It's really a headache when it comes to my identity, and it's also something that makes me quite angry but helpless.

Thinking so, I lit a second cigarette, and the young man who was boiling medicine for me in the house stuck out his head and looked at me, coughing, as if to remind me that I had smoked too much, and I could only look at him apologetically, frowning at the cigarette and continuing to think about it.

"You can't be Chen Chengyi in the future, to be precise, Chen Chengyi is dead in the circle, and he has disappeared." These are the exact words that the female doctor told me.

"It doesn't matter to me what Chen Chengyi disappeared in the circle, just like the circle doesn't mean much to me! What I care about is my social identity, I am Chen Chengyi in the eyes of my parents, relatives, and friends, do they want to announce that I am dead? Not to mention anything else, how can my parents bear it? "That's my response at the time.

I didn't mention my merits, nor did I mention what I did wrong to be treated like this, because it was almost a very naïve question, and if he could tell me, Jiang Yi would not have made such a choice, at least in my opinion, it was a desperate attempt to save me.

"Your parents' organizational work has been done, and it is determined that you are a missing person, but we said euphemistically through Hu Xueman, who is more familiar with your parents, that you are actually on a secret mission, and tell your parents not to be exposed. I want you to be their son, and such a thing should be within their acceptable range, right? The female doctor replied to me, and then said, "As for your friends, they naturally have their own channels to know some truths, don't they?" ”

I exhaled a long breath, if this is the case, my parents can indeed accept it, but thinking of this, I can't help but show a mocking smile on my face: "Is this also a benefit for meritorious people?" Do you want to help me again? ”

When I said this, the female doctor sighed, put on the glasses that she had been playing with in her hand, and then looked at me and said solemnly: "I am a doctor, but I have never treated ordinary people, surgery, do you know why?" Because I am a doctor in the circle, I am destined to blend in with the lives of ordinary people, but I am isolated from them. A department is a department of the state on the surface, but in fact it is independent of the state, you know what I mean? ”

"Well, I don't understand." I'm telling the truth.

That is to say, it is more like two cooperative institutions, the department will never interfere in state affairs, but it will not do anything harmful to the country, and what needs to be solved is only some things that are beyond the normal scope in the land of China, which are the responsibilities of the department. To put it more simply, in the thousands of years of history of China, such institutions have always existed, but they are independent of the regime. In return, in addition to providing some convenience to the department, the state will not meddle in anything in the department, and ask about any infighting between the forces here, you can understand that this is a matter that belongs to two worlds, I say this, do you understand? The female doctor tried to tell me as simply as possible.

"You mean, just like the people in the rivers and lakes in ancient times, the rivers and lakes are in the rivers and lakes, and it has nothing to do with the court?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.

That's what it means, but it's actually more complicated, right? After all, society is progressing, and for some mysterious events, they also have their own departments, but they are fundamentally different from our department under the command of Jiang Yi. And this kind of department, you can understand that there are all corners of the world, and the forces are intricate, so the things you get into trouble are things in the circle, to put it simply, the big forces in the circle want to rectify you, and the country can't interfere! Therefore, you don't need to take out your credit, to keep you, and even keep your friends, it is also the department's great efforts, is this also called ignoring your credit? After saying this, the female voice smiled at me, looking a little helpless.

But she didn't say explicitly from beginning to end that Jiang Yi's behavior was to protect me, and she didn't say what she was doing it for? It's like my companions can leave unscathed, so why do I have to exist as a dead man?

"Okay, you said it so lightly, but my Uncle Li can hang the official title of a country?" A question popped into my mind.

"That is your Uncle Li's personal behavior, even if he participates in some things of the country, it has nothing to do with the department. I understand what you mean, do you want to say that if you get out of the circle and become a member of the country, will the forces in the circle have no way to take you, and the country will protect you? You're wrong, unless you've never been involved in the circle in the first place, and then it's not a mountain line, and the state can justifiably protect you, but you're already involved, and in short, it's too late to say anything. When the female doctor said this, her expression was a little regretful, and she also stopped talking.

I am sure that she has something important not to say, her identity is definitely not the kind of doctor in the circle that she herself said, although I don't know when I participated in the circle, what I did to force Jiang Yi to make me 'have to die', but I didn't ask, judging from her attitude, she won't say it, so why should I talk nonsense to find myself bored.

Thinking of this, I sneered and said, "And then? I'm going to live my life with the reputation of a dead or missing person? Do you feel realistic? Is it possible? Or do you think I'll be obedient and willing to be a living dead? ”

"Do I think it matters? The important thing is that since you have been saved, that is, you have been given a chance to get out of this predicament, and you can really only rely on yourself. The female doctor sighed.

"On our own, well, if you don't think you're telling a joke! Let a few of our juniors who don't have the protection of their elders fight with a force that Jiang Yi has to compromise? Don't you think it's funny too? "I'm too lazy to get angry, and the corners of my mouth are full of sneers.

"You don't have to be presumptuous, a spark can start a prairie fire, and small people can do great things, right? At least the big problem of the Lake of Ten Thousand Ghosts was solved by you, didn't you? This Lake of Ten Thousand Ghosts is really, even if the department can take action, it is not so easy to solve it, and the number of people it will lose is immeasurable, and in fact, its existence has indeed made many people in the circle enter it, and they will never come out again. But you've solved it, haven't you? "That's what the female doctor said to me.

"Yes, these big things that bring disaster to the country and the people are solved by small people like us! And then bully small people like us, it's the big people in the circle to make a move, what kind of bullshit circle is this, I bah! I cursed.

"I can't argue, but it's far from being as simple as you see, when you're a small person, you really have to do things a lot more freely, and when you get to a certain position, you have to think about the big picture. There's only so much I can say, Chen Chengyi, good luck. The female doctor said to me.

"Good luck with some bullshit on me? Do you want me to break the game on my own, and don't even tell me how to do it? I yelled.

She packed her luggage by herself, as if she was saying to me, and as if she was talking to herself: "On the surface, I will help people for the last time, but who knows secretly?" In short, my strength alone is very small, in my place, I will seek a lot of help, at least I have to meet with reliable friends first, at least they can still move, and they must know more than me. ”

As she spoke, she simply packed her luggage and was about to leave.

"It's easy to say, but where are they now, who knows?" I shouted at her back.

"If I were you, I would really be well this month, and I would recuperate with peace of mind. A spark can start a prairie fire, and it is not something that a small fire particle to extinguish can do, at least make a strong flame, right? Be patient, rest assured, the boat will naturally go straight to the bridge, isn't it? "That's the last thing the female doctor threw at me.

Be patient, rest assured, the boat arrived at the bridge, and the memory came to an abrupt end, and the cigarette in my hand burned to the end again.

Maybe, she's right, right? This precious, peaceful month I should take care of my injuries, at least I know that my partners are fine, and they can walk in the world with peace of mind from her prompts, then I should also be at ease, at least I take good care of my injuries, and it is also a comfort to them, I can't just appear in front of their eyes like they are going to die, right?

"Brother Chengyi, drink the soup." Just when I was thinking about it, the young man brought me a bowl of medicinal soup and handed it to me.

I took a sip, thinking that a young master like Xiao Chengqian can't drink it often, after all, there are some things in it that money in the world can't buy, so I'd better hurry up and recover, right?

And I was drinking medicine, a tall figure came to the yard, carrying a cloth bag that was not big or small, I looked up and saw that it was Uncle Zheng, he came again, while he recovered a little, his spirit was better, I should have a good chat with Uncle Zheng.

At the very least, I should have asked why he was there at the time?