Chapter Twenty-Seven: Winning Me (II) [4300 Words Chapter]
"Ahem...... cough cough cough ...... Ahem......"
At this time, Lin Yumo, who was blackened in front of him, couldn't stop flowing scarlet blood from the corners of his mouth, and Lin Yumo no longer had the strength to speak under such a serious injury, but even so, the knowing smile on the corner of Lin Yumo's mouth still did not disappear, but became stronger under the attack!
"I felt it more clearly...... But it's still too vague to be enough...... Not strong enough! I need to know better! So ......"
While Lin Yumo was thinking like this, he relied on his willpower to support his broken body and staggered back from the ground!
What do you think? Miscellaneous, this time you should clearly feel what it means to be desperate, no matter how firm your will is, with your weak strength, you can only be beaten by Uncle Ben, not to mention that even so, deep down, you are still subconsciously limiting your strength? Are you afraid of going down the same path as Uncle Ben? Is this wanton end so frightening to you? Obviously a scum with less than five combat strength, what else do you have to hold onto, and how many times can you still hold on to standing up at the moment? ā
But speaking of this, with his own attitude, he also felt solemn under Lin Yumo's trembling posture of standing up.
"However, I don't beg for mercy when I am beaten like this by Uncle Ben, Uncle Ben reluctantly agrees with your will, and it will make you suffer less when it swallows you, but it is also because Uncle Ben is already impatient, so I warn you for the last time, if you don't want to continue to be tortured like this, just give up as soon as possible, being devoured by Uncle Ben is the result you will face!
However, on the other side, after Lin Yumo stood up again, his right arm was suddenly wrapped in a cloud of green light, only to see that under the wrapping of that light, Lin Yumo's right arm actually had a blue and white gauntlet-like thing being revealed, and a long silver-white blade slowly stretched out from the back of the gauntlet under the bright green light. It is clearly the right arm of the Angel of Energy and the GN compound gun and sword suit that is attached to it.
"Sure enough, I was right!"
Wisps of blood are still gushing out of Lin Yumo's throat, and it is inconvenient for him to speak when he is seriously injured, because as long as there is a desire and hope to speak, there will be unbearable pain between the chest and abdomen, but even if he doesn't speak, Lin Yumo's determination is still clearly expressed, I saw Lin Yumo stretch out his index finger and point at himself, and then make a provocative action with his thumb down!
"Still can't you see the reality? You waste, you dare to provoke Uncle Ben! ā
Ben Yi looked at Lin Yumo and said a little incredulously, he couldn't understand why Lin Yumo was so tough, but in the face of his own doubts, Lin Yumo didn't make any answer, he just raised the blade on his arm armor and pointed at himself.
"It's really not a long memory, I've said it a long time ago...... No matter how many times you can't win against me, why don't you guys understand? ā
The self, who was in a more irritable mood, shook his right arm, and with a flash of red light, an arm armor that was exactly the same as Lin Yumo's right arm except for the color also appeared on his arm, and then the self raised the blade on his arm-for-tat and pointed at Lin Yumo, and said.
"Uncle Ben said that he would crush you in the same way, although I don't understand what you are insisting on! But Uncle Ben has always said to do it! ā
As he spoke, Ben Yi dragged the sword on his right arm and once again took the initiative to attack Lin Yumo's direction!
My sword skills are the same as those used to fly the Gundam, with wide openings and closings, furious and powerful, and fierce and fierce like a storm, and the momentum displayed on the surface alone is overwhelming, let alone comprehending it in person!
As for Lin Yumo under the shroud of his own sword, he was just barely defending, and he was still left with large and small wounds on his body by his sword blade!
Although Lin Yumo has been abused by his own blood on the surface, in the process of constantly fighting swords, every time he will bring new feelings and understandings to Lin Yumo's heart - the desire to survive and strive to live, the desire to understand things, the desire to tell others about his observations, thoughts, feelings, etc., and the desire to gain the recognition of others, the desire to compete in the crowd, show his uniqueness and authority, and gain the respect and obedience of others. The desire to make one's body more comfortable with one's senses, and the eagerness to possess the opposite sex!
