Chapter 3: Reasons for Despair

The lieutenant moved suddenly, almost struggling to bend down with great difficulty, ignoring the two blood mist that suddenly spewed out from the wound brought by the action, stretched out his hand with a prosthetic leg and picked up a small half cigarette butt from the ground, the cigarette handle was flat, obviously stepped on, it was covered with dirt and dust and some blood stains stained by the lieutenant himself, the lieutenant suddenly found this cigarette handle after coming out of the memory, if it was planted a few seconds later, it might be soaked with his own blood, then he couldn't suck it, of course he could still smoke it after drying, But there is no time to wait for the cigarette handle to dry.

"It's good luck, there must be very few people here from you, otherwise it wouldn't be my turn to pick it up."

The lieutenant said weakly, carefully straightened up, and very cautiously scraped the dust from the cigarette handle with his prosthetic leg, flicked it slightly and put it in his mouth, and began to touch the lighter from his bloodstained clothes.

Dr. Custer put down his work, seemed to have finished a paragraph, turned to look at the lieutenant in the iron chair, thought for a moment, and then said to the lieutenant, "Lieutenant, smoking is not allowed here. ”

"Well, I know." As he spoke, the lieutenant took out a very delicate lighter inlaid with gold and silver full of fine stones, lit the cigarette handle, took a deep breath, and then his body seemed to be softer and more comfortable and spread out in the chair, and the lighter was still in the mud by the lieutenant.

Dr. Custer didn't intend to discuss this with the lieutenant, so he lifted his eyes and looked at the huge pipe outside the tent that was more than forty kilometers long, his waist straightened, and his wrinkled face finally became a little more radiant: "Lieutenant Li, do you know what is beside you?" ”

"I don't know what to do." It took a moment for the lieutenant to answer Dr. Custer's question.

"You were involved in obtaining these things, how could you not know what these are?"

"Since you know that I was involved in getting these things for you, why bother asking me nonsense if I know these things, I can tell you clearly, now I regret helping you find all these things, if time can go back in time, I will definitely blow up this with a high-explosive grenade."

"For what? You should be proud of her, she is our hope! Everything we have at the moment!! ”

"For what! More than 1,400 of our soldiers died for your, and more than 700 more soldiers died to make this thing work, and then more than 300 of the best fighters died for your experiments, including my comrades and even the people I loved. ”

The more the lieutenant spoke, the angrier and louder he became, but the most reluctant seemed to realize that it was pointless to talk about it now, so he shook his head slightly and reverted to a deathly silence, except for the slow dripping of blood and a wisp of smoke.

The doctor took his eyes off, wiped his hands with a trembling hand, and tried to explain when he put them back on, "It's inevitable to sacrifice for science, besides. ”

The lieutenant was a little bored and didn't want to listen to the doctor's explanation, tilted his head slightly to listen to the gunfire and sparse artillery sound from afar, and then raised his hand to stop the doctor's nagging and said: "It sounds like the fourth high ground has fallen, and the second and third high ground are engaged with the enemy, no matter what you ask me to do, but I think I should die on the ground like a soldier now." ”

"No, no, no! You can't go! You're the last person in the base to be suitable for experiments, the energy of the instrument is enough to use once, and the enemy is already in the city, this is our last chance! And I also have a new abruptness. ”

The lieutenant didn't listen to the doctor's nonsense, struggled to his feet and looked for his weapon, picked up his automatic rifle from behind his chair, checked the pistol and stabbing before limping out of the place.

The doctor stopped the lieutenant: "You can't just leave, you will be executed for violating military orders!" ”

The lieutenant looked at the doctor sarcastically: "The leaders are now hiding in the underground base and shivering, I'm afraid they don't have the time to sign the order to kill me." ”

Immediately, the helpless doctor planned to use force to leave the lieutenant, but unfortunately, even though the lieutenant was seriously injured in many places and was bleeding all the time, he was already very weak and even on the verge of death, but all of a sudden the doctor fell out of the coffin, and his head hit the metal pipe wall heavily, and then the doctor slowly slipped to the ground, leaving a string of blood stains on the metal wall.

