Chapter 869 - Drowning at the End of the Ideal......

- I'm still alive.

The moment she realized this, Xiao Lan knew the result.

Won......

The battle, in which only one of the two sides survived, and one of them would inevitably survive, ended with his victory.

However, there is no need to be surprised.

The final blow full of determination to bring down the enemy.

Then you should do everything you can to kill the enemy.

There was no room for amazement, and he didn't leave that kind of room to spare.

…… Just、Why?

Ming Ming won the final victory, Ming Ming got the opportunity to go to the future, and Ming Ming was enlightened from the beginning.

But when you really get what you are pursuing, why is there only emptiness in your heart?

A moment ago, it was an opponent who fought to the death, like a reflection in the mirror, another self, starting from the chest cut off by the forbidden sword of destruction, as if telling others that it was originally so, shattered and scattered like grit.

Losing the support of the body, the soul is completely dissipated.

But he, as well as his memories, knowledge, and strength, have all been left in Xiao Lan's consciousness to become the only one, and they can no longer be separated.

And then.

Silently staring at the chaos that was dissipating, the man named Xiao Lan only existed dimly.

"My nameβ€”"

He opened his dry lips and muttered to himself.

"Xiao Lan."

But. That person wasn't here.

It is true that the memories of life named 'Xiao Lan' are all vivid, but what does this mean? What's the point? The final blow of gaining all and losing all of it completely severed the connection between him in the past and him in the present.

He is undoubtedly Xiao Lan. Flora's husband and Felicia's father, but nothing elseβ€”unable to feel the memories of the past belong to them.

In his eyes, Xiao Lan's life is just a video, and he doesn't think that the role in the movie is himself.

"It's like a ghost on a negative."

He bit his lower lip.

Inexplicably, bitterness from the bottom of my heart.

But the incredible thing is that this uneasiness and anxiety that makes people scratch at his chest does not make him feel pain or sadness.

Anxiety and pain do exist, but these feelings belong to the past self after all.

But it seems to be. Became a person of unknown origin.

My mind went blank.

The body was empty like a cave, and even the air penetrated like the wind.

It's like deliberately forgetting the reason, and he has become a person, as if a big hole has really opened in his chest. It was very unsettling - and very lonely, and the missing piece of the puzzle in his chest was like a heart, and he couldn't stand the existence of the gap.

I've become a person.

Xiao Lan in the past probably hadn't tasted this kind of feeling.

Just as where there is light, there must be shadow. Even if you have not experienced reincarnation, the world has been given a different entity. There was also an alter ego in his body that was different from the inside and the outside, but now that he had disappeared, noβ€”he might not have been able to tell who he really was.

Because there is no 'he' in my heart, I only rely on this fact to identify myself as 'me'.

"Hah...... It's a contradiction. If one of them disappears, it is impossible to tell which one is him."

There was a meaningless sneer, but it didn't fill the void in his chest either.

If at least I can feel sadness, this heart, which has no feelings, should also have some changes.

However, it is no wonder that he could not judge. Because he is no one, he can't actually feel that the memory belongs to him. Even if there is this completed "Xiao Lan" shell. Once the contents are washed away, there is no point at all......

So, what exactly should be put into this lonely hollow?

"That's our mission......

Suddenly, a voice was heard.

Without looking back, I knew who was the person who wrapped my waist around me from behind and snuggled up to me.

retrieved all the information in his memory, and through comparison, he found the only person who met the requirements, himself, to be exact, Xiao Lan's daughter.

Somehow he got out of the world where there was only 'evil', and then found the 'Xiao Lan' who pierced his chest with the spear of Longinus, and then entered this battlefield where a result must be reached through some method that he may not know.

"Felicia."

He muttered his name, and something seemed to be surging in his eyes.

However, it is impossible to recognize this feeling.

If you pretend to deal with it according to the attitude you remember, it will be like acting in a lame play, and in the end it will only be comical and frustrating.

And since it is destined to be such a result, it is better to start from the beginning-

"That's enough...... That's enough, Daddy."

As if reading his heart directly, the silver-haired girl who hugged her tightly shook her head gently.

Without sacrifice, there is nothing.

However, it is not possible to dwell on grief.

"Even if you are a very different person like being born again, Dad is still a Daddy. No matter how much you lack self-awareness of yourself, the essence of Daddy will not change, maybe you don't even feel alive now, but sooner or later you will realize who you really are.

No matter how you plant roses, they will still grow roses. Even if the soil and water content of the nurture are changed, they will not grow into other flowers.

Also, people who are destined to have fate, even if they are reincarnated for thousands of years and lose all their past memories, they are still destined to come together......

So don't worry about it, she smiled. Quietly added.

"In the end, the vacant cave will have to be filled with other things, and since Daddy, you can't rely on memories. It is only through the accumulation of the present moment that a new self can be formed. But as long as my mother and I are here, we will never leave you alone......

Xiao Lan, who was hugged, silently did not speak.

He just looked up and calmly looked at the light that was floating ahead.

From the abyss with no end in sight to the equally ambiguous sky, the world of chaos that has not yet been determined by anything throughout the ages, leaked from the thick cloud-like gaps, and the eternal darkness from the depths of the endless void seemed to be able to swallow everything, but under this light, it dissipated into the golden morning light like the morning mist......

That is. Rising hope.

In the distance is dawn.

The sun rises.

A gentle wind began to blow, like an eternal golden light.

