Chapter 13: A dilemma
Add, Avi, what a long memory. In just two names, I suddenly re-excavated my long-sealed memories......
It was the Black Ship, an experience I always wanted to forget, but I couldn't forget anyway.
Twenty years ago, at the age of fifteen, I was already a revered future shaman on the savage planet Sogan, and I had already passed the adult trials to become a qualified hunter. If nothing else, I will enter the temple at the top of Mount Il, at the age of eighteen, and become a warrior in the service of the gods, while attaining a near-eternal lifespan, but until then, I am obligated to find a wife and have a child, and continue my blood and that of my tribe......
But that year, the unexpected struck. Unlike the giant-like men in the temple, another group of God's acolytes descended. It was a few women who seemed to me to be indescribably beautiful at the time, completely silent, dressed in gold plate and chain mail, and armed with weapons more powerful than the Templars. Without any explanation, they took me out of the land, wilderness, and mountains of Sogan and into a temple where the stars soared.
I learned long afterwards that the temple was the Black Ship, and that the gold-draped women were the Sisters of Silence—the most formidable of us psionic opponents.
The three months on the black ship became the darkest and most terrifying episode of my life. That prison is used to hold us unregistered psionics.
There, I completely lost the supernatural abilities I once prided myself on. A large group of us were locked up in a large, dimly lit, low, and extremely large cabin. Anyone who competes for that very limited amount of food becomes a potential enemy. Luckily, perhaps because of relying too much on my own superpowers, most psionics are not very physical, and their fighting skills are even worse, which gives me a huge advantage after being trained as a full-fledged hunter and tested in the wilderness. I can easily take down hordes of ill-intentioned competitors and take away their food.
But I can't be alone, a lone hunter is not destined to survive for long. I speak the language of many tribes on our planet Sogan, but I can't communicate with anyone on the Black Ship. And I found that even though they were from different planets, they could communicate with each other in the same language. In order to fight against the strong me, they formed more and more alliances.
Even if I don't lose to anyone in combat, at least I need someone to help me communicate. I chose Add, the skinniest and most inconspicuous child, five years younger than me, and incapable of threatening me. It was a miracle that he had entered the Black Ship before I did, and that he had survived, and I even suspected that the Sisters of Silence had given him special care. Perhaps it was because of his most devotion that even in the most desperate moments, he still recited the emperor's quotations.
From kneading my fingers to "one, two, three" to "the emperor already knows, and is under watch", by the time I disembarked at Holy Terra three months later, I was able to communicate almost simply in low Gothic. And as a sidekick, Eddie did more than just teach me language, from my vigilance when I slept, to my work as a bait when I was "hunting", he did his best work. He has depended on me for a long time, and I am not dependent on him. Later I was able to pass the guò loyalty test, and a large part of it was because he had been babbling in my ear - and I had beaten him for it, which was one of the few things that made me feel guilty.
In the most difficult days, there were so many weak people in the alliance that I couldn't fight on my own, and I desperately needed an ally who could really fight. After comparing a few people who were as weak as me and had some fighting and survivability abilities, I chose Awei. The original plan was for Eddie to come forward as a bait to catch her and forcibly threaten to join, but fate or the emperor as Eddie said gave us a better chance, and she was besieged by a large group of people. So we showed up just in time, and neatly helped her send off the enemy, and it was logical to form an alliance. …,
Ah Wei is two years younger than me, but she is much stronger than me, and her fighting ability is extremely good, and I may not be able to beat her in a face-to-face fight. She was a month later than me, she came from the military, looked down on most psykers, and barely able to see me, but she cared for Eddie unusually much. Once the alliance of the three of us is formed, we will basically be sure of the supremacy of the Black Ship. At the very end of the voyage, we even established order in the chaotic crowd for a time, using a system that everyone could basically agree on to distribute the hard-won subsistence supplies.
"He-who-stands-with-me-shall-be-my-brothers!", Awei told me. The three of us have built trust and dependence on each other, and it is thanks to them that I can find a trace of warmth in that cold and dark prison. After stepping out of the Black Ship, we went to different psyker schools, and I never saw them again, and I never met a friend I could rely on like them. After realizing the size of the Empire, I even gave up hope of reuniting with them.
It seems that it is out of a tacit understanding on the black ship, and no one reveals their own psionic type. In other words, before entering the Psionic Academy for formal training, everyone's psionic ability has not yet been finalized.
But this reunion brought more than just surprises.
Those who stand side by side are brothers, and in this way, Sylvia, who is in the same boat as me, is a brother even closer. Although I hadn't really faced the enemy as an infantryman, Sylvia, who was in charge of driving the ship, had been charging at the enemy for a long time. As a military man, I cannot tolerate this betrayal......
On the other side, there are not only my former brothers, but also the Inquisition, one of the highest authorities of the Empire......
Think twice when you encounter something, standing in the wrong line is a lifelong thing!
As a matter of business, it makes sense that I am on the side of the court. And seriously, with my ability, it's not too difficult to barely control this ship. And, with Sylvia's status and ability, she shouldn't be able to take revenge on me afterwards - she probably won't even be able to keep her current status as a transport captain. If you choose to go against the court...... Forget it, it's extremely scary to have such thoughts.
But I still can't tolerate betrayal, even if it's for the sake of loyalty to my former brother. And, if we don't go to war, will the two of them be able to escape from that battleship? Or even if they could escape unharmed, what about the rest of the ship's crew? The battleship was lost to Chaos like this? ……
It's a dilemma, I can't make a decision at all. I'm just a small staff officer, and I've never been in a critical position like regiment commander or company commander - even if I wanted to, I wouldn't be given a career in the Empire. I'm good at giving advice, but I'm never going to have the courage to make decisions.
Is there a way to get the best of both worlds? It is necessary to obey the Inquisition's arrangement, to get Melved Picker out of the battle, and to satisfy Sylvia's wishes......
Do what you can, this kind of logically contradictory thing is something that even the emperor can't accomplish, right?