There is a male god in Sichuan, the name of the male god is Li Boqing, and his English name is "Belemarens 61 Li 61 Beijin", because his mantra is "when you carry your mother", this sentence is literally translated, and "Lao Tzu hit your evil" has a similar meaning. Mr. Li has been my idol for many years, and in addition to his Buddhist status, I prefer his original "Sanda Storytelling" as a storytelling artist.

Teacher Li Boqing once had a very classic joke about the mentally ill. He said that he went to the mental hospital, and then painted a door on the snow-white wall, and then said to the mentally ill patients, there is delicious food and fun behind the door, you go quickly! As a result, a group of people began to scramble towards the false door, but only one patient remained there. So he was very curious and walked over to ask the person, they all went to grab the door, why don't you go? The patient snorted disdainfully and said, "They are a group of neurotics, the keys are in my hand, and they still have to open the door."

This joke doesn't mean to discriminate against the mentally ill, but to express a way of thinking that they have a completely different logic from us, and even if they are patients, there are many situations where they will use a logic that we don't use at all, which makes you feel that it's not only absurd, but even quite reasonable.

I'm sure many people have heard the phrase "genius on the left and madman on the right", which roughly means that the difference between many geniuses and madmen is who is more rational, whether the mind is directed by the body, or the mind is directing the body. Stephen Hawking, the undoubted genius, has put forward many hypotheses that have been tried out by scientists all over the world, but have never been confirmed, but Hawking himself is very sure of his own arguments, he said so, some people can't imagine what I can think of, just because he doesn't think of himself as a madman like me.

This may sound a bit extreme, but it is true. When I was very young, because my grandfather was a soldier, I used to ask him, have you ever killed someone? Grandpa told me that he had killed. I asked him, did you kill the enemy? Grandpa replied to me that he had killed both the Japanese and the Chinese. I have killed the enemy, I have killed my own people, and when I rebelled, I killed even our commander. In fact, it was only after that I learned that my grandfather was once a Kuomintang, and then rebelled and joined the People's Liberation Army. If he were still alive, I guess he would regret his decision, but when I asked my grandfather, when you went to war, weren't you afraid? Here's what my grandfather told me:

"From the moment I got out of the trench with my gun on my shoulder, I thought I was a dead man. Because that's how I'm not afraid. ”

Although there is no direct relationship, it is easy to feel that when people are in a desperate situation or push themselves into a desperate situation, it is often an extreme way to open another window of escape for you, and because of this window, in addition to being able to survive, you can also live in the eyes of others.

As for the word madman, most people think that it is a derogatory term, just like I often use this word to say Hu Zongren, his madness is relative to me, and I, a person who is slightly normal compared to Hu Zongren, maybe in the eyes of other ordinary people, I am also a madman. Therefore, the starting point of the definition of a madman is always a person, and after this person will crown you with the title of a madman, he will try his best to convince the people around him that you are a madman.

And what I'm going to talk about today is also a madman in the eyes of many people.

After the end of the trip to the hospital, we didn't move at all for a week. During this period, Hu Zongren called me and said that he had finally decided on the banquet and time for the wedding banquet, which was set for January next year, and then told me how delicious the food in that hotel was. I calculated the time, and there were almost two months left before the day of Hu Zongren's wedding banquet. We still have six cases left, which is a lot of time. Hu Zongren is such a person, he has always been a child, but this time he is very serious about getting married. In fact, as a close friend, I fully understand why he would do this, because he knows that our work is dangerous, even if he burps that day, he can't let Fu Yunni be left without a name and no share. By the way, Hu Zongren asked me, did you propose to your sister-in-law? I said I haven't yet, I didn't think of any way. He asked me, when are you decided, and I'll come and have a good time for you.

I said please don't come, every time you come, it's a mess, you better spare me.

So until I proposed to Sister Cai on Christmas 2010, Hu Zongren never knew the time in advance.

Two days after Hu Zongren's phone call, Hu Zongren called again, saying that a new case was coming, and this time we were going to visit a doctor. I said why is it a hospital again, why does this Xuanyuan pick a case and keep picking a hospital. Hu Zongren said that it was not a doctor in a hospital as we thought, but a psychologist from a psychological counseling center.

Hu Zongren and I, it's time to see a psychiatrist, because our hearts are too dark.

