Seeing what happened to Gu Xinyan when he was young, Zhang Chai sighed secretly.

Gu Xinyan's biological father, Gu Mingzhe, ruthlessly abandoned Gu Xinyan's mother and daughter for the sake of glory and wealth...... Before Gu Xinyan's mother was seriously ill, she wanted to see Gu Mingzhe, but Gu Mingzhe refused, which left a deep shadow on Gu Xinyan's childhood.

Until Gu Xinyan's mother died of illness, Gu Xinyan, who had just turned ten, lived on the streets and finally entered an orphanage.

It was during this time in the orphanage that Gu Xinyan's life took an important turning point.

When Gu Xinyan was twelve years old, a group of frenzied thugs washed the orphanage in blood, and only Gu Xinyan survived in the entire orphanage, and to Zhang Chai's surprise, more than a dozen thugs in the bloodbathed orphanage were stabbed to death by Gu Xinyan with a knife.

It's hard to imagine that a little girl who is only twelve years old has such a strong talent for killing!

This shocking bloody case shocked the whole country, and even Zhang Chai had heard about it a little, and he had some impressions in his memory.

However, the media reports at the time did not mention that Gu Xinyan killed the rioters, but only said that the rioters were all shot dead by the police.

After that, Gu Xinyan's talent was favored by the people of the military's special organization, and she began to be specially trained, which gave her later terrifying skills.

After three years of training, Gu Xinyan, who was less than 16 years old, was already a leader in the special organization, and was sent to dangerous areas to perform special tasks many times, and also completed the tasks with great success, and soon became the ace of the special organization......

And the biggest regret in Gu Xinyan's heart is not the death of his mother, let alone his father's desperation, but the fact that he accidentally killed his most beloved instructor during a mission.

"Xinyan, don't just focus on training and completing tasks, you also have to think more about your future, after all, you are just a child, don't make yourself like a killing machine." This is what instructors often say to Gu Xinyan.

"No! I'm going to get stronger! Whenever the instructor came to teach, Gu Xinyan would always prevaricate with such a reason.

The instructor sighed: "No matter how strong it is, what can it be?" It's a time of peace, and when you retire, do you still have to carry out your mission? ”

Gu Xinyan said lightly: "Then never retire." ”

The instructor smiled bitterly and said, "Everyone can only stay here for seven years at most, and after seven years, a group of rookies will come over, and you are no exception." ”

Gu Xinyan groaned: "Then I'll tell the leader, I also want to be an instructor like you, so that I can continue to stay." ”

The instructor shook his head and said, "The above will not agree, you are too young, and your personality is not suitable to be an instructor." ”

When Gu Xinyan heard this, he immediately fell silent.

Looking at Gu Xinyan, who was silent, the instructor suddenly said: "You aspire to be a strong person, but there is something that belongs to a strong person, and you don't have it." ”

Gu Xinyan was puzzled: "What is it?" ”

The instructor said meaningfully: "You lack feelings in your heart, and if you don't have feelings, you will never be able to become a real strong person." ”

Gu Xinyan was surprised: "Feelings? ”

"Strong is not necessarily strong, and being strong in all aspects is really strong." The instructor patted her on the shoulder and said with a smile: "When you have real feelings one day, you will come and explain to me in person, tell me, what is affection." ”

This was the last official conversation between Gu Xinyan and the instructor, because in a later mission to secretly capture the drug lord, the instructor who acted as an undercover agent inadvertently revealed his identity and was arrested by the drug lord......

This incident has become a knot in Gu Xinyan's heart, she always blames herself for thinking that if she could calm down, the instructor may not die, she attributed the instructor's death to herself, making this incident the biggest regret in her heart.

Reading this memory of Gu Xinyan, Zhang Chai immediately had the idea to directly create the phantom of the instructor, wanting to use this to untie Gu Xinyan's heart knot.

In Gu Xinyan's spiritual world, Gu Xinyan clenched his fists tightly, his heart was full of deep guilt, if it wasn't for his impulsiveness, the instructor would not have died...... If only I could have thought of a better way to rescue him......

"Xinyan." At this time, a deep voice came from behind Gu Xinyan.

