Chapter 30: A New Life from Darkness (Part II)
Recently, in addition to the various trainings as always, Lin Yumo has one more habit - that is, 'in a daze', more precisely, he comes to the core biochemical room of the Skywalker mothership on time every day, and is 'in a daze' in front of a group of strange girls who look the same and behave like children!
The contradictions and tangled feelings have been echoing in Lin Yumo's heart from beginning to end.
While raising the butcher knife in his hand and cutting it down without hesitation, he repented and atoned for the lamb he was about to kill with his own hands with a compassionate expression of mercy and compassion!
"I'm such a disgusting hypocrite!"
Lin Yumo commented on himself at the moment, obviously doing evil things, but always measuring himself by the moral benchmark of justice and benevolence, although he has always admitted that he is a very selfish and despicable guy, but Lin Yumo has always believed that in the process of selfishness, although he is not a good person in the absolute sense, at least he has a basic bottom line and principles that human beings should have!
Then, when faced with a choice, after only hesitating for a moment, he did not hesitate to throw away his so-called bottom line and principles!
It's disgusting!
It was as if a fly had fallen on a pure white porcelain plate, and from the time he made that decision, Lin Yumo felt that there was some kind of irreparable flaw in his spiritual will!
A pure benevolent person would rather sacrifice his own interests than protect others, Lin Yumo can't do it!
However, as long as he can benefit from himself, he will not hesitate to sacrifice others, and Lin Yumo can't do it either!
But even so, Lin Yumo still can't use the so-called excuse to evade his responsibility, such as 'this world, this cruel reality forced him to make such a choice or something', Lin Yumo disdains to say it anyway!
After all, no matter whether this decision is good or bad, it is a choice made by one's own will after careful thinking and careful judgment!
I can't talk about regrets, because Lin Yumo believes that if you change the time, change the reason, and change the place, as long as the situation remains the same, your decision will not change!
However, although I will not regret it, my heart is full of guilt and shame!
In the final analysis, Lin Yumo is a guy who still has a little naivety buried in his heart, on the one hand, he recognizes in his heart the life creed of 'unscrupulous means to achieve the end', and on the other hand, he wants to be in ' On the one hand, they deny the so-called chivalry, but they insist on a certain kind of strict self-restraint similar to the knightly creed, on the one hand, they constantly ask for and plunder something from this world and the people and things in this world, and on the other hand, they want to give appropriate mercy and rewards to the objects of their plundering and exploitation!
Sometimes, when Lin Yumo is self-reflecting, he will also fall into the paradox of self-contradiction and self-denial!
Is what you're doing really right?
Or do I have to go wrong without hesitation, even if it's wrong?
In this world, simple pure white cannot survive, and the various colors filled in this big dye vat will eventually completely pollute the original pure white, and may even fall into the darkness in the end!
And the end of the pitch black is self-destruction, simple pure white and can not survive, it seems that only the chaos between pure white and pitch black, is the most perfect state of human beings, things in the world, between gains and losses, good and bad, good and evil, right and wrong, there is never a conclusion, so the Taoist interpretation of the way of heaven is a round of Tai Chi!
Black and white are intertwined with each other, black is white and white is black!
Without knowing it, Lin Yumo entered the exploration of 'self' and his own path in ignorance when he had not yet woken up!
Lin Yumo, who came back to his senses, looked at these mass-produced special pseudo-changers in front of him who looked like girls on the outside, but in fact, they could grow up in twenty-five days of cultivation time, although Lin Yumo had twelve points of unbearability and guilt in his heart, he still did not hesitate to give the order to continue to implement the 'Three Sages Manufacturing Plan'!
Through the cold and transparent glass curtain wall in the real room, Lin Yumo inadvertently looked at a girl wearing a simple light blue one-piece real yàn suit, the girl's eyes were big, and her eyes were so pure that there was no flaw in the slightest, revealing her curiosity about novelties, the moment she saw Lin Yumo through the glass curtain wall, she seemed to be driven by curiosity, and staggered to Lin Yumo from the center of the adult culture room in the real room.
But when she was only separated by a wall from Lin Yumo, she shrank her head and hesitated, hesitating whether she should approach the strange existence in front of her.
――It really looks like a baby!
I don't know why, Lin Yumo's heart suddenly had such a thought, so, Lin Yumo subconsciously stretched out his right hand to the girl with the throbbing in his heart, and gently pasted his palm on the transparent glass curtain wall, the pure girl raised her head and looked at Lin Yumo's eyes, and then looked at his palm on the glass curtain wall, and finally lowered her head to look at her white and tender but fleshy right hand, thought about it a little, and opened her palm. Through the barrier of the glass curtain wall, Lin Yumo's palm fits together perfectly!
