The nights in the snow-capped mountains are beautiful, but the same night, experienced by Ruxue and walked with Lushan, feels so different.

Together with Ruxue, any trace of beauty can arouse the infinite inner thoughts and with Lu Shan, the two people are not concerned about the beautiful scenery, the grass is 'rustling' under the footsteps, and the two people who walk silently feel a kind of man who supports each other not alone.

We still stayed at the lake where Ruxue and I were last night, and it was still the same rock, and Lu Shan and I jumped up at the same time and sat down on the rock.

The starry lake was full of light and the night breeze was slight, and a pack of cigarettes was taken out of the robe on the road, and one was given to me, and we silently lit a cigarette together, the light blue smoke spread out, and Lu Shan finally spoke: "Actually, all along, I have wanted to tell you about my past several times, but it is not a pleasant thing, and I even doubt that I have the courage to tell this story." ”

"Everyone has things that can't be forgotten, and if you can't forget them, they must be good, right?" I comforted Lu Shan, in fact, life was like this, and even the more sad and regretful it was, the more difficult it was to forget.

"I'm an orphan, an orphan in Tibet," he said, suddenly looking at me and smiling.

I was surprised, but when I think about it, Lu Shan almost didn't mention his relatives except for Tao Bai's careful care, so it turned out that there was such an allusion.

I didn't interject, but Lu Shan continued: "But to say that I am an orphan, it is not entirely that I just have no parents, but I still have grandparents, and an uncle, of course, this is the name of the Han people, in short, you can understand this relationship." ”

"In that case, you weren't without support when you were a child, right?" I have been warm since I was a child, my parents, sister, and master love me very much, I can't empathize with Lu Shan's life experience, but I subconsciously hope that Lu Shan can also be relied on and loved.

Lu Shan was holding a cigarette, looking at the lake in the distance and did not directly answer my question, but smiled slightly, with a kind of distant memory, the vicissitudes of life and said: "I have never seen my parents, my grandmother told me that they disappeared in the depths of the snow-capped mountains, in order to find a mysterious existence." ”

"Huh? Your parents and their parents? "I looked at Lu Shan with some surprise, and always felt that there was always a great story behind this, if an ordinary couple lived an ordinary life, how could they go to the depths of the snowy mountains to find a mysterious existence? Leaving a tiny toddler behind? Do Lu Shan's parents have a story?

Faced with my question, Lu Shan looked at me and smiled bitterly, and then said: "Chengyi, if I tell you, not only have I never met my parents, but I have rarely heard about my parents, do you believe it?" ”

"I naturally believe it." I don't know why there is a trace of bitterness in my heart, as if Lu Shan's bitter smile has also been engraved into my heart, the loss of my parents is a very sad thing, I don't even know everything about my parents, what kind of sad childhood is that?

"But it's not like I don't know it completely." Lu Shan suddenly lay on the boulder, with a cigarette in his mouth, and then squinted his eyes and said: "When I was a child, my grandmother once told me that my father is a respectable person, and my mother is very beautiful, they love me very much, my mother lacks milk, my father will milk me every day when the snow is falling, it has never stopped, and I was weak when I was a child, my mother held me all day and night, refusing to let me leave her arms, my father also collected medicine for me, but I don't remember these memories at all, I just hated that I was too young at that time. ”

I also lay down side by side with Lu Shan, I understand his sadness, I can't remember the good memories, I can't even remember the sadness of my parents, it turns out that this is Lu Shan's childhood.

And I also know that something is not without reason, Lu Shan is a brilliant and mysterious cultivator, and his talent must have something to do with his parents, even if he doesn't know about his parents.

"Do you think I'm miserable? Chengyi? He suddenly smiled and asked me, but before I could answer, he continued: "Actually, before I was seven years old, my grandparents took pity on me for losing my parents, loved me very much, and always protected me. The only thing I don't like is my aunt, since she got married, even my uncle has never given me a good face. ”

"Huh? And then? I continued.

"Later? I said, because of the existence of my grandparents, my uncles and aunts will not do anything to me, besides, at that time, they also had their own flocks after the family was separated, and the herdsmen followed the flock, in fact, there was not much intersection. But human life is finite, isn't it? My grandparents were old after all and missed my parents too much, their bodies weakened quickly, and I often saw my grandma crying at night, chanting my father's name. Lu Shan said this, the smoke had burned to the end.

His side face looked a little sad, and although he said it lightly, I knew how deeply he felt for his grandparents since he was a child

Lu Shan lit another cigarette and was silent for a long time before he said: "I remember that it was a winter, I was seven years old in winter, and even the grassland was covered with snow in a particularly cold winter, and it was in that winter that my grandfather and grandmother died one after another. After that, in fact, it is very bloody, in short, you don't need to know so much detail, probably because I started to live with my uncle and aunt, and the sheep left to me by my grandparents also belong to them. ”

When Lu Shan talked about this past, he was even more relaxed, as if the suffering he had suffered was not worth mentioning at all.

"Hate them?" My eyes are the infinite sky, the brilliant starry sky is actually under this sky, how small we are, and hate to think about it carefully, how worthless? If you put it in your heart, it is hate, and if you don't put it in your heart, then everything has nothing to do with your life, your happiness.

"There was hatred before, in their house, it was not good to eat, and there were heavy housework on the body a little older, so I went to herd sheep and had to let my brother do everything, my brother was unhappy, I would be beaten, I think grandparents, will also hold the most beloved sheep alone at night, crying and shouting Mom and Dad, you say little me, how can you not hate?" Lu Shan looked at the starry sky and sighed leisurely.

"Then you don't hate it?" I asked.

"I don't hate it, if it weren't for them, I wouldn't be able to grow up as a seven-year-old child in the vast grassland, after all, I wouldn't have herded sheep at that time, there were wolves on the grassland, and there were all kinds of unknown dangers They are not good for me, at least let me grow up, just like even if I don't eat well, I can still eat enough, isn't it?" Lu Shan said leisurely.

"You're very open-minded." I made a brief comment.

"Chengyi, if you change your character, you may have figured it out earlier than I would, just because if you remember the hatred, you will live a very painful life and you look at the kindness, you will live a relaxed and happy and open-minded life, they have raised me for a few years anyway. And at that time, I thought that my life would go on like that, waiting to grow up, I could marry a daughter-in-law, and my uncle and aunt would give me some sheep, even if it was not much, I could live my own life, I felt that as long as I worked hard, the sheep would slowly grow bigger, and my life would be better, at that time, the thing I wanted most was to grow up. When Lu Shan said this, he had a smile on his face, as if it was a very beautiful dream, I can understand that if I can really live like this, why not be a kind of happiness?

"And what happened after that?" I couldn't help but ask.

"What can happen? You can probably guess that, right? It's just that you can't guess the details. Lu Shan smiled faintly again, that smile was like being immersed in memories, unwilling to extricate himself.

"Then you can just say it." Actually, I should be able to guess that his fate has taken a certain turn, and this turn of events may have something to do with that temple full of mystery and evil.

"That year, I was already a mature herder at the age of 11, I was familiar with the grassland, familiar with the sheep, I was used to the life of herding sheep, but even so, I couldn't guard against the elusive steppe wolf, in that summer, I went out to graze, I don't know why, in the always calm pasture, a small group of steppe wolves came. I was in a predicament at that time, and I was reluctant to give up every sheep, and in the days when I lived with my uncle and aunt, my feelings for every sheep were so deep. Lu Shan glanced at me and asked, "Can you understand?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded.

"It was at that time that I met Baima, the woman who changed my life, and I met her as I drove the sheep and confronted the wolves to flee for my life."