Qiao Haoyu was on his way home when a strange man blocked his way and didn't let him go.

The man's slender figure seemed to have no flesh, like a bamboo pole, but his head was very disproportionate to his body, and his head was surprisingly large.

The man said, "I know your name is Qiao Haoyu, I know you." I've been following you for a long time, and you haven't noticed that you're being stalked by me. If I don't show up and keep following you, you still won't find out. Don't get me wrong, I'm not stalking you, I'm testing my stalking, I've used it on hundreds of people, I've stalked hundreds of people, and none of them found out I'm stalking them. My tracking skills are so much fun. ”

Qiao Haoyu said: "Idle DT, get out of the way, otherwise I'll let you have a good DT once." ”

The man said: "Yes, you are really right, I am an idle DT." What can you do with me? ”

"Snake spirit, get out of here." Qiao Haoyu said, stretching out his left hand, trying to push the man away, only to feel a strong suction force deeply sucking his palm. Qiao Haoyu was shocked, and it took a lot of effort to take his left hand off the man's chest, and a large piece of his palm was purple.

The man continued: "Mr. Qiao, listen to me, you must listen to me finish telling me about my unfortunate past, only you can speak in front of my ex-girlfriend and save me from the sea of suffering." My ex-girlfriend is Chang Liping, she has lived with me for a few years and has a daughter. Now the minced meat is divorced according to us, but I haven't married him, I only love her alone in my life, and I'm waiting for her to change her mind all the time. At the moment I am suffering from what I call major depression, a dark mental hell that makes me unable to live, to die, and that my daily life cannot be called a life at all: eating, sleeping, and then lying in my hut in a daze. I am extremely reluctant to have any contact with the outside world, or walk alone, or ride a bicycle, wander the streets, quickly avoid acquaintances when I see them, and run to the bottom of the tallest building in the city more than once, wanting to end my life of being a ghost and a ghost, but thinking of my seven-year-old well-behaved and beautiful daughter, my white-haired mother, I burst into tears again, I don't even have the right to die, but life is all boundless torture and pain.

"I am 27 years old this year, and I was admitted to a key university in Beijing at the age of 17, and I suffered from bipolar disorder when I was in college, and I have been suffering from mania and depression for ten years. Many of my classmates are now either the backbone of the technical business of the unit, or have a successful business career in the sea, or they have a stable job and income overseas, and they are all in a thriving stage of life, but I have been oscillating between restlessness and depression for many years. In the process of mania, he squandered his hard-earned money and his family's financial support, and in a depressed state he did not work for half a year or even a year, and he counted the hours every day. I now understand very well the extreme path that some patients choose in the end, such as me, who are actually better for society and family than alive for bipolar disorder, who are actually dead. Choosing to die doesn't show vulnerability, and I've been asking myself this question over and over again: to live or to die?

"When I was eighteen, I was a sophomore. As a man, I feel that there are many personality traits in me that I am ashamed to express or different. For example, sentimentality likes to sit quietly in the dormitory alone, thinking about strange questions. On the other hand, I am a frequent visitor to the school's karaoke hall and even pig's feet, organizing cultural programs, and participating in bands, which means that I am a very introverted self and very extroverted at the same time, and this so-called ring personality may be the root cause of my bipolar disorder. At that time, I didn't know that the terrible disease of bipolar disorder had hit me - often for months or even a semester, my mood was low, and I even hid in the corner and cried, and there was a period of time when I was smiling every day, and my classmates, whether they were familiar or strange, got along well with them, and whenever my classmates got together and held activities, I was the central figure, full of passion, humor, singing, playing guitar, and writing poetry. Sometimes he even writes articles day and night, and declares to his friends that he wants to publish a monograph on physics challenging Newton before the age of twenty. My girlfriend Chang Liping said that I was crazy and dreaming big, I was very dissatisfied, beat her and scolded her, and called my parents to ask them to explain whether I was a prodigy or not. Now it was my first manic episode, and then I turned into a state of depression without any warning, my face was gloomy every day, I didn't talk more than ten sentences a day, I skipped class, ran away from my girlfriend, I walked around the playground, and occasionally met my classmates who asked me what I was doing, and I was very panicked and said that I was looking for Dongdong. Not bad at all, I'm looking for Dongdong, that's my soul.

"After graduating from university, I went back to my hometown, and during the three years I worked at the unit, I was in a relatively mild state of depression, of course, at that time, I and my family did not realize that I had some kind of mental illness, or I didn't think about it at all, let alone any treatment. After experiencing some changes in lovelorn, unsatisfactory work, that is, not adapting to the social and working environment and family, I suddenly announced that I was going to resign and go to the sea in a high-profile manner, and I ignored the bitter words of my parents, I don't know where the faith and strength came from, and I firmly believe that I have some kind of mysterious power, which can create great value for the society and create huge wealth for the family and individuals. What are you going to do with the iron rice bowl that you have been studying hard for more than ten years? I said, I'll do futures.