All kinds of things here, since the first punch I first hit Lin Yumo, Lin Yumo has vaguely felt it!
After that, Lin Yumo's provocative way of calculating the plan made the self attack himself more, causing more contact between the self and Lin Yumo, and with the increase of contact between the self and Lin Yumo, this perception became more and more obvious and clear!
Is this the source of the power of the self, and the desires and desires that arise from the repressed instincts of the body?
Why didn't I notice it before?
The so-called ego ā isn't that my instinct?
Of course, my own existence will produce all kinds of desires, and these desires are forcibly suppressed by myself, and these suppressed instincts give rise to the id, and in the final analysis, the birth of the self is my own reason, and I have never realized this.
IāIāI've never identified with the existence of 'my desires and desires', the concept itself, and of course my desires and desires will not identify with myself, in other words, I have been denying the existence of 'instinctive me'!
I see, I thought...... I kind of get the point!
Through the constant fighting, Lin Yumo seems to have finally realized the biggest difference between the enemy and me, and finally found a way to win this battle, the self is my own instinct, then I will find this instinct, and use this fundamental desire and hope as the driving force, to conquer, to devour, to plunder, to get back the instinct I already have, to truly identify with my own instinct, to indulge my instinct, desire and hope at the same time, and strive to dominate it!
"Speaking of which...... I've never really gotten to know you, me! ā
While dodging under the fierce sword momentum of the wolf, Lin Yumo spoke with difficulty.
"You're right, since that car accident, I've been terrifying myself, constantly suppressing my instincts in order to pursue the so-called spiritual extreme, and finally seeing all desires and hopes as obstacles to the pursuit of transcendence, in my previous understanding, I even had an idea that as long as I can stay in the same state as I was in that car accident, I can do whatever I want, but now it seems ...... Looks like I'm too arrogant! ā
Saying that, Lin Yumo raised his head and showed a relaxed smile after blocking one of his own slashes, and continued with a smile as he looked at him.
"For example, right now, I can't defeat you with just two things, sanity and calmness!"
Seeing Lin Yumo's look of victory, the thing called anger in his heart suddenly burned even more violently!
"I'm always saying something inexplicable, but no matter how much you say, as long as you can't defeat me, you're destined to be devoured by Uncle Ben!"
As he spoke, a strange red streamer suddenly lit up on the blade of his own armarmour, and I saw him swing a sword with all his strength to the top of Lin Yumo's head, while Lin Yumo could only defend with his sword in a hurry, only to hear a click, under the slash of the self, Lin Yumo's horizontal blade was actually smashed by the self along with the gauntlet on the arm!
However, just when the blade of his sword broke through Lin Yumo's defense and was about to slash at him, Lin Yumo suddenly shook his hands in the air, and after twisting slightly, a long blue light conjured up a silver spear in his two palms, almost blocking the blade that almost touched the tip of his nose!
"Yes, there are some things you don't need to understand, but I have to!"
The silver spear in Lin Yumo's hand swept away, and after temporarily forcing back the self, he stood in place and put out a green dragon claw after throwing the gun, and continued to say to the self.
"From now on, I will look directly at my desires and desires, my own self, I will admit that desires and desires are an indispensable part of my will and soul, and I will no longer forcibly suppress my desires and desires with the so-called reason, but really look at them, dominate them, and let desires, hopes and instincts become the driving force of my progress!"
The self who was forced to retreat did not give up his offensive, but became even more angry under Lin Yumo's mouth cannon, he discarded the blade on his armour, and like Lin Yumo, a scarlet magic spear appeared between his hands, and the self was not verbose, and with a shake of the arm, the sharp tip of the spear turned into three brilliant spear flowers, and after one bowed, he stepped forward sharply, and the scarlet spear swept like a meteor, straight to Lin Yumo's chest and heart.
However, at this time, Lin Yumo smiled, he did not continue to fight with his own self, but unexpectedly threw away the silver spear in his hand, and then opened his arms as if he was hugging something, dodging or dodging, and stood there calmly facing the magic spear stabbed by his self!
