Chapter 57: Losing Yourself (Asking for a Commuter Pass)

"Wait a minute," the fat man suddenly thought of something, "at that time, when you knelt down against the wall, could it be that there was a person standing there at that time." ”

"An old man." "He's been living there for years. You kick those coffins to pieces, and he'll die soon. ”

I couldn't understand how many years Peanut was, "but we didn't see anything at the time." ”

Peanut shook his head, "You have all seen it, but you didn't realize it yourself, this Phantom Snow Forbidden City has always been inhabited, but it is also a cemetery, because no matter how long those people can live, after all, they can only wait for death." ”

Peanut gave me goosebumps when he said, "Aren't they in danger Daddy?" The living people you're talking about won't do anything to them, will they? ”

Peanut looked back at me, "There are some things that people can't control. Yuan Long has experience, Qin Feng is also powerful enough, and there is the person who doesn't know the origin of the Dao, they should be able to deal with it. Yuan Jie, you already know a lot of things, and from now on, you have to go your own way. ”

I looked at the alley where Daddy and the others left, and I had mixed feelings in my heart, and then I looked at my left hand, and I finally fell silent. The red rain fell on us sparsely, and silently, the giant bird with the human head slowly passed over our heads. I don't know what it is, but I suddenly feel that it's not so scary.

As Peanut said, these things don't feel at all when they are poured on us. It wasn't even liquid, it fell on us, and it quickly turned into a thin layer of red mist. However, I saw that the reaction of the red rain falling on the peanuts was different. It seeped into the peanut's skin and disappeared. I thought it was strange to the fat man, but when I went to see it. The giant bird is no longer hovering over our heads.

We were worried that the things hadn't flown far yet, so we leaned into the alley and rested while we waited. The fat man took out the food and everyone shared it, and I couldn't help but wonder if the peanuts needed to eat now, and when I turned my head, I saw that the peanuts had already bitten the bagged jerky into their mouths.

It's easy to calm down, and people start to get sleepy. But I also know that now is not the time to sleep. So I got a cigarette from the fat man to smoke.

"Fatty, hand me the cigarette." I said.

The fat man was lighting himself there, ignoring me. So I waited for him to draw it and shouted again.

"Eh, you said that we are weak. Can you get out of it? "The fat man didn't know what was going on, and he didn't seem to hear what I said. Directly chatted with peanuts.

I was about to open my mouth again. Suddenly, something felt wrong. What did he say? "The two of us"?

I chuckled in my heart, and immediately understood what was happening in front of me.

Peanut took the cigarette handed by the fat man and lit it, "Of course you can go with me, but I can't, when we meet, it's not Yuan Long." It's me who dies. ”

"Then don't talk nonsense, after smoking this cigarette, let's find our own way out." The fat man glanced at me after speaking, but. He didn't see me at all.

The same happened again, and I immediately got up from the ground and kept calling the names of the two men. "Peanuts, fatty," but they couldn't hear them at all.

The first two times this happened, something else happened, and then Peanut and they came to their senses. But this time, I really didn't see any signs of it. At this point, could it be that the fat man and peanut will leave me behind?

"Hehe

When I heard the child's laughter coming from behind, I quickly covered my ears. I knew that as soon as I turned my head and saw those images, I would probably lose my mind again.

"Yuan Zi" who called me behind him.

"Shut up!" I shouted. But the peanuts and fat people in front of them couldn't hear at all.

"Yuan Zi, go home." It's grandpa's voice. "Yuan Zi, did you forget your grandfather?"

I knew in my heart that this voice couldn't be grandpa's, but after hearing it, I couldn't help but turn back.

"I know, your dad has a lot to be sorry for you, it doesn't matter, it's the whole family. Go, go back, go back and there will be nothing left. ”

I could almost hear my grandfather's footsteps slowly walking towards me, and I couldn't help it, and I finally turned my head away.

Grandpa waved at me, and he stood on the edge of the yard, leaning on crutches, his body trembling slightly.

