182. Whether or not to be afraid
Zhou Chu walked over and walked side by side with Fangzi towards Silent Hill High School, and Fangzi asked slightly curiously at this time.
"Zhou Chusang, do you have night vision?"
Zhou Chuzhi said that she asked why she didn't need to carry any light source to be able to see and walk in this reality-like darkness, so she replied.
"Well, yes, it's just that in such a thick darkness, the impact is too great, even if it is me, I can only see less than a hundred meters."
There is nothing to hide about night vision, and it is not a great ability, so there is no need to hide anything, and perceiving this, Zhou Chu does not say, and Fangzi has no way to confirm it.
"It's really a good ability, I think it's very convenient." Yoshiko said.
"What exactly is Yoshiko's ability? If you can say anything. Zhou Chu took this opportunity to ask this question.
"Didn't you tell everyone before? Negotiating, negotiating, pacifying, in short, auxiliary abilities," Yoshiko said, "I have to say that in terms of type, it should be psychological ability, I don't know very well." ”
Mental ability...... It's hard to judge, Zhou Chu thought, if you don't fight, you can't know how to use Lu Dao? He remembered the day Yoshiko and Scarry had fought each other, and the two of them just stood with each other, looked at each other, and then decided the winner.
"Then again, Zhou Chusang, do you have any fears?" Yoshiko suddenly asked an irrelevant question.
"Fear?"
"That's right, it's when Zhou Chusang is afraid, or afraid. When will it be, or rather, what will Zhou Chusang be afraid of? For example, such an environment, as well as those twisted monsters, will make many girls feel scary and afraid. ”
"It seems that there really isn't." Zhou Chu thought about it, and it seemed that there really would be nothing that could make him afraid and fearful.
"That's not right, Zhou Chusang." Fangzi refuted Zhou Chu's statement, "Everyone has their own fear and fear side, sometimes it is certain circumstances, sometimes it is certain things and people, sometimes it is certain situations, there is no fear. You can't call it human. So Zhou Chusang said no, just because Zhou Chusang was unwilling to think about and find it, and subconsciously carried out self-protective avoidance and forgetful avoidance. ”
Is that so? Maybe...... Zhou Chu didn't answer again, because of his heart. Suddenly, a name flashed. So I don't want to continue the discussion on this topic.
"Why did Fangzi suddenly think of this?"
"It's because of Silent Hill." Yoshiko said. "Silent Hill is a manifestation of fear and the dark side of the heart that distorts the world, but if it's just these monsters. I always felt like a little too pediatric, but at least I wasn't afraid of these monsters. ”
This is also Zhou Chu's confusion, until now, the strength displayed in the Silent Hill is just some monsters, and some weird things, but when it comes to making people completely desperate or frightened, it seems that it is really a little unreasonable, but there seems to be nothing wrong with such a Silent Hill, but I always feel that there are some places that cannot be said to be strange.
While Zhou Chu was thinking, Fangzi raised the searchlight.
"It's here, Zhou Chusang."
In the faint aperture, the school gate of Silent Hill Middle School was faintly visible, and Zhou Chu looked at the silhouette and asked Fangzi.
"Have you figured out where you're going?"
"Hmm." Fangzi nodded, "However, I want to apologize to Zhou Chusang first." ”
"Well, how?"
"In fact, I came here, and it has nothing to do with Silent Hill, or the whole incident, I just suddenly want to come here to see, when there is no one, when I first came here, I kept having such thoughts in my heart, so I came here today, just to satisfy my own wish, my private wish, so Zhou Chusang can not accompany me in."
"There is no need for an apology." Zhou Chu shrugged, although Fangzi couldn't see his movements, "Anyway, I don't have any clues, and the monsters haven't appeared, so it's not bad to just accompany Fangzi for a spin." ”
"Alright then, let's go."
The two walked into the campus, walking in the dark school road, Fangzi really didn't seem to have any purpose, just walked slowly, it seemed that the two of them really just came out and walked here.
"Why do you want to go around here alone?" Zhou Chu asked his doubts.
"Huh?" There was some surprise in Yoshiko's tone, "Because this is the school, shouldn't there be countless beautiful and memorable memories of our youth?" ”
Is that so? Zhou Chu smiled, his school, to be precise, his junior high school and high school life, there are really not too many things that can be recalled and remembered, and even his own time in school is extremely rare, so ......
