Human beings are the most advanced animals in the world, with their own personality and logical thinking, and everyone is unique in the world, just as there are no two leaves in the world, and everyone has a past to mention, whether it is a normal person or a mentally ill person.

Obviously, the word mom has something hard to remember in his heart and he doesn't want to mention it.

It's like Chen Nina's death is an insurmountable pain in my heart forever, and this pain goes deep into the bone marrow.

That never-ending nightmare, the endless dark night devoured my fragile heart, I was most afraid of the nightfall, and every day I would not sleep early and lose sleep.

As soon as I closed my eyes, my mind was full of Chen Nina, the face full of tears.

Whenever I think of Nina Chen, I always have a way of self-harm to vent the pain in my heart, and I repeatedly write Yulong's name on the wall with my fingers, until the blood-stained handwriting is printed on the wall, and I seem to forget all the pain. Clenched my fist and smashed it against the name I hated and stared at it until dawn.

The days in the psychiatric hospital were simple and boring, repeated every day.

These mentally ill people are nothing more than hungry all day long.

Over time, I deeply realized the hardships of the nurses in this hospital.

They spend their days in front of a group of strangely behaved people, speaking incoherently, sometimes in a daze, sometimes in a violent way, and suffering a great deal of mental suffering.

Some of those patients would directly urinate and urinate in the crotch of their pants, and Ma Lan would always squat by the faucet every morning, washing a lot of smelly clothes, year after year, day after day.

Patients often bite each other in fights, Ma Lan. And Xiao Wang, the pony is like a kindergarten teacher, teaching them.

However, those who are mentally ill. Every day I don't get tired of living in my own spiritual world, it seems that in addition to eating. Sleeping is trouble, and sometimes they will cry wolf in the middle of the night, and they will go crazy and bang on the door.

Ma Lan and Pony, Little Wang, would stay up all night to watch over them, and the sick were pitiful when they were quiet, like a herd of docile lambs.

But once the disease is initiated, it becomes as hateful as a pack of ferocious beasts.

Ma Lan and ponies. Xiao Wang and the three of them each had injuries on their bodies, and after spending more than a month in a mental hospital, I seemed to gradually understand the hardships of Ma Lan's work.

I looked at this qiē like a bystander, but I couldn't change anything, my life here was simple and boring, Ma Lan, Xiao Wang, Ma and the three of them almost ignored me.

Whatever I do, they don't ask me. The only thing I could do was not to trouble them, and perhaps to them I was more dangerous than any patient they had ever seen. Because the day I entered the hospital, I beat up the pony, and even Director Dai was afraid of me, let alone them.

I waited for the hospital for a long time, and I was not able to arrive for my second consultation.

One morning after the forty-first day of my captivity, the pony informed me that I was leaving.

The day I was clear, there were poignant snowflakes falling in the sky.

I was dressed in a thin hospital gown by Pony, Little Wang. Shout out of the dormitory, at that moment. Ming Ming looked at me with tears in his eyes, took my hand and kept me from leaving the bedroom.

Sometimes people are wonderful. Apparently he seemed to know that I was going to leave him.

His strong hands gripped me tightly.

The moment I went out, he let out a whoop and burst into tears.

I was in this hospital for forty-one days, and I was inside, except that I barely spoke to anyone inside.

In the past forty-one days, I have regarded Ming Ming as my only friend, or as my son, which is a bit ridiculous to say, but although Ming Ming looks like an adult, his IQ is only the IQ of a seven or eight-year-old child.

I knew that I was going to be separated from Mingming, and I was a little reluctant at that moment, but there was no way to have a feast that would not be dispersed in the world, and when I left, I stretched out my hands like a loving father to hold him, and I didn't say a word.

But I clearly felt that my tears were rolling in my eyes, and I was afraid that I couldn't help crying, I didn't want Ming Ming to see my most cowardly side, so I shook off Ming Ming and strode out the door.

Mingming cried and caught up with me, hugging my back, Xiao Ma, Xiao Wang looked at us sadly, they were also affected by this parting feeling, comforted and said: "Ming, your father just went out for a trip, and he will come back immediately."

The moment I went out, I shouted heartbreakingly: "Dad, don't go,,,,, don't you want to be clear?" Dad, I must be obedient, and I will never make you angry again.

I gritted my teeth and walked out of the dormitory, strode towards the iron door, and after the iron door closed with a bang, I looked up at the dim sky, and a snowflake drifted into my eye socket, bringing out my tears.

Pony and Wang followed, and Pony wiped a handful of tears and pressed my shoulder to comfort me:

"Okay, don't feel bad, your family is coming to pick you up, don't let him cry to you, or they will think that we are abusing you.

