I used to wonder if I was too mature to cry because I didn't cry, and I forgot how to cry.

But in fact, I really cried, my first reaction was to subconsciously cover it up, and wiped away the tears on my face. Even if I see Master again, I'm just crying silently, I can't remember, was it when Lao Linzi saw the words left by the master?

"The wind is so strong, it's really blinding." I turned my head and whispered, at such times, I always feel that it is a very sensual thing to express my feelings too much.

Master didn't say anything, and it may be clear what kind of state of mind I should experience when I grow up at this age.

"Chengyi, you really have to live" The tears just now made the atmosphere suddenly silent, and it was a long time before Master said such words to me.

"Master, why don't you say the same thing to yourself if you want me to live? We are cultivators, we should look down on life, old age, sickness and death, and even, once Zhuangzi was happy because of the death of his wife, because he thought that this was a natural state, reincarnation, and a heavenly master, according to your opinion, you are going to the end of this life, I should even hold a funeral for you, because you Jiang Lichun has been in the world for nearly a hundred years, and has always had some bottom lines, and has never died of righteousness, this time is to go to a better place, if there is reincarnation in the next life, it is also a complete life, and maybe even this time, you can already get rid of the suffering of reincarnation. At this point, my voice became a little trembling, and I was not under my control at all, so I could only take Master's dry tobacco and take a hard puff.

But this obviously fragrant breath is so spicy in my mouth, as I have always done countless times, I inhaled too hard, and I would still choke and cough.

"The stupid boy's way of smoking dry tobacco is different from smoking cigarettes, dog's day, good don't learn, do all this" Master said and couldn't help but slap me on the head, this is the most familiar way of getting along, even if there are only ten minutes left in life, this way may be staged again.

Habit is a terrible thing, sometimes it is almost instinctive, it can surpass all emotions and joys, sadness is still the same with Master and I when it is so sad, this is a habit.

I feel that I am really cheap, I was sad before I couldn't speak, my voice was trembling, and I felt relieved when I was slapped by the master like this, and people can have confidence in peace of mind, and the words that I couldn't say before have become smooth.

"Master, do you think it should be like this? Right? But forgive me, forgive me for my selfishness, even if there is reincarnation, it can't give comfort to people in this life, because all your fetters and emotions are left in this life, what does it have to do with the next life? Master wants me to live well, why don't I want you to live well, a few more years is a few years before you know that we have only gotten together, and then fled all the way to the present, settling down in the snow-capped mountains, and facing a big war again, but, do you know, how much I hope to go back to our old days, even if "Speaking of this, I am very emotional, I don't know if my scattered sentences can clearly express my meaning."

However, the person I was facing was the master, the person who knew me best since I was a child, he must have understood what I was saying, or the familiar two puffs of dry smoke came out of his nose, and his expression couldn't tell whether it was sadness or forced calm, he just whispered: "The most untraceable thing is the past, even if you do this in the years when you were dependent on each other, your mood is different, why not stay in your heart?" That's enough, too. ”

"Master" I am very anxious, I still think the same as when I was young, as long as Master is willing, there is nothing that cannot be solved, what I am afraid of is that he has made up his mind at all.

Since we are masters and apprentices, we always have imagination, and the biggest similarity is that we are both too stubborn.

"Chengyi, the Tao is natural, everything is under nature, birth, old age, sickness and death are self-sufficient," Master said to me calmly.

I stood up excitedly and shouted at Master, "No, I won't let go!" ”

I didn't expect that after so many years of things in the deserted village, I stood in front of the master again and shouted such a sentence, each time with some willfulness, stubbornness that makes people headaches, and stubbornness that cannot be convinced, but this is not my sincerity?

"Chengyi, if you don't let go, it will also fall from your hands, why should you tear each other are scars, if the feelings are heavy, put it in your heart is good in your memory! Sometimes the value of possession does not lie in your words, don't you understand? Seeing that I shouted such a sentence again, Master was stunned for a moment, then a look of remembrance appeared on his face, and then he also stood up and calmly faced me with an excited expression.

The wind blew between us and our master and apprentice again, and the corners of our clothes were hunting, and it was a silent confrontation that collided with the stubbornness of our master and apprentice.

But I know too well that in this, I only rely on my own inner feelings, and if I don't want to talk about right and wrong, what Master said is really right.

