08 My face has always been like this
On April 30, 2011, at 18:30, at the dining table of the Aragaki family.
"Ayase, can't the work during the 'May Day' really be canceled?"
"I'm sorry Dad, I've already told you, right? The work arrangement has been set half a month ago, how can we cause trouble to everyone because of our personal reasons? ”
"But this time it's different, your brother has finally returned, and my mother and I are looking forward to a real family trip......
"Ah, that's right. But not this time, sorry.
Wait...... Summer vacation, summer vacation, okay? I'll say hello to the agent in advance and spare it for a while. ”
Ayase looked apologetically at her disappointed parents, and then glanced back at her brother sitting beside her.
Her long-lost biological brother had been chewing on his food with a blank face, not saying a word, as if he didn't care about the conversation between his parents and her.
Is this really my own brother?
Despite the DNA identification results to prove it, Ayase thought so more than once.
It's not because there is suddenly an extra person in the family, but because I suddenly have an extra brother next to me as an only child...... Although there are indeed reasons in that regard, the most important thing is that Ayase does not feel any family affection in this "big brother".
It is even said that Ayase did not find the existence of "feelings" in this seventeen-year-old boy named Chu Xuan at all, he was as if he was a robot.
Although Ayase had also vaguely mentioned this issue to her parents in private, her parents both believed that it must have been the painful experience of more than ten years that made the child what he is now.
Ayase didn't listen to her parents tell her parents exactly what kind of pain this brother had in China, but she would feel sorry for her parents when she saw the expressions of guilt and self-blame.
Perhaps it was because of this that her parents, who had always been strict and serious, were extremely tolerant of all her brother's strange behavior...... Even connived, even the surname and first name did not ask my brother to change it.
But even so, in the nearly half a month since her brother "returned" to Aragaki's house, he still never showed any expressions other than expressionlessness, as if he hadn't even spoken a few words to his family, except for morning exercises every morning and evening walks, he just locked himself in the house all day long, facing the computer and didn't know what he was doing.
This kind of person is the legendary "one", squatting at home, otaku, neet or something.
But her parents ...... Alas, the two of them are completely blind only in matters concerning their brother, as long as the brother is happy, he can do whatever he wants.
But, that Chu Xuan, can he really laugh?
"W-That...... Big...... Elder brother? ”
Ayase, who was full of worries in her heart, tried to talk to Chu Xuan a little timidly.
“……”
The eldest brother sitting next to her put down the dishes and chopsticks, turned his head expressionlessly, and was still chewing the food regularly in his mouth.
"Big brother, I'm sorry, are you unhappy?"
Ayase looked like a frightened little animal, her eyes looked upwards at Chu Xuan's face, her slightly thick eyebrows wrinkled slightly into a figure-eight shape, and she asked softly in a concerned tone.
"Why do you ask?"
Chu Xuan asked lightly, the voice that made people unconsciously want to frown when they heard it was not so much indifferent as indifferent—as if they were looking at the world calmly.
Ayase regretted a little in her heart that she had rushed to talk to Chu Xuan because of a momentary move, and she replied softly with some cringe:
"Because、Because the eldest brother has never had a smile on his face,...... I don't think you're too happy......"
"I'm sorry, my face has always been like this."
Chu Xuan pushed down his reflective glasses and replied casually.
Although he only calmly recounted a fact, the sensitive Ayase was able to feel the heavy truth behind it from those indifferent words.
What kind of past does it take for a high school student to spend all the time with a blank expression?
A photo that she had seen in the past suddenly appeared in Ayase's mind:
In an impoverished part of Africa, skinny children, with only big heads and bulging bellies, look at the camera with expressionless faces, and a few vultures not far away land there, waiting to eat the next child who dies of hunger.
"Ah...... Hey, sorry, I shouldn't have asked. No, it's okay......"
Ayase lowered her head, feeling very complicated.
"It doesn't matter. It's my expression that makes you feel unpleasant, I'm sorry. ”
Chu Xuan nodded in understanding, then sat up straight, and began to eat again as if it were a robot.
If you look closely, you can find that the direction and angle of his chopsticks are optimized every time, and he can use the gravity of his hand to reach the food in the most labor-saving way.
And he usually always stands like a pine, sits like a clock, walks like the wind, and lies like a bow, so he feels like a soldier.
None of this was done by him, it was just that his brain could control every subtle movement of his body with great precision, so his body, which was just an ordinary person, also had a C-class reaction - this was already the limit of his physical ability.
Hearing Chu Xuan's apology very seriously, although he seemed to be a little cold, Ayase, who lowered his head, didn't know why he felt that his eyes and nose were a little sour.
"It doesn't matter, just live in this home in the way you think is most comfortable, and then do what you want to do, and we won't interfere with you in any way."
Chu Xuan's "set" father, Congressman Aragaki put down his chopsticks and said very seriously, and his wife also nodded again and again.
I don't know if this is the true thoughts of the Aragaki couple, or if the main god system interfered with their thinking, so as to prevent them from seriously affecting Chu Xuan's strategy actions because they cared too much about their "long-lost" son.
The main god didn't want Chu Xuan to be his son, but to let him attack his sister and other beautiful girls!
Because Chu Xuan had always followed the rule of "not saying anything when eating, not saying anything when sleeping", he didn't speak, just nodded silently.
After eating, Chu Xuan took the initiative to speak for the first time:
"I plan to enter the second year of the prefectural Chiba Benzhan High School."
"Okay, my mother and I will immediately call someone to do it, and you can go in after Golden Week."
Maybe it was because he was already accustomed to Chu Xuan's indifferent tone, or maybe it was the thinking interference of the main god system, Congressman Aragaki immediately nodded in agreement without any abnormality.
ps: Tomorrow is two watches ~ the next one is 18:00.
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