Chapter 203: Lost Happiness
"Well............ Is it already noon? ”
Zhang Shifei lay on the bed, rubbed his eyes, he felt that his eyelids were so heavy, this was caused by lack of sleep black and white, last night he chatted with Mr. Cui and Yi Xinxing until dawn before they dispersed, Mr. Cui had already asked for the birthday eight characters like Xia Jin'an, hoping to start from these eight characters, and wait until dawn Liu Yudi woke up to find out what was wrong with Xia Jin'an.
When he left from Fuze Hall, Mr. Cui said to Zhang Shifei, saying that he was tired all night, and he would take half a day off the next day, and just come to work in the afternoon, and Zhang Shifei also fell for half a day's leisure, he is now full of confidence, you must know that now they have dozens of demon egg crystals in their hands, as Mr. Cui said, they are now turning passive into active, as long as they guard the big tree of demon egg crystals, they are not afraid that those egg demons will not bump into them.
This night, Zhang Shifei slept very deeply and did not dream.
He originally wanted to sleep until noon, but when he opened his eyes, he found that the sun had just risen, his home was in the Jiangbei District of Harbin, Jiangbei was a developing area, so the ecological environment was maintained quite well, early in the morning, there were many sparrows flying into the trees in his yard and chirping non-stop, as if they were very happy, Zhang Shifei is now a human body, naturally I can't understand why those sparrows are so cool, But he seemed to understand a little bit why Fang Wenshan wrote that song that he couldn't understand before.
Cool crooked sparrow, mouthy on the telephone pole, you say this, it feels very stupid, Zhang Shifei stretched his waist, he looked at the table below, it was only more than seven o'clock, that is to say, he only slept for three hours, he smiled bitterly, thinking that he was really getting more and more sad, getting up earlier than the chicken, sleeping later than the chicken.
Why, my peacock is not as good as a chicken, he shook his head helplessly, and then got up, subconsciously picked up the cigarette case from the table on the side, but I don't know why, after putting the cigarette in his mouth, he didn't light the fire and he felt a burst of retching, it seems that it is the relationship of smoking too much, after all, he is older, and he is not as resistant as before.
When he went downstairs to the toilet, he confirmed this point of view even more, yes, he got up early in the morning and spit and foamed at the mouth, which really made him depressed, it seems that he will have to smoke less in the future, otherwise his small body is estimated to be put down by Yuxi before he can stand up to the west of the fire.
After washing his face, he suddenly felt unrefreshed, now that he can't sleep, it's better to go to Fukuzawa Hall, anyway, it's not interesting to be at home, when he walked out of the bathroom, he suddenly heard a noise in the kitchen not far away, which couldn't help but make him feel very puzzled, what's going on, according to common sense, there shouldn't be anyone in the family except him at this time!
So he walked forward very curiously, opened the kitchen door, and was startled, only to see his mother wearing an apron and busy in front of the kitchen counter, Zhang Shifei blinked, as if he couldn't believe that his wife was actually making breakfast!
His mother is a very cheerful woman, or a strong woman, don't look at her forties, but she has the courage to try new things, not at all like those conservative parents, happy all day long, skin care is very good, charm still exists, she was a beauty when she was young, Zhang Shifei's appearance has to be said to be an integration of her mother's genetic factors, full of doting on Zhang Shifei, and is letting him grow up, once he chatted with Li Lanying, Li Lanying said that it would be good if his mother was like Zhang Shifei's wife, Zhang Shifei shook his head with a wry smile, and then said to Li Lanying: What a fart, if your wife plays in the dance troupe, will you still say that?
Although it is a good thing to have the courage to try new things, sometimes, Zhang Shifei is a little unacceptable.
Damn, it's really the sun coming out of the west, Zhang Shifei thought to himself, you must know that his wife hasn't made breakfast for many years, at best, it's just a hot cup of milk and fried poached eggs, Zhang Shifei also complained to her before, what other people's children have breakfast every morning, why doesn't he have it, why is it better to have no money?
What's going on today?
So he looked at his wife very curiously, and saw that she was busy in front of the noodle desk with a smile on her face, as if she was rolling noodles, Zhang Shifei did not speak, but quit the kitchen very calmly, and then ran quickly to the living room, shouting at his father: "Oh Dad!" Check it out!! Is my mom sleepwalking again!? ”
"Sleepwalking." His dad has gotten up, according to the usual practice is sitting on the sofa while drinking coffee and looking at today's Harbin Life News, Zhang Shifei's surname is with his father, I heard that his dad was the same as Zhang Shifei when he was a child, he was a loser, he didn't love to go to school, he loved to fight, and he was stuck in the back seat of the plane head bicycle in bell bottoms, and he couldn't do it, of course, his dad was also a loser, it is said that the family's money was almost ruined at that time, in order to chase Zhang Shifei's wife, he kept an eye on her downstairs all day long, It is said that Zhang Shifei's grandfather was beaten at that time, but he didn't beat him up, and finally let him marry Zhang Shifei's wife back home, his family was already very poor at that time, but Zhang Shifei's mother did not dislike it, and the husband and wife practiced stalls together and started a small business.
