For some reason, Baili Xianchuan felt very stuffy in his chest, and there was a throbbing, looking at her refined side face, but he felt very strange, and he felt that he was about to lose her.

Just like the vision he saw in the heart of the sea spirit, she walked away from her without looking back.

It hurts, it hurts, it's why, it's clear that she's right next to me, why, why does it feel like this.

It really hurts, why does it hurt? It's so close, but why does it feel so far away?

She was still writing quietly, beautiful like snow falling on the grass, very beautiful and very cold.

She didn't notice his look, she didn't notice, his hand clutched to her heart, she didn't notice the sadness that flashed in his eyes.

She really couldn't notice it, because the sadness had been covered by the tears in his eyes, like a fish in the water, and you don't know if it shed tears.

Looking at her face, Baili Xianchuan tried his best to suppress the sadness in his heart, and couldn't help but say the sentence, "I feel as if I'm losing."

"You .......", Chuan Yu stopped the pen in his hand and looked at the paper stained by ink in a daze, which was originally supposed to be a white paper used to write the most beautiful poems, but now it has become a waste paper.

This was originally a very clean blank sheet of paper that could write a lot of things, but because of this one stain, it was impossible to write any beautiful poems or paint lifelike paintings.

Perhaps only a miracle, or a master, can write or draw the most beautiful poems and paintings on it.

She turned around, but saw that his expression was painful, and he clutched his heart, and she remembered asking, "What's wrong with you?" Don't scare me, you wait for me, I'll call the elders," and was about to get up and leave.

"No", he grabbed her hand, suppressed the pain in his heart, and said with difficulty: "Don't leave me, just be by my side."

Her hand was held tightly and did not let go for a second, he cried and said: "I don't want to leave you, I find that I can't live without you anymore, I don't know what I'll become when you're not by my side, so don't leave me, okay?".

He hid his face and cried, she held him in her arms, and gently patted his back with her hand, and the sentence: "I want to go back to Dongzhou" was never said.

After a long time, Baili Xianchuan calmed down, he looked at her calm face, and for some reason, he suddenly kissed her.

In the past, she would have avoided or resisted, but this time, she did not dodge again, but pandered to him.

The breeze lingered between the lips and teeth of the two of them, as if they were teasing, and as if they were witnessing.

The two kissed and forgot what they wanted to say, at this moment, he wanted to get her, she wanted to have him, if he really could, he wanted to go on like this, but .........

But the estrangement in their hearts makes it difficult for the two of them to go back to the past.

Something is quietly changing in places you can't see, or things you don't care about.

He pushed her to the ground, kissing her, his hand slowly brushing towards her waist, before he might have stayed for a while, but now he just wanted to untie her belt.

Just as he was about to untie it, he suddenly stopped, and his mouth was salty, it was tears, it was her tears.

Two lines of tears crossed her face, dripping onto the mat, or sliding to the corners of her mouth, and when the tears filled the water, he saw sadness and unwillingness in her eyes.

She cried and said: "I know that you were framed, I know that you are forced to do that, but I just care very much, in my mind, all that comes to mind is your entanglement with other people, you say to them what you said to me, I am very selfish, I don't want to share you with anyone."

"Chuanyu, I .......", he didn't know how to comfort her, he held her in his arms and let her tears stain his clothes.

She hugged him tightly as if she was about to be separated and never to be seen again, she hugged him tightly and her cries spread far and wide like a child.

"I also know that everything you do is because of another girl, but I don't care, I think it's enough for me to be around, but ........", she hugged him with tears streaming down her face, like a child.

"But after this incident, I realized that I am very selfish, I don't want to share you with anyone at all, I just want you to be the only one by your side, no one, even if it's a summer star, even if it's Ye Ningle, no one, you can only be me", she cried in his ear, saying the words that had been buried in her heart, which were long-suppressed words.

"I'm selfish, I just want to have all of you".

"You can only have me by your side".

She lay on his shoulder, crying loudly, and forgot the dignity that her mother had taught, and now she just wanted to lie on his shoulder and cry, just like an ordinary girl, hiding in her lover's arms and crying.

And he could only hug her just as tightly, he couldn't comfort her, because he couldn't do it, he couldn't turn a blind eye to Xia Yunxing, and he couldn't give up his agreement with Ye Ningle.

