"Hey, Yao Yuan, how are you, if you heard this recording, I think you've solved everything, I know that you little fool must be able to do it."

At 8:32 p.m., I sat on the bed in the hotel, lost in my soul, holding an MP4 in my bandaged hand, my eyes red and swollen, and I didn't say a word, the room was full of smoke, the lamp at the head of the bed was glowing orange, and the ashtray on the table was full of half-smoked cigarette butts.

Su Yidan died.

This is a fact that I had expected but could not believe.

In the hospital, I knelt at the door of the ward, my heart was empty, thinking back to the encounters of the past few days, the experiences of the past few years, and the dream, and suddenly, an unstoppable sadness poured out like a tide.

But I couldn't make any sound, and even the tears that I usually had to be very active disappeared without a trace, so I had to slam my fist on the floor one at a time, once, twice.

When Han Wanchun and the others arrived, my fists were already full of plasma, thinking about Dao'an, they already knew what was going on at this time, they knew the pain in my heart, and they didn't know how to step forward to comfort me for a while, and Han Wanchun stepped forward at this time to pull me up, and then grabbed my shoulders and said anxiously to me: "Xiaoyuan!" What are you doing here? You must ...... Don't ............"

I thought I would roar, but I didn't, at that time, I just looked at Han Wanchun, at the head of the Xuan Dao and his party, and at the sad Qian Zha paper and Dao'an, then my eyes were red, and then the corners of my mouth twitched slightly, and I still didn't cry, I just said to Han Wanchun: "Uncle Chun, when did it happen." ”

My voice now sounds like crying, and it is very light, Han Wanchun saw my expression like this, I was really afraid that I would do something out of the ordinary, but I should let me know, I always have to tell me, so he sighed to me: "After you leave, a week later, in the evening." ”

"Did she suffer?" I asked softly.

"Nope." Han Wanchun said to me: "She walked quite peacefully, fell asleep, and there was no pain. ”

"That's all." I said slowly, "If you don't suffer, you ............."

I realized that I could not speak anymore, so my grief exploded, tears poured out uncontrollably, and I cried bitterly in the corridor of the hospital.

Crying is perhaps the most common sound in the hospital, some of which represent the arrival of life, and some of which represent the passing of life.

It was the most heart-rending cry in my life, and in the end, Qian Zhazhi also hugged me and cried, he patted me on the back and cried and said to me: "Yaozi, Yaozi, don't you cry, don't you still have us?" Cry again, watch your eyes! ”

I didn't want to cry, but I just couldn't stop it.

It turned out that when we arrived in Jiagedaqi, Su Yidan was already dead, because her body had already reached its limit and could no longer withstand the load, so she slept quietly that night.

Han Wanchun told me that they had done their best, but there was really no way but to watch her leave in their sleep, and they didn't dare to tell me about this matter in Jiagedaqi, for fear that something would happen to me because of this.

Han Wanchun told me that in fact, in the days before she died, Su Yidan had already noticed her condition, and she knew that she would not live long, so she begged Han Wanchun to accompany him in a play.

She knew that I would call her, so she recorded a few voices and handed them to Han Wanchun, hoping that he would broadcast them to me when I called.

What do I not understand about her intentions? She also knew that I was with Shao Yu at that time, and if I was not careful, I would fall into a situation from which I could never recover, and she didn't want me to be in danger, nor did she want to tell me this cruel reality, so she had to choose this method so that I could face the final challenge wholeheartedly.

But when I heard this, my heart became more and more uncomfortable, so that I cried all day in a trance, and finally, Han Wanchun and they took me to this hotel, Han Wanchun They were afraid that something would happen to me, so they also lived next door to me, but at that time my mood was really difficult to describe in words, I just felt too tired and tired, as if I was quiet alone.

Han Wanchun, they respected my choice, at the end, Han Wanchun handed me an mp4, and he said to me, there is the last recording of Su Yidan, which is for you, you listen to it, tomorrow, I will take you to her grave.

After the door closed, I sat down on the bed and started smoking, one after the other, and I realized that I really didn't have the courage to listen to this recording, but in the end I had no choice but to click on the playback.

