Two days have passed, and that pack of food is probably long gone, and Zu Jia and his own soldiers may die of hunger and cold at any time.

Zuo Lie stood on the street of the northern city, looking at the defenders in the city with crossbows and waiting for him. He knew that if Zu Jia and the others walked out of the cave gate, ten thousand arrows would be fired in the city, and even a fly would not want to escape, and he was worried that if the defenders opened the city gate, Zu Jia and the others would definitely die. He couldn't come up with a proper solution. He walked around the street, and gradually felt a little hungry, so he went to his arms to touch the food, not touching the bun in his hand, but touching a small wax pill, and then remembered that he had given all the food to Zu Jia just now. He took out the wax pill and looked at it between his fingers, and suddenly remembered that when he came out of the palace, Zu Geng put it in his hand, and asked him to hand it over to Zu Jia himself, but he didn't expect to forget it completely in the chaos, and he didn't know what secrets it contained, and he said that the next time he saw Zu Jia, he would remember to take it out and give it to him, so he carefully put it in his arms.

At this time, he had come to the east city gate, and saw that the city gate was open, and a group of men and horses slowly walked out of the city, so he followed out of the city, and prepared to go out of the east gate and go around to the north city gate to see if there was a way to save Zujia, but he saw that the group of men and horses had crossed the moat, and went all the way to the east towards the courtyard mountain.

When they arrived at the courtyard hill, the group jumped off their horses, let go of the horses and went to the grass to graze, and sat on the ground to rest. But the noble lady and the young man in front of the team left the horse team and walked halfway up the courtyard mountain.

Zuo Lie copied the forest trail and followed it all the way.

When the two of them arrived at the door of Zuo Lie's house, they saw that the door was tied with a straw rope, and the woman said with some surprise: "Oh, when has anyone ever been in the house?" ”

The young man next to him said, "Xu is the neighbor's help." He stepped forward, untied the straw rope from the knocker, pushed the door open, and the woman followed and turned back and closed the door.

Zu Jia looked at the appearance and listened to the voice, it was Wan'er, and now he was even more sure that the noble lady was Wan'er the day before yesterday, but he didn't dare to conclude whether the young man was the son he missed day and night. I wonder what their mother and son are doing when they return to this old mansion? So he tiptoed around to the courtyard gate and looked in through the crack in the door.

Wan'er still thought in her heart that when she left the house, the house had been completely destroyed by herself, since she entered the palace, she had not returned home for many years, the wall and the ground must have accumulated dust, cobwebs all over, but after she entered the yard, she found that the yard was clean, and the water tank brought from her mother's house when she married was also polished by whom, and the door of the main hall was still tightly tied by ropes, and when she entered the wing room on the left, she saw Yan'er's wooden horse when she was a child standing in the corner of the wall without staining, and the moss on the edge of the old well in the backyard had been shoveled. The dead branches and leaves in the well were all scooped up and piled up under the peach tree next to it, and a careful neighbor helped clean it up, and a boundless warmth welled up in my heart. But the boy saw a portrait of his mother when she was young hanging on the wall in the wing room on the right, and wondered that he had never seen it, so he called his mother over and pointed to the wall and asked what year it was.

When the mother saw the portrait, she became suspicious, and ran to the front and back of the house to look around, but she didn't see half a figure, and she intuitively felt that there was something strange about it. It turned out that this painting was made by her and her husband at a painter in Panlong City, and in order to paint this painting, she sat in front of the painter for a whole day, sitting straight until her back hurt and her mouth was dry, before she got it in her hand. But after the painting was taken home, it was only hung on the wall for two days before her husband Lie took it into his arms and took it to the barracks. Her husband's walk is eighteen reincarnations of cold and summer, and the painting is like her heart going with her husband to far, far away, so far that she can only meet him in her dreams: the Gobi Desert with flying sand and rocks, the desert with long rivers and sunsets, the snow-capped mountains where birds are extinct, the grasslands where wolves roar, the jungles full of dangers, and the thousands of enemy troops, the mountains of swords and the sea of fire...... When I woke up, only tears drooped, leaning on the mandarin duck tent alone. I remember that when my husband took this painting into his arms, he swore that "I will definitely come back, don't worry, I will die in your arms!" She had the courage to overcome loneliness, and this sentence filled her with strength and hope for the future.

