Eating the barbecue in the barbecue restaurant, drinking beer, listening to Liang Yun'er talk about some campus life that has no chewing, no nutrition and no practical use, it seems that this is a woman's natural surname, although they also know that what they have in their mouths is quite gossip and boring, but they are still talking with great interest, Zhang Shifei can't believe that his heart is so calm at this moment.

At this time, the eyes are so dazzling, and there seems to be a trace of laziness in the air, what a calm afternoon, that is, a teenager who has drunk too much and is vomiting on the side of the road is a little slight, this is exactly what should happen in college, Zhang Shifei put his elbow on the table, and looked at it, the teenager who drank too much looked like he was ten years old, it was a good time, his friend saw him vomit, and helped him up while scolding him, and then the two walked step by step into the distance.

Zhang Shifei looked at this scene, he suddenly felt that he was extremely old, at least at this time in his heart, although he was only twenty-one years old, but he had experienced a life that many people did not dare to imagine and choose, and he had gone all the way, and there was no room for respite.

Experience creates a person's surname, this sentence is simply too true, even if the flowers in the greenhouse live for a long time, they can't appreciate what wind and frost are, but the weeds are only one year old, and they already understand what the biting cold is, Zhang Shifei has been exercising for a few months, in addition to the physical changes, more changes come from the heart.

He understands that in this world, there are many truths that are not easy to explain in words, just like the blooming and withering of a flower, the bitterness and fate of a person, the remnant of a beast, although Zhang Shifei does not like to learn since he was a child, but he is still a generation that is immersed in silver by characteristic thoughts, although he also understood that these ideas and theories are just things, and they are completely useless in the real society, but he is still unconsciously dyed with color.

This is an invisible color, all over the whole deformed society, and when Zhang Shifei found out, he was naturally very surprised in his heart, and then surprised, he would fall into a strange circle of thinking, people, from birth to be controlled by fate, living in suffering, but who stipulates this? Why can't people control their own destiny?

What is fate, is it an ethereal wind? Although it can't be seen, but it can give people incomparably cold?

Zhang Shifei smiled bitterly, and thought far away, it seems that I am really not far from madness, even the gods can't understand these things, how can I figure it out? Zhang Shifei thought of this, so he lit a cigarette, and smoked without a puff, Liang Yun'er on the other side was still very excited to tell him about those things on campus, but Zhang Shifei didn't listen to it at all, his eyes were still looking at the two teenagers who were walking farther and farther away outside the window at this time.

Zhang Shifei looked at the two young men, and saw his former shadow in their bodies in a trance, wasn't he like this before, accompanied by a brother, like drunk when he was drunk, he didn't care about anything else at all, this is, that kind of time has passed, and he can't come back, Zhang Shifei thought of this, and smiled bitterly again.

"What's the matter, what's the smirk?" Liang Yun'er blinked, then tilted her head to look at Zhang Shifei.

Am I laughing silly? Zhang Shifei turned his head, waved his hand, and said, "No, I saw a drink and vomit just now, and I thought it was quite interesting." ”

Liang Yun'er sighed, and then snatched most of the cigarette left in Zhang Shifei's mouth and threw it into the ashtray. ”

It was indeed a bit disgusting to say that he was vomiting during the meal, Zhang Shifei reacted at this time, he suddenly scratched his head a little embarrassed, and then said to Liang Yun'er: "I'm sorry...... I will definitely change it in the future. ”

Liang Yun'er saw that Zhang Shifei's face was a little red, and she couldn't help but laugh, and then said to him: "Okay, what are you sorry for me." ”

When Liang Yun'er said this, she pursed her lips, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "I have already told you before, I like you, no matter what you do, I will adapt, so I don't want you to change anything for me, okay?" ”

I have changed a lot for you, Zhang Shifei hurriedly raised his draft beer glass, and while hiding his wry smile with the action of drinking, he responded vaguely.

After a while, the two finished eating, and the afternoon had just begun, around one o'clock, there was still a lot of time waiting for Zhang Shifei to squander, although this sentence sounded a little ironic, but it was true.

Zhang Shifei proposed to Liang Yun'er to go for a walk, Liang Yun'er naturally accepted it happily, and the two went out and took a taxi and went straight to the river.