But after listening to the first paragraph, my heart was already like a knife, so I grabbed the green lily salvia placed next to the bed, threw it out, and then cried and said: "Why are you so stupid, you are already gone, so what's the use of me finding this thing, you tell me, you tell me!" ”

After crying like this for a while, my eyes began to ache, so I gently pressed the play button again, and Su Yidan's voice was tired and peaceful.

"Yao Yuan, I know you're crying now............ This feeling is really annoying, I know you're crying, but I can't wipe your tears across time and space. I know you must be in pain right now, but I hope you understand that I have no regrets.................."

I lowered my head, not daring to cry, for fear of missing every word of Su Yidan, the player in my hand was still running, I quietly listened to what she said to me, her tone was very gentle, and it seemed that there was really no sadness: "Yao Yuan, do you know, in fact, I expected this day a long time ago, I didn't tell you, you won't be angry, okay, if you want to be angry, be angry, really blame me." ”

Fool, how could I be angry with you? I thought in my heart, and Su Yidan's voice continued, only to hear her say to me: "Actually, you don't have to blame yourself too much, this is a predestined thing, really, remember when we were on Yin Si Street, that old Taoist, yes, it was the old Taoist with one eye open, when you went to find your brother, it chatted with me a few words, so I already knew that I would have today." ”

It turned out that Su Yidan had long known that he would not be able to get rid of the fate of death after returning to his soul, which was exactly what the Beichuan Daoist said to him, but when I heard this, I was even more puzzled in my heart, didn't this Beichuan Daoist say that we still have twenty-four years of fate? Why did Su Yidan die like this? Could it be that the old Taoist is also lying to me? He's afraid that I won't go looking for the fox fairy treasure after I know the truth? It's too cruel to me!!

I was thinking of this, only to hear Su Yidan's voice come out again, only to hear her say to me: "I guess you must be very puzzled now, in fact, don't complain about Beichuan Daochang, after all, he didn't lie to you, he said to me, the cause of my death has long been doomed, it is the bane left by my ancestors, this retribution cannot be removed, and the two days when I am still yang, it has been a gift from God to me............ Yao Yuan, in fact, fate is really wonderful, it will change with the change of your mentality, I was as puzzled as you at the time, But the governor of Kitagawa didn't explain to me why, he is a master, there is no way. ”

I sighed, there is no way, why are there so many things in this world that there is no way?

And the voice in the player continued: "Yao Yuan, do you know, in fact, I really don't regret it at all, really, really don't ............ at all"

When the recording reached this point, Su Yidan's voice in the headphones was obviously choked, and I only heard her say to me: "Yes, why should I regret it, although my life is short, I am very fortunate to have met you in my short life...... Why do you say that you are so stupid, stupid enough to look for a legendary thing regardless of your surname, so stupid that you ruined your future so easily, stupid to ............ Stupid enough to make me like you so much. ”

Su Yidan's voice was obviously crying, and I closed my eyes, and the world was dark.

Su Yidan's voice sobbed for a while, and then he choked up and said: "Yao Yuan, I forgot that I didn't say this to you, really, I want to be with you, but I can't accompany you, the peach blossoms are there, but I can't be with you, this should be the only thing I am unwilling to do............ However, I beg you one last time, don't do anything stupid, okay, Governor Kitagawa once told me that we should meet again, I think it is not now, it should be my next life. ”

Su Yidan finally cried silently, and her voice sounded like a knife in my heart, as she said, although I knew she was crying, but I didn't have the ability to comfort her across time and space.

It's one of the big hates of my life.

In the next life, is there really an afterlife?

And after Su Yidan cried for a while, he said to me: "If there is an afterlife, I want to be healthy and healthy, and I can accompany you to many places, but ...... But I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'll forget you............ Okay, look at me, I didn't want to cry, was I infected by you, in fact, when I think of the next life, I feel relieved, Yao Yuan, let's not cry, okay? Is it good for you to answer me? ”

I knew that this was just a recording after many years, but I still nodded fiercely, and Su Yidan's voice came out softly: "I can't see it, but, no matter what, I want to tell you one last thing, I love you, it's an honor to have you with me in this life, I don't want to forget you, but my time is running out, Yao Yuan, take care, take care of yourself, if there is fate, I hope I won't forget, if I forget, you have to remember to remind me of you." That's it...... I am waiting for you in the next life. ”

I am waiting for you in the next life.

