Chapter 479: What is True Despair

Chen Tou was speechless, turned to Zhang Xiaofo and said, "I can say some things, but some can't be said!" ”

"When did you target me?" Zhang Xiaofo lowered his head and drank, and asked, "What time was the leech?" ”

Chen Tou shook his head: "Earlier? ”

"When?" Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"We've known you existed for a long time! Your mother Xia Jiting is from the Wu Clan, so so are you! ”

Zhang Xiaofo really didn't expect this to be the case, and he couldn't help but feel a little frustrated.

"Don't overthink it!" Chen Tou comforted: "In the past, when your mother Xia Jiting was doing things, we met each other, and we got acquainted with each other after coming and going, and then some things were taken care of, but it was not as complicated as you imagined!" ”

Although Chen Tou said so, Zhang Xiaofo is not a three-year-old child, he knows that the truth of the matter is far more than that, but since Chen Tou said so, there is no need to continue asking.

"Does Chen Ran know? You sent to deliberately approach me? Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"He doesn't know, but I know that nephew of mine will definitely be attracted to it, and then ......"

"Then you're going to spy on me as a matter of course!" Zhang Xiaofo helped Chen Tou finish speaking.

"You always like to think things too extreme!" Chen Tou seemed helpless.

"Where is your bottom line for me?" Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"As long as you don't kill people, it's fine! Our bottom line is that you don't kill! As long as you don't kill people and don't do things that harm society, no matter how big the basket you poke, it's fine! Chen Tou solemnly warned Zhang Xiaofo: "You must stick to this bottom line!" ”

Zhang Xiaofo looked back into Chen Tou's slightly yellowed eyes, knowing that he didn't mean any jokes: "If you exceed the bottom line, will you be wiped out?" ”

"Not by us!" Chen Tou shook his head: "If the Wu people cross this bottom line, they will become unscrupulous, and finally go crazy, and we have to ......."

"Then you still killed you?" This time, the land monkey accurately grasped the key point and understood, but in exchange for Chen Tou's very complete eyes.

"The Wu clan, who has been on the verge of life and death all year round, is easily affected by the killing in their hearts. Become ...... of right and wrong"

"You've executed similar Wics before?" Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"It can't be said that the execution ......" Chen Tou defended: "They are ...... by themselves"

"It's not dead yet! Is Xia Jiting dead? Zhang Xiaofo asked suddenly.

"She?" Chen Tou shook his head: "Your mother is gone!" There is no conflict between us, in the final analysis, it is all about maintaining peace in this world, so you don't need to resist us, we help each other......"

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"Brother Zhang!" After leaving the bureau, on the way home, Zhang Xiaofo didn't speak and overwhelmed the land monkey: "Don't think too much!" It's not very good now, you do your thing, Chen Tou and they help you hide it......"

"Caged birds not being watched?" Zhang Xiaofo laughed at himself: "Isn't it the same that we protect wild animals? They can still survive within a certain range, but never step out of the reserve, or ......"

"Brother. I don't like to hear you say that! The land monkey licked his lips: "How can you compare yourself to those animals?" ”

"Maybe I'm not even an animal in the eyes of their people! Do things well when you have nothing to do, you can't have a word of defense when you have something, you have to die generously! Zhang Xiaofo's eyes kept looking out the window, but there was only his pale face and countless indescribable points of light on the windowpane: "It's better to be ignorant, the truth is often unacceptable!" ”

"......" land monkeys were speechless.

……

Putting Zhang Xiaofo at the door of the antique market, the land monkey quickly escaped, he couldn't face such a negative Zhang Xiaofo, it would make him feel very uncomfortable.

"Coming back?" Zhang Yang had been waiting at the door, and when he saw Zhang Xiaofo coming back, he turned around and left.

"Let's talk!" Zhang Xiaofo took Zhang Yang's hand. Say.

"What are you talking about?" Zhang Yang asked.

"All your memories are back?" Zhang Xiaofo found that Zhang Yang seemed to have grown up a little more.

"It's coming, it's just that some details are not clear!" Zhang Yang did not hide it.

"What should I do?" Zhang Xiaofo suddenly clamped his head with his knees, looking very helpless.

"So it's vulnerable?" Zhang Yang sat next to Zhang Xiaofo and asked.

"Well, it's desperate! I thought that as long as I obeyed the rules of this world, I could live well. But now I suddenly found that I was under the surveillance of the human beings I was protecting, and I didn't have any freedom at all, which was very unpleasant! Zhang Xiaofo's voice was muffled.

"And what do you want to do?" Zhang Yang continued to ask.

"Kill!" Zhang Xiaofo suddenly raised his head, looked at the darkness that the lights in the distance couldn't see, and said, "Kill everything." Give me back my freedom! ”

"Yes!" Zhang Yang nodded.

"Huh!?" Now it was Zhang Xiaofo's turn to be surprised: "You don't persuade me? Don't ask me what I want to kill? ”

"What do you advise you to do? It doesn't matter what you kill, whether it's a monster or a person, what can I say? ”

"You're not afraid that I'll fall into a situation where I can't recover?" Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"I said that the most feared thing in this world is the extreme, if you kill to the extreme. Then you will be truly free! The point is that you take on the karma that comes with those killings? Zhang Yang asked: "Many people go crazy in the end!" What about you? Will you go crazy? ”

"I thought I would only go crazy if I killed someone!" Zhang Xiaofo didn't expect Zhang Yang to have another set of theories.

"Who told you?" Zhang Yang asked: "As long as you kill, you will bring karma, and if you kill too much, you will go crazy and self-destruct!" Zhang Yang's words revealed endless tiredness: "I have lived too long, and I have seen many people who want to break free from the shackles, they have their own ways, and they hope to do the best in Mo Yifang!" But no one succeeded! Behind the extreme is to abandon everything else, and the feeling of being desperate is very sad...... It's really sad...... So I chose to be an ostrich and live as long as I lived...... But who knows if my desire to live is also an extreme? What exactly awaits me? ”

"You...... Haven't you thought about dying? Zhang Xiaofo asked.

"Considered! Sometimes I think that if I die, I will be liberated! But I'm more afraid of the world after death, I haven't died, are you afraid? Zhang Yang also learned from Zhang Xiaofo to look at the endless darkness, and reached out to grab it a few times, but unfortunately returned empty-handed: "The world I see is different from yours!" Lonely and empty, just to live! You need me now, giving me a reason to live. So Zhang Xiaofo promised me to live as long as possible, because once you die, I don't know what else can support me to live. I'm not like you, it's not in my nature to kill, and I don't have that ability, what can I do? (To be continued......)