"Oh? If you're so confident, why don't you just attack it? A smile hung on the corner of Dinissa's mouth, "If you feel that it is your fault, why don't you just face it bravely?" Pretending to look like this is to make me feel that you are pitiful? Or do you want me to feel that everything is not your fault, but your fault the way you are? If you think so, then tell me what you have done wrong! ”

The frenzied piece of flesh stopped, and the new energy of the rampage also stopped, Ma Yafei lowered his head and muttered to himself, "It's all my fault!" All of them."

"At the beginning, my grandfather was not in good health, although I was still young, but I have always been taken care of by his side, and when I came back to build a house with my aunt and uncle, my grandfather had to move to live in my sister-in-law's old house, and at that time I did not go with me, but lived in my own new house. If I had been living with my grandfather, if my father had had a heart attack, he would have informed me to come over."

"Grandpa is a stubborn person, but also because of his temper, he hasn't been able to make much money in his life, he knows that the family uses a lot of money to build a house, so even if the illness has been tormenting him, he can still endure it, he doesn't want to trouble my dad and them, and he doesn't want to increase the family's expenses because of his hospitalization."

"That night, when I was at home, I always felt that my heart was so panicked that I couldn't write my homework, watch TV, or sleep. At that time, I already felt that something was wrong, and my parents said that my grandfather was sick at night, but they didn't say that it was serious, so they didn't let me go with me, and I already felt something in my heart at that time. ”

"However, I didn't ask to go with me, why did I feel something at that time, but I didn't take it to heart? Just because I wanted to watch cartoons at the time, just because I wanted to watch cartoons, I didn't follow my parents to take care of my grandfather! Just because I wanted to watch anime, I didn't say anything about my anxiety and chose to watch TV at home! ”

"The next day, my parents didn't come home all night, I couldn't help but feel uneasy, and when I woke up, I ran to see my grandfather, but my grandmother was the only one at home, and my grandfather, parents, uncles and aunts were not there. My grandmother was sitting in the yard in a daze, and I asked her, 'Did my grandfather have nothing to do yesterday?' Is it very serious and went to the hospital? At that time, my grandmother replied to me in a daze, "Your grandfather has returned to his hometown." ’”

"I was so angry, really angry, woo woo, I yelled at my grandma, 'My dad is sick!' Why did my dad take my dad back to his hometown? If it's serious, you should be hospitalized first! 'Woo woo woo woo I was stupid at the time? ”

Dinisha looked at the man in front of her who was crying silently, her heart ached inexplicably, and she stretched out her hands to hold the man who had returned to human form in her arms.

Ma Yafei cried in Denisha's arms for a while and then said: "Grandma turned around, and there was no trace of anger in her eyes and said to me, 'When people die, they should go back to their hometown.'" 'Woo woo"

"I felt that the sky had fallen, and I squatted on the ground and cried for a long time, and when I came back to my senses, I only saw my grandmother's back"

Later, at my grandfather's funeral, my father told me that after my grandfather was sick, they couldn't persuade the stubborn grandfather at all, and as a result, my grandfather died of illness because he went to the hospital too late. Do you know the truth? Usually my grandfather has always been accustomed to me, I want pocket money, he never refused to give me, even the password of his salary book, the whole family only I know. Every time he was sick and hospitalized, it was because I forced him to go, and he went. If I had been with my parents that day, my grandfather would have gone to the hospital as before. ”

"But that day, I didn't go with me because I was playful and wanted to watch TV."

"Now, I could have found Lahuana back early, but it turned out that it was because I was greedy for that peaceful life, and because I didn't care, that Lahuana and her sister became what they are now!"

"At the beginning, when I first arrived in that world, I obviously had many opportunities to hunt soul points, and I obviously had so many opportunities to strengthen my strength, but I didn't dare to face those monsters because I was afraid, and I was bent on finding survivors and hiding myself in the crowd, so that I didn't have to face those monsters."