At this point, the audio had stopped, and there was silence around me, and I finally understood everything as I remembered the dream of that day.

I always thought that the so-called south wall was just some man-made ordeal, but at this moment, I understood that the real south wall was indeed a changing fate.

That night, I sat on the edge of the bed in a daze, listening to Su Yidan's messages to me over and over again, until the sky outside the window gradually brightened and the dawn of a new day began.

I stayed up all night, and yet I figured out one thing, one thing I needed to do.

At dawn the next day, I was wearing a black suit that Chen Crooked Neck had bought for me, and I was accompanied by everyone to the public fundraising, Su Yidan's tomb was still new, I burned some paper in front of the grave, and then sat on the side and lit a cigarette and smoked silently.

Hu Baihe, who was wearing a white suit, came uninvited, obviously it couldn't rest assured of me, it was by my side, just like that, about half an hour later, Han Wanchun came over, he patted me lightly on the shoulder, and then said to me: "That's what we do, there are some things you should also understand, people can't be resurrected after death, and people who are alive have to live well." ”

I nodded at Han Wanchun, then rubbed my bloodshot eyes, and sighed softly, "I understand, Uncle Chun, thank you, I'm fine." ”

After finishing speaking, I got up and bowed to Han Wanchun and his party, thanks to their support, otherwise I really wouldn't be able to go today.

In fact, at that time, they were really afraid that I would commit suicide because of this, so after seeing that I had finally stabilized, they also breathed a sigh of relief, only to see that Han Wanchun nodded at me, and then said: "That's fine, isn't there still us?" Look away, by the way, what's next for you? Come back to Harbin with me? ”

I shook my head at Han Wanchun, and then said softly, "No, I've been away from home for too long, and I want to go home first, and then ............ I'm going to go on a trip. ”

"Travel?" After listening to my words, everyone was obviously stunned, only to see Qian Zhashi say to me: "Why are you traveling?" Do you have a place you want to go? ”

I shook my head, and then said, "This is not necessarily, it doesn't matter where I go, I'll go to find Su Yidan, she is still waiting for me in that distant place." ”

When it is said to be traveling, it should actually be more appropriate to call it wandering.

Yes, I've decided, I'm going to find her and take her to see Peach Blossom.

After listening to my words, everyone was shocked again, they thought I was crazy, so I had to explain to them, and after listening to my explanation, they understood what was going on, so their faces invariably showed regret again.

Actually, in my opinion, there is nothing to regret about this.

Hu Baihe saw that I was going on a trip, so he said to me that he wanted to follow me, anyway, I am now an orthodox shaman, and I can take it across the river and cross the line, I nodded at this, I knew that it wanted to protect me, so after making up my mind, I turned to look at Su Yidan's grave again, and she was smiling happily in the photo.

In this way, my life in Shenyang has come to an end.

I once asked Uncle Chun, how many ways is there to reincarnate a person, and the old bastard said to me, how many more can there be, it's nothing more than one kind, ah yes, there seems to be another kind, there have been such examples before, after a person is resurrected from the dead, the surname and memory will become another person, this is borrowing the corpse to return the soul.

The next day, after saying goodbye to everyone, I stepped on the train home, back to my hometown, my hometown grandma is really getting older, but she still spoils me so much, when I told her that I 'resigned' and wanted to go to the south for a while, although she wiped her tears in distress, but she also agreed.

Sister Xin is still the same, that night I sat with it on the stone mill at the entrance of the village, she was eating the stove candy, and at the same time pouted and said to me: Those brothers and sisters of the Huang family seem to be getting more and more listless, and they actually smiled at me a few days ago. Xiaoyuan, what do you say is going on?

I looked at it dressed in red, smiled faintly, and then said: This should be a good reward, sister, if one day those people from the Huang family leave, then where are you going.