Because of this vow, the mother, a woman who has been chaste for 18 years, still remembers the painting very vividly, and the bits and pieces of the past clearly come to her mind, as if it had just happened yesterday.

I still remember that in the fifth year after he left, there was a man who came to Panlong City from the Central Plains, like a bright sun shining in her sky, to be honest, she was moved by this man's persistence, but the move was not heartbeat, except for Zuo Lie, she had never really been moved by any man in her life. Because Zuo Lie and her childhood sweethearts have completely and completely possessed her body, mind and soul, she can't separate Zuo Lie from herself, and she can't transfer this love to others. Until one day, Zuo Jie, the brother next door who joined the military camp with Zuo Lie, returned to Yuanzi Mountain, came to his house, and told her in person that her Lie was still alive, but he was thrown into prison for befriending the rebel party and fornicating with the enemy country, and he was cut off an arm, and his life hung by a thread. If she can take the initiative to approach the leader of the rebel party, that is, Zu Jia, the rebel son of the royal family, monitor his every move, and report it to Zuo Jie, she can rescue Zuo Lie and reunite the family.

When Wan'er heard that Zuo Lie's life was on the verge of death, she was stupid at once, and then let out an angry roar with the instinct of a wife-I don't believe it! Zuo Lie was a soldier personally selected by Wu Ding, how could he fornicate with the enemy country? She shook her head and roared like a lioness, judging by his original virtuous and quiet nature.

Zuo Jie took out a long box from behind and put it in Wan'er's hand, saying, "Let's see for yourself." ”

The box was unlocked, pitch black, dead, and chilling.

Wan'er trembled and lifted the lid of the box, and saw a bloody severed arm, the broken arm was broken at the elbow, and the rolled flesh was exposed with white and miserable bone slag, every hair had hardened and stood erect, but the five fingers were still open, as if they were about to jump up and grab something at any time.

Wan'er screamed heartbreakingly, and the toddler in her arms also cried loudly.

Zuo Jie sneered and left Wan'er's house, and he rested the broken arm on the table in front of Wan'er.

Wan'er looked at the broken arm and couldn't stop crying. For the first time, this woman who loved to dream felt fear.

Since then, Wan'er has often been in a trance, as if she has been infected with a demonic disease, and wanders around at night.

At this moment, Zujia proposed to her, and it took almost no effort to bring their mother and son into the palace. But Wan'er has always been cold to him, not letting this traitor get close, and always keeping a considerable distance from him.

Subsequently, Wan'er repeatedly begged Zuo Jie to order Zu Jia to get rid of him, but Zuo Jie always asked him to maintain the status quo, saying that Zu Jia's unexpected death would make the Shang king Zu Geng fall into an unkind and unrighteous passive situation, and incur the blame of the world, so as long as Zu Jia did not raise an army to make a rebellion, he could not be moved.

But Wan'er didn't want to wait, she just wanted her husband to return early, so she secretly asked the killer to assassinate Zu Jia, but Zu Jia was not an ordinary person, he escaped repeatedly, and in the past two years, he was hidden outside the palace, just like the dragon in Panlong Lake, it often has no head and tail, and it seems to be nothing, so that everyone can not know its whereabouts, so that her assassination plan failed one by one.

Now, the opportunity has finally arrived. Shang King Zu Geng was terminally ill and wanted to pass on the throne to his eldest son, but the ancestral system of the empire was brother to brother, if Zu Jia did not die, Zu Jia was the first legal heir to the throne. Therefore, before Zu Geng's eldest son succeeded to the throne, Zu Jia must die. Therefore, Shang King Zu Geng made a secret and asked Zuo Jie to arrange for Wan'er to assassinate Zu Jia.

Zu Geng calculated that Panlong City was far away at the intersection of Jiang and Han, and it was easier to get rid of Zu Jia there than in the Central Plains to block the news, if Zu Jia successfully returned north and returned to the army that had followed him in the southern and northern wars, then no one would be able to prevent him from taking over the throne. Because everyone in the world knows that as long as Zu Jia lives, the throne will be passed to Zu Jia logically after his Zu Geng's death, and no one can replace him. Zu Geng also understands that for those generals who have fought side by side with Zu Jia, "keeping Zu Jia alive" is not a big problem.