I didn't see Zhao Jing after meeting Hu Zongren, usually she went to the person before us. But Hu Zongren told me that Zhao Jing said that she had gone to Chengdu today, and she didn't know what Lu Dao was doing, and said that let's do it ourselves, we just need to tell her the results. I snorted and said, what else can I do, I must go to the general altar of the Chengdu Xuanyuan Association, I don't know if we are discussing how to toss the two of us when the case is completed. Hu Zongren shook his head and said, if this is the case, then I can only play with them.

According to the address provided by Zhao Jing, Hu Zongren and I inquired and searched. On the way, I asked Hu Zongren Zhilu, what is the matter this time? Hu Zongren said, I only know that the doctor encountered something and felt that it was beyond his understanding, so he found us. Nothing else is clear. I smiled and said that most of the groups faced by the psychiatrist are people with psychological problems, and he should have seen more dark sides than the two of us, and there are still things he can't do?

Indeed, because of the excessive pressure of contemporary people, there are several mental illnesses, a few autism, a few insomnia and forgetfulness in every 100 people, that is to say, in the population density, we are not very healthy inside, and it is precisely because of this that psychologists have become such a high-paying profession now.

But I'm more interested in the little sister sitting at the front desk of this counselor, and I'm sure if I come here to see a doctor one day, half of the reason is for this little beauty. Of course, Hu Zongren too, the two of us waited for the doctor to receive us after receiving the patient in hand, during which I was observing and looking at the cultural wall of this consultation center, but Hu Zongren was talking to the little beauty and chatting about some vulgar topics. Judging from the content of the corporate culture wall, the director here is also the customer we are looking for this time, surnamed An, so I have to call him Dr. An. This psychological counseling center is located on the twenty-second floor of a very tall office building in Shapingba District, and even the reception area where we are waiting still feels very quiet and comfortable, except for Hu Zongren's twitter and the sound of the little beauty covering her mouth and laughing from time to time.

It's my first time in a place like this, and it's not much like I imagined, and my imagination came from those movies and TV series. For example, in "Infernal Affairs" in the early years, Tony Leung had to go to Chen Huilin every time he did something bad, and Chen Huilin was a psychiatrist. But every time he went to Chen Huilin's, he went straight to sleep. I always thought that the screenwriter must be a rude man, otherwise how could he write that when Tony Leung was sleeping, Chen Huilin calmly flipped through the cards on the side! It's just outrageous! If I changed to another girl, I guess I would have pounced on it a long time ago. Therefore, the environment of the counseling center has always given me the feeling that it is quiet, comfortable, and even able to hear the ticking of the clock.

After waiting for about half an hour, I couldn't sit still and went out to smoke a cigarette, but when I came back, I found that Hu Zongren was gone. And when the little beauty saw me coming, she said to me, "That gentleman has gone in with Dr. Ann just now, and said that he was waiting for you, so I will take you in." I nodded and asked her to lead the way, and she walked in front of me in a tight paramedic outfit, walking very voluptuously.

When I entered Dr. Ann's office, I began to be visibly unhappy with the layout, which was larger than three reception areas, a rectangular room with two small doors, one of which was the one I walked into the office, and the other was probably a lounge or dressing room. At one end of the rectangular room was a wall-long bookcase, and in front of it was a large desk with computers, telephones, and a device that I often saw in movies that could be used for hypnosis and swing from side to side.

At the other end of the room are a few small sofas with coffee tables, potted plants on the floor, and a high-end freshly ground coffee machine in one corner of the room. On the opposite side of my entrance, there was a large seamless floor-to-ceiling window, and when the curtains were lifted, it seemed as if the city was at my feet, and I thought that the rent in this place must be very expensive, and it would never be so luxurious if it were not for professional needs or deliberate pretense.

Dr. Ann saw me come in, so he beckoned me to come and sit down, they were already sitting on the sofas in the reception area, and before I sat down, Dr. Ann shook hands with me, his expression relaxed and natural, not at all like a ghost. When I sat down, he ordered the little girl to pour water for us, and probably because he smelled the cigarette I had just smoked, he knew that I was a smoker, so he carefully let the little girl come in with an ashtray.

When the little beauty got all this done and closed the door, the whole room was very quiet. Dr. Ann said, "I have heard the names of both of them, and I took the liberty of inviting you here to ask you to help me analyze something.