Among themβ€”

"Ah, yes."

It's like sighing, but there is no remorse.

The wind is blowing.

The eyes are slightly closed because of the dazzling light of the morning sun. Open.

He saw a vast field of sight, the apparition of the past, and the resentment vanished with the wind.

It's the same as when it appeared.

neatly. Not even a little bit was left.

"It's enough to keep this kind of thing in your heart as a memory......

The whispering voice has no regrets.

Hold on your chest what you have lost and what you have left. I squinted slightly because of the light of hope.

Hope will not forget, hope not fade, such a strong prayer to look at the horizon, and then ...... Sing the final finale.

"β€”let's go, go and end this!"

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- At that moment, he may have seen the light.

The man who had once been called the strongest was looking at the scene exactly.

The scorching flames that shone in the battle are a portrayal of his life that he once wanted to be, but was betrayed by fate.

That kind of scorching heat. I want to confirm it again with these eyes.

Not an illusion of nothingness. It's real.

Obviously he was covered in bruises, but his eyes were still burning with an indestructible will, he was obviously weak and not worth mentioning and needed to use a partner to cover up his weakness, but with the strength that was just a dying struggle, he penetrated him who had the strongest name......

There was a boom, and the sound of sand scattering sounded.

No unused blood was shed.

For him, blood is shed only when there is life.

When life is cut off definitely, it will only return to ashes.

Even if the body still slowly emitted black flames from the chest where a big hole was drilled, it didn't have the slightest effect, the black flames just kept bursting out from the scars, rising up to a length of tens of meters, and the body of the replica Zheng Zhe slowly turned into ashes and dissipated......

"It's me who won, the clone."

The man named Zheng Zhe watched intently as he made a declaration.

The demon who had become the strongest in the past, leaving only the last trace of black flame still burning, closed his eyes.

It's ridiculous......

No, that memory can't be forgotten to this day.

An encounter once upon a time.

The horror was less than a second.

however

That posture, even if you fall into hell, you can recall it vividly.

The beautiful picturesque childlike face, the woman he loved most in his memory, as long as she was by his side, his heart would never fall, and he lost the light forever.

…… That scene, as soon as I closed my eyes, still remains in my chest.

"Ah, I lost."

Yes, it's like saying it to yourself.

It's just that in the next moment, with 300% momentum, the ridicule of the light returns.

"But you didn't win either!

- Listen to me, even if only a little, I admit your will! However, it is not you, nor your so-called partners, nor the will and desire to go to tomorrow, but the fate you hate, deny, and want to change!

You are so stupid, just drown at the end of your ideals......"

The clones did not disperse transcendentally, but left the legacy of the defeated to be destroyed.

But it doesn't matter.

He is the man named 'Zheng Zha' in his heart.

"I'll stand in front of you again...... Right?"

Until that day comes, it's not a bad thing to sleep in the darkness.

Until, awakened by despair.

"You,"

Zheng Zhe stood stunned and bit his lip slightly.

It was pitch black again.

From the outline of what resembles a cup, slowly, dripping venom that eats away at the victor.

In the end, and the strongest blow, forgetting that all the two of them had invested too much, the power created from the gap in time and space to support this dimension disappeared, that is, the lifespan of this universe had come to an end.

If you can't leave before the last light is gone, you will fall into this darkness of despair......

That's, the end?

- No, it won't end there!

"That's right, an ideal like this is just a dream, and this kind of thing ......."

It's been known for a long time.

But even so, I always believed that it was right.

It is precisely because it is an unattainable dream and an impossible ideal that we can always move forward into the future.

Even if it can't be achieved.

If you keep running, one day, you will be able to approach that place.

It's like a drill that never stops, as long as you don't stop, you will improve even more than you did a minute ago, although it is small, but it will advance an inch with each revolution.

Soβ€”

[I'm not wrong! 】

"No matter how ironic fate may be, no matter how dangerous the choice of life may fall, I will carry it all on my back, and I must be a signpost on the road to happiness...... Because my friends believed in me until I died! How can the self they believe in, and the me they believe in me, back down because of such a casual remark from yours!"

Regret is too heavy to bear, sins are too heavy to be redeemed, but there are still things that must not be conceded to.

"Ah, I don't know why I should be sad about loss, why I should worry about the shortness of time. I want to find the power to let all life transcend boundaries, let all flowers bloom on the earth at the same time, let those who want to fly fly freely, let everyone be with what they like forever......

No matter what lies ahead, if it becomes an obstacle or a wall that blocks my path, I will do my best to break through a big hole in it!"

- roaring with his will.

In an instant, the astonishing energy surged up on him, and the energy field that vibrated the space trembled in waves.

Because of the strong thoughts that lead to materialization, the branch generated by time and space penetrates the barrier of the dimension, and at the end of the end, it opens the passage that connects this closed universe -

"This is the end...... Let's go, folks!"

He is the only one left, but he has become the hope of all his companions, and even the pain and despair of the other self are also carried.

Through the deep darkness, the man named Zheng Zhe returns exactly to the original starting point.

However, what is there is-

The first sensation was heat, followed by the smell of burning human fat. When I opened my eyes and looked around, the flames in front of me seemed to be scorching the sky.

"What the hell is this......"

For a moment, he almost thought he had entered another world.

However, a voice in his heart told him.

This apocalyptic scene is the reality he knew...... (To be continued......)