The stove on the table emitted a calming green smoke.

"Sit down."

Kushu's eyes were closed, but it was as if he were covered in eyes, and I couldn't see his gaze, but I could always feel that his spirit was all focused on me, and it was a very subtle feeling.

Kushu's Taoism was unfathomable, and I didn't have the slightest disrespect, especially after feeling his spirit, I put my posture to the lowest, and I couldn't even help lowering my head, not daring to meet his closed eyes.

I sat lightly across from Kushu without making a sound.

"Why do you bow your head?" Kushu asked.

His voice was very muddy and vicissitudes, as if all the ups and downs in the world had been experienced by him.

I was stunned and quietly glanced at Kushu, whose eyes were still tightly closed, and there was not even a trace of trembling eyelids.

So how did he know I had my head down?

I was silent for a long time before I replied, "Because you look too ......, Abbot."

The end note dragged on for a long time, but I still couldn't find the right words to describe how Kushu felt about me.

"Holy? Out of reach? Kushu took my words and spit out two adjectives in a row, but I still didn't think it was appropriate enough, Kushu thought about it, and said, "Thorny? ”

I still shook my head, these are not the feelings that Kushu gives me.

As if he knew that I was shaking his head, Kushu said, "Be open-minded, raise your head, and face me squarely." ”

I was stunned, I didn't understand why Kushu wanted me to do this, and in China, it is rude to look up to the elders. But since Kushu said so, I wouldn't squirm, so I raised my head and stared into Kushu's eyes.

I was really curious how Kushu knew what I was doing.

Kushu didn't seem to be ready to answer what I was thinking, and said to himself: "You bow your head in the face of the old monk, if you encounter a stronger enemy than the old monk in the future, how will you face it?" ”

"You are not an enemy, you are a senior, unlike them......" I argued.

"How do you know I'm not your enemy?" Kushu interrupted my explanation, "Han Shui, you trust feelings too much, this is your weakness. ”

Well, finally no one said I was indecisive, but I put it another way.

"Life in the world, not emotional, what is important? Money? Fame and power? I said reluctantly.

"For goodness, for righteousness, others can be affectionate, but you can't," Kushu shook his head and persuaded bitterly, "You know what you are carrying. ”

I sighed: "Every senior I have met has said that I have a very important mission, and I have always positioned myself as a savior, but after going through so much, now that I think about it, what can I do to become a savior?" This savior's hat has always been buttoned up by you, I have never known what the meaning of my existence is, where I came from in life and where I am going to die, there has never been an answer, you have designed one trap after another, and I seem to be just a pawn that everyone plays with at will. ”

I don't know if it's because of Kushu's aggressiveness, I suddenly vomited bitterness: "My birth was arranged by my master, my cultivation was arranged by my master, and then my life seems to have been arranged by Lingqing, Bai Cheng persuaded me, saying that no matter how others manipulate it, but that is still my own life, but that is just self-deception, every decision I make, every footprint, is the path that Lingqing has walked out for me in front of me, and I don't seem to have a choice." ”

I don't know if Kushu knows my master or Lingqing, but I think Kushu will definitely understand what I mean, and I don't want to live a vague and unclear life anymore.

I want to live freely, I want to be in control of my life.

Kushu didn't expect me to say such a thing, he was silent for a long time, his closed eyes actually opened slowly, and his white eyes seemed to be flashing with golden light: "You shouldn't ask me about these, you should ask yourself." ”

"Ask myself?"

"Ask yourself, ask you here," Kushu stretched out his old finger and pointed at my heart tremblingly, "everything is born from the heart, for you, I am still an outsider, no one can tell you the meaning of your existence, only your own heart can answer all this for you." ”

"My heart doesn't speak." I laughed at myself.

"Stretch out your palm, it will speak." Kushu said.

I stretched out my right hand suspiciously, spread it in front of Kushu, only to see Kushu stretch out his trembling fingers, on my palm a few points, draw a Buddha seal, in the process, his trembling fingers actually become powerful, every stroke is vigorous and powerful, like a great calligrapher.

A golden Buddha seal was formed in the palm of my hand, and after doing all this, Kushu suddenly seemed to be dozens of years old, his face was so pale that he couldn't figure it, and he sat in front of me panting.

"Abbot, are you alright?" I asked with concern, Kushu has a special status, don't hang it in front of me, then the matter will be big.

"It's okay," Kushu waved his hand, and the words fell, but he pressed both hands on the table, relying on this to barely support his body, I was about to stand up and call someone, but Kushu reached out and stopped me, "Close your eyes, feel the Buddha seal with your heart, it will tell you everything." ”

"But you ......"

"Leave me alone." Kushu said lightly.

I sat back in my seat, gently closed my eyes, and felt the Buddha seal on my palm.

"Nirvana, one of the five basic teachings of Buddhism, you have completed it, and now I have imprinted the Buddha seal on you, you have officially embarked on the Buddha path, now feel it with your heart." Kushu's voice rang in my ears, and every word he said seemed to be extremely laborious.

I didn't dare to think too much, and silently recited the Purifying Mantra in my heart.

In a trance, I felt as if I had left Kushu's hut and returned to the mainland, to the town of Fengdao, where I had lived for eighteen years.

"Ah Shui! Don't run too fast! ”

I stood on that old street and watched a little boy in open crotch pants, running barefoot down the street, and behind him, a middle-aged man in a wheelchair, shouting with concern.

"Brother! Don't worry, Ah Shui will be able to walk in ten months, steadily! Behind the middle-aged man, a young woman pushed the wheelchair he was sitting in and said with a smile.

"It would be nice if your sister-in-law could see all this." The middle-aged man said, looking back at the depths of the new house, the dark staircase that went down, and at the bottom of it, there was an iron door, and behind it was a red coffin, and it was his wife who was lying inside.

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A chapter that was late.,It's past twelve o'clock.,I'm sorry Oh, even though I didn't rehearse until half past ten.,After coming back, I worked out for half an hour.,Take a shower for half an hour.,I didn't start writing until half past eleven.,That's why it's so late to update.。 Today I saw a comment from a book friend, saying that the joke of dreaming after reading this book is really funny haha. Speaking of dreaming, even though I have nightmares every day since one day in my sophomore year of high school, it's not that I think about it day and night, but I don't know why I keep dreaming of cows, ghosts, snakes, gods, demons, monsters, and monsters, which are very painful at first, but then gradually they have become the inspiration for my creation. ~ Tomorrow's exam, there is no time to write books during the day, and both are updated at night.