Gradually, my body weakened, and I fell to my knees with my hands supported at once, Master only had one year left, and this news didn't take away a huge support in my heart, and the tiredness of not being able to stand up anymore permeated my body almost at this moment.

"Do you think I'm right?" But Master didn't have sympathy for me like this, and he knew to give me time to digest it.

My hand gripped the gravel on the ground tightly, and there was a tingling pain in my fingertips, I knew that Master was right, but whether it was right or not had nothing to do with whether I accepted it or not, my voice was low, and I just buried my head and asked, "Master, what is the matter with you telling me what a year's life expectancy should be?" ”

"It's very simple, under the suppression of the god of Ghost Fighting Bay, we should have been dead a long time ago, and what we got should be out of the body, and then the effect of the soul flying away At the critical moment, it was the remnant soul of your master who divided part of its strength to resist the suppression of the formation, and at the same time forcibly suppressed our souls, and nourished our souls in the body, not being worn out by the formation, just" Speaking of this, the master sighed.

"Just what?" I remembered the altar, and the mysterious formation on the altar, talking about the naturally formed heavenly formation, I just went to add a stroke, and almost the master and they were suppressed under such a formation, and after they came out, they all seemed to be fine, is that so?

My eyes were red, and in an instant, I hated that Kunlun remnant soul, that god to the extreme, but how could I hate him? He has already been given the result by me with his own hands, and then sealed into the Celestial Pattern Stone, just the Celestial Pattern Stone!!

I raised my head suddenly, and the anger in my chest almost burned me to the ground, and we finally escaped from Ghost Bay, leaving Yang Sheng to fight with the ghost cultivators there, but I didn't know because we didn't have a way to get a result, but I clearly knew that Yang Sheng's strength had increased greatly after he came back

Could it be that I don't know who to hate, but on the top of this mountain, I roared angrily: "Yang Sheng!" ”

"Chen Chengyi!" But I didn't want to be at this moment, Master suddenly looked at me seriously and roared angrily.

I was suddenly startled by Master's voice, and my whole heart that had fallen into hatred suddenly sobered up, and cold sweat instantly covered my forehead, and Master looked at me and said, "What kind of play are you going to stage?" In front of your master, is your heart seduced by hatred and going mad? ”

I looked at the master, and I was afraid that the cold sweat would wet my back all of a sudden, Taoist people should have a bottom line, and they should be clear about right and wrong, rather than love and hate in their state of mind, and they should be ranked before love and hate, otherwise love and hate will dominate right and wrong, which is to enter the inner demon.

Whether it is love or hate, it cannot be dominated by these emotions, otherwise, according to Taoism, it is a state of mind! No matter how much I hate someone, no matter how much I love someone, it should be based on right and wrong, and behind right and wrong stands cause and effect, unless I think I know right and wrong, and I can restrain love and hate, and bear cause and effect, so that I can do what I want to do.

These three sentences are simple to say, in fact, once faced, it may be a lifelong thing, just like you accept the life of a dog and let it accompany you, all you have to do is to be responsible for its life

I thought a lot at once, and looking at Master, I was so ashamed that at this moment I almost went on a state of mind that deviated from the right path.

Taking a deep breath, I sat down again and said to Master, "Master, I understand, you go on, I want to know the whole story of this matter and why Grandma Ling Qing?" "Yes, this is also the question I have always had, why Grandma Ling Qing's situation is so special and Master said that she has more than a year to live.

"On that day, your ancestor's remnant soul also did his best, and he gave me a choice, spend half of my strength to break this big array, or continue to cultivate like this, but it can only be delayed for two years, but relatively speaking, your ancestor's remnant soul power will be consumed less." Master did not answer my question directly, but told me such an incident.

"Master, did you choose the second one?" My face turned pale all of a sudden, and I was hating myself, hating myself for why I had gone so late.

"It's because the remnant soul of your ancestor is the biggest hole card in the last battle, and it is the reason for unveiling the great era, do you know what you have to face in the last battle? And your Grandma Ling Qing is," Master said this, and sighed faintly.

Then he turned his words inexplicably, looked at me, and said to me with a somewhat helpless look: "Chengyi, do you remember that night?" Remember when we returned to the bamboo forest and I watched the night you soaked in the fragrant soup? ”