In front of me is an incomparably deep white light space, and the reason why I say deep but not wide is not that this space is a narrow passage, but because every part of this space is infinitely extended. For example, if I look in a certain direction, I can see everything in this direction, even if it is very far away, I can see it clearly, but I know that this thing is very far away from me. The most terrifying thing is that there seems to be no end to my vision, the principle of perspective is useless at this moment, and everything is as it is, as if it were in front of me, no matter how far or near it is. But I can clearly see where these things relate to me. At this moment I seemed to be God, at least with God's perspective.

The white light flashed away, and the scene in my eyes changed like a kaleidoscope, sometimes deep mountains and rivers, sometimes high-rise buildings, sometimes blue waves, sometimes wild sands in the Gobi. Each scene was so real and yet so illusory that I was instantly lost in it, as if I had entered one of the scenes and could not help myself.

When I focused my eyes on one place again, I was greeted by a face with Chinese characters. It was a soldier whose face was looking down from above, and above was a blinding fluorescent lamp. My brain instantly became dizzy, my vision blurred and I lost focus. I couldn't accept and understand this scene, and I didn't want to turn back from the perspective of God back to the eyes of mortals, the gaze of being looked down on, and my consciousness was blurred.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw the faces of three people, and I recognized only one of them, the number one.

An unsightly voice was busy saying, "Normal blood pressure, normal heart rate, white blood cells have stabilized, heart and kidney function have stabilized" and then a long list of more technical medical terms.

I opened my mouth forcefully, and all I could do was gurgle in my throat. I was so anxious that I felt the veins in my forehead jump.

Seeing this, the No. 1 leader lowered his body and said, "They are all here, all alive. Xiao Zhang has worked hard for you, rest well......"

I couldn't hear the rest of the words, I had a sense of relief and confusion like a world away, and I fell asleep with a complicated mood.

Now I know that I am in the special care ward of a hospital in the Xinjiang Military Region, and I can finally go down to the field, but this is 15 days after I was admitted to the hospital. At the same time, I also learned that there were four other people who were found with me, which means that all five of us were rescued. However, at present, only me and squad leader Liu are living in this hospital, and the other three people have been transferred to other places due to their serious conditions.

After getting the news, I went to visit Squad Leader Liu in his ward as soon as possible. He is still lying in bed with a sunken skull, a fractured right shoulder and frostbite on his foot, some of which require multiple surgeries. I didn't affect his energy too much, and the two of them just sighed a few words and then left and returned to their hospital room. I didn't expect this meeting to be a farewell.

We are all alive. But there is a time when the two living people will say goodbye. The next day I was transferred to the hospital, strictly quarantined. As for the reason, I still don't know.

I was held incommunicado in a barracks infirmary. Every day, in addition to receiving treatment with very poor conditions, I am facing endless interrogation. The daily questions are almost the same, asking what happened after I fell into the underpass

"How did you get rescued? Who saved you? The fat man suddenly interrupted my memories and asked.

"It's a mystery to me, and I was held incommunicado without having a chance to know the details. For the next two years I lost my freedom, and I wasn't qualified to ask questions, and I didn't know how other people would be treated, but I didn't think it would be good. Xiao Guolin's assignment to work on the Yunnan-Guizhou Plateau is a case in point. I was fired from public office, leaving JD and leaving the work environment I knew and loved. ”

The fat man wrinkled his eyebrows and thought for a while and said, "I can roughly guess the reason for your detention." ”

"Don't mess around." I said angrily: "I've been thinking about this for many years and I don't have a clue, how can you be an outsider who can figure it out." ”

"Not necessarily." The fat man said thoughtfully: "I don't know anything about your profession, but I judge that your isolation and detention have nothing to do with what happened to you, and it is one of your actions that violates the taboo." ”

The long and sleepless reminiscences of the past made my brain a little dull, and I thought about his words for a while before I understood the meaning of his words. I think I know what he was referring to, it was probably the gun, but I explained it to the chief, and I thought my explanation was reasonable and convincing.

So I waved my hand and said to the fat man, "You think it's simple, I have explained this." The gun was given to me by squad leader Liu on his own, and his injuries at that time were indeed not suitable for weight-bearing, so this incident would not have been the reason for my detention. ”

"It's you who want to be simple." The fat man shook his head and said: "The biggest person responsible for the gun in your hands is squad leader Liu, not you, of course they will not detain and isolate you because of this matter." But you shot at Platoon Commander Zhao, and no one can excuse you for this matter. It will even fall into the ground. ”

"He was dead at the time." I shouted, "Everyone on the scene can testify." ”

"The problem is that their testimony is very difficult to admit. This kind of thing needs a medical certificate, do you have one? Or do you have doctors among you? His testimony is substantiated. After a pause, the fat man continued: "Even if someone can prove that Platoon Commander Zhao is dead, you have no right to shoot at his corpse, shooting at the corpse of a comrade-in-arms is a very serious matter in the army, and it is necessary to go to a military court." ”

I was stunned. I never thought that this matter would have such serious consequences, and when they kept questioning me in the barracks, there were so many questions that I almost broke down, and every day I just answered the seemingly same questions mechanically, and I was in a state of numbness in my mind and body, and I couldn't analyze the focus and tendency of the problem at all. Now that I think about it, it's even less likely.

In fact, I subconsciously avoided this question, and I really didn't want to recall that scene. However, after the fat man's reminder that this incident might really be the cause of my quarantine and expulsion, I let out a long breath, and an indescribable feeling rose in my heart.

It was already midnight the next day when I took the fat man to another room, and I was lying on the bed, the window was a little open, and the autumn cool overflowed through the window. I felt the cool breeze and felt unusually relieved to pour out the secrets that I had kept in my heart for too long.

My brain should still be in a state of extreme excitement, my mind still lingering in that mysterious passage, but my body has fallen asleep. It's probably the deepest and most wanton I've slept in years, and I'm finally relaxed.

PS: Time flies so fast for codewords, and tomorrow is a new week. Let's work together to welcome a new beginning. Thank you all for your support.