That's it, they met Li Fatzi's parents, the so-called thirty years in Hedong and thirty years in Hexi, after earning money, Zhang's father's temper and surname have been much more restrained, I remember that every time Zhang Shifei got into trouble, his father would scold him, but as soon as he scolded, Zhang Shifei's mother scolded him: There is also a face to say son, think about your previous stinky virtue.
Zhang Shifei's father was speechless, this is Suigen'er, indeed, he saw the shadow of his youth in Zhang Shifei's body, I remember that once drinking, Zhang Shifei's father said to Zhang Shifei drunkenly: Can you not be so like me, I am really your father.
Nonsense, can you not be my own father? Zhang Shifei smiled and said nothing.
After the book was written, Zhang Shifei's father put down the newspaper, and then scolded Zhang Shifei: "Dream a fart tour, don't be surprised in the morning." ”
Zhang Shifei hurriedly said to his father: "But, my mother is actually rolling noodles!" What are you kidding, she's tired of boiling water, what the hell is going on today! ”
Zhang Shifei's father glared at him, and then said to him: "What's the matter, it's illegal to roll noodles?" If you make it, you will eat, where is so much nonsense! ”
Although his father said so, Zhang Shifei still couldn't let go, you must know that this is not his mother's surname at all? So he said to his father, "Father, tell me the truth, is there something wrong with you two?" Don't get divorced, what should I do? ”
"! What nonsense! After a while, her mother's voice came from the kitchen, calling them to eat, he and his father got up and walked to the kitchen, looking at the whistling father in front of him, Zhang Shifei was still worried in his heart, but he didn't find anything unusual about this breakfast.
The noodles made by my mother are really good, yellow egg flowers, white shiitake mushrooms, green chrysanthemum and spinach, eating in the mouth is full of the taste of childhood, in fact, it is not strange that Zhang Shifei was surprised just now, after all, this taste, he has not tasted it for many years, when was it, Zhang Shifei ate noodles, and wanted to try to recall the last time, it seems that it was before he lived in a tube building when he was a child and wanted to move, the house was so small at that time, a family of three had to sleep in a room, it was very cold in winter, But Zhang Shifei's memory is very warm, at that time he and the fat man went crazy for a day, and when he got home, he could smell the fragrance of the food before he entered the door, and he couldn't smell it for many years, just like those dim old photos, dust in the sun, although they are all now, but they can no longer find the feeling at that time.
At that time, although there was no money, Zhang Shifei liked to listen to the two of them planning their future life while eating the food cooked by his mother, and they said to Zhang Shifei that there would be a big house in the future, spacious and bright, and there would be a lot of money, even if Zhang Shifei did nothing in the future, he would not suffer, and asked Zhang Shifei if he liked it.
For him as a toddler, having his own room meant that he no longer had to suffer the torture of his father's stubble in the face before going to bed, no longer have to endure the smell of his father's sweaty feet, and no longer have to be woken up by the occasional creaking sound of the wooden bed shaking at night.
Zhang Shifei has always felt that his parents are like a pair of prophets, those wonderful ideas on the dinner table in his childhood have become a reality in just a few years, he has his own separate room, two, alternate living, but he feels that this feeling is not the kind he wanted at the beginning, it seems that the house is bigger, the distance between himself and his parents has become distant, slowly, the mother stopped cooking, and the topic of discussion between the three of them sitting at the dinner table has also changed, from a bright future to a contract with customers, Zhang Shifei doesn't understand that, there is more and more money in his pocket, but there is less and less laughter at the dinner table, the food cooked by the nanny tastes like pig food, Zhang Shifei is very disgusting This taste, tasteless, like chewing wax, his father's wine also became lighter, light like water, and feelings like wine.
Slowly, Zhang Shifei began to stay up all night, at first his parents asked one or two, but they were very busy, and after a long time, they didn't ask anymore, Zhang Shifei and Li Fatzi began to spend all day and wine with the money in their pockets outside, strong wine beauties, can temporarily anesthetize the nerves, but can't fill the emptiness in the heart, Zhang Shifei always feels that something is missing, but what it is, he couldn't guess it at the time, forget it, whatever, isn't everyone like this?
Zhang Shifei's surname became a little weird at that time, he was always a prodigal loser in front of outsiders, playing with women's feelings for fun, this may be caused by the imbalance in his heart, why should I be happy if I am aggrieved? Isn't it just about getting my money around me all day long? Okay, I'll give you money, but I've had enough of you and you'll fuck off, and he sees it as a deal, a deal between money and pleasure.