When Gu Xinyan heard this familiar male voice, her heart shook violently, and she suddenly turned her head and saw the instructor's stern and familiar face.

"Don't blame yourself anymore, my sacrifice was my own mistake, I can't blame you, let alone your fault." The instructor's phantom said with relief.

Gu Xinyan gritted his silver teeth and said with difficulty: "No, I killed you......"

The instructor shook his head and sighed: "If you take responsibility like this again, then I will be really angry!" ”

Under the instructor's majestic gaze, Gu Xinyan lowered his eyes and said quietly: "Even if you don't blame me, I won't forgive myself." ”

"Uh......" As soon as he heard this, the instructor was speechless, and then said helplessly: "Then how can you forgive yourself?" ”

Gu Xinyan said confusedly: "I don't know either...... Maybe, I won't forgive myself for the rest of my life......"

The instructor looked at Gu Xinyan with hatred, and said angrily: "I have already said that I will forgive you!" Why do you have to feel sorry for yourself? As a soldier, it is inevitable to shed blood and die in the mission! If you can't accept these facts, what else can you talk about getting stronger? If you want to become strong, you must first forgive yourself and untie the knot, so that you can be strong! ”

The instructor's words were knocked on Gu Xinyan's heart, her eyes widened slightly, and she was interrupted by the instructor's deep voice just as she wanted to speak, only to hear the instructor repeatedly emphasized: "Don't use excuses and reasons to prevaricate me!" If you want to be strong, you have to forgive yourself first! Do you understand?! ”

Gu Xinyan bit her pink lip and said, "No...... I've always believed in the instructor's words......"

The instructor was stunned and said, "Then what did you want to say just now?" Anyway, since you choose to trust me, you have to forgive yourself, you know? ”

"Hmm...... Instructor, I want to sue you, I seem to ...... Found feelings......" Gu Xinyan lowered her head a little cowardly, and looked very shy, which was very different from her usual indifferent appearance.

The phantom of the instructor was the incarnation of Zhang Chai, and when he heard Gu Xinyan say this, he felt quite curious.

After reading Gu Xinyan's previous memories, Zhang Chai knew very well that the reason why the instructor told her that she could become a strong person only if she had feelings was that she really wanted Gu Xinyan to become an ordinary person and have the normal emotions that ordinary people should have, instead of only knowing training and performing tasks like a machine.

In this way, it feels a little strange to hear Gu Xinyan say that she has found her feelings now, Gu Xinyan's personality doesn't seem to have changed much, she is still as cold as before, why did she suddenly find feelings?

"I seem to ...... I fell in love with a man who was a few years older than me, and I felt at ease with him and wanted to do my best to protect him...... Is this what the instructor said about feelings? It's a really special taste, sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's bitter...... Besides, he doesn't seem to like me......" Gu Xinyan said in a low voice.

Zhang Chai's heart moved, did Gu Xinyan like someone? Who could it be? Did you meet on an island?

He thought about it for a long time, and couldn't think of a man who could be liked by a cold beauty like Gu Xinyan, so he had to borrow the instructor's phantom and nodded with a smile, encouraging: "Yes, this is feelings, I am very happy that you can have feelings!" Xinyan, you see that you are so beautiful, which man would not like it? You have to come on! Try to make that man like you too. ”

"Hmm." Gu Xinyan pursed her lips and nodded obediently.

"Alright, it's time for the instructor to go where he needs to go...... Xinyan, you have to take care! ”

After a few words of encouragement, the figure of the instructor gradually dissipated.

……

As the knot in his heart was untied, Gu Xinyan disappeared from Zhang Chai's eyes.

[Congratulations, you have successfully redeemed the survivor of No. 378 'Gu Xinyan', and after evaluation, Evil will reward you with 600 evaluation points.] 】

After Gu Xinyan disappeared, Zhang looked at the empty infirmary, feeling very sad inexplicably, and now he was the only survivor left in this world, which made him feel a sense of loneliness in his heart.

"It's time to go, it's all gone, should I go too?"

Zhang Chai muttered in his mouth, turned around and left the infirmary.

He plans to go to the SSS members and ask for their opinions, asking if they want to ascend to heaven or if they want to stay in this world.