Chapter 110: Light

It was nine o'clock in the evening on the ninth day of the Great Lawn Mowing Operation. Alarms from the approaching Kuroshio of the Awakened kept coming.

It was destined to be a sleepless night.

In his personal lounge, Lin Feng read a book carefully by the faint light. Qi Hai sat directly across from him, looking at his teacher in a daze.

The book that Lin Feng was reading in his hand really made this young man feel incredible.

The book Lin Feng was reading was the first volume of "Mao (He) Ze (Crab) East Anthology", in the old era, there were very few young people who had the patience to read that leader's works, and in the last days, there were even fewer people who could read his books. That person's book was borrowed from the political department of Lin Fengtong's army before he participated in the Great Lawn Mowing Operation. In the days after participating in the Great Lawn Mowing Operation, whenever he had time, he would take the time to read it.

Qi Hai came to Lin Feng to ask for some advice on the use of microwave skills. In the past few days of continuous fighting, he has some new application experience, but he didn't expect to bump into this scene.

Qi Hai couldn't help but ask:

"At this time, you will actually read his book"

"There is light in his books, and I am looking for light."

"Light?"

Lin Feng sensed the surroundings, there were only him and Qi Hai in the room, so Lin Feng opened his mouth and asked:

"Before the outbreak of the Awakened crisis, you, like Zhao Qingfeng, were also college students. You at that time. What do you think of this society? ”

Qi Hai said hatefully: "What do you think? It's dark, it's corrupt, it's a bastard! ”

Lin Feng smiled faintly.

Qi Hai said puzzledly: "What's wrong?" ”

Lin Feng closed the "Mao Xuan" in his hand, looked at Qi Hai with interest, and after a few seconds, he said:

"Xiaohai, you may not know that seven years ago, since my mother died, I have been living in the dark for a long time, and the anger and resentment in my heart are a hundred times deeper than you now, and a hundred times more radical than you"

Qi Hai was silent, Lin Feng's past, he also learned a little from the conversation he had with Wang Chao that day.

"At that time, I thought that if the world was dark, then as long as my heart was darker than the world, the world would be bright in my eyes!"

Lin Feng lowered his head, and touched the dagger pinned to his waist with his right hand, seven years ago, there were three serial cases of slashing people in Fengcheng one after another, but in fact, the people who were cut were not three, but nine! The remaining six people were not found, only because Lin Feng cut them up and broke their bodies. Sink into the river.

"At that time, I was like a ghost from hell! At that time, I hated this society, hated all the people in this world, and at that time, I swore to love only myself and live only for myself."

Qi Hai looked at Lin Feng quietly, he knew that he only needed to be an observer now.

"But then I finally got out of the darkness of this excessive ego."

Is it really out of it? Lin Feng said to himself, no, at that time, I just cut off myself, and after escaping the tumor in my brain at the cost of losing myself, I changed back again, but I was so sick that I couldn't move at that time, so I could only honestly wait at home to die.

"Then, I got sick, very sick, and then there was the crisis of the awakened on the second day of the crisis, I learned some lessons from reality, and afterwards I finally understood that this idea of being darker than the world, only for oneself, will only end up dragging itself into an endless abyss from then on. I began to want to try to see the world beyond the dark. ”

Lin Feng knew that no matter how clever the deception technique was, it could only deceive people for a while, and it was impossible to deceive people for a lifetime. If you want to follow a different path from the past, you can't always play this trick of deceiving the world with the idea that "I'm deceiving people".

A fake is a fake after all, and no matter how clever the deception is, it will one day be exposed!

If you don't want to be exposed, the only way to change yourself fundamentally is to let yourself embark on the path of light because of your "bright nature", and let the lies in your mouth become real "from the heart" truth.

Change your personal preferences from the bones? This is the hardest thing in the world, because it has to completely subvert your outlook on life and worldview.

Lin Feng asked himself, "Can you do it?" ”

"People like Chen Taotao were originally the ones I hated the most, but haven't I completely reversed them now?"

So Lin Feng began to analyze himself again, he looked for the self that was closest to "sunshine" among the countless "selves" at different ages in the past.

He quickly found the "self", the sunny boy before the catastrophe at home. At that time, he was influenced by his father, believed that the world was beautiful, and was kind-hearted and helpful.

Lin Feng, who is nearly thirty years old, has experienced great hardships, and his heart has fully matured, no matter what, he can't let himself turn back into the naïve boy who was fourteen or fifteen years old, but he has been trying to see the world with his own "eyes" that have long been "dead".

Looking at Qi Hai's slightly childish face in front of him, Lin Feng secretly laughed at himself and said:

"It's ridiculous to think about, I used to desperately want to kill that naïve self, but now I desperately want to resurrect him. Life is like a circle, I go around in a circle, and finally I return to where I was. ”

Ending the intermittent "nonsense" mixed with personal "nonsense", Lin Feng gathered his mind. Align Kaido with the color squarely:

"The world is not dark, and the world is not light, the world has always been a mixture of darkness and light. However, in different periods of time, the world sometimes has light as the main theme, and sometimes as the darkness has become the main theme. Do you understand? ”

Qi Haidao: "Are you saying that my past mentality was too dark? But in the past era, the darkness should have been heavier, right? ”

"No matter how dark you are, is there the darkness of me then?"