Zu Geng finally ordered the end of Zu Jia, and it was in Panlong City. Zuo Jie issued this decree to Wan'er, and Wan'er let out a long breath, as if she had finally floated from the bottom of the water to the surface.

Wan'er also understood that Zu Jia had to die in Panlong City, and only if he died in Panlong City would her husband have a chance of surviving.

What was once a secret fight has now become an open gun, and a city-wide kill order can kill Zu Jia.

Wan'er changed her weak character in the past, and sent people to blow the news to all the soldiers, civilians, merchants, and craftsmen in Panlong City, saying that Zu Jia had defected to the enemy and treason, and that anyone who reported Zu Jia's traces would be rewarded heavily, and at the same time ordered the soldiers in the city to search for Zu Jia in shifts day and night. Now that Zujia is finally trapped in the doorway under the gate of the East City, he has become a turtle in an urn, a bird in a cage, and he will die of cold and starvation in just one day, so he can open the city to collect the corpse, cut off his head and send it to the palace of the king of Shang, in exchange for the husband he thinks about day and night.

So, she took Wan'er back to her home, ready to ask a craftsman to renovate the long-abandoned mansion to welcome her husband's return. Unexpectedly, I saw the old portrait on the wall that had been away with her husband for 18 years, and I couldn't help but guess that Zuo Lie was at home, so I hurriedly looked around, but I didn't see half a figure, and I couldn't help but feel a little stunned.

At this moment, a soldier led several craftsmen to the courtyard.

Zuo Lie hurriedly dodged into the bamboo forest outside the courtyard, and only turned back when the few people entered the courtyard. I saw Wan'er leading the craftsmen to visit all parts of the room, discussing the method of repair, and instructing the craftsmen to remake the beds, stools, tables and chairs with new wood, so as not to feel strange when her husband came home.

When Zuo Lie heard this, he remembered that his wife had gone through all the calamities, but she still had a deep affection for herself, and couldn't help shedding two lines of turbid tears.

When the craftsmen had gone about their work, Wan'er and her son went to the railing in front of the stable and sat down to talk.

Zuo Lie clearly heard the mother and son say that they would open the city gate tonight to arrest Zu Jia, and exchange Zu Jia's head for Lie's life. The heart said that he was not imprisoned, and he was not captured by the enemy army, so where did he start with the exchange of Zujia for my life? But after hearing the mother and son talk about opening the city tonight to arrest people, they knew that in order to save Zu Jia, they had to show up by themselves and let the mother and son know that they were still alive, so that the two could let Zu Jia go. Seeing that the day was past noon, Nazu Jia had no rice food for two days and two nights, and if he delayed for a while, he was afraid that he would freeze and starve to death.

Zuo Lie saw that the mother and son were heartfelt, and at this time, he saw Wan'er skillfully arranging craftsmen to repair the house and reset the belongings, remembering the deep love between husband and wife in the past and the love of their children, they couldn't help but step into the hospital for a while.

Wan'er was overjoyed about the reunion of a family of three, but her son Yan on the side didn't have much smile, but she saw her mother happy and followed with a happy face, after all, when her father left, he was still in swaddling clothes, and he didn't have any impression, but he saw a merchant soldier walking into the door crookedly, the merchant was dressed in black, about fifty years old, with a dark and old face, a scar was pulled obliquely from his left forehead to his right cheek, his nose was red, his left arm was hanging with a half-empty sleeve, and his left leg seemed to be shorter than his right leg, but he had a wide waist and a broad back, and his eyes were blazing. The body should still be relatively healthy.

Wan'er remembered that this was the old man she saw in the tea house in the city yesterday, and she didn't know why he came here?

Yan recognized him as the envoy of the Shang King who had gone to the palace a few days ago to look for Zujia, jumped up and stretched out his finger and said, "Where did you run to this old thing?" Now Zu Jia has become a traitor, and tomorrow he will bring his head back to the royal capital for you to regain his life. The tone was very disrespectful.

Zuo Lie was scolded by him pointing at his nose, and his chest ached, but he put his scolding aside, walked straight to the water tank, and pointed to the water in the tank: "This rain is bitter and astringent, just pour it all." He bent down and poured all the water in the tank on the ground, and said: "The well in the backyard is full of spring water seeping down from the mountain rocks, clean and sweet, and it is close to the back kitchen. ”

Yan saw that the old man's words and deeds were very strange, and he seemed to be very familiar with the things in this courtyard, so he suddenly became suspicious, and looked at his mother with a suspicious face. The mother listened to the voice, and was in a trance.