"Alright, let's go." The fat man slapped his buttocks, got up from the ground, and followed, and Peanut walked out of the alley without looking back.

Seeing the two of them leaving, I wanted to catch up, but my grandfather said, "Don't worry about those things, it will only make you more miserable." Let's go with grandpa, our family is just like before, and nothing will happen again. Yuan Zi, go back."

yes, maybe this is just an opportunity. My thoughts began to slow down again, following Peanuts and Fat Man, where could I go at the end of my life? Can I know all the things about the Dao? It shouldn't be possible, so why don't I leave? I had a feeling in my heart that as long as I followed my grandfather, I would be able to go back in time, back to the most perfect time of my life.

Gradually, I made a decision in my heart, and a feeling of exhaustion and pain leaving my body immediately spread all over my body, and I immediately believed that my decision was the right one, that there was nothing wrong, that I should follow my grandfather, go back to the past, and not pay attention to anything else.

Before I opened my legs, I looked back at Peanuts and Fat Man, which should be the last glance.

I don't know what's going on, Peanut and Fat Man stopped at the same time. At that moment, my mind shook a little.

"What's wrong?" The fat man asked.

"It's nothing, why did you stop all of a sudden?" Peanut asked the fat man rhetorically.

"I don't know what to do, I, I always feel that something is weird, as if something is missing." The fat man scratched the back of his head.

Peanut smiled, "Let's go." Then the two men walked towards the broken path that slanted towards the ruin, and soon their figures disappeared into the snow.

No one is waiting for me anymore, maybe. From this time on, there will no longer be such a person as Yuan Jie in everyone's minds.

Forget, they forgot about me.

But maybe it doesn't matter, I'm not very good at making people remember me, maybe without me, everyone will have a lot less trouble.

Suddenly, my heart was like snow in the square, and it was empty.

No, grandpa is still waiting for me, Daddy, they must be me too, and sure enough, I saw that everyone in the family was waving at me.

"Yuan Zi. Come on, Yuan Zi, what are you doing in a daze, it's time to eat, go and wash your hands. Yuan Zi"

I smiled and tried to run at my family. Then. Suddenly, someone slapped me in the back. As soon as I turned my head, my heart tightened.

It's not very far from me. I saw a woman in a white gauze dress. Her hair was long and her eyes were completely obscured. The woman was holding something in her arms, and when I looked closely, I found that it was, it was a baby.

This image scared me at the same time. It also feels familiar.

I seem to have seen her somewhere, but where?

I rummaged through the memories in my head, and almost started to have a headache when I thought about it, and finally remembered.

It seems that when Tan Wei and I left my hometown by boat. How did the woman I stumbled upon by the river with a child in her arms end up here?

"Where are you going?" The woman's voice was slightly rough and extremely low. As she spoke, there was no movement on her body, and I wondered if she was talking.

"I, I'll go home." I answered her stiffly.

"Which home are you going back to?" She asked in a low voice again.

"Go back to our old Yuan's house." I replied.

"Are you from the Yuan family?"

"Yes, I'm Yuan Jie, I" Suddenly I couldn't say any more. "Yes, I, I'm not from the Yuan family, I, I'm not Yuan Jie." I started to panic, "So, who am I, yes, I, who am I?" ”

As I spoke, I covered my head with my hand, and then I thought of something, so I raised my head and looked at the woman in white, "Do you know who I am?" ”

"You don't know what to say, how can I answer you." "But if you keep going there, you'll never know who you are." ”

"So, what should I do?"

After I finished asking, the woman suddenly took a step back, then turned sideways and pointed in the direction where Peanut and Fat had left. "Who you are, only you can find out."

"But they've forgotten me, and no one will remember me." I said, shaking my head.

