Chapter Twenty-Four: The Struggling Self
If other people saw Lin Yumo talking to himself at this time, they would definitely wonder if he had schizophrenia, but at this moment, Lin Yumo's own situation was actually more terrifying than schizophrenia!
After the 'self' temporarily took control of his body, under the control of his beast-like and furious style, the Angel of Noh easily suppressed the O Gundam, but just like the original O Gundam, Lin Yumo is now the same, teasing the O Gundam in front of him like a cat playing with a mouse.
In fact, if according to the real Lin Yumo, that is, the state dominated by 'self-awareness', Lin Yumo will not have any sense of anger and hatred at all if he is only trained by the system-restored intelligent AI, which is similar to combat habits, and produces the teasing and contempt.
However, the radical superego does not care about this, and if it takes mine, it will be returned, and if it eats mine, it will be spit out, tooth for tooth, eye for eye - this is the simple creed of the will of the 'id', as for reason and weighing...... What is that? Is it OK to eat?
Therefore, the qiē that this self is manipulating Lin Yumo's body at the moment does not have any special meaning, it is just for the pleasure of revenge for willful and reckless acts!
However, as time goes by, relying only on the power absorbed by the ego from negative emotions will obviously not be able to seal the superego's actions for a long time, but the ego is obviously very aware of this, so when the power of the ego weakens and can only form a stalemate with the struggling power of the superego, the ego keeps repeating the cycle of accumulating power to suppress the superego→ power consumption is broken through by the superego→ but suppressed by the superego, and then accumulating strength to suppress the superego!
Even if this kind of behavior seems to be as boring as a child's fight, the ego, which has been suppressed by the superego, is still enjoying the process of suppressing the superego in a short time!
For the ego, being able to compete with the superego is a very pleasant and interesting thing for him, not to mention that he has been sealed for a long time, and it is rare that he can take this opportunity to go around the outside world!
In the pupils of Lin Yumo's left and right eyes in the cab, blue and red light constantly alternated between dimming and flickering, and the ego and superego constantly changed their control over Lin Yumo's body.
In this way, the angel of energy, who is under the distraction and manipulation of the two, also shows a superb fighting style with a changeable style, sometimes violent and fierce, sometimes calm and accurate!
When the red light is in full bloom, the fighting style of the Angel will become like a goshawk pounces on a hare, a lion bites an antelope and is as ferocious and ferocious as a beast, although every move is extraordinarily brave and agile, although it seems to be reckless and reckless, but it also maintains a keen instinct, attacking the enemy's flaws while the enemy discovers his flaws.
Offense instead of defense! The offensive is in full swing! Step by step!
However, when the blue light prevails, this violent and direct combat method becomes extremely calm and calm, dignified and upright, attacking head-on, relying on watertight defense and counterattack, step by step and at the same time, pressing the enemy's resistance space, until finally suffocating the enemy with his own huge offensive and forcing him to submit!
There were even times when the red and blue rays would freeze in one place, but at this time, the Gundam Angel was under the joint control of the two wills, but there was no confusion in the slightest.
Instead, as if he had learned how to fight with both hands, he used different styles of melee swordsmanship with his left and right hands to launch an irresistible attack on the O Gundam like a torrential rain and a violent wind!
However, this simulated battle is not the only place to fight, while the battle in the outside world is going on, even if the 'id' uses the temporarily enhanced power to suppress the appearance of the 'superego', so that the 'superego' cannot completely control the body, but the 'superego' can use its own body located in the spiritual sea to pull Lin Yumo's 'self', who is already on the verge of collapse and is about to step into the 'lost', into the 'will' located at the core of Lin Yumo's soul
-- That is, the interior of the glorious palace that Lin Yumo's 'self' had experienced in the process of spiritual awakening!
Located at the core of Lin Yumo's soul, the palace of the 'will space' where Lin Yumo's will meets, is not so much a residence as a huge cage imprisoning the 'id' and 'superego', this palace is constantly balancing the power between the 'id', 'ego' and 'superego', so that the 'id' and 'superego' cannot replace the 'self' as the core of the soul and replace the dominance of the 'self'.
However, with the help of Lin Yumo's mental flaws formed by a large number of negative feelings this time, after temporarily defeating Lin Yumo's 'self', the 'self' finally escaped from this cage and appeared in the outside world.
In a sense, the ego is the original body of consciousness condensed at the beginning of the birth of the soul, and the superego and the idgo are just things that can be manifested after being stripped and sublimated in the process of constantly shaping the self.
Although in some respects it seems that the id and superego are exceptionally powerful and peculiar, in fact they are more one-sided and extreme, unable to achieve the coordination of the will of the self, and the two are just going from one extreme to the other!