Zuo Lie walked into the east wing and walked back to the courtyard with the wooden horse, and said: "When I was making this thing, I was afraid that my son's hands would be squeezed, and it was all drilled and tenoned, and fine sand was polished, and it took three or four days of work. But this effort was not in vain, eighteen years later, it is still so strong. It's a pity that it was thrown on the ground, no one took care of it, dust seeped into the red paint, and the original red horse became a black horse. After speaking, he put the wooden horse on the steps, turned around and walked into the west wing, removed Wan'er's silk painting from the wall, came to Wan'er and said: "It only took one day for the craftsman to paint this painting, but I didn't expect this painting to accompany me, a bad old man, for 18 years. It's already a little worn, but it's out of the way, just go back and find the craftsman to make up a few strokes. ”

Wan'er burst into tears as she listened to him, suddenly held him in her arms, stroked the scar on his face and sobbed, "That craftsman is long gone. Then he said sadly: "I remembered that the craftsman had seen you once, and thought that he should remember your appearance, so I came to the door and begged him to draw your appearance, so that I could put it beside me and look at it a few times. ”

Zuo Lie also cried and said: "Now that I am disfigured and disfigured, I have no face to see your mother and son, it is still worth painting." ”

Wan'er choked up and said: "You and I have been ...... since we were young" Before she could finish her words, she couldn't cry, she just caressed Zuo Lie's broken arm, and said after a long time: "The child is his father, but I have suffered you!" ”

Zuo Lie stroked her back, full of guilt, and said, "Even if I die, it's not worth anything, it's just that I have suffered your mother and son." ”

……

Yan Li watched the two of them burst into tears, unexpectedly this disabled person turned out to be his long-awaited father, seeing that he was ugly, not rich or expensive, he was at a loss for a while.

His mother beckoned him to come to him and asked him to call his father.

Yan hadn't regained his breath yet, and called stiffly and timidly: "Dad." ”

Zuo Lie took Yan's hand, and felt more and more that he was handsome and heroic, exactly the same as when he was young, and his heart was full of joy.

A family of three recognized each other, mixed with joy and sorrow. Zuo Lie asked Wan'er about becoming the lord of the city, and Wan'er told her how she met Zu Jia, how she learned from her brother Zuo Jie that Zuo Lie was committed to Zu Jia, the leader of the thief, and how she was imprisoned in prison, and how she followed Zuo Jie's plan to get close to Zu Jia in order to save Zuo Lie, secretly sent a shady army to intercept and kill the Yingjia army, and how she pretended that Zu Jia had surrendered to the enemy, and issued a killing order to the whole city.

Zuo Lie picked out the most important stories about his experiences over the years to Wan'er's mother and son. The mother and son knew that Zu Geng, the Shang king who appeared to be benevolent and moral, was really the mastermind behind the scenes by framing Zu Jia, and the brother next door, Zuo Jieshi, was Zu Geng's lackey. In order to complete the ulterior task given to him by Zu Geng, Zuo Jie cut off one of Zuo Lie's arms on the battlefield, and used this broken arm to create the illusion that Zuo Lie was thrown into prison by the enemy, and used Zu Jia's love for Wan'er to let Wan'er get close to Zu Jia to achieve the purpose of monitoring Zu Jia.

Zuo Lie said thoughtfully: "That Zu Geng openly publicized his brotherly affection and sent troops to welcome Zu Jia's return to the north, but secretly sent killers to eradicate Zu Jia, and the conspiracy was really unguardable. And I myself became a chess piece in Zu Gengyang's scheme. Because this move is only allowed to fail and not to succeed, I was selected to be a useless remnant to meet Zu Jia. If I hadn't sneaked back to Panlong City that night and hid in the shadows, I'm afraid I would have been poisoned by Zuo Jie. The king of Shang originally expected that the last Yingjia army led by Zuo Lie would be wiped out in the hands of the shady army, as long as Zuo Jie released the message of Zu Jia's surrender to the enemy to deceive people's minds, and ordered Wan'er to issue a killing order to the whole city, Zu Jia would definitely die. ”

Wan'er said angrily: "That's right, that Zu Geng thought that this whole plan looked seamless, but who knew that you went out of the camp to visit your family in the middle of the night and escaped with your life, so that his whole plan was flawed." It's just that we still have to be careful about what tricks are hidden behind that Zu Geng. ”

At this point, Zuo Lie remembered that there was still a wax pill personally taught by Zu Geng in his arms, and said that there must be fraud in this wax pill, so he took it out of his arms and wanted to see what was going on.