Yao Shouxin smiled, and then said to me: Don't go anywhere, this is my home, if our big shaman has a child in the future, my sister will help you watch the child.

I smiled at it again and didn't speak, and after a while, Yao Shouxin said to me: By the way, you are leaving in a while, where are you going?

After thinking about it, I looked up and sighed: Harbin, before I hit the road, there is still an important thing waiting for me.

The night sky was quiet, the moon gave off a faint light, I seemed to have long been accustomed to this kind of night, I thought to myself, under the reflection of this moonlight, how many joys and sorrows in the world appeared, and how many supernatural and dark things happened, am I alone? Probably not.

In this way, the day by day passed by the child, dull and boring, but reassuring, but there was still a faint sadness in my heart, every time I woke up from a dream, I didn't dare to forget that there was Su Yidan waiting for me to find her in the distance.

Frost fell, light snow, heavy snow, the weather soon became cold, and in the blink of an eye, the small village was already full of wind and snow outside the mountain before you knew it.

After spending a Spring Festival at home, I said goodbye to my grandmother and went back to Harbin after I was sure that I had completely calmed down.

In fact, in this period of time at home, I was not idle, I entrusted Hu Baihe and many monsters to do a big thing during this time.

That is to completely dismantle this Golden Witch Cult, although after the death of Shao Yu, Ma Tianshun and Huang Shan, the Golden Witch Cult has become a puddle of scattered sand, but it is still doing some shady deeds, so I want to completely eradicate it, after all, I don't want similar tragedies to happen in this world.

Hu Baihe did a pretty good job this time, and many villains of the Golden Witch Sect committed suicide one after another, until I arrived in Harbin, there was no longer such a cult in the northeastern region.

And what I have to do is another thing, and it is also the last thing I have done in the three chapters of the Dharma with that Shao Yu.

Before going to Jiagedaqi, Shao Yu promised me three things, and the last one was that no matter what, after returning from Jiagedaqi, he would give Su Yidan's family a sum of money, and he also signed a contract for this.

The reason why I did this was to ask him to make a little compensation to Su Yidan's family, after all, this is what they deserve.

However, Shao Yu was poisoned and died in the fox fairy treasure, so I have to go to Harbin to do this thing in person, if Shao Yu really goes missing, it will also be a troublesome matter, after all, he is still a person with a head and a face, and if this matter is investigated by the police, I can't get rid of it.

But fortunately, I have the help of the fox fairy, so this time I went to Harbin, just to sign a fair property transfer with Hu Baihe, who turned into Shao Yu, for which we are all laymen, so we have to find a law firm to handle it.

Han Wanchun had already returned to Harbin at this time, and Qian Zhaji felt that it was more interesting to play with Han Wanchun, the old guy, so he also stayed to help.

When we met again after the year, we naturally had a big drunkenness, and the next day, they accompanied me and Hu Baihe to find a law firm, and the lawyer we were looking for seemed to be absent at the time, and a young man with long hair and the same age as us received us, and he poured us tea while smiling at us and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please wait a minute, teacher, he will come soon." ”

This young man seems to be a secretary, and he is really handsome, but unfortunately there is a black birthmark under one eye.

After a while, the lawyer we were looking for finally came, and after shaking hands with us, he said to the young man next to him, "Xiao Zhang, bring me my bag from the house, ah, by the way, your father asked me if you are used to staying here, you said this person, alas." ”

Xiao Zhang smiled and nodded, and without speaking, he walked out of the room.

To say that the lawyer is quite capable, talking to him is like chatting about family life, it seems that the guy with a disability on his face is the son of his classmate, and he wants to be a lawyer in the future, so he came here to experience life.

I didn't care about these trivial things, so we got to the point, after all, that's what people do, so the steps were fairly simple, and we were able to get a contract on the same day, and after listening to our requests, the lawyer left the room and told us to wait, and we had nothing to do, so we talked.

