I just came back from outside, and I was going to write another chapter or something about the storyline, but I think that would be too stiff and rigid. Well, today is Halloween in the West, although it is a foreign festival, but it seems that many Chinese have celebrated. The festival is actually a small excuse for everyone to find a reason to gather in some, relax, and relax.

People are very tired of living, really tired, but in fact, it is more important to see what we put this tired word on.

Tonight is my mother-in-law's birthday, and after the birthday, there is a party.

Among friends, a party of pushing cups and changing lamps

Last year, a great Manchu shaman said something to me during a meal. She said I knew too much.

Her expression was worried.

What she means is that I know too much, and one day when I'm old, if I don't control it well, I'll probably go crazy.

I understand what she says, and sometimes, I realize that I know too much.

Another thing is that last year I had a friend from out of town, a friend who was a very stranger, and when he saw me, the first thing he said to me was that I didn't look like a normal person.

These two things gave me a little bit of stimulation. I often look at myself in the mirror over and over again, and I look at myself and try to find something out of the ordinary.

I often think about myself, search for my own words and deeds, and then I find that in addition to some things I have been exposed to before, and some things I understand, I am also an ordinary person who eats whole grains.

But it is undeniable that there seems to be a little bit of fairy energy in me.

I don't know what the south says, anyway, in the north, if you say a fairy, it's not a good word. The inner meaning of these words is that this person will not live, his life is too idealistic, too simple, too high and cloudy, and a little less down-to-earth. nad1;

I'm scared of that.

So, this year I took on a few more drinks and dinners.

But when I took over these drinks and dinners, and mixed them into the lives of everyday people, I found that it was really, not so easy to blend in.

I don't really like to pay attention to someone behind my back, but obviously, when these people are together, they often mention a certain person, a certain thing, or intentionally or unintentionally deliberately magnify the strengths and weaknesses of a certain person.

Then I will find that in the next game, the people who were talking in the previous game come in, and the people seem to have lost their memories all at once, and they start talking about the good things about this person again.

I admit that in any kind of drinking and dining party, I stand from the perspective and position of an observer.

I try to blend myself in, I get a little bit more grounded, and I let some of the things that are called human nature, shortcomings, little faults get in my body. I didn't want my feet to stay on the ground, but I found that I couldn't.

Okay, I'm a bit pretentious, a little bit of a loner.

I'm going to have to criticize myself again.

Frankly speaking, this kind of gathering is also quite good, at least it brings people closer to each other, and allows me to discover different people and know the different personalities of different people.

But I still had a hard time fitting in.

I often reflect on myself, and occasionally scold myself, why am I so out of place

Contradictions, contradictions in human nature.

I still have to go deep into ordinary people, and I still have to tell myself that I am no different.

Yes, that's what I should, not just outwardly calm and easygoing. nad2; Get rid of your own discriminating minds from within.

It's a balance, something that's not easy to master, but I need to master

Book lovers are all alive.

Really, everyone reads my books, and everyone who leaves me a message, I don't feel like an id or symbol. Everybody has a different personality, they have a different personality, everybody is very good, excellent, and has a unique opinion.

You know, some people's opinions and some explanations, I will be amazed when I read them.

What I'm trying to say is, bro, you know too much, hahahaha.

I haven't eaten or drunk with my book friends.

But I have considered you to be my hardest friends, brothers, sisters.

It's ridiculous to say that we probably don't know what each other looks like. To be honest, I'm not too handsome, hahaha.

But I'm tall, a big man of 1.86 meters.

Anyway, I really think you're friends.

I finished a chapter, I wrote a word, and I sent a message to the circle of friends on WeChat.

I feel that you're watching, and that feeling, you know, is wonderful, whether it's approval or criticism, and that feeling is the most wonderful thing for me.

Sometimes I also want to form groups or something, so that everyone can get together.

But I turned around and found that it couldn't be like that.

In that case, I can't take care of everybody, I can't care for everybody.

I can't. But again, snubbing anyone is unforgivable to me. nad3;

So, I'll do it anyway. Write here.

In addition, I cherish, especially cherish every book friend, I treat you as my teacher, my master, my friend, my most iron, the most iron, the most iron brother and sister, and even the elders.

This concern and cherishment of each other is prompting me to tell more things, to speak out, to tell everyone.

Of course, what I'm saying isn't necessarily accurate.

But who made this a book, the carrier gave the author a certain imagination and the possibility of weaving the plot.

I like that.

I'm a little writer, and my name on the Internet is Shen Bi Ma Liang.

Today is Halloween in the West.

Halloween, no horror.

There is only my cherishing and gratitude to everyone.

Every book friend, every beloved

You are my friends. Forever.

I, too, am your friend.

Forever.

Good night, my friends

Tonight, good dreams.

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