Wan'er and Yan saw that he was holding a thumb-sized silver ball in his hand, and asked what it was.

Zuo Lie told him that this was a letter from Zu Geng himself, asking him to give it to Zu Jia when he saw Zu Jia.

Wan'er stroked her palm and said: "Zu Geng is clever and treacherous, and I am only afraid that there are words that are unfavorable to us hidden in this wax pill." ”

Yan Dao: "Yes, let's open it first and see what's inside?" Reach out to Lie's hand and take it, raise your palm and clap it.

Zuo Lie hurriedly raised his hand and said, "Yan'er can't." ”

Yan said: "Why not? ”

Zuo Lie said: "I am the minister of Zu Geng, how can I transgress the righteousness of the monarch and minister." ”

Yan smiled: "Daddy is confused, our family is almost ruined in the hands of this traitorous king, and Daddy still talks about the righteousness of the monarch and the minister." ”

Wan'er nodded and said, "Yan'er is very right. Let's open it first and see it. ”

Zuo Lie Zhengse said: "The king wants the minister to die, and the minister has to die." Since ancient times, the courtiers of which dynasty and generation are not a pawn in the hands of the king. Zu Geng will do whatever it takes to achieve his own goals, he is indeed insidious and vicious, and he deserves death. But since I, Zuo Lie, is a minister, I must not ignore the courtiers' discipline and laugh at future generations. The splitter snatched the wax pill from Yan'er's hand and put it back into his arms.

Wan'er listened to his righteous and strict words, and was speechless for a while.

Yan was quite disapproving, and sneered: "That's it, for the sake of this monarch and minister, my father broke his hands and feet, and he abandoned his wife and children, and he didn't return to his family for many years." ”

Wan'er heard her son's disrespectful words, and hurriedly said: "Yan'er, stop talking, don't be rude to your father." That Yan'er wanted to say a few more words to vent the anger in her heart, but after listening to her mother's scolding, she couldn't bear to be silent, and still let out a cold snort in her nose.

Zuo Lie sighed and said: "What Yan'er said is that for my father's life, I killed the frontier for that fame and fortune, made me disabled, and made your mother and son lonely. The words were full of remorse.

Wan'er said: "Now Zujia is trapped under the city gate, and I don't know whether he is dead or alive. ”

Yan'er couldn't help but say: "People in the royal family, what does it matter to me." ”

Zuo Lie said solemnly: "That ancestor Jia has supported your mother and son for many years, and he is the benefactor of my family, how can Yan'er say such a thing." There is no blame in the words. After speaking, he asked the mother and son to go down the mountain to the city to rescue Zu Jia.

The three of them arrived at the foot of the courtyard mountain. The soldiers who were feeding the horses on the grass at the foot of the mountain saw that there were only two of her mother and son when they went up the mountain, but when they came down the mountain, they were followed by this lame man.

Wan'er ordered a soldier to give up his horses to the fierce horse, led everyone to beat the horses into the city, came to the east city gate, withdrew all the archers in the city, and let people open the city gate, and saw that there were more than a dozen people in the city gate hole, and there was a group of crows and a few mountain eagles pecking at the corpses under the city gate, and five or six corpses had been pecked so that only the white miserable skeleton remained, and the ground and grass were splashed with blood star flesh. A gust of wind blew, and the stench of rotting corpses blew on everyone's faces, which was disgusting.

Zuo Lie stepped forward to drive away the devouring **, and turned around to see a person sitting against the wall under the high hanging city gate, with messy hair and shawl, broken clothes, covered in blood, his hands clasped to his chest, his legs naked and shaking in the cold wind, looking very weak. stepped forward to lift the tent to reveal his cheeks, and saw that he was biting a piece of cloth in his mouth, which was the cloth bag he had wrapped in buns the night before, and then looked closely at his lion nose and square mouth, wide forehead and thick eyebrows were Zu Jia himself, and called out, but there was no response, seeing that his eyes were closed, he was busy touching his wrist veins with his fingers, and felt that there was still a pulse, so he called someone to send a bowl of hot soup, pried open his teeth and sent it into his mouth, and ordered the soldiers to rub his hands and feet. After a long time, Zu Jia slowly opened his eyes.