Qian Zhashi said to me: "Yaozi, what are you going to do with this money?" ”

I shrugged my shoulders, and then whispered to him: "Give a part of Su Yidan's family, and then donate, after all, there are still so many people suffering in this world." ”

"You might as well donate the Red Cross to me." Han Wanchun, the old bastard, turned forty watts in his eyes as soon as he heard the money, and I saw him say to me: "Don't do that thing of riding a donkey to find a donkey, I'm a poor man, Xiaoyuan." ”

I smiled, and then scolded him: "If you donate it the first day, you will probably have to be brought to you the next day, to be honest, uncle, I'm really afraid that you will go straight to the Cannes red carpet after taking the money." ”

Han Wanchun laughed, and then said self-deprecatingly: "Hey, isn't this my hobby, yes, I can't save money in my life." ”

Han Wanchun has always been a mystery in my heart, I really don't know if he has the ability or pretending to be the ability, but maybe it is really as he said, what does it mean if he has the ability or not? Not the same alive?

That's right.

Chatting and chatting, our topic talked about my trip again, Qian Zhashi actually really disapproved of me being so reckless, after all, we all knew that this might be an endless wandering.

So he said to me, "Yaozi, why don't you think about it?" How do you ...... Is it really good? ”

I smiled and was about to speak, when the intern Zhang entered the room, and he smiled at us as he cleaned up the table, and said, "Let's talk about a few of you." ”

I smiled and said to him, "Well, let's talk, my teacher asked you two to go to the room to see if there are any changes that need to be made." ”

At this time, Qian Zhashi beside him frowned, and he said to me: "Don't interrupt the topic, I'll tell you serious." ”

I sighed, and then thought to myself, I thought that instead of answering the paper directly, it would be better to take a different approach, so I said to the intern, "Brother, let me ask you a question." ”

The intern Xiao Zhang smiled: "Hey, what's the matter, just ask." ”

I said to him, "Do you believe that there is an afterlife?" ”

After listening to my words, Xiao Zhang was stunned for a moment, but the smile on his face immediately returned, and he said to me: "Of course, it's like a flower blooming, but next year's flower is not this year's." ”

I wanted to express my wish through the intern's mouth, but I heard an answer from his mouth that seemed to have a deep meaning, so I said to him, "Whatever that one, you must go as long as you promise someone to see this flower, don't you?" ”

After pondering for a while, Xiao Zhang smiled, only to see him nod at me, and then said, "It turns out that everyone's choice is different." ”

"yes." I smiled.

"What don't you spend?" I saw that Qian Zha Paper next to him was a little anxious, and he said to me, "I'll tell you something serious." ”

"I've answered you, brother." I stood up with a smile, and Hu Baihe, who was incarnated as Shao Yu, followed Xiao Zhang out the door.

Yes, everyone has a different choice, although the flowers bloom differently, but the oath made in my heart does not dare to forget and will not forget, what I promised her, I must do it.

That's my choice.

Just as I walked out of the house, I vaguely heard the conversation between Qian Zhashi and Han Wanchun behind me, and Qian Zhashi seemed to be confused and whispered to Han Wanchun: "Uncle Chun, do you think this is reliable?" ”

"Ugh." Han Wanchun sighed, and then said in a smaller voice to Qian Zha Paper: "I used to calculate when that girl passed away, and my fate is over." ”

"Then you still don't persuade you." I saw Qian Zha paper said.

"Be quiet, can I persuade me?" Han Wanchun said.

Qian Zhashi scolded in a low voice, and then said to Han Wanchun: "Is your fortune-telling thing reliable?" ”

Han Wanchun said: "Why is it unreliable, I am a famous person in the Northeast." ”

"No, no, no, I'm still not at ease, you can do the math again." Qian Zha paper said.

Han Wanchun sighed, and then said, "It's really you, okay, count it.................. Well? Twenty-four years?? ”

I always feel that fate can be changed, or in other words, the same fate, in the face of your attitude, will change into a shape that is more in line with your dreams.

Because dreams cannot be fully realized, they can only be infinitely close.

So, after completing the formalities and taking care of everything, I said goodbye to my good friends with a backpack and a guitar on my back, and then went on the road.