As if they had a soul in their hearts, Lin Yumo and the plain girl who was already destined to become an experiment invariably showed a soft smile like catkins!
In an instant, Lin Yumo suddenly had a feeling that his soul had been thoroughly washed and healed from the inside out, as if he had made himself feel the burden he was carrying in this smile, and no matter whether the girl on the other side could hear it, or whether she could understand it after hearing it, Lin Yumo said solemnly to her, or to them, - I'm sorry!
Call me a hypocrite!
Call me selfish!
After all, I took advantage of you!
Let's make a promise without shame!
Your sacrifice will not be in vain!
I will pledge my name, my beliefs, and my savings!
Your value will be maximized!
It is not only ruin that sinks and falls into this darkness, but in the darkness of this ugliness of sin will bring about the greatest new life!
Lin Yumo's eyes suddenly turned a little red, as if there was some kind of trembling, which made his already iron-like soul produce a warm current of war corn, gushing out from his heart, directly impacting his eyes, and a stream of tears almost couldn't be suppressed and wanted to flow out!
At this time, Lin Yumo raised his head slightly, and suppressed this special emotion - he can't become weak, or rather, he can't tolerate becoming weak!
"Yes! I regret it! ”
Lin Yumo wiped the dapplication from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and endured the throbbing in his heart, forcing himself to turn his back and not look at her, and them!
Because Lin Yumo had a hunch that if his eyes stayed on them for a while, he might not be able to help but leave that puppy girl!
"Because I've already decided! I...... Be a sharp knife that cuts through thorns! ”
"I'm so sorry! Although I know sorry is useless! But I still want to say it again! ”
"I'm sorry - if I were given another choice...... I...... Will do more! ”
In this way, Lin Yumo muttered to himself in a low tone, while taking extremely heavy steps against the pure white behind him, although the bright light of the real room behind him illuminated his back, but the shadow reflected in front of him had been firmly integrated with the deep dark background of the spaceship passage!
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In the next six months, a series of preparatory work has been completed, including the screening of the body, the quantum-numbering of the blank consciousness, the re-construction of the core program of the blank consciousness, and the construction of the virtual personality.
After repeatedly confirming that there were no omissions, Lin Yumo finally began to work on the last step of the entire 'Three Sages Creation Zào Plan', that is, to use the three most perfect blank consciousness bodies that were carefully selected to manufacture the core carriers of the Three Sages' logical thinking judgment system, and at the same time, in this process, Lin Yumo also had to use the three core carriers as the center to build a simulated personality thinking circuit, among which coincidentally, the girl who looked at Lin Yumo at the beginning happened to be among the three bodies.
"In the name of Lin Yumo, the highest authority of the mothership, give an order! The construction of the three sages' quasi-logical thinking judgment system was officially launched! ”
With Lin Yumo's order, everything is ready, and the final manufacturing steps of the 'Three Sages Plan' that only owes Dongfeng are also unfolding in an orderly manner!
'Confirm the highest authority of the mothership, Lin Yumo...... Login Privilege Sequence - 0001'
'Permission confirmed...... Begin to extract the blank consciousness body'
'Blank Consciousness Body No. 04377, No. 08977, No. 13246 Successfully Extracted'
'Begin to perform the transformation of the quantum number jù of the consciousness body...... Conversion success...... Start the first quantum scan...... Scan complete...... Normal'
'Begin to build a number of control agencies...... The bottleneck is open...... Start building an overload switch...... The construction of the overload switch is completed...... Black-box programs are built and locked...... Unlock ...... Collar restraint procedure loading...... Collar restraint system loading completed...... Core handler loading............ Quantum wave interferometry ...... begins Quantum interference succeeds...... Virtual Personality Onboarding Preparation ...... Primordial Qualified Brainwave Activity Number jù Read Preparation'
At this point in the plan, Veda reminded Lin Yumo that as a primitive qualifier, he now needs to enter a specially prepared brainwave connection device with a higher sensitivity than the virtual training cabin, and connect with Veda through guò, and then conduct the final construction of the virtual personality thinking circuit according to the number of information elements jù when Lin Yumo switches between different consciousness personalities!
After entering the brainwave link cabin, Lin Yumo felt in a trance that he had entered a deep sleep state similar to that provided by a sleep device, and with the implementation of various programs set by Lin Yumo in advance, Veda also showed the predicted countdown to the construction of the entire simulated personality thinking circuit on the projection light screen in the main control room!
121:37:36
One hundred and twenty-one hours, thirty-seven minutes and thirty-six seconds, if there were no accidents, about six days later, when Lin Yumo woke up from the brainwave link warehouse again, it was the day of the birth of the Three Sages' quasi-logical thinking judgment system!