Zuo Lie saw that he woke up, and the boulder that was pressed on his heart had just fallen, so he ordered someone to put a thick mattress in the carriage that had been prepared, lifted Zu Jia to lie down, and covered him with a thick mattress, and he went to check if the soldiers who were lying in the door hole were still alive.

Here, Wan'er taught Ziyan to send hot porridge, sat on the yellow-covered carriage, and fed Zu Jia spoonful by spoonful.

When Na Zujia saw that Wan'er was in front of him, he thought it was in a dream, and wanted to ask her, but he couldn't exert half of his strength, only two tears swirled in his eyes. Wan'er saw that his eyes were deep, his cheekbones were raised, and his shape was erect, and she couldn't help but feel full of guilt, and said that it was fortunate that the child's father appeared in time, otherwise it would be difficult for her heart to be at peace in this life.

At this moment, there was a loud sound outside the city gate, and an arrow broke through the air, because Wan'er was distracted, and she didn't have any martial arts, so she couldn't dodge. There was a soldier standing beside him, standing in front of the arrow. The arrow was so powerful that it struck the soldier's waist with a pop, and pierced the armor around his waist. The soldier immediately fell to the ground.

Wan'er snorted, but before her voice fell, the second arrow arrived, poofed into Wan'er's chest, and Wan'er fell off the carriage on her back.

Yan'er, who was standing next to her, hurriedly drew her sword in her hand, jumped outside the city gate, and saw a figure riding a fast horse hurriedly running across the drawbridge over the moat and fleeing towards the forest, so she got on her horse and chased after the back.

The man beat his horse and galloped to the bottom of the forest, and abandoned his horse and ran into the woods.

Yan'er rode her horse to the bottom of the forest, and saw that the back disappeared after turning into a pile of boulders, so she jumped on the horse's back, and jumped on the boulder with both legs, but there was no figure behind the rock, and when she raised her eyes, she saw that the man had jumped to a slope in the forest like a projectile, and if she couldn't catch up with her feet, she saw a green pine next to the boulder, with straight branches and thick as human legs, so she jumped up to the top of the green pine treetops.

The green pine was very flexible and powerful, and with a flick of its head, it ejected the swallow several feet. When Yan'er was about to fall, she grabbed a strong pine again, flicked it with her strength, and jumped several times, just when it happened to reach the person's head, she twisted her waist in the air, and looked down at the person with a sword in the air.

Unexpectedly, there was someone above his head, and he was stabbed in the heart of the top door, and his brain burst out and he fell into the grass.

Yan'er landed on her feet, turned over the man's body, and saw that it was the traitorous neighbor Zuo Jie, touching his snort, without breathing, obviously dead. Worried about her mother's injury, Yan'er didn't wait to think about it, turned back to the forest, got on her horse and galloped into the city.

Yan'er ran to the city gate, saw Zu Jia lying weakly in the car, her father sat on the ground leaning on the wheel, hugged her mother in his arms and cried, her heart rang, she threw away her copper sword, stumbled to the front of the car, fell to the ground with both knees, stretched out her hand to test her mother's nose, there was no breath, and then she fell into her mother's arms and cried loudly.

The boy experienced the joys and sorrows of life and death in one day, and before he could keep up with his breath, he fainted instantly.

Zuo Lie saw that his son was short of breath, and knew that he was just fainting for a while, so he put down the mother and son, stood up, took out the king talisman from himself, explained his identity to the soldiers, debunked the rumors that slandered Zu Jia's defection to the enemy, and kowtowed to Zu Jia lying in the car, shouting: "Welcome the new king to the north!" ”

When the soldiers heard him call Zujia as the new king, although they felt that something happened suddenly, they all knew that loyalty to the royal family was the foundation of the generals, so they had no choice but to prostrate themselves on the ground and claim the king.

Zuo Lie saw that all the generals should claim that Zu Jia was the king, and his intuition was all relieved of the burden.

When I saw my wife and children lying on the ground, I remembered that I had been loyal to the country and the people all my life, but my family was ruined, and I couldn't help but look up to the sky and scream.