and I pretended to be strong.

I know that these days are another sleepless night, I can't sleep, I can't sleep.

Tired

It won't affect the update.,But tomorrow it's a day off.,Although there's a manuscript.,But I can't update it today and tomorrow.,I'm sorry.。

When I get back in shape, I'll be writing in a stronger state.

I want to be self-reliant!

It's not that I want to fight for face and make her regret it.

I just want to tell her in a few years later, in one meeting, that I'm doing well.