The water of the Songhua River, in this season, is a piece of blue at a glance, and it is indeed turbid at a glance, even if it is so, it can't block the pedestrians, there are still a lot of tourists with Little Red Riding Hood, just like children in kindergarten who are led around by the tour guide girls, Zhang Shifei looked at their expressions, how to look like they were fooled and unhappy, the stone steps, Zhang Shifei and Liang Yuner walked side by side like this, without holding hands.

In fact, this feeling is quite torturous, obviously Zhang has a stomach to say, but can't find a way to express it, in the last afternoon in Harbin, is it just like this in the riverside very stupid walking around?

Fortunately, Liang Yun'er looks very lively, and her smile has never left her face, as if Zhang Shifei next to her is a piece of wood, she is very happy.

After walking for a while, Liang Yuner said that she was tired, and they sat on the stone steps by the river, as soon as Zhang Shifei sat down, he subconsciously felt out of the smoke, Liang Yuner did not stop it, the sun was still very dazzling, even if it was blocked by the shade of the tree, the temperature did not disappear, the two sat like this, looking at the river surface of the Songhua River, and the Sun Island opposite, about half an hour or so, before muttering to Zhang Shifei: "Something on your mind?" ”

If you want to say that women are naturally sensitive, this sentence is really not false, it may be because of the different physiological structures, if it is said that from birth, every man is a magician, then every woman is also a detective, Zhang is convinced of this, because there is a detective Liu Yudi in Fuze Hall, who can thwart Mr. Cui's cigarette hiding case every time, and give a strong condemnation.

Zhang Shifei smiled bitterly, didn't turn his head, still looked at the rippling river, and then said 'En'.

"Is it at work?" Liang Yun'er asked very thoughtfully.

"Sort of." Zhang Shifei nodded, and then subconsciously said: "I've encountered some trouble recently, and I'm very unhappy." ”

As soon as Zhang Shifei finished speaking, he only felt a sudden chill on his shoulder, and at the same time, a burst of fragrance came to his nose, Zhang Shifei was shocked, it turned out that Liang Yun'er reached out and grabbed his shoulder, Zhang Shifei suddenly tightened his whole body unconsciously, and at the same time thought to himself, no, does the sentence he just said have such a sense of surname, why would she hug me?

This is not a joke thing, you must know that it is really by the river now, the crowd of people playing, many of them are here to engage in objects, not far from Zhang Shifei, there are such crowded couples who are proficient in hugging skills, the atmosphere here can really be said to be very romantic, although it is a bit shameless to say this, but now it is a lonely man and a widow, so I can't guarantee that this Liang Yuner will say something like this, such as let's make the relationship clear.

Uncle, how is this good? Zhang Shifei suddenly ran out of ideas, and just as he was about to break free, he only heard Liang Yun'er mutter: "Don't move, that's it, let me rely on you for a while." ”

One sentence, just this one, it was like giving the right and wrong to the acupoint, seeing that Liang Yun'er gently leaned her head on his shoulder, and then said to him: "I'm so tired, are you tired?" ”

Are you tired? When Zhang Shifei heard this, a sour feeling suddenly surged in his heart, am I tired? Of course I'm tired, Zhang Shifei sighed, thinking to himself, in the past few months, he has lived an inhuman life, the night is longer than the day, how many times he has struggled on the edge of life and death, just to survive, but in the end, what did he get? Cursed in his body, no man or demon, the only brother also fell into the devil's way, suddenly, he felt that the future was so far away, he was now immortal, and fighting with those strong outrageous egg demons was completely self-defeating, even if it was a dead end, he had to go on.

How far do you have to go on such a road? When is the end? Even if my most beloved woman is by my side, but I can't even say I love you, how long will it take? Can I wait until the end of the day? Zhang Shifei was suddenly sad, yes, he was just a twenty-one-year-old young man, but he had to carry so many burdens, he didn't live in comics, and he didn't have so many lofty ambitions, he just had a small dream, he wanted to live a free and happy life, but now, all this is simply impossible for him.

Life is like this, often you set a goal when you were a child, and you have been running towards the goal, but it is very likely that you will find that before you know it, you have been running for a long time, and time has not stayed by your side, but that end point is still out of reach, and even farther and farther away.

Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, am I tired, of course I am tired, but if I am tired or not, who will know? I'm afraid, it's just me.

