17 of one's own will

When the sun set, Black Cat, Ayanami Rei and Chu Xuan walked home side by side, carrying many bags in their hands.

After reminiscing about the fun of the past in the game that was actually very outdated, the three of them purchased a lot of fresh ingredients in the supermarket on the ground floor of the department store like a family, and prepared to celebrate the official start of the three's cohabitation life with a seafood hot pot feast tonight.

"Leigh, do you find it interesting today?"

On the sidewalk that was a little sparsely crowded, the black cat looked at the shadows that had been pulled together by the setting sun, and asked Rei Ayanami in a gentle and natural tone, as if she had known her for many years.

“……”

The blue-haired girl who was sandwiched between the black cat and Chu Xuan she had just met had her back to the sun that was about to set, which made her face blurry, and she couldn't distinguish the expression on her face anymore, but her crimson eyes, which were even less radiant than ordinary people, were slightly brighter in the contrast of shadows.

"It's weird."

Rei Ayaami, who had not yet learned to be polite, thought seriously for a while, and then honestly expressed the confusion in her heart.

"Why play 'games'? What's the use of those 'games'? ”

"There are many animals in nature who also play games, and games are a kind of spontaneous activity for animals to familiarize themselves with their living environment and practice survival skills.

As the highest animals in nature, human beings also play for the sake of intellectual training and survival skills training. ”

Chu Xuan raised his hand and pushed down the reflective glasses, and answered the girl's question seriously, but his words made the black cat's face look embarrassed.

Although Chu Xuan's definition of the game is extremely correct, she always feels that what the expressionless Ayanami Rei needs is not such an explanation, not such a "meaningful" game.

"Understood."

Ayanami Rei nodded slightly, but the black cat hurriedly said to her:

"No, that's not the case...... Leigh, it's not because it's useful, it's just for ...... It's just a pastime.

Yes, it's just for fun, because games are fun, and real life is boring - at least not as interesting as the game world, so people go to play games and find fun in games. ”

Black Cat confidently stated a reason that was very in line with her otaku status, although it was not great, bright, or correct at all, and it was not a reason to be put on the table, but Black Cat instinctively felt that what Ayanami Rei needed was this very ordinary, very ordinary, very personal reason.

- People do not have to do meaningful things all the time in the world, some things are boring, idiotic, and do not help them in their later lives, but they can bring happiness to people, and this happiness itself is an invaluable asset.

It is better to live this life happily than to work hard and hard to live a valuable life...... Valuable, right?

"Fun? I don't understand.

What does it take to make it interesting? ”

Ayanami Li looked at the black cat who wanted to convey something to her, but couldn't say it clearly, and then turned her head again, staring at Chu Xuan's face that was as expressionless as hers with a calm gaze like stagnant water.

"It's wrong for you to ask Chu Xuan about this kind of thing, I can never ...... I haven't seen him smile since I came here. ”

The black cat almost slipped out of her mouth, in terms of "setting", she and Chu Xuan had never met before, but she said as if she had known Chu Xuan for a long time, but her brain after strengthening and adjusting had also become much smarter, and she immediately changed her words perfectly.

"That's what my face is."

Chu Xuan turned his head, pushed down his reflective glasses expressionlessly, and then corrected the black cat's erroneous opinion of him with a steady and uninhibited voice as always.

"And although I'm not interested in things in general, I also have my own joy in life."

"Really?!"

The black cat, who was already an "old husband and wife" with Chu Xuan (although he hadn't done anything yet), raised his left hand carrying a shopping bag to cover his mouth with some exaggerated expressions, and opened his ruby-like eyes wide, looking at Chu Xuan in considerable surprise.

Of course the black cat knows...... No, as a lover with a shared fate, of course she could feel that under Chu Xuan's extremely calm and calm, even robot-like appearance, she actually had the same emotions that a normal person should have, including a heart that could love others, otherwise she wouldn't like this loveless man with facial paralysis and glasses so much.

- For the current Ayanami Rei, what she lacks is probably the kind of thing that Chu Xuan hides in the deepest part of her heart, although the black cat doesn't understand it, but her intuition tells her so.

"Of course."

Chu Xuan nodded earnestly at the black cat, and then said words that would make countless otaku who were actually just trying to kill an empty life and constantly engage in games full of low-level repetitive labor to death in shame.

"For me, exploring the mysteries of the world and discovering the truth of the universe is quite a fun game."

"Uh-huh...... It's good, it's so glaring, it's about to be burned......"

Sure enough, in the face of Chu Xuan, who was like a Buddha exuding a circle of aura behind his back, the black cat immediately raised his hands to cover his face, just like a vampire who had been thrown into the sun.

“……”

Rei Ayaba, who had no expression on her face, had been quietly looking at the black cat and Chu Xuan who had crossed her "flirting", and the voices and figures of the two of them reached the girl's almost completely blank heart through her ears and eyes, and left a clear shadow on it.

However, this little mark is only equivalent to a tiny black dot on an A4 piece of paper that is not noticeable, and even Rei Ayanami herself, if she does not take a magnifying glass and look carefully in her heart, she can't be sure if there is really something special in her heart.

"You don't have to worry about the concept of 'fun', when you have something you want to do, you will naturally understand what 'fun' is.

Spontaneous action – Humans play because they want to play for themselves, whether it's to find their own pleasure or to practice a survival skill.

Of course, it is difficult for you to appreciate what is 'interesting' until you have 'your own will', because you are just acting according to the orders of others, always walking on the path that others have laid out for you, and everything you do is based on the will of others.

Trying to experience things that others find interesting will help you find some kind of fun and find your own will. ”

Perhaps seeing the confusion in Ayanami Li's heart, Chu Xuan, as a guardian and guide, pointed out the way forward for her.

Although Chu Xuan was just directing this girl with a blank heart in the direction he wanted, who didn't go in the direction that someone or some people hoped for in the first place? There are even many children who have been asked to follow the rules and strictly follow the course set by their parents, and not deviate from the "right path" in the slightest.

But as long as they absorb enough knowledge and learn how to survive, how to explore, and how to think, people who were once just at a loss to follow the wishes of others will naturally begin to rethink their own wishes and begin to find their own direction and path.

This is a process that all people must go through, and without going through this process, one cannot call one human.

In fact, Rei Ayanami is not the only "doll" in this world, all children have also been parents and social dolls, and Rei Ayanami is just because the amount of information obtained is too limited, so she has not yet given birth to the will to break these threads.

When children begin to want to break the thread that controls them, they are not just puppets without self-will; And when they finally break the threads, they become a fully literate human being.

But if these threads are too tough......

Someone needs to help them cut the threads! (To be continued.) )