In the deep darkness, memories are surging like a tidal wave.

In the void, Feng Fan didn't know where he was.

"Where am I?"

It was pitch black all around, Feng Fan looked blankly ahead, there was no light there, only the coldness and darkness that made people desperate.

"I've never been a lucky person, since I was a child, there have always been more bumps and bumps than others, but apart from my parents, how many people care about me and support me? I'm so tired, and now that my parents are dead, I really want to get some sleep. ”

The silent darkness around him was devouring Feng Fan's soul, and his consciousness became more and more blurred.

"At the age of less than twenty, you have sounded the death knell of your life!?"

Suddenly, a familiar voice rang out, echoing through the darkness.

Feng Fan was taken aback, he would never forget this voice no matter what, without this person, he was probably still sinking!

"Chen, yes, is that you?"

Feng Fan's eyes were a little moist, he trembled and stretched out his hand to grasp the darkness, but there was silence around him, there was nothing.

At the age of 18, Feng Fan lost his first love, and he felt that his life had collapsed, and his former beliefs were shattered in an instant. Although they have only been together for eight months, Feng Fan gave all his sincerity, but in exchange for an ending where there was nothing.

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Since then, his life has been day and night, sleeping on the Internet, which has become the theme of his life.

He didn't know what he was doing, he didn't know where he was going to live. Without faith, everything is empty and a blank slate.

Until one day, Ye Chen's punch woke Feng Fan up.

"Smack!"

A solid punch hit Feng Fan's face, and Feng Fan, who shook a few times, fell to the ground with his butt.

"Stand up for me!"

A man with an angry face stood in front of Feng Fan, with a look of disappointment in his eyes.

Feng Fan sat slumped on the ground and looked at Ye Chen blankly, as if he hadn't reacted yet. Looking at Feng Fan who was sitting on the ground, Ye Chen stepped forward and lifted him up.

"Wake me up! Look at what you look like now, are you still the mortal I know? Now you're just a coward, you're running away! ”

"At the age of less than twenty, you have sounded the death knell of your life?"

Grabbed by Ye Chen, Feng Fan said weakly, "What do you know, she is gone, but I."

"Smack!"

Another punch, Ye Chen's hand was very heavy, without the slightest idea of mercy, and the corners of Feng Fan's mouth were already oozing blood.

"A coward will always be a coward, what you don't understand, it's all your cowardly excuse, you don't have the determination to live hard with everything in the past, you might as well die! People like you can only use their fists to make you sober up! ”

After two punches, Ye Chen ignored Feng Fan who was lying on the ground, turned his head and left.

Lying on the ground, the corners of Feng Fan's mouth were oozing blood, looking at the blue sky, watching the flow of people coming and going around him, and laughing. He felt a feeling he had never felt before, a feeling of being alive.

"It turns out that I am the most useless person, and I am also the most cowardly person. The past is gone, everyone is moving forward, but I am still sinking in the past years, and I can't get out. In the end, blaming everything for the past years, I'm still really cowardly. She's gone, but I'm still supposed to live well. The future is waiting for me! ”

On the street where the crowd came and went, Feng Fan sat on the ground and laughed, ignoring the eyes of the people around him, and in his eyes, tears slid down, taking away everything in the past.

In the days to come, Feng Fan gradually recovered as before, although there were still unhealable pains and wounds in his heart, he knew that he should live well.

Life is a feeling of being alive.

Those two punches, Feng Fan returned them to Ye Chen intact. Ye Chen wasn't angry, he just laughed with Feng Fan, he knew that Feng Fan had broken free from the past and looked forward.

Heaven is always very tricky, and when Feng Fan learned that Ye Chen's life was short, the whole person seemed to have been hit by a sledgehammer, and he was stunned on the spot.

"How could it be! That's impossible! He's still young! He's only 19 years old! ”

There was some hysteria, and Feng Fan couldn't believe the doctor's diagnosis. He really couldn't imagine that the man who smiled so well had leukemia! Not long ago, he punched himself twice, how could this be!

The strong smell of disinfectant water went straight to his mouth and nose, Feng Fan walked in the long hospital corridor and was scared in his heart, he was really afraid that after a certain day, he would never see Ye Chen again.

Gently pushing open the door of the ward, Feng Fan saw the man lying quietly on the bed, looking out the window in a daze.

"Hey, you're here?"

Ye Chen's faint words came, making Feng Fan feel inexplicably sad.

"Hmm."

Nodding, an ugly smile on his face. Feng Fan wanted to smile, he didn't want his sadness to infect Ye Chen, it wouldn't be good for him.

"It's okay."

As if he saw what Feng Fan was thinking, Ye Chen grinned himself, as if he didn't care about his condition at all.

"Sure enough, Ye Chen is still Ye Chen, and he will always have a good-looking smile on his face, even if it is the most desperate predicament."

Feng Fan sighed in his heart, he felt that the future was very uncertain, so that he could not see clearly. Waiting will only make people more anxious, because there is no hope.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine." Looking at the sunset gradually setting outside the window, Ye Chen whispered to himself.

Leukemia is scary, and the probability of cure is too low and too low!

A month later, there was no news of Ye Chen in Feng Fan's life. It seems that it has disappeared from the world. Feng Fan searched everywhere for news of him, but found nothing.

Ye Chen's words were still echoing in his ears, and Feng Fan felt that his consciousness was gradually awakening, and he could feel the feeling of being alive.

"I can't fall! That feeling of being alive, when you die, there is nothing left! ”

The gradually blurred consciousness was miraculously condensed, Feng Fan's heart was very quiet, in this darkness, he seemed to see the light of hope in the distance.

"I can't give up, as long as I'm alive, there will be hope, I want to find Angel in this last world, I still want to see her! I still want to take my companions to survive on the battlefield of this crisis! ”

A deep obsession erupted, Feng Fan, whose eyelids had been closed, felt that his body was full of power, and with the support of this force, he opened his eyes violently!

His consciousness was clear, but the numbing pain was still tormenting Feng Fan's consciousness. But this time, he won't back down no matter what, he will definitely be able to hold on and hold on to the end!