Zhang Shifei is not a strong person, he forced a smile before, that is, he felt that he was not alone, and now Li Lanying's departure hit him too hard, although he usually forced himself not to want to, but he didn't want to, it doesn't mean that he doesn't exist, and now when Liang Yun'er asked like this, his eyes suddenly moistened, he opened his mouth, obviously wanting to say 'not tired', but his mouth still didn't obey the call and said: "Well, I'm very tired." ”

Liang Yun'er's skin was very cold, and her hair was itchy to the touch, but at this time, Zhang Shifei's heart didn't have a trace of superfluous thoughts, and he only heard Liang Yun'er whisper to him: "Although I'm very tired, I still have to persevere." ”

Zhang Shifei didn't speak, and Liang Yun'er continued to take care of herself: "Do you know, when I used to owe money to the He family, I was also very tired, to be honest, who doesn't want to have a good life, that time was simply not human, I almost collapsed, but I still supported it, because of a belief, I said to you, okay?" ”

Zhang Shifei nodded sneerly, only to see Liang Yun'er sit up, and then looked at Zhang Shifei affectionately and said: "Because I firmly believe that as long as I don't give up, one day, I will get out of the predicament, if I compromise, it will only make me regret infinitely in the future, some things are like this, although the result is out of reach, but, as long as you are running, you will be able to reach one day, if you stay put, you will always fall into this sadness, what do you say?" ”

Zhang Shifei was stunned in his heart, he really couldn't imagine that Liang Yun'er would say such a thing, but when he thought about it, it was indeed like this, they were all hard-working people, Liang Yun'er was different from those little flowers in the greenhouse, for some aspects, Zhang Shifei was still a child in front of Liang Yun'er, after all, how many sins he had suffered.

"As long as you keep running, will you reach the end of the day?" Zhang Shifei pondered this sentence carefully, and it seemed to make real sense.

And that Liang Yun'er smiled sweetly, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Of course, I have been waiting for many years, and finally let me wait for you, you are my end...... Hmm, isn't that a bit too meaty? ”

No, you have indeed waited for many years, many, many years, but you may never understand these things, Zhang Shifei looked at Liang Yun'er stupidly, she smiled so sweetly in the shade of the tree, as if she was a person in the painting, think about the time in the painting, how many such sunny days, the girl held a peacock and showed such a smile, the peacock's heart was moved, but the girl didn't know it at all.

Time is a magician with clever means, after a number of reincarnations, time has changed, the place has changed, but the characters and stories have not changed, Zhang Shifei feels that he is still a peacock who can't speak human words at this time, Liang Yuner still can't understand his mind, forget it, it's not important, it's not important, as long as she's still by my side, it's enough, Zhang Shifei smiled bitterly, she was right, as long as you run hard, even reincarnation can't stop the result, as long as you don't stop, if you stop, you will be forgotten in the corner of pain, It's a pretty superficial question, why can't I figure it out? Now the pain is only temporary, and besides, how much is there to sustain me not to stop? His uncle, no matter what, what can't die, I won't die! I want to live well, my life has just begun!!

To say that Zhang Shifei is indeed a very contradictory young man, this may be the sequelae of crankiness, always thinking about himself into a dead end, after thinking about this truth, Zhang Shifei's heart suddenly brightened, he turned his head, quietly wiped his eyes, and then said to Liang Yun'er: "You are a good woman." ”

This sentence comes from the heart, and it doesn't count if you throw away the ** skin, but just now Liang Yuner did cure Zhang Shifei's long-standing spiritual trouble.

Liang Yun'er smiled sweetly, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Of course, otherwise would you like me?" Because I'm working hard now, but some people haven't listened to me just now and have been in a daze, and I'm also very sad. ”

This is talking about me, Zhang Shifei thought very consciously, I didn't say I liked you, it's not that I don't want to say it, I don't dare to say it, so he scratched his head a little embarrassed and said to Liang Yun'er: "What's that...... I just ......"

"Okay, I know you men are busy, so I understand you." Liang Yun'er stretched out her finger and gently tapped Zhang Shifei's lips to prevent him from continuing, then looked at Zhang Shifei's daze and smiled, and then said to him: "Now give you a chance, listen again, are you willing?" ”

Of course, Zhang Shifei nodded, and at the same time thought to himself, even if you tell me the story of food stamps now, I am willing to listen, so Liang Yuner told Zhang Shifei about herself again, it turned out that she is also working really hard now, because she used to work in a nightclub, so the course fell behind, and she wanted to be admitted to graduate school.