He thought he could have them at the same time, but ........

But this is just his wishful thinking, who wants to share the person he loves the most with others, no one wants to. Whether it's Yun Xingwan, or Summer, or Chuan Yu, they just don't want to leave him, so they hide their inner thoughts.

I know this, why do I want to provoke them, if I hadn't met them, maybe my life would only be Ningle, and I wouldn't hurt any of them.

How many wrong things I have done is now realised, if only time could do it all over again.........

A light breeze blew and blew down the flowers on the tree, but it didn't blow away his guilt, it didn't dry her tears, it didn't take away her cries.

That day, her cry traveled far, far away, and even years later, he would remember her cry.

Her crying made his heart hurt so much, obviously he didn't die of old age, but it was also so painful that he couldn't breathe.

That day, he didn't know how long she cried, and she didn't know how long he was in pain, because they only remembered the moment of separation.........

In the end, she still didn't stay with him, and he didn't keep her.

She knew that he could not satisfy her selfishness, and he knew that he was all she was, and she was not.

If it weren't for Ye Sifan's matter, maybe they would still be sitting under the tree as usual, and he would pill on her lap to relieve the fatigue of cultivation.

Maybe this moment will come, but not now, at least they can deceive themselves, just as they can deceive themselves that the moon is the sun.

After leaving him, Chuan Yu returned to Dihong Valley in Dongzhou, she said that she was tired and wanted to go home, wanted to go home to see the snow mountain, and also wanted to go back to Tianyuan Academy to see those acquaintances.

In fact, everyone knows that she is escaping, and when she leaves him, it is like running away from the wilderness.

After he left, he said that he was locked up and that he would not see anyone, whether it was Andor, or Wentian, or anyone.

She thought she had left him nothing, but she had left him with fond memories, guilt, and a blank sheet of paper stained with ink.

Whenever someone asks them, "Why are you leaving each other?"

They always smiled and said, "We've never been together," they said, but the tears in their eyes couldn't hide their reluctance.

After that, it was rare to see Baili Xianchuan walk out of the room, and when he walked out of the room again, he was smiling, but there were tears hanging from the corners of his eyes.

Since then, no woman has appeared by his side except Andor, and his gentle smile is gone, like the vanished piece of paper.

After coming out, he walked into the Black Ink Spirit Cave, which was the cultivation holy place of the Dihong Palace, inside the Dihong Peak, which was composed of high-purity Black Ink Spirit Stones, and the intensity of the aura there was beyond imagination.

Just like the Xuanyin Pool in the Xuanyin Palace, under the Dihong Peak, there is also a pool, this pool is not water, but the aura exists in the form of liquid, sitting next to him to cultivate, it is like sitting in the innate spirit stone.

Baili Xianchuan has never come out since he entered, and he has not stepped out of that place for a single step, as if he has been cut off from the world.

In the Black Ink Spirit Cave, Baili Xianchuan sat in a corner, and it was three years to sit.

For three years, he was motionless, like a stone sculpture, and it didn't matter if there was dust on his body, even if his hair grew long, even if he became unshaven.

He just sat there like that, motionless, like tears in the corners of his eyes, which never dried up.

Even if Yu Xi came to visit, even if other sect masters from Nanzhou came, he didn't open his eyes, he just sat there quietly.

Although he was just sitting there, he never stopped cultivating, and the inheritance spirit bead in his body was also a little smaller, and the moment it all disappeared, he stepped into the Spirit Monarch realm.

He touched everyone's hearts, and the most worried were An Duo, Wentian, and Fang Nanchen, who got along with him day and night.

Although it is good to cultivate hard, it is also too worrying.

Within three years, Di Hongqi and the Nine Great Elders had persuaded him more than once, but he was like a vegetative person, ignoring the people around him and their concern.

When Dihong Kaige heard this, he forcibly took Dihong Chuanyu back to Dihong Palace from Dongzhou, but even if Dihong Chuanyu came, he also didn't open his eyes.

At this time, everyone realized that he had cut off all senses, immersed in his own world, and turned a blind eye to things outside of his body.

But even though they had separated, seeing him like this, Chuan Yu couldn't help crying, she knew that he became like this because of himself.