(This is a third-person work, only this chapter is in the first person)

My name is Lin Feng, a forest with two trees, and a maple with wind in the wood.

When I was a student, I was a long-term student who gave my teacher a headache: my Chinese was a mess, my English was unsightly, and I was very good at mathematics, physics and chemistry.

During the college entrance examination, relying on some not very clean means, I finally made up a lot of for the short part of my feet, and was reluctantly admitted to the university school I longed for.

Ever since I was in middle school, I had a special talent for mechanics. In fact, this talent is actually inherited in the family, tied to cancer, and has been passed down from generation to generation by many people in my parents' and grandfather's generations, only to become more demonic in my generation. If I'm not wrong, cancer should be a by-product of our family's use of this talent. My father's brothers, who were businessmen, and my grandfather's brothers, as long as they were not engaged in machinery-related trades, did not suffer from this terrible and incurable disease.

Cancer is the price we pay for getting an ability that others don't have, and it's an equivalent exchange, a very fair equivalent exchange.

I do not resent this equivalent exchange, on the contrary I appreciate it! If you don't give, you don't get, and that's fair, very fair! I even think that if everything in this world can be operated in the way of equivalent exchange, the world will become a very beautiful place, and there will be a lot less contradictions and conflicts between people.

Unfortunately, most of the things in this world do not operate according to the law of equivalent exchange, and in fact, the principle of equivalent exchange can deal with very few things. So I had to use other rules to deal with all kinds of problems in my life, and these are not what I am good at. Because in the process of acting, there will always be something that unconsciously sways and influences my judgment, causing me to make all kinds of stupid and wrong decisions.

These things that make me wrong are human emotions called joy, anger, sorrow, and fear.

In order to prevent myself from making such stupid mistakes again because of my own personal feelings, I made a decision.

I got to know his mentor, an authority on neurology. With his help, I supplemented the relevant theoretical knowledge, and finally analyzed the origin of these various human emotions called joy, anger, sorrow, fear, etc., and understood how they arise and operate, I found a way to eliminate them, and using my special ability, I cut off the emotions of joy, anger, sorrow, and fear from my judgment in one fell swoop.

After that day, I didn't cry or laugh, I didn't grieve or fear, and I managed to turn myself into a thinking machine that was not affected by emotional fluctuations, and suppressed my own character flaws to the greatest extent! With these distractions removed, I was able to proceed with my business sensibly, so my career continued to flourish until the year before the onset of the disease.

During this time, I took in an apprentice. When he appeared in front of me, he was a student with a full mouth, excellent diplomatic skills, excellent pickling skills, and basically zero ability to do things, and he didn't seem to be very reliable. The other subordinates who worked for me didn't understand, how could I, who was strict and harsh in everything I did, so reuse and trust such a seemingly frivolous little hairy head. Fang Yu also didn't understand after coming into contact with him, because in the past, I obviously hated this kind of person the most, and I should have slapped him into the Pacific Ocean with one palm.

People have to walk on two legs. Just like the college entrance examination, although I am extremely good in mathematics, physics and chemistry, I am always unable to compare with the all-round development of Fang Yu. The leg I do is strong enough, but the leg of interpersonal relationships barely grows.

Without the distraction of love, I saw my weaknesses clearly and admitted them. My weakness is the biggest advantage of this young man named Chen Taotao, and I understand that I didn't really hate people like him in the past, and the essence of my dislike is jealousy, yes, jealousy, not hate.

Just as many children hate their peers who are overly pampered by their parents, the truth is nothing more than their own jealousy. Because they don't have it, they can't get it, so they can only hypnotize themselves with hate to achieve psychological balance, but in fact, what they hate is what they want most! After understanding this, I made the few right decisions I had in dealing with relationships, and I needed this person to make up for my crippled leg.

As for the price I paid after cutting myself off myself, I lost myself and made myself feel like a personality mutation, which is just a necessary price to pay in exchange for the same price, and it is a bearable loss.

Sadly, this perfect non-human state was forcibly terminated after a tumor grew in my brain.

This tumor destroyed my ability to control the chemistry of my brain, and it brutally knocked me back into my original form, causing me to become a stupid creature with affection again. And the various cancer gatherings that followed tossed me into a human form.

From the moment I was diagnosed with cancer, the doctor gave me a death certificate - in fact, I didn't need them to issue a report, and I also diagnosed myself that I was hopeless, and I went to the doctor just to get the last glimmer of hope. At that time, I was almost struck down by this diagnosis - I had become almost a Buddha by self-dismantling, and after I became a mortal in personality, a diagnosis report almost completely crushed me.