"After joining the futures brokerage company, I completely entered the stage of a violent bipolar attack that will never recover, which is also the root of all the tragedies over the years. The personality, psychology, and condition of people with bipolar disorder are not suitable for financial speculation such as futures and stocks, but I didn't think I was sick at all. Although the family members are aware of the state of extreme stubbornness, they do not think that there is a disease - yes, what is the concept of mental illness? The dirty, unclothed madmen on the streets—who can associate me with them? In the first half year of the futures company, I was very profitable, neither manic nor depressed, but the good times did not last long, nine years ago, the sudden energy city burst all the margin in my client account, and triggered a lawsuit against me and the company, after the company clearly drew a line with me, my bipolar disorder was induced.

"For nine whole months, I locked myself in my home, stood in front of the window, stood all morning, even all day; or a person lying on the lawn of a park; Or just run to the cinema and stay for a day. doesn't say a word every day, has no appetite, no sexual desire, no contact with outsiders, and even his girlfriend Chang Liping is reluctant to meet. They are not allowed to participate in group activities. Finally, one day I mustered up the courage to say to my mother: I feel like I'm mentally ill! At the psychiatric hospital, the doctor quickly concluded that I was depressed and went to outpatient treatment, but the doctor did not diagnose me as a bipolar patient, and after the depressive symptoms subsided, I quickly turned to mania.

Then, I took some money from home and left Xijing. The mysterious power in his body has reappeared. Busy all day long, thinking that he has a heavy mission, firmly believing that he has a private visit in Weifu, going in and out of the hotel, fighting every day, and fighting with the driver on the street...... After returning home, I chartered a taxi, took a group of fox friends and dogs, and announced that I wanted to set up a group company...... In the end, it developed into a fight with my father, thinking that he delayed my wealth and wealth, and all the relatives and friends who really cared about me cried bitterly, because I have always been the pride of my family, and I am regarded as the most obedient, sensible, and capable person, and I am also considered by my parents to be the pillar of the family and the hope of the second half of my life.

"And now it's all ruined.

"After getting married, my condition stabilized after hospitalization, and my wife, Chang Liping, was very kind to me, which also restored my confidence in life. I began to take a hard look at my life path over the years, and I felt that I had been in a state of illness, and that the normal state, the so-called interval, was very short. So I accepted this reality - bipolar disorder. In addition to taking medicine on time, it is to read more books, surf the Internet, and cheer yourself up and decompress. I made friends again, got a new job, and the birth of my daughter added a lot of joy to me, "I taught myself advertising planning and worked as a deputy general manager of an advertising agency, and life seemed to smile at me.

"After a few years of relative stability, I stopped taking pills, which was a huge mistake and my manic symptoms reappeared without any warning or triggers. I'm very excited every day, talk a lot, and claim to be a master of language, as well as a first-class marketing master, my personal business volume is several times the company's overall business volume, every day like a river, and extremely humorous, what I say can make everyone laugh, and it is not out of reality. But after being excited for more than half a year, he turned into depression, sleeping at home every day, turning off his mobile phone every day, in stark contrast to the state of five or six hundred yuan a month a month a while ago, he used to take a shower twice a day, and now he is unshaven and unwilling to shave, and the work is obviously unable to continue, which began to take medicine again, until the beginning of this year, the depression subsided. Then, I woke up from my dream of the group company six years ago, and began to plan day and night, talk to people, give gifts everywhere, go to high-end entertainment venues, buy office equipment with no practical value, until I beat and scolded my lover, and finally ended up in a mental hospital. Sadly, I was still excited in the hospital and thought I was here to recuperate, and registered the contact information of all the mentally ill patients in order to lead them out on a career in the future......

Then I was discharged from the hospital, went home, and was depressed until now......

"It's been ten years, the most precious and brilliant youth of my life, now I have nothing, nothing has been accomplished, and my loving wife Chang Liping doesn't want me anymore, the times are changing with each passing day, and I seem to have been spinning in place. If I live to bring suffering to others, if I live not to create value but to destroy and ruin, then what is the point of living? I just couldn't find the meaning of life. I don't dare to think about the future, I don't want to face the reality, and I regret the past infinitely. Life is like this, what is the meaning of my life?

Qiao Haoyu said angrily: "You're done, since it's not interesting to live, then it's better to die." There are so many ways you can die that you don't need me to teach you. ”

"How can you be so cold-blooded." After the man finished speaking, he wiped his face and turned it into Li Xueshun's face, and said, "Rabbit cub, let you see your grandfather's true face." ”

This is a big-headed alien plum. Except for a big head, the bottom is still thin like a bamboo pole. It's no different from before.

Alien Li was about to launch an attack on Qiao Haoyu, when a crow crow was heard in the air, and Alien Li shrank and turned into a gust of black wind and left.