We were both silent, and in the darkness the two cigarette butts flared up, disappearing and blazing. It was one of the most smoked nights of my life.

But no matter how much I smoked, I couldn't calm down. I can't forget the way the little brother knelt on the ground and cried when he left. He was so helpless. In such a situation, it is impossible for his eldest brother to keep him.

My mind was in a state of confusion about what would happen to him. It is possible that he was shot and thrown somewhere, or he was picked up by Lao Wu to make a corpse utensil, or he may have been skinned and put on the body of a ghost. I couldn't imagine his body being left in the sewer and soaked to rot.

If it weren't for me, he wouldn't have died like this. I wonder if he will immediately find out that I did these things when he dies, and come to me for revenge?

At that point, I will have to confront his ghost directly, face his questioning. How do I answer, just say that I could have saved him, but I didn't. Did I make him like that?

When I lit the cigarette, I don't know how many cigarettes it was, my hand slipped so much that I couldn't even hold the lighter. Luo Ding took the lighter from my hand and said, "Don't think about it! He's going to be at this meeting, and he's definitely a little boss. At least a fourth-line. Do you know how the fourth line in a society develops the younger brother below him? How are customers who owe money treated? Maybe he has a human life on his hands.

The society is different from the school, if those people in the school dare to owe us money, they will drag him out and beat him, but the society is not! They will be cruel to those who drag their money, and those are addicts anyway. You look at the news reports of drug addicts who were cut off birds and thrown from upstairs. was forced to jump off the building and hang himself, and pulled other people's daughters and wives out to sell, he will not be a good person! Maybe it's superfluous to be dead. ”

"I understand! I understand! But give me some time, I need some time. "I'm choking on the smell of cigarettes all over my body now, and I was drinking a lot today, so I couldn't help it, so I squatted down and vomited.

Luo Ding looked at me like that, and said with disgust: "You said you! That's what you are! Still learning to mix with society? It's not okay to drink! Smoking is not allowed! It's not okay to bubble girls! I don't even know how you got into this position. ”

I don't want to say anything right now, just vomit there and spit out tears. When I first killed a ghost with a dagger, it was the same as it is now. That fear is so great that it can't be expressed in words, and you can only feel comfortable if you spit it out.

I didn't go back that night, I followed Luo Ding to open a computer in an Internet café, and killed the enemies on the computer, and blood splashed all over the screen.

When people are fully immersed in the game, they forget about these real-life troubles.

By the time dawn the next day, I was exhausted and collapsed, lying on the table, and I didn't know when I fell asleep. Rinse your mouth with a handful of water and wash your face with a handful of water in the small and dirty bathroom of the Internet café. If it was before, such a dirty toilet, I would feel sick even when I looked at it, and I wouldn't have said that I would have boiled water here to rinse my mouth and face. Then I walked away from the Internet café and walked to the eleventh middle school.

When I returned to the classroom, it was time for the morning reading to end class. Liang En came out of the classroom, saw me coming back, patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Bao Ye......"

But when he slapped it, my legs were so weak that they crooked. He hurriedly helped me and shouted, "Bao Ye! Bao Ye! What's wrong with you? ”

"Dizzy!" I spat out those two words.

Liang En beckoned Wei Hongshan and the two of them to send me to the infirmary, I was really dizzy, a feeling of dizziness, and I couldn't open my eyes.

I listened to the voice of the school doctor, saying that I was not rested enough, I guess I was playing games all night, or something.

After a while, the two of them went out first. The school doctor gave me an injection, and the pain made my brows furrow, and I heard her say, "Are people still awake?" I thought you didn't feel anything, did you? ”

"I'm just dizzy, I can't open my eyes, and I want to vomit when I open them."

"I know, this kind of play is more about playing with computers. Don't you usually go to Internet cafes? ”

"Well, I played all night last night, let me sleep for a while."

"Sleep, just sleep."

I began to close my eyes and try to fall asleep. This was the most painful time for me, and my brow was furrowed all the time.