At that time, I had no health, no purpose in life, no relatives, almost nothing but the relatively large belongings I earned, and I had no idea how I was going to spend the rest of my life. I don't know what other joy in life is there other than holding a bunch of medical books and reading hard to fully analyze the mysteries of the human body in order to save myself.

But to fully unravel the mysteries of the human body, it is impossible!

Man is the most sophisticated and complex machine in the world, and compared to it, my so-called superpower to analyze him is like measuring the sky with a ruler, which is insignificant. The more I parsed and the more I knew, the more I found myself ignorant and the more desperate I became. In this boring and desperate life, in order to find some fun for myself to survive the sleepless nights of liver pain, I got a high-powered military telescope, and when I was bored, I used it to peep into the lives of the surrounding residents to pass the time.

She broke into my eyes during my boring voyeurism and finally came into my life.

At that time, she was still a college student, and she was still wearing a student-style shawl hair and a white dress with a wide neckline. At that time, the first thing that caught my attention was her long crane-like legs, flesh-colored stockings, and a pair of white sneakers, which had just appeared and caused me to project the telescope in her direction.

At that moment, she happened to be there bending over to tie her shoes, and this action led to the loose neckline of her skirt sagging, and she accidentally walked away the mystery of the fullness of her breasts, and the angle I was at just caught a qiē spring light.

At that moment, at that moment, I had a feeling of being electrified.

A young and energetic girl, with long legs, big breasts, slim waist, and long hair, completely in line with my personal aesthetic preference, in just a few seconds, she broke into my life.

Even I couldn't believe that I, who had been living a corrupt and almost illegal life in the past, could be truly moved by such a woman who only glanced at me.

I knew myself, I wasn't a good person, I had a demon living inside of me, and he came out all the time. But at that moment, I have to admit that I was a little moved.

I told my apprentice about it.

"You're in love, master! Try to soak her! You are young and have a successful career, even if you are sick, you can have a blue life and death love! ”

My cheap apprentice shouted at it and came up with a lot of ideas for me to pick up girls, but I didn't use any of them.

For the next three years, I kept peeping through the binoculars. So much so that I know her and her sister, her mother, and the living habits of the three of them better than anyone else. In the end, this voyeurism even affected the rhythm of my own life: in order to see her more, I waited by the telescope every morning before she left the house.

I was able to survive these hellish three years, and she was a great contributor, and it was her appearance that gave me a new look forward to life. Seeing her in front of the telescope every day, even a small fragment of her life, is enough to satisfy me.

"Master, your eyes are indeed vicious, she is indeed a great beauty! But master, your ability to pick up girls really made me cry, I taught you so much, and finally taught it all to the Pacific Ocean! ”

My good boy was very zealous, and he encouraged me many times to go on the offensive in pursuit, but I did not have the courage to take even the most basic first step—not just because I was dying, but because of my character. Even her name was found out by my apprentice for me. I have always believed that God gives people the same amount of ability, just as this cheap apprentice of mine can never learn half of my skills, and with normal methods, I probably will not have one-tenth of the power of his self-propelled humanoid seeder in my life.

"Her name is Liu Mei, her father died early in a car accident, and she has a mother at home, and her sister is named Liu Xue. She herself is twenty years old, her sister is three years younger than her, and her mother is twenty-one years her senior. The family of three moved from other places six months ago. Master, if your skills are deep enough, it is possible for sisters to go together, or even for mother and daughter to receive together! ”

This is all the information that my cheap apprentice found out for me three years ago, and accepting him as an employee and even jokingly calling each other a mentor-apprentice relationship is indeed the most correct decision in my life. Unfortunately, when it comes to picking up girls, I'm really hard at holding up the wall, and the closest distance between me and her is 0.5 meters so far - this is the distance between me and her when I waited for her to pass by as a passerby.

I wondered if I would have the courage to strike up a conversation and pursue myself when I was healthy.

The answer is definitely no!

My apprentice's handy pickling technique, I can't do a single one, just like Chen Taotao always hides how far away every time he sees a damaged machine, and in the face of a woman's heart, I have always been at a loss. Even if it was me who cut off human love three years ago, I couldn't do it.

What would I have done with her three years ago when I was fully healthy?

I think I'm sure I'll get her flesh then, the way I've always done then! My apprentice picks up girls with a flim mouth, and the one three years ago I never pickled girls!

Women, just for physical needs! That's what I thought at the time!

Whichever one I like, I'll knock that one down! Push it down with money, or with my hands. People, even the most complicated women in people, in the final analysis, are just a machine with flesh and blood as parts, and the so-called love is actually just a chemical reaction. My ability can't parse a woman's heart, but synthetic love, I can still do it at that time.

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