The lieutenant didn't even look at the doctor, and didn't care if he killed him, it would be a good thing if he really died, and he cherished the last puff of cigarette, and with some reluctance to throw away the handle of the cigarette that was almost gone, and struggled to leave with his automatic rifle on his back.

However, the Doctor's next words immediately caused the lieutenant to stop and turn to look at Dr. Custer, who was bleeding from his forehead.

The doctor said, "I know that you have always had a crush on her, and I know that you are angry that I sent her to the testing table, but do you know that you have a crush? That's what she volunteered for! Even what she strongly demanded! She even sacrificed her body to me in order to be able to go to the test bench!! This world has long since collapsed, and she is close to collapse, even if there is only a one in a hundred million chance, she is willing to try to return to her previous life! Even if you go back, you can only live for a second! Just one look! Ah, I have to say, her body is still smooth and supple in retrospect. ”

The lieutenant looked at Dr. Custer quietly, listened to the doctor's increasingly frantic words, and then said, "It seems that you don't want to die at the hands of the enemy, but at my hands." ”

After the lieutenant calmly finished speaking, he lowered his head and checked his Type 94 semi-automatic rifle, pulled the bolt, and aimed at the doctor, which made Dr. Custer somewhat calm, his guards had already been dispatched to defend the underground base zero, at this moment, there was no one else in the first base except the lieutenant and him, although the doctor wanted to vent, he still held back, after all, there were still important things to be done.

"Okay, okay, that's just revenge for your rudeness to me, I didn't touch her, and you should know that I don't have the time or interest in it, even though she's beautiful."

The lieutenant looked at Dr. Custer, who was bleeding profusely, and seemed to believe him, and slowly lowered his gun.

The doctor breathed a sigh of relief, wiped the blood from his face with his dusty sleeve, and then said to the lieutenant, "How many bullets do you have in your gun?" Do you have enough bullets for a hundred? ”

The lieutenant weighed the weight of the automatic rifle and replied with a dull indifference: "Counting the pistol bullets, there are not enough fifty pieces, which is why I am too lazy to kill you, it is better to save some bullets or physical strength, maybe I can kill two enemies." ”

"Two!?" Dr. Custer sneered, getting louder and louder, and even bent down with laughter: "Two!?" What can that change? What if you kill twenty, two hundred, two thousand, twenty thousand!? ”

The lieutenant was silent, but the hand holding the automatic rifle softened a little weakly, Dr. Custer was right, and this is also the reason for the despair, even if the lieutenant used all his strength to feed, died thousands of times, and killed countless enemies, but the fact was still a hopeless fact, and it would not be changed by anything.

Looking at Lieutenant Lee, who was silent, Dr. Custer also saw hope, he approached some lieutenants, and lobbied vigorously: "This is the purpose of my research day and night, in my opinion, among all the people who have died, only those who die for the sake of these experimental equipment and the experiment itself are the most valuable to die, because we have the opportunity to change the present, don't you want to see such a beautiful past!?" ”

This time it was the lieutenant's turn to look up slightly and look at Dr. Custer with a sarcastic expression: "Change now!?" Your experiments seem to me to be a fantasy, and every experiment fails before it even starts, are there any exceptions? Take 10,000 steps back and say, even if you succeed, but what is the use of a person who goes back to the past!? Tell someone that we are being subjected to a devastating invasion that can only result in being locked up in an insane asylum and tortured, and then experiencing countless tragedies and helplessness again in despair, and finally dying a miserable death, what are the possibilities of such an ending!? Is it 99.99 percent!? No, I'm telling you! There are no surprises, no! No matter how hard we try, what awaits us is still destruction! You say there's no point in me killing two more enemies, but what about you!? What you do is even more meaningless! No! This generation lives to witness how we ourselves have been destroyed, and unfortunately you and I are among them! ”