Lin Feng smiled and raised his right hand, his palm glowed with white light, which suddenly increased the brightness of the room a lot.

"Let me ask you, the hearts of people in this world now, do you say that there is more darkness or more light?"

Qi Hai said without thinking: "It's a little more dark, because everyone is very selfish." ”

"So what kind of mindset are you going to use to face the world? Is it to be a hero and try to save people and restore the light of the world, or to be a neutral person to keep his little family and save himself? I know you're not going to be like Tang Jian's gang."

Qi Hai moved his lips and wanted to answer, but Lin Feng pointed at his mouth and sealed the words behind.

"You don't need to sue me for an answer! Do you remember Chen Ming and Xie Yi? ”

"You know, you're talking about the two half-awakened?"

"On the battlefield. Do you want your comrades to be like them? ”

"Of course! I'll just give my back to people like them to protect. ”

"So can you tell me the answer now?"

Qi Hai was stunned, he understood that he had been "trapped" by Lin Feng just now.

Qi Hai said solemnly: "This, I may belong to the neutral person, but I am biased towards the bright side."

Lin Feng said: "Most people, probably like you, but in this last world, this kind of neutral and biased towards the light is not right. ”

Lin Feng is "educating" Qi Hai, but at the same time, he is "educating" himself. The establishment of the so-called outlook on life is, in a sense, also a kind of self-hypnosis. Lin Feng believes that as long as he continues to carry out this kind of "self-hypnosis", one day, he can change himself - such examples are not uncommon. In the past world, many cult "magic sticks" were in this way in the course of repeated self-indoctrination, deceiving others and finally deceiving themselves at the same time, and later they even believed the lies they had made up.

Lin Feng was "hypnotizing" himself.

Unlike them, who "use lies to deceive others", he uses "truthful truths" and "thoughts that are too bright to be brighter" to "hypnotize" himself.

"There are more than 400 people in our battalion, if everyone can be like Chen Ming and Xie Yi, willing to sacrifice themselves for others, how strong do you say our battalion's combat effectiveness will be?"

Qi Haidao: "Of course we are very strong in that way, but people are selfish, and everyone can't really be like that." ”

"Yes! That's why I have to look for the light, believe in the light, and suppress the darkness in our hearts with the light. ”

Lin Feng knocked on the "Mao Xuan" placed on the table, and then said:

"The time he lived in was the darkest time for this country, and the environment he lived in was as difficult as ours. But he and his comrades-in-arms believed in the light, sought the light, and finally gathered the power of light in people's heartsIn fact, our current situation is very similar to the era in which he lived, and you now understand why I read his book, right? ”

Qi Hai nodded thoughtfully.

"We're in a bad situation right now, and it's a very difficult task for us to stay here for 10 days. We need strength, not only physical strength, but also strength in our heartsIn fact, this is said a lot in TV and movies in the old days. ”

Qi Hai couldn't stop nodding in understanding.

"Xiaohai, I read this person's book, in fact, I want to find inspiration in it, I want to try to gather the light in people's hearts like him and his comrades-in-arms"

In front of the "students", Lin Feng expressed his true 'dream' in his heart

When Qi Hai left the room, his philosophy of life had been completely reversed by Lin Feng.

Instructor Han Fang walked in, and as soon as he came in, he said to Lin Feng, "You said it so well!" Do you know, Xiaolin, how to do the following ideological work during this time, I, the instructor, have a headache. I think you're better suited than I am. ”

The previous conversation between Lin Feng and Qi Hai, the Han side happened to hear the second half outside the door.

"I just realize that in these last days, if everyone is still so selfish. Sooner or later, we will be killed by the Awakened. That's why in the camp, I tried my best to pass on my knowledge and skills to each of them. I'm just trying to figure out some of these teachings to tell you something about your thoughts."

"Well said! I can't see those guys, who have a little ability and just like a treasure. Xiaolin, how nice would it be if everyone was like you? ”

Compared with Shen Yan's temperament of not being lukewarm, not soaked in oil and salt, this camp instructor Han Fang was said to his heart by Lin Feng in a few words. If he still had a little prejudice when he saw Lin Feng and the semi-awakened Lu Cheng "discussing" during the day, he was now completely convinced by him.

Lin Feng took the opportunity to hit the snake with the stick, and humbly asked the Korean side for advice:

"That, old Han, can you tell me how you used to do the ideological work of the soldiers?"

Chill yourself.,Originally, this chapter was going to start writing the battle plot.,But when I went to fill my teeth this afternoon.,Suddenly a flash of inspiration.,As a result,The war between the awakened and the human race.,I had to push it to the next chapter to begin......

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