Study Sangha? Zhang Shifei heard this, and couldn't help but feel a wave of admiration for this girl, to know the profession of research monk, but he didn't dare to think about it, the reason why this profession is called research monk, that is, if you want to apply for this profession, you have to keep facing all kinds of textbooks that seem to be scriptures every day, and a lot of time is so wasted, thinking of this, Zhang Shifei said to Liang Yun'er: "How tired, if you want me to say that you don't get it, ............ in the future I mean, in the future, I'll raise you, and my own family has a business, isn't it good? ”

Liang Yun'er smiled, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Don't do it, I don't want to be a vase, maybe it's enough in the past few years............ I think that a woman's youth is short-lived, and beauty is not permanent, and it depends on her appearance, and the same is true, so I have to work hard, why do I have to rely on you men, and ...... I don't want you to be too tired. ”

After that, Liang Yun'er smiled mischievously at Zhang Shifei, but Zhang Shifei didn't laugh this time, he was stunned again, I really didn't expect this girl to be so thoughtful.

That's right, what she said is true, this question is as simple as the previous question, but there are still a lot of girlfriends in this society who can't figure it out, because people are selfish, people's selfishness has led to social selfishness, and social selfishness has bred a huge number of money worshippers, they regard looking for men as looking for wallets, and they take it for granted, I have to say, this is all the Lai Green brothers, if it weren't for the poison of works like "Cinderella", it is estimated that it will be lighter, Many girls have had Cinderella's dreams, but they don't know at all, the original story is actually quite silvery, but these don't matter anymore, the beauty has to find the prince, this is a matter of course, you have no money to marry a hairy wife.

But they don't know that princes generally have three wives and four concubines, and the money and love exchanged for beauty will really last long? There is no eternity in this world, and the same is true of beauty, if, one day, when you grow old, will your prince still care about you? If there were other young women sitting in your BMW Prince car that day, wouldn't you be very sad when you were old? Of course, this is not absolute, because there are infinite possibilities in this world, and this can't be an excuse for men to play scoundrels and want to find beautiful women when they don't have money.

Born to work hard, there is no reason for nothing, although many things have shortcuts, but through shortcuts, the foundation is often unstable.

Zhang Shifei's opinion of Liang Yuner has changed dramatically again, it seems that this little girl is really not simple, she really underestimated her before, she is not as braindead as some college girls, this is the reason why no one has it as good as herself.

For a while, Zhang Shifei didn't know what to say, Liang Yun'er saw him looking stupid, so she laughed again, and then said to him: "What's wrong with you?" ”

"Nope." Zhang Shifei relieved himself, and then said to Liang Yun'er: "It's not much, but I suddenly feel that you are great, by the way, what do you want to do in the future?" ”

When Liang Yun'er heard him say this, her little face suddenly turned a little red, and she seemed to be embarrassed to say to Zhang Shifei: "Me? I think...... I want to be a lawyer. ”

Lawyer? Zhang Shifei blinked, obviously didn't figure out why this girl wanted to do this profession, only to see Liang Yun'er looking at the river, and then muttered: "In this world, there are too many people like me, in fact, they shouldn't have suffered innocent pain, it's just that no one can help them, just like me, so I will become a lawyer in the future to help those in need." ”

Warmth, from the heart, Zhang Shifei's heart at this time is very warm, it turns out, even reincarnation can't change a person's surname, she is still so gentle and kind, and that strong, Zhang Shifei suddenly felt that Liang Yun'er became so dazzling at this time, compared to her, he was a little ashamed of himself, because he didn't have such lofty ambitions in his mind, he just wanted to solve all the troubles as soon as possible, and then be able to be with Liang Yun'er justifiably.

But that's okay, Zhang Shifei thought, when the time comes, he won't care about anything, retreat behind the scenes, and help those who need help with Liang Yun'er, thinking about it, he actually laughed, this time it was not a bitter smile, but a smile for the future.

As soon as the topic started, it couldn't be stopped, all afternoon, Zhang Shifei and Liang Yun'er sat by the river and didn't move, they talked a lot, the past, the present, the future, the future is like a blank paper, they fantasized about picking up the pen in their hands, depicting colorful colors little by little.

