When I returned to my dorm, the mess was filthy and damp, with beer bottles scattered and cigarette butts on the floor like garbage heaps, telling of how indulgent and free the dormitory used to be.

I raised my head and closed my eyes, and the picture of playing with Big Fat, Xiaolin, and Feipeng came to mind.

Before I knew it, tears crawled out of my eyes unconsciously.

I crouched in the corner, holding my head and letting the tears spur me mercilessly, I waited with mixed feelings for the darkness that the night had been so long.

The three of them have never appeared here, and my desire to see them is getting stronger and stronger day by day.

The three of them were deliberately concealed by the school, and I didn't let anyone live in my dormitory, and I lived alone in the dormitory where we used to live.

In the month leading up to my graduation, my life was extremely boring, and this incident ran aground like a fruitless story.

On graduation day, I walked out of the school gate with my luggage and looked back at the dormitory where the four of us had lived.

I suddenly found that at the door of the dormitory where we used to live, Da Fat, Xiao Lin, and Fei Peng, the three of them actually waved goodbye to me.

My heart chuckled, it turned out that they had been with me all the time, and I couldn't see them, and my eyes moistened again.

After returning to the big bone pile, I found that the funeral home became lively, passing through the funeral home's National Highway 105, on both sides of the road, there were many restaurants and funeral supply stores.

As soon as I walked into the gate of the family home, Uncle Cao greeted me and said, "

"Bingbing, why did you come back, your grandmother is hospitalized"

I hurriedly asked "what, in which hospital?"

Uncle Cao's face was full of anxiety: "Listening to your mother, it seems to be a city hospital."

I threw my suitcase on the ground, turned around and ran. I didn't hear what Uncle Cao said behind me.

In my memory, my grandmother loved me the most, because I was the eldest son and eldest grandson in the family.

I remember when I was very young, the big bone pile funeral home was just built a few years ago, there were very few workers who moved in, my parents were very busy with work, there were often wild cats and wild dogs barking at night, and the whistle of the cautious people, I was often scared to fall asleep, and my grandmother always held me all night and told me stories to coax me to sleep.

When I arrived at the hospital, my father was squatting in the hospital corridor and smoking a cigarette, and I walked over angrily and shouted:

"Why didn't you notify me when my grandma was hospitalized,"

My father was stunned for a moment, threw away the cigarette butt in his hand, and said calmly: "You are about to graduate, I don't want to affect your studies."

I said angrily, "I should thank you for saying that, I really didn't expect you to be so indifferent to your mother."

Father obviously did not expect that I would say this about him, and his face was a little ugly, or rather haggard, to be exact, but he remained calm and said:

"Your grandmother is on the west end of the 2nd floor of the inpatient department, go see her in the intensive care unit!

I was too lazy to talk nonsense with him, turned around and ran to the inpatient department, the corridor on the second floor was full of people, and the bustling crowd was like a vegetable market, but the only difference with the vegetable market was that the rows of vegetables were replaced here, and there were beds with drips.

The smell of formalin with sweat was unsettling.

Grandma lives in a special care unit, and she lies peacefully in a glass-enclosed room with a white rubber trachea stuck in her mouth.

Grandpa stood outside the room, anxiously looking in, I looked at the silhouette of grandpa, I found that he was much older, and the tears in the corners of his reddish eyes did not seem to have dried.

I walked over quietly and stood beside him, and my grandfather looked back at me, put his arm around my shoulder, and said kindly:

"How fragrant do you see grandma sleeping?

However, I clearly saw a figure in a black shroud sitting on my grandmother's bed, its blackened hand about to stretch out to my grandmother's face.

I yelled, "Stop"

My voice was so loud that it startled everyone in the corridor on the second floor.

The figure in the black shroud was momentarily stunned, he turned his head to stare at me strangely, and after meeting his eyes, I was shocked to see its blue-black face, as if it were as black as the bark of a dead dry tree.

It was half-bent over, staring at me with an incredulous expression, and then a frightened and low voice came out of my grandmother's transparent glass room, low and heavy, as if coming from the depths of hell, echoing in my ears:

"Can you see me? ~~~~~~~~~~ then he suddenly disappeared.

Grandpa looked at me thoughtfully and asked:

"Bingbing, what do you see?

I evidently did not recover from the gaffe, and said in horror:

"I saw a man in a black shroud, sitting next to my grandmother, and he wanted to touch her face.