"I really don't have any memories." Zhou Chu smiled bitterly.
"That's it, it's a pity for Zhou Chusang." Yoshiko said, "Let's go to the stadium for a walk." ”
"Hmm."
The two turned to the pitch and walked along the track, round and round.
"Zhou Chusang, when I was in middle school, I fell in love with a boy, he was on the track and field team, he would train here every day, and I would come to see him train on time every day, at that time, I just felt that looking at him like this was the most beautiful and happy thing, during that time, I felt that every day was sunny and sunny."
"And then?" Zhou Chuzhi said that this was just the beginning, so he asked.
"And then ah, then this likes to deepen day by day, and then one day I can't help it and confess to him." Fangzi paused, "At that time, I was very scared, very uneasy, afraid of being rejected, but ...... He said yes, and we were together. ”
"Hmm." Zhou Chu didn't ask this time, because his intuition told him that the next story would begin to develop and end in a bad direction, so sometimes, the reason why fairy tales are beautiful is because they end when they stay at the most beautiful time.
But Yoshiko still planned to continue.
"After being with that guy, that period of time was probably the most beautiful and wonderful time for me, but this time didn't last long." Fangzi sighed, "We are separated, Zhou Chusang, you said, if I didn't have an impulsive confession at the beginning, would it be because I didn't start, so it didn't end, and I could always keep the simplest likes and beauty as the best memories?" ”
"I don't know what to do." Zhou Chu replied, he really doesn't know what to do, because there is no if in the world, and he can't guess Fangzi's true thoughts, at such a time, ask if you regret it? Or do you hate him or something, that's so stupid, so he can only be vague.
"There is no right or wrong in love."
"Really?" Fangzi asked, "The person who left first is because he doesn't love anymore, but the one who stays behind is still in love, who is right and who is wrong?" ”
Zhou Chu didn't answer, because he didn't know what Lu Dao answered, or rather, he remembered the past.
He used to be considered a scumbag, right? Every previous lover, whether he opened his mouth or the other party proposed, every time he separated, he didn't have too much sentimentality and emotion, but just felt plainly, since this is the case, then so be it. So for a while, he thought that he would never really have such a thing as love.
I thought it was just.
Until Yu Lu met her, it was difficult to describe such a feeling, but after Zhou Chu met Qin Jing, the feeling in his heart was telling her that it was her, not someone else, it was her, and then he quickly fell, or rather, he really fell in love with Qin Jing.
It's no one else, I don't know what Lu Dao is for Lu and it can't be someone else, I only know that Lu Dao is her, it can only be her, and it was also after Qin Jing that Zhou Chu knew that Lu Dao's so-called love for this kind of thing, the language and description of the whole world of Lu Dao, can not describe its complexity and simplicity, so complex that all languages can't describe it, so simple that it can be summarized in one sentence.
So...... If there are any things or things that he is afraid of, then there is no doubt that losing Qin Jing, or the two are no longer together, is the thing he fears the most, so afraid that he doesn't dare to think about such a possibility, so afraid that he doesn't know what will happen to him if there is really this day.
If it was Ou Cheng, he would probably sneer and say, "Oh, hey, it's just a woman, can you use it to die or live?" It seems to be the same, but ...... Some things were really not like this, he couldn't explain them, he couldn't tell anything, he just told him his fear, or his greatest fear, was to lose her.
But what if you really lose it? Really?
Suddenly, there was such a voice in the depths of his heart, repeating it constantly, tempting him to think, to speculate, to hypothesize.
No, I don't want to think about it, another voice in Zhou Chu's heart said this, and I'll talk about it when something happens.
When something happens, it's too late, it's very likely, it's really very likely, think about it, have you been in touch lately? Will we see each other again? Are you still dating like a normal couple, still confiding in and relying on each other?
That's because......
Because of what?
It's just that there is some misunderstanding between us because we think differently.
Misunderstand? What if this kind of misunderstanding can't be eliminated and keeps happening, what if you think differently all the time, what she approves, you deny, you want to tell her, but she understands wrongly, and you can't reveal your hearts to each other? It's always been like this, because of constant misunderstandings and incomprehension, and finally parting ways?
No, it can't be like this......
See, you can't convince yourself......
No......
The two voices in Zhou Chu's heart were fighting fiercely, and Fangzi felt Zhou Chu's stop, but she didn't say anything, but also stopped and waited for him. (To be continued.) )