"It's not that someone else forgot about you, it's that you lost yourself." The woman said, "This place, from the moment you come in, you know what you will encounter, it also knows the Tao, you can't stand that blow, your heart is actually very scared, you don't know who you are, you suddenly feel that you have lost your support, the loneliness in your heart is clearly seen by this place, so it wants to take you away." And the reason why it can do this is because deep down you actually want to escape, you want to escape from all this, you regret coming into contact with these things, you regret every decision you made before, so, it's you who want to escape. ”

These words of the woman in white made me feel very terrified, because every sentence she said seemed to be the truest monologue in my heart, and I felt as if I was talking to myself.

After panicking, I asked her, "What should I do?" ”

The woman in white pointed in that direction and said no more. I understood that she was telling me to chase after the fat man and peanuts, and with them, to continue to find answers.

At some point, Grandpa and all the previous scenes disappeared. I looked back and finally mustered up the courage to walk out of the alley. Still, the woman in white terrified me, and as I passed by her, I cautioned myself not to look at her. But after the last day, I still couldn't control my eyes, and looked down at her arms.

I immediately saw that the baby she was holding in her arms had already rotted, and the small, yellowish maggots crawled densely on the baby's face, but the baby grinned at me.

I suddenly felt that I couldn't breathe, and my body throbbed violently.

And he got up from the ground.

Gasping for air, I found myself covered in snow, and there was nothing around me except cigarette butts dropped by fat men and peanuts on the ground.

I was a little dazed, and I didn't know if it was a dream or something. However, Peanut and Fat Man are gone, which is a fact, which means that the two of them probably really forgot about me and went straight to find the way.

I was left alone, and the light of the snow reflected all around, and everything seemed so bleak and gloomy, that the solitude and seclusion of the environment frightened me more than the absolute darkness. I didn't dare to delay any longer, so I hurried in the direction of the slope.

"Click, click, click"

All I could hear was my own footsteps. Along the way, I didn't dare to make too much noise, because Peanut said that there were people living in these attics, and if they were alarmed, I knew what would happen to them.

The slope of this slope is very low, and the houses on both sides are getting higher and higher, unlike when I came in before, and the doors of the attics are open to the laneway. These are no longer doorways, but wooden doors, and when you look up and shine a flashlight up, there are also wooden windows upstairs. Most of the doors and windows were closed, but I would see two doors and windows open.

I didn't feel any wind blowing, but the half-open and half-closed doors and windows kept coming from the "creaking" sound, and the scalp of the listener was numb.

Sometimes, when I happen to see an open wooden door, the door suddenly "slams" shut, as if someone was staring at me.

After walking for about twenty minutes, I started to get scared. What if, Fat Man and Peanut don't go all the way like I do? Maybe they've turned the corner early, shouldn't I turn around and go to the square to find Daddy? Or squat here and see if Peanuts and Fat People happen to pass by?

Thinking about it, I slapped myself violently, and said in my heart Yuan Jie, your mother's is too useless. After thinking about it, I gritted my teeth and continued to move forward.

"Peanut Fat," I whispered their names. Whenever I saw a corner, I would stop at the mouth of the dark alley and yell at it twice, hoping they would hear.

After walking like this for two hours in a row, both my depth and physical strength have begun to be overdrawn. If I had encountered something along the way, I probably wouldn't have been. It's so quiet all the time, worrying about what might be hidden in the doors, windows, and shadows, it's so uncomfortable.

But at this time, I couldn't turn back, so I had to take a break for a while. As I walked, I noticed that the slope widened and the slope beneath my feet disappeared. Looking up again, an open gate appeared in front of the road. The door was five or six meters high, and in the doorway, I saw two corpses, both dressed as the big girl's fellows.

When I looked up again, I saw that it was a huge stone building blocking my way, and the difference was that it was not red, it was one kind of tall building made of brick and earth, all of which was dark, and the walls were full of huge reliefs except for the door. On top of that, in the middle of the wall, the huge font that no one recognizes also appears on it.

(I hope you don't be stingy, Lao Bei asks for a monthly pass!) (To be continued......)