I smiled faintly and nodded, took a long breath to calm myself down, and said:

"I see, I'm sorry pony, I shouldn't have hit you when I came in, and it's not easy for you.

The pony smiled and said:

"After observing for such a long time, I can see that you are not mentally ill, I have been in this hospital for five years, the eyes of real mental patients are different from those of normal people, there is something indescribable in your eyes, I know that you will not stay with us for a long time, although you pretend to be crazy and stupid here all day long, but your acting skills are actually really poor.

I was startled, and Pony and King seemed to see my concerns, and Pony continued:

"You came to our hospital just to prove that you are sick, I am an external temporary worker, I don't know what methods and connections you use to get Director Wu and Director Liu to stamp your case. I just want to tell you that I have been in this hospital for so many years and you are the first.

I smiled a little embarrassed.

The pony smiled and said:

"Let's go! It's getting late, and your parents should be in a hurry.

I looked at the young face of the pony and said:

"You've been in this hospital for so long, it's clear what the hell is going on.

The pony patted the snow on my shoulder and said:

"It's actually quite pitiful, his mother died on the operating table in childbirth when he was born.

When he was seven years old, his father found him a stepmother who wanted to take good care of him, but he never thought that his stepmother was a vicious woman who was double-faced and stabbed and abused him all year round. At that time, Mingming's father, in order to make money, was in the Yangbei Freight Company as a driver when he was outside, hey, this house leak happened to rain overnight, Mingming's father unfortunately had a traffic accident on National Highway 105 and lost a leg.

Mingming's stepmother saw that Mingming's father was disabled, so she ran away from Mingming's father's compensation.

Obviously, his father couldn't stand this blow, so on a snowy Chinese New Year's Eve, he opened the gas valve at home and wanted to go on the road with Mingming.

But Mingming's father may have looked at the sleeping Mingming's conscience and called the police.

When the police arrived, he was still breathing and was saved, but he had the sequelae of carbon monoxide, and he became demented, but his father was not saved.

After listening to the pony, I looked at him in shock.

The pony looked into my face and comforted me by saying:

"Don't worry, I will take good care of Ming Ming for you in the future.

After the pony finished speaking, he led me to the front area of the hospital, the northwest wind blew unscrupulously on my face, and I looked at the narrow passage infinitely desolately, and the wind hit my face a little bit.

Although I was wearing a thin hospital gown, I didn't feel the cold, because my heart had been frozen to ice.

As soon as I got out of the passage, I saw my father, mother, Fuqiang, Fugui, Wang Feixiang, Lao Cai, Ding Ling, and a few people I didn't know.

My father was wearing a gray tweed coat and put his arms around my mother.

My mother snuggled into his arms, and when she saw me, she suddenly rushed over and hugged me, crying and breaking her liver and intestines.

My father walked over slowly, put his arms around me and my mother, and said flatly:

"Son, let's go home!

I threw myself on my knees, gritted my teeth and said, "Mom and Dad, I'm sorry for you, my son is not filial."

My mother wiped my tears and said, "Son, don't say it, Director Cao has sued us, we don't blame you, I am proud to have a son like you."

At that moment, I couldn't control my sadness, crying like a child in my mother's arms.

Wang Feixiang was obviously familiar with the people in this hospital, and he and Master Dai seemed to be talking about something.

The snow was getting heavier and heavier, and Wang Feixiang walked over with a cigarette in his mouth and said:

"How old are you, you still have horse urine, wipe your face clean for Lao Tzu, don't lose Lao Tzu's people, you are Lao Tzu's nephew who grew up, how will you let me mix in the future! Let's go!

I wiped the corners of my eyes with a wry smile and looked at Wang Feixiang embarrassedly.

I Fei Xiang rubbed my hair, smiled and said to Master Dai:

"Old Dai, then let's go first, and I'll invite you to dinner when I get back.

Master Dai walked over with a smile and said, "No problem, then I'll thank you in advance, don't worry!" Sign it first and go.

He took out a slip from his pocket and asked my parents to sign it, and when my parents had signed it, he handed me the plastic bag in his hand and said:

"Here's your clothes and wallet, phone, you put it away.

I smiled bitterly and said, "Director Dai will give it to you!" This is the first time I wore this dress, hehe, just give me my wallet and mobile phone.

Director Dai's face turned red to the root of his ears all of a sudden, and he said with some embarrassment:

"What do I want him to do with your things, I'm just keeping them for you.

I smiled and said, "Thank you, Director Dai, for taking care of me all the time."

I took the bag that Master Dai handed me and walked with my mother to the gate of the hospital. (To be continued)