But in his heart, he can never find happiness, at that time he didn't understand, in fact, the castle smashed out with money is just an ice sculpture, and when the flowers bloom, it will cease to exist, he is escaping, and the escape will always be just a deeper emptiness.
By the time he understood, it was too late, no, maybe it wasn't too late, and now God had given him a chance to start over, although the opportunity was mixed with curses, but for him, it was already good, he had more and more friends, and he was very happy in Fukuzawado, because he had learned things that he had never learned before, and by relying on these things, the problems that he couldn't understand before were also solved, and he firmly believed that as long as he had a good heart, he would not give up and go on bravely, Then he will surely be able to regain the happiness that has been lost.
This bowl of noodles, he can't bear to eat it, although he doesn't know why his mother will cook it herself today, but this long-lost taste of happiness, he really doesn't want to let him disappear so soon, happiness is for taste, because happiness is very short-lived.
Today is indeed quite unusual, the father and mother at the dinner table while eating, while chatting about some inconsequential things, there is no work at all, they seem to want to make a small vegetable garden in the yard in the spring of the next year, and grow some vegetables by themselves, after all, the vegetables sold in the supermarket are not safe now, even the steamed buns are poisonous, rely on.
Zhang Shifei picked up the noodles one by one, listened with great interest to his parents discussing whether to grow lettuce or tomatoes, and the sun outside the window shone on the table, a warm and ordinary morning.
Zhang Shifei's mother saw Zhang Shifei looking at them with a smile, so she said to him: "What's wrong with you, eat quickly, what kind of expression do you have when you don't smile." ”
"Ah, no, no, I just think it's a little strange, don't you have to go to the company today?" Zhang Shifei shook his head and said with a smile.
"Even the robot has to rest." His father said to him: "Speaking of which, our family hasn't eaten together for a long time, let's talk about you, what happened to you when you went out to work for so long, did you cause trouble for Xiao Cui?" ”
Zhang Shifei smiled bitterly, thinking that you are really my father, it took so long to remember to ask me this question, he sighed, and then thought helplessly, but it is better to ask than not to ask.
To say that I have worked in Fuzetang for so long, of course, I have encountered a lot of things, but I can't tell you these things, otherwise you will definitely think that your baby son is crazy at work, Zhang Shifei only understood Superman's difficulties at this time, for Superman, the most difficult thing should not be the kind of green stone that seems to be shoddy glass, but the grievance in his heart, so the story of Niu B can't be told, it can only rot in his stomach.
So Zhang Shifei said to his father: "It's nothing, it's ...... Brother Cui is very good to me and the fat man, we are there with him, in addition to work, is to read, he has a lot of ancient books, can learn a lot of postures. ”
What I'm talking about is indeed posture, not a typo, Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, there are ancient books, what "Meat Futon", "Apricot Blossom Heaven", "Monks and Nuns", "Flower Lower Edge", one is more popular than the other, these are Li Lanying's favorites, that Li Fatzi because of these books, his attainments in ancient texts are far above Zhang Shifei, and he can understand many obscure words at a glance, and he was awarded the title of "Li Huangshu" by Mr. Cui.
Of course, these can't be told to parents, in Zhang Shifei's expectations, the 'posture' he said in his mouth was heard by his father as 'knowledge', as the so-called I have knowledge and I am proud, Zhang Shifei's father was very relieved after listening, to know that his unsuccessful son finally stopped being idle and calmed down, so he nodded, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Well, yes, I really didn't expect you and Xiaoying to stay in Xiao Cui's store for so long, and still have the heart to learn, not bad, not bad." ”
Zhang Shifei's father kept saying 'good', you can see how happy he is, and Zhang Shifei's mother also smiled at Zhang Shifei's father and said: "It's really embarrassing for Xiao Cui, let's invite him to have a meal in a few days." ”
Zhang Shifei's father nodded, he thought about it, and then turned his head to Zhang Shifei and said: "Son, you are sensible, we can see that you are not the same as a few months ago, but it is not a long-term solution in Xiao Cui's place, at first I agreed with you to go there, just to let you learn Xiao Cui's speech and work, see that you are now a lot more stable, and it is time for you to get in touch with business, how about it, you will go to work in our company in a few days, right?" ”
After Zhang Shifei heard this, he was stunned for a moment, what a joke, how could he go to work in his father's company now! So he hurriedly shook his head, and then said to his father: "No, no, I think I'm still missing practice, let me exercise for a few more years, anyway, you two don't lack me, right?" ”
I still lack practice, he finally said this sentence, his father heard him say this, so he didn't force it, and said to Zhang Shifei's mother with a smile: "Look at it, our son has indeed grown up." ”
"yes, I don't talk like I used to." Her mother held her face with her hands, and then looked at Zhang Shifei with a happy face, as if she was very satisfied with her son's recent performance.
How nice would it be if time stood still in this moment?
(To be continued)