When Grandpa heard me say this, his face began to turn a little ugly, but more often he was frightened.

Grandpa then walked straight to the doctor's office, and it wasn't long before a bespectacled doctor followed him out.

The doctor, with an expression of disinterest, said behind his grandfather:

"You discharged the patient, and we are not responsible for what happened.

Grandpa said firmly: "Since I let her be discharged from the hospital, I will bear the consequences alone."

The bespectacled doctor was obviously still a little uneasy, he took out a waiver sheet from his pocket, handed it to his grandfather and said, you sign.

After my grandfather signed it, the doctor with glasses, as if he had done something particularly successful, said, "Actually, that's right, let's go home and prepare for the future!" , which is more cost-effective than wasting money lying in the hospital.

After saying that, he swaggered away.

I really wanted to go over and beat him, but my father stopped me, and he said to me something meaningful, that this kind of living person is better than a corpse, because he doesn't understand the word human nature at all.

Then my father chartered a car to take my grandmother home.

Grandma and grandpa live in the west of Yangbei County, a small town called Xipukou, which is grandpa's hometown, after grandparents retired from the funeral home, they left the funeral home family building to my father, and moved back to their hometown.

My grandfather has five children, my father is the eldest in the family, the second uncle works in the Yangbei City newspaper, and the second mother is the daughter of the newspaper president.

The third uncle starved to death in 60, the fourth aunt worked in the city textile factory, the fourth aunt was an honest driver in the textile factory, and the fifth aunt was seven years older than me and studied in Beijing for graduate school.

After the grandfather arrived home, he called the whole family back, except for the fifth aunt who was on the way, the whole family arrived. Grandma was terminally ill, and she was lying in the hall of her home, in a coma with oxygen hanging all the time.

Grandpa stayed by the side and smoked a cigarette, silent for a long time, he looked solemn, as if he had made a difficult decision in his heart, stood up, and said to the whole family in a deep voice:

"The third child is back.

My second uncle got up from his chair with a bang,

"Dad! You're not old foolish, are you? The third child has been dead for decades, are you angry?

Grandpa sighed, "The third child is really back, I'm sorry for him!"

The second uncle suddenly pointed at his grandfather and shouted: "Dad, what do you mean, what do you mean that you are sorry for the third child, it should be me who starved to death in 60 years, not the third child, so many years have passed, you see that I am living comfortably now, I am jealous that I am idle I usually don't give you and my mother living expenses, today you are taking the opportunity of my mother's illness, you want money, don't you?" Father! I can tell you that I can't pay my mother's hospitalization fee alone, and if I want to, I have to pay it with my whole family.

Grandpa obviously didn't expect the second uncle to say this, he closed his eyes in pain, covered his face and asked with tears in his eyes:

"Jianjun, is money really that important?

Erniang took over with a sneer, half-squinted and said in a sarcastic tone:

"I said Dad, don't be embarrassed, pull my mother home from the hospital, what do you mean, aren't you just afraid, no one will pay for the hospitalization! Pull my mother back, make a gesture, and ask us for money, Dad, I can sue you, you can put your heart right, and if you want to pay the money, you will wait for the fifth child to come back.

Grandpa froze there with his mouth half-open.

My father glared at the second uncle and said, "Jianjun, mom's hospitalization fee, don't worry that I will come out alone, who is our father, don't you know in your heart?" After so many years, he opened his mouth and asked if you want a penny?

Erniang straightened her hair, put her hands on her waist, and said:

"Yo,, this double reed is sung, I said big brother, the old man and the old lady are not dead? You are in charge of the affairs of the family now, and you don't pee and look in the mirror, what qualifications do you have as a boiler that burns people to death.

My mother was not happy, put down the thread of the sweater in her hand, took out a passbook from her satchel and put it on the side of my grandmother's bed, and said:

"I said second sister, you also accumulate a little virtue when you speak, what's wrong with Jianguo burning boilers, one doesn't steal, and the other doesn't rob labor to eat! This is the money I saved for Bingbing to marry my daughter-in-law since I was a child, and now it is all for our mother's medical treatment, you can rest assured that you will not be allowed to pay a penny!

Erniang snorted and sneered, "As the saying goes, this dead man's money is easy to earn, but it is not easy to spend, I said sister-in-law, you also have to pretend to be a big money here, you have to rub your money, how many dead people's faces do you have to rub to earn it back." You'd better take it back! I looked disgusting.