At this time, the 'self' that was pulled closer to the palace by the 'superego' was already entangled by countless thin black mist at the moment of entry, although it still maintained the human form of 'Lin Yumo', in fact, it could only send out a beast-like chaotic and heavy breath, and the strong negative emotions were constantly eroding and impacting the ontology of the 'self' consciousness, if there was no help from the outside world at this moment, then it was only a matter of time before the will collapsed and the consciousness dissolved!
"Even this kind of Cheng dù's negative feelings can't be resisted, it seems that my expectations for you need to be re-evaluated, self!"
The 'superego' looked at the 'superego' whose eyes were gloomy, the wolf's back was bent over, the description was distorted, the saliva was uncontrollably flowing, and the 'self' was panting, and there was a trace of contempt and disappointment in his eyes.
"However, with your ability to persist until now, it has not been completely eroded under the blessing of the 'self', which must be the limit of your ability, so as I know all of you, the current situation is not expected!"
Saying that, the 'superego' didn't talk nonsense, and raised his right hand directly, throwing out a light blue cold light towards Lin Yumo's 'self'. Under the shroud of this cold light, a cold reason that almost annihilated human nature was also injected into Lin Yumo's body with a light blue light, and this powerful rationality suppressed the 'black fog (negative emotion) that was entangled in the 'self' very lightly, and at the moment when it got rid of the erosion of the 'black fog', the self's eyes regained its consciousness after being confused for a moment!
"I ...... What's going on? Hmm! My head hurts...... I kind of remembered...... I seemed to be swallowed up by the negative feelings that suddenly erupted from me, and then ......"
"Then I was pulled here and regained my senses!"
Before the 'ego' had just woken up from the chaos and figured out the current situation, in order to save time, the superego first took over the ego's questions.
"You must know what happened before, now you are safe for the time being, the negative emotions that are entangled in your body have been temporarily suppressed by me, I dare to assure you, you don't need to worry about it breaking out again and devouring your storage in a short period of time!"
Standing in the center of the golden palace, wearing a black tuxedo, with the same color but no half-silk folds, it looks straight, but the whole is very weird, faintly revealing a sense of disobedience to the outside world The young man in black trousers, after gently closing the book in his hand, slightly tidied up the bowler hat he was wearing and the exquisite gold-rimmed glasses he was wearing on the bridge of his nose, he took a swift but extremely accurate step, as if he had been measured, step by step in front of Lin Yumo's self - that is, Lin Yumo's ontological will.
He said coldly in an unquestioning tone, with a vaguely lofty posture looking down on all beings.
"These little things have been settled by me, and as far as the present situation is concerned, the most sinister state of affairs at the moment is not your growing negativity, but the instinctive self of the three wills, including you and me, which you know!"
"Instinctive me? The ego? What does this have to do with the situation I just got into and was almost consumed by negative feelings? Could it be that I planned it? ”
Lin Yumo asked a little confused and puzzled.
"It seems...... You still don't understand! ”
Superego pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose with his white-gloved index finger, sighed a little helplessly, and for the first time showed an expression other than coldness, putting on a look that he really didn't care about you, and said slowly.
"What the instinctive self represents is the most primitive bit of animal nature hidden deep in your heart, and the desires and hopes that come from the deepest part of your heart to be satisfied, whether good or bad, as a human being, based on your own cognition!"
"People always like to be clever and separate desires from desires - good desires and hopes are called desires, and bad desires and hopes are desires and desires? This is really ridiculous, no matter what is good or bad, no matter what is good or evil, as long as there is something you still want to do in your heart, what you want to get, and what you want to achieve, then there will be desire, this desire is the so-called wish, and who imposed it on people? ”
"There is no good or bad desire itself, destroying the world is a kind of desire and hope, and saving the world is also a kind of desire and hope, so as long as there is still desire and hope, the self can devour these desires and hopes and become stronger and stronger!"
After giving Lin Yumo some time to breathe, the superego continued.
"However, these negative emotions that you generate within yourself contain all kinds of desires and desires, such as desires and desires to destroy, desires and desires to destroy, and desires and desires to vent anger and resentment completely! These desires and desires are the best food for the self, and by devouring these constant negative feelings, the instinctive self, which was originally completely suppressed by me and has little room for resistance, also becomes stronger and stronger over time, and when the self is strong enough! ’
"At that time, Lin Yumo, the leader of the deposit, is likely to change hands forever, although I am not particularly optimistic about you! However, compared to the self, it is more in my interest to let you be the core and leader of Lin Yumo's existence! ”