As for the things to go, Zhang Shifei did not say a word.

Unconsciously, an afternoon passed quietly, until the sunset reflected the water surface of the Songhua River into a warm red, the two got up and walked towards the road they came, this afternoon, Zhang Shifei and Liang Yuner know each other a lot, Zhang Shifei's love in his heart is like a genetically modified rice watered with chemical fertilizer, such a woman, it is worth fighting for her.

The two unconsciously held hands, in the evening, the temperature became very cool, Zhang Shifei sniffled, it seems that even the wind is mixed with a fragrance of flowers, the wind is naturally odorless, the source of the fragrance of flowers is a small flower stall not far from the roadside in front, this kind of small flower stall Zhang Shifei has seen before, they can often be seen next to the school, a lot of flowers on a small cart, cheaper than the flower shop, of course, they are also the same as the fruit stalls, is the object of the heroes of the city management from all walks of life, Therefore, their whereabouts are uncertain, and they can only fight guerrillas at regular and fixed points.

Zhang Shifei saw the flower seller, and he had an idea in his heart, thinking about the bouquet of flowers he had in the morning given to Fu Xuehan, now why not buy a bouquet for Liang Yun'er, in this way, think about himself and have no regrets, so he pointed to the small flower stall, and then smiled at Liang Yun'er, Liang Yun'er is a smart person, naturally understands what he wants to do, so through the gap in the high-rise building, the sunset shines on her face, and there is a touch of red.

The stall owner of this flower stall is a middle-aged man, Zhang Shifei seems to be a little familiar with it, as if he has seen it somewhere, but he can't remember it, but Liang Yun'er recognized this vendor, only to see Liang Yun'er smiled and said: "Oh, my brother, why are you here, you didn't go to work?" ”

The vendor obviously knew Liang Yun'er as well, but he said to Liang Yun'er: "Ah, ah, you, no, no, no, don't you go to work?" ”

Damn, Zhang Shifei finally remembered who this was, it was the stammering bartender in the 'wolf howl', I really couldn't imagine it, how could I practice the stall when I put a good wine without mixing?

Liang Yun'er smiled at the man and said, "I have earned enough money, and now I still have to go to school, what about you?" ”

The peddler smiled, then looked at the two of them, and seemed to understand what was going on, only to see him say to the right and wrong: "I'm going to be old, and my body is not good, and I can't stay up all night, so ...... That's right, boy, you're right, you're good, you're amazing, you're ..................."

"It's here, it's there." Zhang Shifei hurriedly replied, to be honest, he was really tired of listening to this gentleman, so he didn't say much, Zhang Shifei picked up a bunch of pink roses from the flower stall and handed it to Liang Yun'er, but Liang Yun'er didn't answer, only to see her pouting and say, "I don't like roses............"

Eldest sister, I have a meaning, a longed-for love! Why don't you like it yet? Zhang Shifei was stunned for a moment, but he thought, this is nothing, it was originally a bouquet of flowers, as long as she likes it, so he said to Liang Yun'er: "Then which one do you like, I'll buy it for you." ”

Liang Yun'er looked at the small flower stall, her eyes suddenly lit up, and then she said to Zhang Shifei: "I want that." ”

Zhang Shifei looked at it with his eyes, oh, it turned out that this little girl liked lilies, so he said to the stammering man: "Big brother, I want that bunch of lilies, how much does it cost?" ”

The stammering man said, "Ahhh ”

Kaah Casablanca? What is this? Zhang Shifei was stunned for a moment, didn't understand, at this time, Liang Yun'er on the side pursed her lips and smiled, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "He used to be like this when he was bartending, this should be a kind of lily, so beautiful." ”

Eh, that's it, it's right to think about it, Xia said, it's just a rainbow, hehe, no matter how much, pay the money, take the flowers, leave, if you want to talk about women, you really like flowers, Liang Yuner held the bouquet of flowers in her hand, looked at Zhang Shifei, her eyes were full of affection, and she smiled.

I don't know what's wrong, Zhang Shifei was a little embarrassed again, but I saw him say to Liang Yun'er: "What's wrong, what are you smiling at?" ”

Liang Yun'er smiled and sniffed the flowers in her hand, and then said to this piece of right and wrong: "The first time you gave me flowers, I will remember it well, this taste of happiness." ”

(To be continued)