Before I fell asleep, I heard Tao Jing's voice, and Tao Jing came over. A few words from her and the school doctor were about my situation or something, and finally she sat on the edge of the bed and whispered, "I know you're having a hard time, but I'm glad that at least you came back alive last night." ”

I didn't dare open my eyes to look at her, and once I did, the feeling of darkness in my eyes might make me vomit. I could only reach out and touch her hand, holding it tightly. I didn't dare tell her that the other man should have died last night because of me. This thing is like a secret, and I plan to take it into my coffin. This feeling is even more painful than having me kill him with my own hands.

It was that night that I received a call from Brother Xiong. This call seems to be a practice of killing chickens and respecting monkeys, and he informed the results of this matter, every third line, fourth line.

Brother Xiong said in his mobile phone: "Bao, what about the class?" Come out for tea. ”

At that time, I had just woken up from the infirmary, my mind was still clear, and my body was not feeling well. The only feeling is that I'm hungry. I'm heading out of the school, trying to get myself something to eat.

As I walked out of the school gate, I said, "No, I drank too much last night, and I'm still a little uncomfortable." ”

"Oh, if you don't come, you won't come. Tell me about that little brother last night. ”

I, hearing this, the whole person's footsteps froze. It's as if you're suddenly in the middle of a snowy field.

Brother Xiong continued: "That little brother, we have already handed it over to Lao Wu. He caused us to lose so much money, and also lost a long-term stable large customer, so that many people in this circle now dare not accept goods from us. He's going to have to do something for us, right? It's a pity for him to die like this. Give it to Lao Wu, he can be of some use. Or do you want to? ”

His last sentence shocked my whole body, and quickly said, "No, no." I didn't look into this. "I finally recovered a little, and if I were to give him his body, would it be a daily reminder of the harm I had done to him? Then you might as well let me die.

"What are you afraid of?" Ah Xiong said, my voice was really scared.

I said, "No, I just didn't have much contact with that before." ”

"That's right, your approach is a little more elegant. Lao Wu is all flesh and blood. ”

After hanging up the phone, I lost my appetite and felt uncomfortable all over my body, so I turned around and went back to the dormitory, took a hot shower, and followed them to the classroom to study hard. When I play a game, I can forget that feeling, and in the same way, I can let go of the pain for a while while I practice.

Tao Jing squeezed into my chair, stuffed a small cake into my hand and said, "Eat, this is delicious!" I just bought six. She is wearing a white T-shirt with small flowers and light-colored jeans today, and she looks lively and smiling.

"How do you know I'm not eating?" I asked. Looking at Tao Jing's smiling face, I feel that I am far away from those days of fighting, killing, and selling drugs.

So I took that little cake and took a bite into it, and I thought it was delicious. In the next few days, I didn't go anywhere because I wanted to forget about it, maybe because of the coming of the monthly exams. It is to study hard all day long, and memorize those long-standing political questions.

The monthly exams are finally over! Luo Ding also called me and asked me when I was going to help the blocked bar run a relationship. Now that the bar is ours, we can't stay like this. I think too, people always have to cheer up, and if that one thing knocks me down, then how can my great goal be achieved?

I think the first person who needs to get through the relationship is not a leader? It's the man they call Lu Zi. That bar has not been investigated for so many years under his leadership, and his relationship bar and his methods must be very strong. This incident was planted, and it was because of something that happened to his wife. As long as he lets go of that matter, hires him back, just like Li Yongan, and lets him manage it.

If I really had to do these things myself, I was afraid that something would go out of business in a few days.

Because I have been studying with Tao Jing for the past few days, when I was planning to complete this matter, she also followed me all the time, and she had to do it. I said to her very harshly, "Don't get involved, this thing is not as simple as in school." It's better not to appear in the eyes of those social people. ”

"It's a big deal, I'll say I'm your classmate, I'm dressed as a boy, and people who don't know me well won't recognize me as a woman at all. What do you think? ”

"No! Be careful as well. If you like to play, I'll tell them that you Tao Jing has already rolled the sheets with me and let you play as a sister-in-law at school. ”

"Cut! What a roll of the sheets! Don't talk nonsense. You don't even know what happened last time, you passed, I came home alone, how did I feel? If you feel uneasy, you might as well let me go with you. So this time, I must go with you! ”

The next day, Tao Jing and I both missed school. Of course, we also have Luo Ding in our line, and the taxi for three people will go over.