"However, every time I don't care, my cowardice, and my evasion, the people around me will die. Wendy is like this, Sinan is like this, Peng Yu is like this, after arriving at the Nanshi base, everyone is also because of me, and they all died. It's all because of my fault! How can I get your forgiveness for such a me? ”

He struggled out of Denisha's arms and retreated step by step: "I am such a person, you must be very disappointed! Just like my father, mother, uncle and aunt, they were disappointed in me! That's why I don't care what you think!!!!!! ”

"That's who I am! I don't need what people think of me! Whether it's disappointment or expectation, it's all because you've forced it on me! I've done well enough, I've worked so hard to take care of my grandfather, I was already able to measure my grandfather's blood pressure and oxygen bag when I was so young, you can't see anything? Every time my grandfather was hospitalized, I went because of me, and you can't see what to do! ”

He clenched his fists and yelled at Denisha with a distorted face: "Obviously, as long as you call me to go with you, grandpa won't have an accident, why should you let me play with me?" It's not my fault at all! Why do you still look at me like that? I don't need your mercy! ”

Denisha suddenly caught up with him, hugged him, and whispered, "What happiness! There can be so many family members who care about you, and you have been living in happiness! If your grandfather sees you like this, his heart must be very painful! When he leaves, he must also hope that you can live happily! That's why I didn't let your father tell you about it! ”

Ma Yafei's clenched fist slowly loosened, and tears flowed down uncontrollably again: "What are you doing?" Why is it that I can't even see my grandfather's most backward side? Why am I going through such a thing? I just want to be able to put incense on my grandfather's death day every year, I just want to live my life ordinarily, why can't I even do such a thing now? Why do the people around me always leave me? I'm not a lone star, I'm not."

Denisha gently stroked his hair, feeling the child-like man in her arms: "In the future, you will not be alone, I and everyone will always be with you." ”

The black energy layer turned into energy at this time, and returned to Ma Yafei's body with the huge vitality in the meat ball, and after the meat ball lost its vitality, it turned into dust and was blown away by the breeze. On the bare ground, only Denisha stood there holding Ma Yafei.

After Flora and the others died at the South City base, Devi had already told Dinisha about Mayafei's experience during this time at the end of the day. Coupled with the life of more than ten years together, Ma Yafei's situation has long been seen through by Dinisha, not actively hunting monsters, and he has always wanted to enter the survivor base to live, there is a hidden diaphragm for everyone around him, and the neurotic performance he just had just now, it is simply his subconscious self-protection for himself to escape from reality.

According to what he said, it can be seen that he has had a shadow in his heart since he was a child, and the impact of his grandfather's death on him can be said to be huge, since then, he has felt that everyone around him looks at him with colored glasses, this feeling has not become weaker and weaker under the passage of time, but accumulates more and more, and finally can only imagine a second personality to share these pressures for himself.

After that, it can be understood, since he fantasized about the second personality, he will be left to the second personality to deal with when he encounters pressure, and over time, even he himself believes that he is such a person, and 'Uncle Yin' appears. The hypnotist's treatment of him was very successful, relieving him of psychological stress and restoring his normal personality.

He himself probably knows this better than anyone else, but at that time, he has grown up, and everyone knows that when he grows up, he will always encounter some troubles that cannot be handled, and at this time, he feels that troublesome things habitually use the 'second personality' to deal with these troubles.

Because, his 'second personality' is an almost cold-blooded personality, who does not care about anything and keeps a distance from anyone. Therefore, whenever he enters the 'second personality' to deal with trouble, he can easily solve the trouble, and slowly, he comes to a result, in front of the 'second personality', the trouble can be easily solved.

To put it simply, when he encounters trouble, he deceives himself into choosing the easiest solution, and the easiest way to solve the problem is to ignore it. As long as you don't hurt yourself, don't pay attention to these troubles, even if they are related to the people around you. It can be said that this kind of character is a combination of cowardice, timidity and cold-bloodedness.

Now, with his strong strength, he finally broke out, and all the darkness in his heart was finally revealed under the influence of his failure to save Lahana this time, and the inducement of absorbing the comfort of life force comparable to high and tide. It's a pity that just after the dark side broke out, he was discovered by Dinisha, and after more than ten years of getting along, Dinisha has left an invincible cognition in his heart.

After feeling the demonic fluctuations that Dinisha burst out, he knew that he couldn't do anything wrong in front of Dinisha, and in order not to let Denisha blame himself for failing to hold on to his desire for life force and losing to the dark side of his heart, he chose to face Denisha with a 'second personality', but Dinisha saw through it at a glance.