"You... You guys ......."
In the face of Lin Yumo's sudden strange behavior, even his own self didn't react for a while, after a moment of sluggishness, he had lost the opportunity to change his moves, although he had doubts about Lin Yumo's appearance, but for the sake of today, he could only stab it with one shot, as for what would happen later, he couldn't care so much!
When the magic gun in my hand touched Lin Yumo's body, the whole gun disappeared strangely, just when the difference between myself and me was due to this change, Lin Yumo's arm was inserted into my chest like a hot knife cutting oil!
"How...... How can it be! How the hell did you do it! ā
Ben I looked at Lin Yumo's right arm inserted into his chest with a somewhat dull expression, and asked with difficulty.
"As I said, I will face my instincts and desires and hopes, through the previous contact, I finally understand that the reason why you can hurt me is only because I am constantly resisting my instincts and desires and hopes, and while I deny my instincts and desires and hopes, my own instincts and desires and hopes are also constantly denying me, so you, as the embodiment of instincts and desires and hopes, use my resistance to hurt me, in the final analysis, it is just me who is hurting myself. This is also the reason why you control here, the difference between you and me is just a cognitive difference, I am me, you are also me, the self is my truth, I am my truth, you and I are the same root, after understanding this, how can you hurt yourself? ā
"What's more, from the moment I decided to complete myself, I had already decided to accept my instincts, my own desires, my desires, that is, to accept your existence!"
"Is that the reason? However, I have not yet overcome the superego, how can it end like this! ā
Looking at the self who was about to fight back to death, Lin Yumo couldn't help but shake his head with pity, and said, "You are really a model of simplicity, haven't you seen it yet?" Since the car accident awakened the superego, he has been constantly subtly influencing me, so that I am manipulated by reason, and because of this, there will be your storage zĆ i, and it is he who makes you and me constantly internal friction, he comes to reap the benefits of the fisherman, it can be said that whether it is you, or me, are played by the superego in applause, such a storage zĆ i, how can you defeat lightly! ā
"I know that rat who doesn't dare to show it head-on, but are you sure you're ready to merge with me? Are you ready for battle? If you want to control me, you don't have the absolute desire to fight and power, to kill the enemy without mercy, to ravage and crush it, but you will be devoured by me, after all, I will not let someone weaker than me run around with my name on his back! ā
"Determination to fight and strength?"
Hearing this, Lin Yumo suddenly laughed, and his face no longer had the coldness and rationality that he used to be like a mask, but instead bloomed with a brilliant brilliance from the depths of his heart!
"Of course, I'm ready for these things, and wouldn't it be too boring to be without them as a foil in my quest for the end of the transcendent? This self! I'm different from you, I don't need to completely erase the imprint of your will, after defeating you, I just need to tolerate, understand and then merge with you, the self and the self are both part of Lin Yumo's storage, only if we all save it, Lin Yumo's storage will be complete, and we can pursue the transcendent ultimate, so, come back, my instinct! ā
"Tolerance and understanding? I see, I understand, Uncle Ben admits that you have won me for the time being, but you remember it to Uncle Ben, as long as Uncle Ben's will is still in the soul space for a day, once you disgrace the name Lin Yumo, I will appear again, and before that, Uncle Ben's body will be temporarily handed over to you for safekeeping! Defeated Dog ...... You hope that I will never find this opportunity! ā
Saying that, even if he had been defeated, his self, who was still arrogant and arrogant and self-confident, completely gave up the struggle, and finally turned into a crimson core and was sucked into Lin Yumo's hands!
"What a treacherous battle!"
Lin Yumo pressed the red core on his chest, and saw a series of water waves like ripples, and the core was completely integrated with Lin Yumo's body!
"Instinctive me! Rest assured! The qiÄ you are pursuing, from today onwards, I will replace you to achieve it with your own hands, and the superego, which has imperceptibly manipulated my hatred for so long, I won't just forget it! ā