The journey is not as difficult as imagined, in fact, this process is to cleanse the soul, meet different people and different things along the way, let me feel the gears of growth turn a little bit, and the more mature, the more I feel that the world is so big, it turns out that I am so small.

During my trip, I went to many places, Shandong, Tianjin, Hebei,............ In Yanjing, I also unexpectedly met my former college classmate Jia Mingliang.

He is now a resident singer in a bar, and when his classmates meet for many years, it is inevitable that they will sigh with emotion, and time has brought all the ways we used to be in the photos, making us realize how distant the ethereal past was.

However, our hearts were full of joy, classmates met, it was inevitable to get drunk, talk about some topics that used to feel childish and feel sentimental at this time, he said to me, Yao Zi, you have changed so much, I almost don't recognize you.

I smiled and didn't speak.

After that, he said that he would take me to the club, and I had nothing to do, so I followed, Jia Mingming's muscles were tattooed all over his body at this time, I looked at him while drinking beer in the audience, I was very glad that he had been sticking to his ideals, I think that among our buddies at the beginning, only he still kept the dream when he first entered college.

Dreams are a thing, no matter how high or low, as long as you can persevere, it is shining.

After Jia Mingliang finished singing three songs, he got off the stage, and after coming to my side, I knocked the wine bottle with him, and I smiled at him, okay, Liangzi, the fan is getting harder and harder, it's really awesome.

He drank half a bottle of beer in one go, then wiped his sweat, smiled at me, and then said: What's so awesome about this, you go with me tomorrow, and I'll show you the real awesome 'wild road'."

The next night, Jia Mingliang and I went to a very lively bar, and that night I heard that a very famous band that had also acted in movies was coming to the show.

The first time I've heard of this band, it's called 'Second Hand Roses', and it's said that the lead singer is still a native of my hometown.

After a while, I have drunk three bottles of Budweiser, this band came, the lead singer of the band is a big bald head, a man actually wears a cheongsam, and wiped a red face, very 'artistic' style, I look at this big brother's dress, my heart suddenly became cordial, this man to stand there as if singing two people.

In fact, this band did integrate the folk opera of the Northeast into rock and roll, and after listening to two songs, I couldn't laugh anymore, Jia Mingliang was right, this guy is really awesome.

His singing voice made my heart feel very shocked, this kind of singing and lyrics, only hit people's hearts, at least directly hit my heart.

However, this is not what touched me the most, the reason why I wrote down this matter to tell you is because after that, after the lead singer sang two songs, he began to laugh with the following, and the swear words came out of his mouth, but it sounded so down-to-earth, I had drunk five bottles of beer at the time, and my brain was a little dizzy, and I only heard the lead singer on the stage say to the following: "It's not early, everyone with children is hugging tightly, let's start, dance the gods!" ”

After I heard this, my body trembled unconsciously, it turned out that they had a song, called "Dancing God".

The weird music sounded, I looked at the stage, with the lead singer's fluttering and high-pitched sentence "Please ~~ Shen'er ~~ la~~~" after singing, my eyes began to slowly burst with tears, this song, until now I have not forgotten, slowly, I began to drink beer silently, but tears silently flowed with some manic music.

"Dancing God"

Lyrics and songs: Second-hand roses look at the east building and look at the west building, and poverty looks at the rich.

The rich and the poor are all worried about everything, and they are all worried about all diseases.

It's always hard to dream in the early morning, and there is no harvest in the middle of the night.

There is always a heart that can fly, but it is like spring water.

Jump, jump, jump, jump.

The east building is looking at the west building.

Who is richer than whom.

I don't understand that it's my own life.

I can't learn what others sing.

Life is not long.

But someone bowed his head.

Some people exchange their conscience for good wine, and some people become lackeys of witchcraft.

Jumping some people dance great gods, and jumping some people jump great gods.

I said that there are people who jump the gods! Jump God!

The gloomy wind swept by, blowing the result up.

I can't pick up the flowers on the ground.

The wind blows, and death is as lonely.

It's like ushering in a new era.

The wind is blowing, and we have to cooperate with the corroded life we are living.

When I see you, an ambiguous smile.

I woke up scared.

(To be continued)