Madness was followed by confusion, and excitement was followed by emptiness, Qiao Haoyu sat next to the mutilated and distorted body of the spider girl. The frenzied aura had not yet dissipated, and this time the recovery process was obviously much slower than before, and the dark red tyrannical aura seemed to flicker and dim for a long time before slowly dissipating reluctantly, until the bright red in Qiao Haoyu's eyes was completely dimmed, and the dawn of dawn had torn through the darkness.

Qiao Haoyu, whose eyes were foggy, gradually regained consciousness, and the tiredness and unspeakable pain that hit him in an instant overwhelmed him, the scars all over his body were comparable to Ling Chi's shattering, the sharp pain in his head made him unbearable, and the various discomforts that hit him like a landslide and tsunami made Qiao Haoyu fall into a bottomless whirlpool. His chest seemed to be squeezed by an invisible force, and he couldn't even make a sound.

After a long time, with screams and moans, the painful rush was released, which kept Qiao Haoyu from going completely crazy. When he realized that there was still a lot of flesh and bone in his mouth, he began to vomit, lying there vomiting, tears of humiliation and dark purple filth all over his face. This is the second time in my life that I vomit like this, vomiting badly, vomiting heartbreaking!

Qiao Haoyu cried bitterly and curled up, whining like a child, with grievances, pain, remorse, and unspeakable feelings.

Between living and dying, being alive is often painful, and it takes more courage to live than to die. This is even more true in this world that has been changed beyond recognition, the doubts from the depths of his soul torture his will and spirit, and Qiao Haoyu feels that his life is beginning to become dirty!

Then, Qiao Haoyu lay on the ground on all fours, looking at the rising sun, rubbing the filth on his face hard, getting up to face the sun, opening his arms and roaring......

Carefully collected all the corpses of the spider girl alien, and dug a deep pit with his hands, as if digging his own heart. The process of burying the spider girl xenomorph is very slow, as if burying one's own fragility and guilt.

Then, Qiao Haoyu stood motionless in front of the new grave until the sun rose three poles, "You rest in peace!" Maybe I deserve to die here. Actually, I don't know what I want to say, I just want to say I'm sorry, I can't die yet! If I could, I would put an end to this fucking disaster with my own hands and not let it happen again......"

Another hot bath could not dispel the coldness in Qiao Haoyu's heart, he knew that he was getting farther and farther away from human beings in the strict sense, and he was more and more unsure whether he could face his family and friends with a human attitude...... He doesn't even know what to hate, is it the so-called RC alienated microorganism? Or something else. Is the purpose of trying to survive again and again just to become an alien?

Many times, people need some kind of excuse or reason to survive, so Qiao Haoyu gave himself a direction to live, that is, to rescue his family, protect their safety, and if possible, he wants to end this fucking tragedy with his own hands.

Busyness is a good tool, it can make people forget about their pain and troubles for a while, so Qiao Haoyu once again entered the world of pure energy.

In the process, there was a small surprise, he actually obtained a ball of plant elemental factors.

"Elemental factor" This is a term coined by Qiao Haoyu, which is used to interpret the various basic energies that make up the ability technique, this newly obtained elemental factor has a high level, and it is obviously higher than several other alienated morning glory element factors, small shrub element factors, and so on after being classified into the tree-like system of life energy.

With the addition of this elemental factor, a clearer hierarchy and associations emerged, vaguely according to the categories of Jomoto, Woody, Vine, and Hanamoto, but it is difficult to say whether this is the truth.

These elemental factors can be studied slowly, and one more plant elemental factor is a great gain in itself, after all, the richer the elemental factor, the more skill changes can be generated, and the wider the range of targets will be.

The desire to gain an inch of inch, the life system energy is booming, and the growth of the wild energy that is becoming more and more obvious is slow and unhealthy, Qiao Haoyu naturally pays more attention to this backwater pool. As a result, after tossing for a long time, the only discovery was that the wild energy was not dark red, but red and black, which seemed to be fused but was actually distinct, and this black energy seemed to be suppressing the red energy.

In a flash of inspiration, Qiao Haoyu related this situation to the fact that he had obtained the wild energy but did not lose himself, the strength of the mysterious woman and the incompleteness of the wild energy, and he pondered that the mysterious woman should know the mystery......

November 18, fine.

The original diary was buried in the place where the rescue tent was set up along with those ridiculous and childish so-called preparations, and finally fully recognized this terrible world, and all things that seemed to be eternal and far-reaching were so fragile and dusted under the hammer of reality.

Brother Chang Xueli and his partner Lu Tian'er died for their own survival, and I can't even say the last word to them......

What I hold dear is constantly being lost, but I am powerless to stop this qiē from happening. Those ridiculous vows are like a sarcastic stinger on my heart, don't make promises lightly, the value of men's lives is constantly depreciating in me, which is very helpless and painful.

Mom and Dad and my favorite Liangdi, I keep struggling to survive, is it right or wrong? Just yesterday I bit a female alien to death, although she is no longer human, but I still feel that my life has become dirty, she is just a victim and I am no different, how I wish you could be by my side and tell me what to do......

Well, so be it! Put away my cowardice and boring petty bourgeoisie, and I will survive well until I find you. If, if I become a beast, I wish I could keep a shred of human consciousness to protect you. The road ahead is uncertain, but I will try to take control of my destiny......

Qiao Haoyu searched around for available materials and found a usable mobile phone and some other small bits and pieces, a beautifully made and slightly feminine diary is also on the list, people always need some venting and belief, in loneliness, writing a diary as a kind of spiritual sustenance can relieve his pressure at the moment.

I don't know if it's because I have bitten the spider girl and opened the meat, or something else, I really have no appetite for looking at the pot of vegetable soup in front of me.

Then, Qiao Haoyu rushed into the sea of vegetables and grass in the distance like a vent, and looked like a savage hunter running barefoot.

Not long after, Qiao Haoyu walked out of the grass beach with two giant rats, one large and one small, his clothes were scratched by the sharp leaves of the weeds, but his flesh was not hindered at all.

The Alienated Giant Rat may have deadly Alienated Microbes in its body, but he doesn't care about that much anymore, and he needs to try it to be sure. Because maybe for a long time in the future, the problem of human diet will become unimaginably difficult.

Then, Qiao Haoyu lit a fire and boiled water, hung the giant rat to skin and bleed, took out the belly, washed the intestines, disassembled the flesh and bones, and finally threw it into the pot to boil, after boiling, change the water and boil it twice. In the process of boiling the meat, the skin of the rat is handled by hand, the bitter meat is scraped with boiling water, and some nitrate is scraped from near the toilet and applied to the skin, and then sealed in a jar. At this moment, I really killed my heart to make a living, and I used a lot of knowledge about the so-called preparation to save the world in a mess on weekdays.

When he came back from his work, the meat was already cooked, and this one was eaten, and the big giant rat was not much less than an adult goat except for its fur, internal organs, and bones, and the meat alone was not much less than that of an adult goat. He is too good to eat, and Qiao Haoyu wonders if there is something wrong with his internal organs.

After a big and refreshing dinner, I took a short break and began to pack up and prepare for tomorrow's departure.

As a result, a few cheetah-like green-skinned wolf-headed aliens wandered here, this time Qiao Haoyu learned like a spider girl, using the internal organs of a giant rat as bait to introduce the green-skinned wolf-headed alien into the trap, and suddenly strangled one directly, and the rest of the green-skinned wolf-headed aliens saw Qiao Haoyu's body faintly burst with dark red energy flames, and roared a few times, and left in a daze.