253. The unbearable weight of life
The hostess took a puff of smoke and smiled disdainfully: "Have requirements for you?" You haven't even found the murderer who killed him, so how can I trust you. ”
I was in a hurry, and I didn't have a systematic understanding of the circumstances before and after the driver's death, so I couldn't help but be surprised when I heard her words, but I didn't show it.
A two or three-year-old child came out of the spacious bedroom with sleepy eyes and said in a milky voice: "Mom, I'm going to see Dad." ”
The hostess frowned and said, "You have a child's family." What is good to see in the dead. Listening to her tone, it seemed that there was no nostalgia for her husband at all.
The child ran to me and kept shaking my hand and said, "Uncle, you can take me to meet Dad, grandma said that he has not been cremated yet, and I want to see him again." ”
The hostess said: "The living can't be caught, and the dead can't be cremated, what else do you say your company can do?" I have been married to him for seven years, and until he died, I left a total of less than 30,000 yuan of inheritance for our mother, and now people have been dead for so long, and they can't even be cremated, what a bullshit company. She was so angry that her voice was shaking, and her eyes were full of tears.
Sadness plus anger. This is the truest state of mind of a woman now, I sighed secretly, of course I can understand the anger in her heart, everything comes from the helplessness of life.
I suddenly noticed a huge wedding photo hanging in the center of the large living room, but the groom would never be the driver by his age, and I understood something in an instant. I immediately felt a sense of contempt for this woman in my heart. said coldly: "We all feel very sorry for your ex-husband's matter, but we still have to solve the matter now, otherwise the deceased will not be at peace underground, I hope you can cooperate." ”
The woman said indifferently: "Anyway, what else can I do?" ”
I said, "Today we have to go to the funeral home, we need to do something about his body." The woman seemed startled, looked up sharply and said, "What do you mean by that?" ”
I used my body to block the little girl and gestured to her little thumb, and the woman was stunned for a while, her eyes gradually filled with tears, and after a while she got up and went into the back room. When he came out again, he was dressed and said to me, "Let's go." ”
Speechless all the way.
When we arrived at the funeral home, we went through the relevant procedures, and someone took us to the morgue, when we saw the deceased, he was frozen for a long time, his whole body was somewhat deformed, and his facial features were wrapped in a white cloth because they were too badly damaged. But this time, I was so prepared that I was not scared, I saw that his face was already full of tears, and he was no longer as expressionless as yesterday, and he was undoubtedly with people at this time.
I saw him stretch out his hand to the little girl again and again, but he could only pass through her body in vain, and I felt very uncomfortable when I saw such a scene.
After a while, I nodded at the "driver", but he didn't see it at all, so I could only harden my heart and say to the woman, "You take the child away first." Then I pulled a phalanx out of my bosom.
The woman's expression was already a little blank, and she turned around with the child, but I knew that she was by no means without feelings for her former husband, but poverty made her finally dislike her lover.
In this small and cold environment, I suddenly understood a truth, which is also a question that I was very entangled with when I saw myself that time, is human nature evil or good? I think that as long as people are born with original sin, they get life because they need atonement, so they will experience a lot of hardships in life.
Those who can survive are heroes, so there is nothing to say, everyone has the right to choose, and they also have the right to live better.
I put my finger bone in the broken place and whispered to the "driver": "I did everything I had to do, what about you?" ”
The driver nodded silently and said, "I know." I sighed and turned to go out, the sun was shining outside, which was completely different from the inside, and on the way back, the little girl whispered in my ear: "Dad still has a little thumb to find, uncle, can you help him?" ”
I nodded, not knowing what to say.
When she got downstairs, the woman walked down from the car, and this time she was accompanied by the vice chairman of the labor union of the bus company, and he said, "Xiaoling, if you need anything......
The woman immediately waved her hand in annoyance and said, "Don't talk this nonsense to me, I don't want to hear it." "The vice-president of the union had obviously never suffered such a bad attitude, and stood awkwardly to the side.
I stepped forward and said, "Anyway, Master Wang was finally buried completely, which can be regarded as a great luck in misfortune." ”
"You ...... Don't come to provoke me, I have my own life, I didn't have a good life for a few days when he was alive, why bother me when he dies? When he said this, the person couldn't cry, and the child was also scared and cried.
"Eldest sister, you mourn and change, we won't bother you anymore." I said. On the search for chastity and death.
The woman carried the child towards the staircase, but when she reached the door, she walked again, then slowly turned around and walked in front of me again, wiped her tears, and said, "Did he say anything?" ”
It seems that she actually knows it in her heart, I sighed and said: "I didn't say anything, I guess he just can't let go of you, so he doesn't want to leave, but he should be able to let go after seeing you two." ”
The tears that the woman had just wiped out of her eyes came out again, and she seemed to want to say something, but she stopped talking.
I nodded and said, "You don't have to say anything to me, because he knows what you think, and I believe he can understand that people are dead, and his greatest wish is that you can live well, and your daughter can live well." ”
"He only had this girl at the age of thirty-five, this child is his life, I will definitely take good care of the child, swear with my life." The woman said as she cried.
"Then his wish will be fulfilled, and the mourning will change." After saying this, I left and did not go back to the bus company, but went straight back to the hotel.
As soon as he entered the hall, he saw Murong Yu and Ning Lingsheng sitting on the sofa in the hall, and Ning Lingsheng's expression seemed to be quite grim.
Could it be that something happened again? I walked up to the two of them and said, "You Lao Dao didn't have any moths, right?" ”
"This has nothing to do with him, you listen to Xiaobao."
"Brother, what trouble did you encounter when you just came back?" I asked beside him.
"Brother Bian, this time I fled abroad and witnessed a massacre when I passed through a small country called Slo in Africa."
"Massacre? Slaughter what? "I didn't react for a moment.
"Killing."
"Is it casual to kill someone?" I was amazed.
"It was in a civilized society, and many countries in Africa were extremely backward in the construction of the legal system, and this country called Slo was actually composed of several tribes, and a war broke out between the two tribes last month, and as a result, the victorious side killed all the people of the other tribe, including women and children."
"These people are crazy, what do old people and children have to do with war?"
"In their belief, if they defeat their opponents, they will slaughter all the other people's people to avoid future retaliation, which is to cut down the grass and eradicate the roots."
"It's so barbaric."
"Barbarism is the primitive character of human beings, this is not surprising, civilization only suppresses the primitive needs in the body, and it is impossible to fundamentally change, and these people do not know how to suppress their nature, so they will appear extremely barbaric."
"What does this have to do with you? You don't want to go to Africa to be a Robin Hood, do you? ”
"I'm sure I don't have the skills, but I want to help the people who have been slaughtered, and I saw them burst the brains of three babies in the family with big sticks, and it was a terrible scene."
"These animals don't even spare babies?" I said angrily.
"The civilization of these tribes is very backward, this is the law of their survival, this is not the truth of human nature, it is precisely because they unreservedly release human nature." Ning Lingsheng said.
"I want to expose these tragedies and let more people know that there are not only singing and dancing in this world, but also tragic hell."
I thought for a while and said, "Brother, your personality is also relatively strong, why did you come back a little bit this time?" ”