Seeing how much I slept, my heart was completely relaxed. Seeing her fall asleep peacefully, I knew that this hard work was not in vain. At least the death of the eldest man was not in vain. The thought of the big man made me feel melancholy. It's a pity that such a good person died so unexplained.

Although he said that he would rather die on the battlefield than die at home. Although the situation we face is not as fierce as the battlefield, it is also of the same nature as the cruelty of the battlefield: if you are not careful, you will be afraid of your life. What makes me even more guilty is that he didn't fight for himself, he fought for us.

I don't know if it's as different from what he expected, and if there is an afterlife, I have to repay him.

The old man saw that I was in a daze, and said, "What are you thinking?" ”

I had mixed feelings and was looking for someone to talk to. Since the old man asked so, I was not polite, and told the old man all my inner thoughts. After listening to my inner thoughts, the old man did not speak immediately, but only smiled at me. One moment of contemplation, the other time brushing the silver-white beard of his chin. After a long time, he said to me: "Actually, you don't have to have too much psychological burden, because everyone has their own lives, and you and I can't change them." ”

"Do you really believe in fate?" I asked, "You are so knowledgeable and have seen so much more of the world than I have." Do you really believe in fate? I'd love to hear what you're thinking. ”

The old man laughed and said, "If you don't believe in fate, I won't say it yet." However, I believe in one thing. ”

"What?" Seeing that the old man was silent, I asked.

The old man said, "Regularity." ”

"Regularity?" I was puzzled.

"Well, maybe when it comes to fate, many people will doubt it, and they will say that it is superstition." The old ghost said. However, in the face of the law, everyone is convinced. These so-called 'laws' are the science of the general population. Actually, I am particularly reluctant to say anything about science, I prefer to say that it is a law. ”

"Is there any difference between the two?" I asked.

"Of course!" The old man said firmly. "Science, generally people discover a certain law, and then use some long theories to verify and declare. But the law is different, whether you recognize it or not, it is real. It doesn't change with people's activities, but at a certain time, it will happen on time. It is the result of a series of events and an outbreak of a qiē cause. ”

I saw that the old man was getting more and more vague and profound, so I hurriedly guided, "For example? ”

The old man listened to my questions. Sure enough, he said: "For example, a person is born to grow, from aging to death and forgetting; A thing goes from rising to growing to becoming popular and then to ending; The rise of a dynasty to its development to its peak, to its decline, and so on, etc., the sum of these events, he is a law. ”

"Oh, I get what you said. It is the Confucianism promoted by our Chinese culture. I said, "Or rather." It is the Tao Te Ching. ”

"You can say the same thing." The old man said, "However, I prefer your Chinese I Ching." The so-called 'no pole Tailai, no pole Tai come', that is a kind of dialectical thinking. ”

"Oh, I see." I say.

I talked to the old man for a long time. It turned out to be the essence of culture left by our ancestors - the Book of Changes. Seeing that the old man said it so well, I couldn't help but admire it from the bottom of my heart. Even, I wonder if he is Chinese. Or is it that the ancestors are Chinese?

Meantime. I am also ashamed of myself: as the essence of our nation's culture, I am not even as good as a foreigner. It's not that we look down on foreigners or anything, it's just that we think we shouldn't be able to learn what we should learn.

When the old man saw that I was silent, he turned back to the original topic and said, "Just like the death of a big man, he is also the ultimate law of the development of things. ”

"How?" I heard the old man say that the big man is a benefactor in the full sense of the word for us, so I can't help but want to hear the old man's opinion.

The old man said: "That's the case, for example, the big one, he was born in the military, right?" ”

I nodded, there was no doubt about it.

"It was this kind of military career and special status that led him to engage in this profession (mercenary) after changing jobs." The old man said, "The skills and physical abilities he has honed during his military career are only allowed for him to do so." Or rather, because that's his forte. Only by relying on this can he give full play to his greatest strengths. ”

Listening to the old man say this, I think it is indeed a little "deserved".

The old man continued to enlighten me and said, "It is precisely because of him that we have met him through the introduction of others. We got to know him and invited him to come. It was precisely because he came here that he lost his life like this. ”

The old man used language similar to a series of analogies, making me feel that the death of a big man was something that had to happen. Moreover, there is not the slightest gap and argument to refute! This really surprised me, and I was even a little bit like he was talking about the death of a big man, and it had nothing to do with us.

However, my position was still there, so I immediately said to the old man, "No, there is some truth in what you say. However, the death of the eldest man was indeed caused by us, and it has nothing to do with us. ”

When the old man heard me say this, he nodded and said, "Yes, I didn't say that I have nothing to do with you. It's just, I mean, it doesn't have that much to do with you. That said, not all the blame is on you. You are just a factor in his departure from this world. If it weren't for you, he would still be doing this. After doing a line, it was a matter of time before he died. ”

I was impressed by the old man's argument, and after listening to his analysis, my self-reproach was not so strong. This is not to say to shirk responsibility, but to comfort from the heart, that is, peace of mind. It seems that when a person is depressed, he still has to talk to someone else.

When the old man saw that I seemed to be enlightened, he patted me on the shoulder and said, "Think carefully about what I have said, and see if what I say makes sense." It's not for you to learn to shirk responsibility, but for you to discern things so that you can live well. To live well is to respect and repay the dead, especially those who died for you. ”

Being enlightened by the old man like this, I suddenly felt a lot more at ease. Moreover, from the bottom of my heart, there is a strong desire to survive! Not only do I want to live well, but I also want the people who help me and love me to live well.

Just when I was talking to the old man about this seemingly fateful law, Qian Cheng and the old ghost woke up. Seeing that the old man and I hadn't slept yet, he asked, "Damn, I said that you are in such good spirits that you can even be spared from sleeping." (To be continued......)